Author's Note:
Sorry it's been so long since I've updated. I've just been super busy with school and dancing. Here is the next chapter
CHAPTER 3: Husband
It was three weeks after Laura's funeral.
Kris' POV
It was Saturday morning and I was making pancakes, bacon, and eggs just like every week. Mat was, naturally, still in bed, it was only 8 o'clock. It was our one day off, but I had to go watch baby Lee today for Junior. He had some meetings at the track, and he needed a babysitter. Lee captured my heart quickly and I took every opportunity to spend with her. Matt didn't like it because I usually was over there every day for reasons other than writing. Junior needed help, and as his best friend I felt obligated to help him out.
I flipped over the pancakes on the griddle and felt a par on strong arms wrap around my waist and turn me around. As soon as I was facing the opposite direction his lips were on mine, greedily.
"Matt, stop it. I'm going to burn the breakfast," I complained as he started to slip my night gown over my shoulders, and because of last night, I had nothing on underneath of it. He sighed against my lips and stood straight up.
"All work no play," he mumbled pouring himself a cup of coffee.
"You got to play last night," I reminded him putting a smile on his face, but there wasn't one on mine.
Breakfast was ready in just a few minutes and we ate in silence, reading the newspaper. I stood up from the table and took our plates to the sink once we were finished eating.
"We could always play right now," he smiled holding my tightly to him, his lips against my throat. "It's a great way to start off the day," his lips were now moving up my jaw near my ear. His breath tickled a little and I shuddered, giving him the wrong impression. Before I knew it he had me off the floor and he was heading toward the bedroom. I hated this. We could make love anymore, he just wanted to have sex, nothing remotely romantic about it. As he ripped my nightgown off me he was already on top of me.
"Matt stop it," I said sliding out from under him.
"What?" he said, his jaw tight.
"I don't want to do this. I have to go," I said wrapping myself back up and going into the bathroom. I slid on some jeans and a t-shirt and pulled my hair into a high ponytail. I was going to take a shower, but didn't want to give my husband the idea of joining me. I stepped out of the bathroom and didn't see him in the bedroom. I grabbed my car keys off the end table and went into the kitchen where I saw him leaning against the shower, looking out of the window. His eyes were cold and his jaw was still set tightly.
"I'll be back later," I said heading for the door but before I knew what was going on he grabbed my wrist and yanked me to him.
"Listen to me," he said in my ear in a low voice, "you are MY wife, not Junior's. I'm sick and tired of you blowing my, YOUR HUSBAND, off to go see Junior and that baby of his. Now you know what I want, don't you?"
I swallowed, "Yes." Matt had gotten like this in the past year. Sex crazy, abusive almost. Junior hated it, but there was nothing he could do about it. I felt a tear slip out of the corner of my eye but Matt wouldn't notice. I let him pick me up and take me to teh bed. I just laid there, wishing it would be over soon. Yes I loved Matt. He was my husband. I wouldn't be married to him if I didn't love him. But I wanted to MAKE love with him.
After Matt was done he laid next to me, out of breath. He looked at me and smiled. I got up, put my clothes on and left without saying anything to him. By the tie I got to Junior's I couldn't even see because of all the tears. God, I hated that man so much sometimes. I hated myself for loving Matt so much. I knew he was cheating on me. Heck, I caught him, several tiems. The only time he wanted me so bad was when her was getting in from on of his little tramps too.
I wasn't sure how long I had been sitting in my car. Five, maybe ten minutes. I heard a small knock on my window and looked up and saw Junior holding Lee with a concerned look on his face. I turned away from him and whipped my face with the back of my hands and took of my seatbelt while I pulled the keys our of the ignition. I steppedout of the car and Junior immediately took me into his arms in a bear tight hug. After a few seconds he pulled me away from him. "Do you wanna talk about it?" I nodded as he led me towards the house with his hand on my back.
We sat on the couch as I told Junior everything that had happened, and about Matt's "girlfriends". I saw Junior's fist clench and jaw tighten every few minutes. Once I was done Junior still sat there quietly. I grabbed his fac ein my hands and made him face me and look me in the eyes. "PLEASE tell me what you're thinking."
"He just doesn't know how good he has it does he?" he said turning away from me. "He has a wife who is willing to love him, but he doesn't even care. He doesn't appreciate it. I wish I had a wife here period," he said looking down at his daughter then facing me. "The worse part," he sighed, "is that he has you."
