All the days of my Life.
The move-Year One
Sofia was officially 18 months old when Arizona decided it was time for the "talk" with Mark. They had been living together in their loft for 18 months and it was nice but she wanted their daughter to have a home, a backyard, a cat! The blonde sighed as she stared down at one of her patient's charts. She didn't hear April approach her until the woman lightly tapped her on shoulder, startling her.
"Sorry Zona," she smiled quickly.
Arizona eased back against the nurse's desk and gave her young friend a smile. "It's ok, I'm good," she said chewing her bottom lip lightly.
"What's the matter? Sofia learn a new curse from her daddy?" April grinned nudging her friend in the side.
"Not this time, and he's a dead man if she does," Arizona said rolling her eyes a bit. Mark was turning out to be as much as handful as their daughter. He was a great dad but too playful in Arizona's opinion. But then again Sofia did have her daddy wrapped around her little toddler finger. This brought a smile to the blonde's face.
"So Cristina and Teddy want to have a girls night out tonight. Bailey's coming too! I love Bailey even though she is kind of scary." April rambled on barely taking a breath to continue. "Aria's cooking over at her place and she says Alex will be pulling an all-nighter tonight. You gonna come?" The brunette pleaded with her eyes. "It's more fun when you're around."
Arizona threw a free arm around her shoulder. "Yes…I think that's a great idea. I just hope Mark can watch Sofia tonight. I'll let you know ok?" she said as her pager went off. "Shit, it's the pit, gotta go!"
"Ok, I'll see you tonight!" April said as she too rushed off in the opposite direction.
Mark stood off to the side lining up his shot, body slightly hunched over the tee. "I think Robbins wants to move," he said finally as he swung the golf club with a harsh whipping force, projecting the white ball high into the air over the ledge of the rooftop.
Derek, Owen, Alex and Jackson stared at each other briefly, a smile twitching at the corners of their mouth. He turned in time to see their unspoken glances at one another and the mirth in their eyes. He shook his head, knowing what was coming. More ribbing about him being domesticated and pussy whipped by the blonde. Not that he wasn't, but he damn sure didn't have to agree with them. Alex smirked back at him sensing his thoughts. Mark contemplated his life. He was the head of the Plastics department and his teaching skills were much sought after. He had flown to prestigious institutions and given many lectures and performed a few surgeries in prestigious hospitals on occasion. His daughter was healthy and active and beautiful. Callie would have been so proud of her. Thanks to having Aria in their life, fences were mended with the Torres's and the little girl thrived physically and emotionally. She was even speaking Spanish a little bit (but only with her Spanish relatives, it was as if she knew he had no idea what he was saying) and lastly Arizona. He and the blonde were still going strong 18 months later. He was still in love! She hadn't left him, it hadn't been some experiment. They were a family, he was actually happy.
He had friends, real friends who had become family. Alex had finally gotten over the initial shock of his being with Arizona and made an effort on her behalf to be accepting. Slowly but surely he had been accepted into his, Owens's and Derek's little crew. It helped that he was dating Aria also. Jackson had finally gotten over his thing with Lexie and seen the light. He was dating April his longtime best friend and they were actually cute together. Derek had finally gotten over Meredith and was dating Teddy of all people. They complimented each other well and Mark was happy to have his friends and family in life.
"Sloan, snap out it!" Jackson yelled with a smile, "Where were you man?"
"He was thinking about Robbins!" Alex teased as he tossed the older man a beer.
"Dude, you are so whipped," Jackson laughed
"Like you're not whipped?" Derek said punching him lightly in the side.
"I mean after April finally gave it up! Didn't you just about cry it was so good!" Mark said eyes full of laughter.
They all roared in laughter
"Hey! That's not cool man," Jackson blushed furiously.
"Just saying," Mark grinned deviously.
"You guys are all twelve year olds," Owen said with a shake of his head.
"Ok ok, what's this about moving and Robbins?" Derek smiled.
