….yeah, wow six months. I made people wait six months. I am an awful person. But I think I have grown and matured from the person I was, so let's hope this all works well continuing this.


Chapter 3

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I cracked open an eye to find the damn clock that woke me from my wanted sleep. I glanced at it and found it to be 4:30 a.m., damn it. My body's not going to go back to sleep either. I slithered out of the black sheets lining my bed that Heero and I had bought last week.

Last week.

Wow it's been a week, and he has hardly talked to me. Probably can't stand to look at me, I mean come on I can't even stand to look at me.

I think he knows about the cutting too. My razors continue to go missing and it's a pain trying to buy more without him breathing down my neck. Pfft, I don't care anymore, what is he going to do besides lecture and slap me on the hand like every other person that has ever found out.

4:35 a.m., guess I'll go watch a movie nothing else to do. I crept out of my room soundlessly and headed down the hall toward the living room. Heero's place was a lot nicer then anything I was normally used to, but it wasn't all fancy and proper like Quatre's where I felt out of place entirely. The pale green and tan wall paint went together along with the furniture throughout the house. Everything had its place too, outside of my room (which heaven forbid Heero ever goes into with it being a complete mess), nothing ever seemed to move.

I passed Heero's door, stopped, and went back to it. I stared at it for a moment. I've never been inside his room before. I mean I would be unhappy if he snuck into mine, but not if I never knew he did it…hmmm. Do it now, or wait till later when he's gone. He won't leave me alone at the apartment; it's been that way ever since he found me. I guess now or never. I reached for the handle and was about to pull it open when it was jerked open from the inside, and out came…. A SCARY MOSTER!!! Naw it was just a very tired looking Heero with very messed up hair, but at the suspenseful moment, he could have passed for one the way he made me jump.

Right as he noticed I was there, I noticed that he didn't have a shirt on, which he realized half a second after me because he slammed his door closed and reemerged with a long sleeved gym shirt on.

"What are you doing up Duo?"

"Couldn't sleep" I grumbled.

"So you were standing outside my door…"

"Ummm…I was going to watch a movie…"

"…"

Shit.Shit.Shit. Think of something quick!

"… and I was going to see if you were up because I didn't know where you kept the movies…"

"Hn"

"Wait, why are you up? And what's with the whole shirt thing? Hiding something Heero buddy?" I started smiling I couldn't help it; it's so funny teasing him.

Heero sneered.

"Come on..." I poked him in the stomach and noticed that his eye twitched.

"Duo…"

Oh shit. Time to stop.

"…lets go find a movie."

Well, lets just say I about died. He was acting…normal. He started off toward the living room and bent down in front of the T.V. to reach the cabinet below it. He pulled out a DVD and stuck it in the player. We both sat on the couch and I soon found myself zoning out. My arm started to tingle and I self consciously started to itch my left arm. What's stopping me from ending all of it? I have nothing to live for. What if I –

"Duo?"

I jerked back to reality.

"Yeah."

"Are you ok?"

"Uh, yeah, I think I am going to go take a shower."

"Ok, you know where everything is."

"Right" I smiled and jumped off the couch, mask slipping back into place.

I started down the hall, but right as I got the corner Heero said something and I stopped dead.

"Duo, you know there are people that care about you."

"Uh, yeah, sure do Heero, what would make you say something like that?" and I was down the hall and in the bathroom before he could reply.

"Duo, you know there are people that care about you."

What's stopping me?

"Duo, you know there are people that care about you."

The showers hot water drained onto my skin. My blade barely a hairs length away from my wrist.

"Duo, you know there are people that care about you."

NO THEY DON'T.

The blade was in my skin before I could blink.

I cut to deep; blood was running from the cut down my hand to pool at the bottom of the tub, turning the pure water pink.

I started to get dizzy. If I am going down then I am not getting back up. I slashed at my arm nicked it, and dropped the razor.

I slid down the tube and found my razor with my left hand and cut my right wrist with green and black speckled vision.

Hope this is it.


15 minutes is the average time for someone to take a shower.

Duo has been in there for 30, and he use to be done in five back during the war. Something isn't right, he cut to deep.

I knocked on the bathroom door, no response. I knocked again.

"Duo, if you don't answer I am knocking the door down."

"-----"

I kicked the door and made my way in, and pulled back the curtain.

There was Duo.


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I cracked my eyes open coming back from my slumber.

Damn it, I WON'T FUCKING DIE!

I shot up from the hospital bed and slammed my arms against the guard rail, sending shots of pain up my wrapped wrists. I started screaming and the next thing I knew I had a needle in my arm and I was out again.

The next time I woke up I was strapped down, so I really couldn't do anything but look around. I guess this is when I realized I was hooked up to a heart monitor and there were tubes down my throat. And Heero was sleeping in a chair next to my bed.

Now how the hell am I suppose to get someone? Can't move, can't talk, can stop breathing…ah brilliant. I held my breath and was about to cave and breath when something beeped, really load.

Heero jolted awake and looked at me. I started breathing again and blinked at him considering I couldn't do anything else.

"You're awake."

I rolled my eyes. I mean obviously.

"You scared me."

That time I closed my eyes. I didn't want to look at him out of shame.

"The other three are here…"

I squeezed my eyes even more and I felt my heart speed up.

"Duo…"

I looked at Heero to find Quatre, Wufei, and Trowa behind him.

Shit.


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