I felt once last tear as teh corner of my eyes. He help my head in his big strong hand and whipped it away with his thumb. As he face slowly got closer to mine every cell in my being was screaming that this was right. This I was supposed to be with Junior. The only thing objecting to that was the sudden weight of my wedding rings on my left hand. Our eyes were locked and we both wanted it so bad. It had been over three yers since our lips touched each others. Mine were on fire with longing for his. The butterflies were back in my stomach. Just when our lips were about to meet we heard a scream coming from the carrier in the floor in front of us. Junior pulled away quickly, immediately reaching for Lee to comfort her. "She needs a diaper change," he mumbled getting up and going upstairs to the mursery. I sighed and fell back against the couch.
.:TLCA:.
Matt's POV
I couldn't believe it. Kris claimed that she loved me. That she wanted to be with me. But everytime I wanted to she didn't. She was my WIFE for god's sake. She wa suppose to have sex with me when I wanted it. Well if she wouldn't I knew people who would.
I never thought I would be the type of guy who would cheat on his wife, especially on Kris. But there are things that a guy needs. And if I can't get it from Kris, then I have to get it from somewhere. No, I didn't just got have sex with every girl I ever met. There were only three girls that I slept with. None of them were as near as good as Kris, whether she was trying or not. But maybe that's because I know it's wrong when I do it with someone else.
I reached over and got my phone off the side table and scrolled threw my contacts until I found the name 'Kevin' which was really Allie's number. She was my favorite one to sleep with. The other two where Jenny and Emma.
I typed in Are you available today? I really need to see your pretty face. and I sent her the message. I wiated a minute before my phone buzzed. I opened it up and saw Come on. I'm ready and waiting ;)
I got up from the bed and looked in the mirror and ran my hands through my hair to fix it a little before I went and got in my truck and drove across town to Allie's apartment. Before I could get to the door she had it opened. Wearing only a black bra and panties with a red silk night gown open on top of them I puched her into the apartment and began kissing her.
.:TLCA:.
Kris POV
I sat with , Lee after Junior left to go to the track and thought about the "almost" kiss over and over again. WHich was more of a sign, Lee crying when our lips almost met of the feeling in my whole body? I heard mumbling come over the baby monitor and I looked at it but the sound went away. I sat back against the couch looking over at the clock on the television. It was almost 2. Junior would be back any minute. Neither one hod said anything about the almost kiss afterwards. I was a relief in a way, but I couldn't help wonder what Junior thought of it.
I'm just going to leave as soon as he gets her I told myself. Then when I get back home I'm going to take a nive long ride on Wildfire and clear my head of everything that has happened today, and tonight, I'm sleeping on the couch. Speaking of the deavil I thought as I saw Junior come through the door.
"Hey Kris, how she doing?"
"Been asleep the whole time," I smiled getting off the couch. "I'm gonna go ahead and get home."
"Kris wait," Junior said as I was walking towards the door. I turned and looked at him. "I think we need to talk about earlier," I just nodded in response.
"You know I still love you Kris. You know I always have," he said placing a hand on my waist and the other on my cheek."
"Yeah, and I also know your wife died three weeks ago and I'm married, unfortunately," I sighed looking away from his eyes. "And I love you, too."
"I know," he said looking away, then all of a sudden his lips were on mine he arms tight around my face and my arms around his neck my fingers playing in his soft hair. God this felt good! I was finally where I was suppose to be. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me upstairs. It wasn't until he crawled on the bed, me still attached to him, that I realized what I was doing. But I couldn't stop, I didn't want to. Was i cheating if you were in love with the person you were cheating with? Shut up Kris, you know this is wrong. I heard Junior moan and I know he wanted this just as much as I did. If I said no, then I would risk upsetting him, though I knew he would understand. If I said yes, then a part of me would regret it later, a very small part.
"Kris, are you sure you want to?" he said out of breath.
"I want to," I responded out of breath as well, "but I don't think we should," I smiled at him apologetically.
"I'm glad you said that because I know I wouldn't be able too," he said giving me his sexy grin that makes my knees weak. I got up ff the bed while he stole one more kiss from me.
"I really have to go," I said pulling my shirt down and trying to fix my hair.
"Come back soon," he said, "you know you are always welcome,"
"I know. Love you June."
"Love you, too, Kris," he said hugging me before I walked out of the door to go home, knowing deep in my heart, Junior was my home.
Sooo... this chapter is done! I hope you liked it. Let me know what you think :) Please review!
