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Chapter 3

Considering how tired I was, this was the worst nights sleep I'd had in a very long time. I hated sleeping on my back, I didn't want to sleep facing Emily because I felt guilty and I couldn't sleep the other way because my hip was burning and stinging after my stupid actions earlier. It felt like I'd been tossing and turning for hours but when I checked my phone it had barely been 45 minutes. Eventually I managed to drop off and what felt like a mere half an hour layer I felt someone shaking me awake.

"Emily what the hell are you doing! It's the middle of the bloody night!" I groaned at her.

"Jayje we've overslept, we're supposed to be downstairs in 10 minutes!"

"Oh fuck you have got to be kidding me!"

I flew out of bed at a hundred miles per hour, wincing in pain as I was reminded of last nights events. Luckily Emily didn't notice because she was facing the other way, hurrying to get ready. She ran into the bathroom so I went to get the clothes I had hung up over night. I was only dressed in my underwear when I realised the dressing was hanging off my hip. With no time to fix it up again I yanked it off and inspected the damage. Christ it looked awful, jagged, raw looking red lines scattered all over my hip and slightly up my waist. "Oh my god JJ, what the hell have you done?" I angrily questioned myself. I felt my eyes stinging with tears, not because I was upset but because I was so angry with myself that I had gotten this bad again. I was so busy running my fingers over the burning skin and cursing myself that I didn't hear Emily leaving the bathroom and quietly coming up behind me.

"Oh Jayje," she whispered quietly, "What in the world have you done?"

I couldn't bear to meet her eyes, so I continued to look to the floor and let me tears follow my gaze. I didn't immediately think about it, but not only was my hip covered in fresh cuts, but my stomach was painted with hundreds of scars, some raised, some flat, some red and some white. Although they were a part of me and I was used to them being there, I was aware of how ugly and scary they would look to any other normal person. I felt her move my hand away from my hip and hold it in hers. She ran her free hand all over my stomach and ended by placing it on my fresh cuts. Her soft hand was a cool relief on the burning skin of the fresh cuts. Then she did something that surprised more than anything else ever has in my life. Instead of yelling at me or looking at me in disgust, she knelt down and began to kiss the scars all over my stomach ending by kissing my freshly sliced hip, still holding my hand the whole time. I couldn't help the sob that was about to escape my lips anymore. She gently pushed me so I was sitting down on the edge of the bed still in my underwear. I grabbed the shirt that was next to me, thankful that I was in fact the one I was after, and slipped my arms through the sleeves. I began trying to button in up but my eyes were still blurry with tears and I was fumbling with every button. Emily took my hand and buttoned up my shirt for me. I felt like a child who could do nothing for herself, yet somehow this, Emily taking care of me or whatever was happening, it didn't feel wrong.

"Thank you." I managed to choke out between hiccupping breaths.

She looked at me her eyes filled with concern and worry and wiped my tears away. She caressed my cheek with her hand and tilted my chin upwards so I was looking straight into her eyes, our faces less than two inches apart. My heart was beating faster than I'd ever felt and before I knew it her soft lips were on mine, giving me a gentle chaste kiss. It only lasted a few seconds before she abruptly pulled away.

"I, I…oh my gosh I'm so sorry JJ, I shouldn't have done that. You're vulnerable right now and I'm so…"

I placed my hands on her face and crushed my lips on hers, with more passion and force than the last time. She sat down next to me without breaking the kiss. After a minute or two she ended the kiss again although with no apologies this time. She tucked my hair behind my ear and put her arm around me. I leaned into her, closing my eyes as I breathed in her scent. She kissed my head and stroked my hair and I cried softly into her shoulder again. I don't even know exactly what for, or at least what in particular. There were a lot of reasons for my tears overall, just no particular reason right now. I curled up impossibly smaller next to her and she held me tightly. We were there for some time before we were interrupted by a sudden knock on the door. We both jumped out of our skins but neither one of us actually moved to answer the door.

"Umm…hello?" Emily called out as a question.

"Yo babygirls, it's Morgan, you two never showed up for breakfast and we're about to leave!"

"Sorry Morgan, we had a bit of a girls emergency," Em called back without any hesitation, leave us a set of keys at reception and we'll be about 15 minutes behind you."

"Alright ladies sounds good to me, so long as you're both ok? JJ?"

"Yeah yeah I'm fine Derek, we won't be long!" I shot back in my best 'I'm as happy as ever' voice.

"Okay see you in a bit."

We both heard Morgan's footsteps getting further away and I looked up to see Emily looking sheepishly at me. I grinned nervously back which made her break out into an impossibly large smile. She walked over and hugged me tightly and I had never felt more safe in my life.

"Ok you realise that tonight there is no getting away from talking, right? It's even more essential that last night, for more than one reason yeah Jayje? I know you're not going to want to talk about all of this but you're going to have to"

She looked down at me with worry filled eyes and I swear I have never felt more guilty. I knew so many personal things about her and yet here she was knowing next to nothing about me, even though we'd been friends for years.

"Ok SSA Prentiss," I winked, to try and lighten the mood, "I promise we'll talk properly tonight."

She smiled at me and chucked my black pants over.

"Good! Now unless you're planning on being the first FBI Media Liaison to show up to work in a shirt and underwear, I suggest you put these on.

I blushed and hurriedly stepped into them. She'd seen me in my underwear a million times before and likewise I had seen her, after all we were best friends and had been sharing hotel rooms ever since she joined the Bureau. But it was just different now we'd kissed, passionately kissed, for several minutes and I had felt things that I didn't know I could feel towards Emily. So I quickly got dressed, as did she and we rushed downstairs to grab the keys to the black SUV from reception and hurried to the police station to continue with and hopefully get close to finishing the current case.

Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, told you stuff would start happening soon ;) and if you're homophobic or just seriously against some good ole' Jemily shipping, you should probably stop reading now I have nothing against will, I actually love love love Willifer, but they're already happening, and Jemily clearly are never going to happen (Paget's not even in the show anymore for a start *cries*) so I'm writing this for anyone who also loves JJ/Emily. Again, positive and negative criticism both wanted and welcome! Thanks guys