Disclaimer: Don't own Castle

A/N: So last we read was Lanie had arrived now it's time for a girls talk enjoy and don't forget to let me know what you think by leaving a review. Also just a quick thank you to everyone who has left me a review and who has favourited or followed this story it means a lot and trust me there is plenty more to come planning on aiming for at least 35 chapters :)

"Hey girl" Lanie gave her a quick hug then made her way to the sofa.

"Okay so we have the wine and sweets, now what's going on girl?" Lanie turned to face Beckett who took a mouthful of her wine and deciding to just come clean.

"I kissed Castle!"

Lanie nearly spat her wine out her eyes looked like they were about to pop out and Beckett couldn't help but laugh at her reaction.

"WHAT? HOW? WHEN? WHAT?!" Lanie couldn't believe she had just heard her say that after three years.

"I kissed Castle, Lanie" she smiled in her answer and Lanie looked at her shocked but happy.

"The first time"

"THE FIRST?!" she quickly cut in not letting Beckett continue

She laughed and nodded then continued "when Lockwood had taken the boys we had to distract the guard so he decided to pretend we were drunk and when that didn't work he kissed me, it was different Lanie."

She reached over and placed her hand on Beckett's knee indicating for her to continue.

"I mean I have never been kissed like that before, never felt like that when someone has kissed me, I don't know how to explain it. I mean at first I was shocked and when we pulled back I just… I needed to be connected to him again the way our lips felt together god! listen to me I sound like an idiot".

Lanie shook her head "no you know what you sound like? someone who is in love" Beckett went to cut in but Lanie was having none of that "uh uh girl, now listen you might be too stubborn, to hear it or you might not be ready, for those type of feelings to be unraveled just yet, but listen you love him and he loves you. That's why it's different that's why when he kisses you, you turn to jelly, when you get a text message from him your heart feels like it's about to explode and your stomach feels like there is a million butterflies swarming inside. That my girl is love!"

Beckett listened carefully to Lanie, and what she had to say and everything she told her was exactly how she felt, but that scared her more than anything the thought of the possibility that she could lose him not only would she lose her partner she would lose her best friend and if she was being honest with herself. She would lose the one man she has ever loved, and that scares her.

"I'm so scared Lanie, I just… I haven't opened my heart up to anyone not since…"

"I know sweetie, but that was out of your control and I know the world is full of evil people and I may have never met your mother but if she is anything like you, which I'm sure she was she would not want you to shut your heart off forever, she would want you to be happy Kate with the man who you love."

"I know Lanie and your right but there is still that part of me that is so scared that if I give him my heart, something will happen not just to him but I mean… what if… what if he gets bored of me I mean I'm nothing special, and he, he could have anyone he is a famous writer for god sakes I just… I'm scared that if we do this and as badly as I want to do this what if he doesn't like what he sees after we've been together what if I'm not what he was expecting?"

She tried so hard not to cry, but she felt like she was about to cave she was just so scared.

"Oh sweetie, look at this way I think at first he might have just been looking for a quick one night but he is still here after nearly three years, I mean I'm no writer but I'm pretty sure he has enough information to write 50 best sellers. Yet he is still here, don't for a second, second guess yourself because he loves you and it is so obviously clear to everyone just how much he does. It's time to open up your heart Kate because he loves you and you love him".

Beckett wrapped her arms around Lanies neck, both women squeezing each other tightly it was barely audible "thank you Lanie, thank you so much". Lanie squeezed her again "anytime girl you know I'm always here whenever you need." Their moment was interrupted by Beckett's phone going off, she quickly picked it up and it was a message from Castle. Lanie instantly saw her face light up, and nudge her.

C: You, beautiful woman do you have any idea how mesmerizing you are I seriously can't stop thinking about you, about how perfectly you fit in my arms. The smell of those sweet, sweet cherries that's entangled into that gorgeous hair. The way your lips feel perfect attached to mine how soft your lips are, god Kate do you have any idea just how lucky you have made me feel in the last three years and now after last night, I just… I'm sorry if I have come along a little strong in the last not even 24 hours, but you have no idea how long I have waited for you to finally see me the way I see you. Can't wait to see you tonight. X

There they were again tears in Beckett's eyes, Lanie gave her a look to see if she was okay and she just nodded showing Lanie the message, she heard her gasp and then even she had tears trickling in the corner of her eyes.

"Kate"

"I know Lanie, I know now"

"Good because girl that message, I know he is a writer but he, he loves you and by the sounds of it, it sounds like he has for a while"

Kate just smiled and quickly replied back to Castle.

B: I really have fallen for a writer haven't I? I miss you too don't be sorry normally I'm not one to fall for cliché things but when they come from you I don't know but your words Rick their perfect your perfect and it's killing me being away from you too I can't wait for tonight. X

"So girl, what is tonight?" she gave Beckett a questioning look

"Honestly I don't know, he just said to bring my appetite and I know Martha and Alexis are out of time until tomorrow night" Lanie raised her eyebrows at her and Beckett just shook her head.

"Lanie, I know where your mind is and it's not going to happen tonight not yet, I don't want to rush into this I want this to be right".

The girls talked for a little more, Beckett digging for questions about Espo and Lanie, Lanie offered to help her pick an outfit out for tonight she accepted because honestly she had no idea what to wear, Lanie picked out a simple emerald low cut sweater, black very slimming jeans and simple black heels. "This is perfect girl he won't be able to stop looking at you I mean not that he doesn't already because he does."

Kate could start feeling her cheeks heat up from blushing "thanks Lanie this mean a lot you know you here helping work out my crazy mind."

"Girl you know I'm always here, but I need to get going Espo wants to go out for lunch with Ryan and Jenny" she smiled

"Speaking of the boys how are they? I feel horrible for what they went through I mean…"

"Uh uh girl! This is not your fault they were only doing their job and unfortunately sometimes these things happen but you and Castle you saved them Kate you both risked your life to save them and I for one will be forever grateful."

Kate was still mad with herself "thanks Lanie just give Espo a hug for me and Ryan too and just let them know that… I'm so very thankful"

"Of course now I better get going before we have a cranky Espo" she laughed and gave Kate a hug as they made their way to her door.

"Have fun tonight Kate, don't do anything I wouldn't do" Lanie winked as she left and Kate only responded with her typical eye roll.