Mark dropped his club and leaned against the railing near the edge of the building. "She keeps making comments about the place being small and needing space for Sofia," he sighed, eyes troubled.
"Dude so what? I mean if you leave me and April can get in on that spot," Jackson smiled
"Uh hell no, Teddy and I got dibs on that place."
"You have a house man!" Jackson protested
"A house that I built for woman I clearly knew nothing about. I'm not starting off with Teddy in that place," Derek said quietly.
"So you and Teddy are serious now?" Mark asked him, his tone serious. They had had this conversation many times privately. Teddy was Arizona's best friend and Mark wanted no drama. Derek had to be sure he was ready to move on from Meredith.
"Yes mom, I'm serious," Derek smiled at his friend.
"Speaking of serious, how's things with you and "I'm too sexy for my body" Aria Torres?" Jackson grinned towards Alex.
"Dude, stop lusting after my woman," Alex shrugged. "And it's great."
"I'm glad everyone's happy!" Mark growled irritably. "Now back to me," he said folding his arms across his chest.
The men all shook their heads; Sloan was not anything if always persistent. The world had to stop and deal with him first. But he was a good friend.
"Alright, so you're what? Getting cold feet now that you've been with the same woman for nearly two years?" Owen asked with concern.
Mark rubbed his face with his large hand and sighed. "Come on guys, it's not that. I fucking love that woman. She makes me happy just walking through the door," he smiled. "It's just…"
He paused staring off.
"It's just what dude?" Alex asked impatiently, Arizona was still his best woman friend, as he put it.
"It's just that extra space means more rooms," Mark said finally
They all looked at him confused before saying in unison. "So?"
"So that means rooms need filling and women like to fill them with more kids," Mark huffed.
Derek looked at his friends incredulously. "Since when did you not want more kids"
Mark looked at him just as incredulously. "Since my best friend and love of my life died in childbirth?" he thundered as he began to pace.
Everyone hung their head a bit. Callie would never be forgotten, she was always be a sore spot for all of her friends and the fact that no one could save her. It was clear Mark would never get over her loss.
"She didn't die from childbirth. She died from complications of the accident man," Owen reminded him, gently placing a hand on his shoulder.
Mark let out a shaky breath. "I know….but I'm scared. My life is great. Yes I would love to have a gorgeous little Robbins Jr. but I couldn't take another loss man. I just can't," his voice cracked.
Everyone nodded their heads in agreement.
"You need to talk to Zo," Alex said finally.
"Yea man, talk to her," Jackson added.
"But it will have to be tomorrow because the girls are going over Alex's place tonight," Owen smiled. "Which means I think you get Sofia duty," he chuckled.
Mark smiled…"which means WE get Sofia duty."
Alex and Aria's
"These are good," Cristina said as Aria handed her yet another cherry strawberry margarita. "How are you this good at making these?"
Aria smiled as she passed another frozen goodie to Bailey and Arizona. "I am a Latina who was raised 5 miles from South Beach, the party center of America" she laughed.
April and Teddy appeared from the kitchen with her trays of homemade chicken quesadillas and salsa and chips. "This looks so good," April said as she placed the tray on the end table. Arizona smiled as she bit into the quesadilla. It was like Callie was with her; Aria clearly shared the same cooking skills.
"I'm glad I was able to make this," Bailey said as she scooped up some salsa with her tortilla chip.
"Me too," Aria smiled good-naturedly as she set down cross legged on the floor. "Sooooo, who has the gossip!" she laughed and everyone joined.
Two hours and an empty blender of margarita later, the ladies were well buzzed with full stomachs. They laughed raucously as Cristina teased April about her sex life with Jackson until Teddy nudged her in the side and told her it was high time she gave Owen a baby. That shut her up for the rest of the night. Bailey bemoaned being in a relationship with a stubborn man whom she adored but found their workplace dynamic trying.
"It's not that bad," Arizona chirped.
"You and Sloan don't have to work with each other all the time… besides you two are too busy meeting for sex in on call rooms," Bailey stated dryly.
"Shut up," Arizona blushed, dimples on display.
"Who cares?" Cristina said flippantly. "I want to talk about you and the man whore moving out of the loft you stole from me, I call dibs!"
"Really Cris, you don't need three rooms considering you absolutely refuse to have a baby," Teddy interjected.
"Hey! I have my hands full with little Torres jr. thank you! You know she actually gave me the Torres eyebrow last week!" Cristina mumbled.
"You were talking about taking her chupo," Arizona stated with a smile
"That kid is too big for a damn pacifier," Christiana stated firmly.
"I wholeheartedly agree Robbins, it's a wonder she can speak at all," Bailey admonished
The blonde stood up as she collected her friend's plates. "Hey! She speaks just fine thank you very much in Spanish and English, isn't that right Aria?" Arizona protested.
The Latina nodded with a wide smile. "That's right."
"And anyway she only has the chupo at night…we are weaning her off it," Arizona put in with a pout. Sofia was her baby and even though she was growing up so fast the blonde couldn't help but spoil her just a little bit. But she promised herself that the chupo was out of here, starting next week.
"Forget all that, you and Sloan are moving?" Bailey asked as she leaned back on the sofa.
Arizona leaned against the kitchen wall, her eyes darkened. "Maybe."
"Maybe?" Teddy asked.
Everyone waited patiently, their eyes locked on the blonde who was twisting a dish towel in her hands.
"I would like to have a real home for Sofia and with Mark," she said in hushed voice. "I just don't know if I'm pushing it."
"Pushing it how?" Bailey asked.
Arizona ran her fingers through her tousled blonde hair momentarily before speaking. "Things have been," she paused, "better than I ever expected them. Mark and I fit somehow. I love him." This brought a smile to her face, her dimples flashing as she thought about Mark and her life with him. "But this is probably the longest he's ever been committed to anything besides football," she sighed as she made her way over to the sofa and flopped on the couch between Teddy and April.
Teddy wrapped an arm around her shoulder while April took her hand and intertwined her fingers with her own. "I just don't want to rock the boat," Arizona said finally.
"Oh, hun," Teddy said giving her a squeeze.
Bailey cleared her throat, making her presence known. Her brown eyes compassionate but firm. "I've known Sloan since he first showed up here from New York chasing Addison Montgomery. And never thought I would see the day when that man would ever settle down with one woman and be happy to do it." She moved to kneel before the petite blonde, her hands gently lying on Arizona's knees. "He loves you Robbins. He hasn't loved any woman this much and been willing to act on it. But for you he has. Talk to the man."
Arizona smiled weakly. She knew what Miranda was getting at. Yes, Mark had loved Callie with all his heart but he never acted on that love. He never had the faith or courage to settle down and fight for her. Not like he had for the blonde. He was with her in every sense of the word, emotionally and physically. She needed to just settle down and talk to him. "I think I'm gonna go home guys," she said pushing herself up and off the couch. "Thank you…all of you," she said sincerely.
Robbins Sloan Apt.
Mark sighed as he gently laid his little girl down in her crib. She was still sucking her chupo lightly while clutching her plush frog he had won for her last month at the carnival. He smiled as she smiled in her sleep and her free hand pulled at the waves of dark hair as she sighed and slipped deeper into her rest. She reminded him of her birthmother so much. He stroked her hair lightly. "You did good Cal," he whispered before turning on her night light which was cute little crescent moon wall lamp.
Mark checked his watch which read ten thirty and wondered if it would be too overbearing if he send his woman a text. He always worried about her when it got late. As if on cue the blonde entered their home, making sure to lock the door and drop her coat on the coat rack before she noticed Mark standing in the shadows. "Hey there sexy thing," she winked as he made his way over to her. "Can I say I love the sweatpants and tee look?" she grinned as he pulled her slight body against his.
"You sure can but you could always show me," he said salaciously before pressing his lips against hers and kissing her softly. Their kisses began to grow and soon his hands were cupping her jean clad ass and grinding her into and against him.
Arizona broke away from his kiss breathless as she clung onto his large shoulders. "Mark," she panted as he ground against her. "Baby we need to talk," she moaned as he kissed that sensitive spot behind her ear.
"Can't we talk after?" he all but begged. "It's been like two weeks."
This had her pushing his shoulders and scampering out of his arms with laughter. "It has not! It's been like 7 days Sloan. Ridiculous!' she laughed as she made her way down the hall and into their master bedroom.
Mark pouting behind her followed and leaned back against their bedroom door as she watched her peel her clothes off.
Arizona could feel the heat from his gaze and it made her body throb with anticipation. Yet she needed to get some things off her chest. She pulled her shirt off and stepped out of her jeans, just as she turned around she was pulled into her insistent lovers arms.
Mark had enough of watching her, by the time she was in her matching pale green bra and panties he was pulling her into his arms and setting her on his lap. Arizona shook her head as he set them both down on their massive bed. "So talk to me Blondie, what's this about?" he asked kissing her lightly on the shoulder.
Arizona put her small hands on the sides of his face turning him so he could look her in the eyes. "I want to move into a house Mark," she said firmly.
She could see the discomfort in his eyes and began to panic.
"But you don't want to obviously," she said dropping her hands and making to move off his lap. He held her tightly his arms around his waist.
"Don't do that Ari. It's not that I don't want to," Mark stuttered.
"What is it then Mark? Is this too much like a real commitment to you?" she snapped. She didn't mean it to come out so harshly, but she was scared.
He cupped her face with on hand making her look at him. "I am committed to you in every way and you know that," he said firmly with no malice.
She nodded her eyes downcast.
"Come on baby" he said pulling her against him until her arms wrapped around his shoulders and her head rested against his neck. "I love you so much, if you want a house, I'll get you a house," he said caving.
"Mark, why did you hesitate though?" Arizona whispered.
He sighed holding her tightly.
"A house is for people who want a family in it," he said finally.
Arizona sat up and looked at him curiously until it dawned on her what he was saying. "You don't want a family, more kids…" she added.
Mark looked down. "I don't want push our luck," he said quietly.
Arizona knew how he felt. She kept expecting the shoe to drop on their relationship and it was worrying her that it hadn't yet. But the subject of more kids had never come up. She was on her birth control pills religiously.
"Is that ok with you?" Mark asked.
"I don't know," she said honestly. "I never thought I would be a mother and now with Sofia, I just love her so much. But more kids. It's a scary thought," she chewed her bottom lip. "A baby with you wouldn't be the worst thing Mark," she said finally. "I mean love you," she whispered looking away.
Mark stroked her hair and kissed her cheek. "I love you too and I don't want you to think I don't want a baby with the woman I love," he said lifting her chin up. "I just couldn't take losing you," he said eyes bright.
"Oh sweetie," Arizona gasped kissing his mouth gently before pulling back. "I'm not going anywhere…"
He kissed her over and over and then he was rubbing her with large hands. He was moaning as if he couldn't get enough of her mouth and tongue and her body pressed against him. His lips traveled and sucked her neck, chest and finally her breast where they lingered as her hand tightened into the scruff of his neck pulling at his curly hair. She whispered his name over and over until he laid her back onto the mattress and opened her legs widely. His tongue was heated as it licked a trailed down her long toned legs and settled on the pearl of his obsession lightly hidden from him by piece of lace. She moaned and rocked her hips forward as he slid the material off her legs and settled in, tasting her.
"Oh god," she said breathlessly as she tried to keep up with his blessed tongue which lashed her repeated over and over up and down before his fingers were buried inside her tightness. He watched her as she flushed and rocked her hips in time with his fingers.
"You're so wet" he said hoarsely feeling his erection throb against the then material of his boxer shorts. He needed to be inside her. He leaned down and sucked on her until she was calling his name and spilling into his insistent mouth.
Mark leaned up and kissed her passionately resting his head against her chest for a moment while she caught her breath. "I love you," he stated quietly.
"Show me?" she asked touching his face gently. His eyes darkened with love and lust, the perfect combination. He rose up and stood on the side of the bed while the blonde turned on her side lying completely nude, watching him.
And somehow it was more erotic with her wide eyes watching as he shoved his boxers down to reveal his engorged shaft. He slowly stroked himself growing his erection further as she watched him with darkened blue eyes. Finally he climbed between her legs and leaned over kissed her gently.
Arizona reached up and pulled him down against her, delving her tongue into his mouth, sucking and fighting for dominance. Using all her strength, and with a little help from Mark, she turned him over onto his back. Her eyes twinkling as he smirked up at her. Lifting her up he slid his cock inside her, his hands falling to her waist. She leaned forward, her hands grabbing his shoulder blades as she began to ride him.
Mark gripped her legs on either side him and rammed himself further and further insider her. Arizona gripped his arms as he held onto her slight waist, lifting her up and down on his cock. He moved deeper and deeper with every lift until he was pounding her. Flesh pounding on flesh in the quietness of their bedroom. She arched her back as he pounded her, her blond flow flowing as she stared up at the ceiling…"Don't stop" she whimpered
Sweat formed on his brow as he concentrated on her pleasure, angling his cock so that he was striking her sweet spot every time he entered and withdrew.
And now she was riding him harder and harder with every motion. His fingers biting painfully into her waist, as he flipped them over and he pressed her into the bed. She was moaning loudly as he pounded her, his face buried into her neck, moaning her name over and over and over until he splashed off inside her and she came gasping his name out, her nails scaring his back.
They lay wrapped in each other's arms quietly.
"I can't lose you babe. I wouldn't be able to survive that," he said hoarsely into her neck.
Arizona stroked his back gently, tears in her eyes. How could she ever think he wasn't committed to her or getting cold feet. "I'm right here Mark. Right here." And she was by some twist of fate, she was right where she wanted to be.
Heaven
"I made a promise. I can't stay here," Arizona said to herself.
"It's not really up to you."
The blonde's head snapped up. She stared at the figure in front her.
"Wallace?"
"Hey doc, can't say I'm happy to see ya." he smiled.
The blond pulled him in for a hug. "I'm so sorry Wallace."
"You tried your best doc, that's all I could ask for. It wasn't up to you," he said simply.
"Then who is it up to, because I can't stay here. I have someone who loves me. I have children who need me. I can't," the blonde said emotionally.
"The big guy up here is reviewing your case. But don't worry. You got a lot of people fighting for you," he smiled. "Just hold on," he smiled as he faded away.
"Wallace, come back! What people? Wallace!"
But he was gone. Arizona sighed frustrated and then a door appeared. She hesitated as she stepped forward and pushed it open to reveal a beautiful creek surrounded by green grass and trees.
Her eyes went wide. "O'Malley?," she said in a gasp as she stepped forward and the door closed behind her.
Present day
"She's in a coma Mark. She lost so much blood and her uterus nearly ruptured. We had a lot of repairs to do and we needed to induce the coma," Addison was saying.
"But she's not dead?" he asked.
"No but I can't say when she will wake up. I mean, we induced her but she seems to have just gone somewhere," Derek said.
"She'll come back. I know she will," Mark said firmly. He looked haggard and tired; a five o'clock shadow graced his face. The colonel and his wife were down with the twins in the NICU. Carlos and Aria were with Sofia down in the pediatric playroom. That left Mark here in a receiving room to contemplate the future.
"She'll come back. She has too," he said tiredly before pushing himself up. "Take me to her," he stated.
"Mark," Addison admonished.
"Now." he said firmly heading out the door.
Tbc…..
