Hartley sat on the bed with her daughter in front of her, she wore a pair of old sweatpants and a tank top, her hair pulled up on the top of her head. Happy sat across from her in jean and a tight black tee shirt. He tickled Jasey's stomach and she looked up at him, he leaned back onto the pillows and took Jasey with him kissing her tummy. She lay on his chest her tiny eyes fighting off sleep, he rubbed her back and watched as she fell asleep. He looked up at Hartley and took a breath in when her deep blue eyes met his, he rolled his tooth pick from one side of his mouth to the other with his tongue. "You can ask me ya know, about the pregnancy." His tooth pick rolled back to the other side, she knew he was contemplating what to ask and how.
"I want to know all about it." He said in a soft tone that he used with no one else.
"I found out at three weeks, which is relatively early but my morning sickness was constant and violent. I was put on medication for it and got it under control. My first trimester was rough. I could barely eat, the meds helped me but seriously lowered my appetite. My second trimester was much smoother. I got huge actually, Quinn used to tell me I looked like a globe. The rest was smooth sailing I just got bigger and bigger until I popped. Um I actually have a scrap book for you I made, I know that's lame. But I had Quinn take a picture of me once a week as I got bigger and then weekly pictures Jasey as she got bigger too." Happy smiled at her, she was the only person he gave a genuine smile too. "You get the easy part. This is the fun part, raising her."
"I would have liked to be there for all of it." He says and she cocked her head sideways surprised to hear that from him.
"Aye my dear," Chibs said from the door way, "Your da is coming home today. The hospital called and I'm going to pick him up." Hartley got out of bed and rushed into the clubhouse. Bobby looked at her and laughed when he saw her shit eating grin. Happy followed her into the room, his daughter tucked into the crook of his neck asleep.
"It's a good look on you brother." Jax said and clapped him on his shoulder. Happy nodded and sat down on the couch, he watched Hartley walk into the kitchen and he could hear her and Gemma jaw jacking away. They were cooking for Tig's short notice return. "So what's the plan from here?" Jax asked as he sat down next to Happy. Bobby, Quinn, Juice, Opie, Clay and Phil all gathered around him. He shifted uncomfortably, he didn't talk about his feelings and shit. I mean before Hartley none of them even know he had feelings. He was just like an endless void, a good solider. Everyone stared at him, he was saved by the club door flying open.
"Purple is a good color on you son." Tig said leaning against Chibs and the bar. Hartley bound out of the kitchen and her father engulfed her in a hug. "It's good to see you home again kid." He made his way over to the couch and sat between Jax and Happy, he grabbed his granddaughter and looked at her face carefully. "She looks just like ya you ugly bastard." Tig laughed and Happy joined in, soon everyone was laughing along. Hartley couldn't help thinking this is where she belonged.
"So while we are all here, I need to know what's going on. I've been debating on staying and if I do I need to know what the risks are, if not for myself for my daughter." Hartley rubbed her palms against her pants, Happy could tell her was nervous asking.
"I won't continue to leave her in the dark," Tig said and shifted to get on comfortable, his chest on fire. "We are deep in with the cartel and Mayans right now. We're working with the cartel running drugs up and down the coast. The Mayans are upset because the cartel shut them out of the deal. It's a bad war baby."
"So am I on lockdown or can I look for a place?" Hartley asked and twisted her ring on her finger.
"For now you, Gemma, Lyla and Tara are on lockdown." Clay said and ran his hand over his face, Hartley nodded and ultimately accepted her fate for now.
"I'm going to lay down." Hartley said and they sighed, she made them feel worse than they already did.
"I got her." They all nodded to him and he left Jasey with Tig.
Hartley walked into Happy's dorm room, she slipped out of her sweatpants and tank top, leaving her in a pair of black lace panties. She pulled open the third dresser drawer in Happys dresser and pulled on his SAMCRO tee shirt, she felt content knowing that everything was exactly the same. She pulled the blanket back and crawled into the bed, the smell of old spice, cigarettes, whiskey and leather filled her nose. She took a breath in and held it, she could feel herself getting hot from his smell on the bed. Happy followed her into the room and found her cuddled in a mountain of blanket. He toed off his boots, slid his jeans down and pulled his shirt over his head. She opened her eyes to see him standing there in his usual black briefs, they hugged every inch of him causing her body to shudder, Happy smirked at her.
He crawled into the bed and put his hand on her hip, she leaned her body into him. He looked at her asking for permission, she nodded her head saying yes. She pulled the tooth pick from his mouth and then assaulted his mouth with hers, he slipped his hand under her shirt and found her breast. He pinched her nipple and she moaned into his mouth.
"Undress now," She smirked and watched as he pulled his boxers down. She pulled her shirt over her head and he pulled her panties down her legs, kissing her inner thighs, she arched her back. He hooked her knees on his shoulders, smiled and dipped his head between her legs, he began kissing and licking taking her clit into his mouth. She moaned his name and arched her back, he stuck two fingers inside of her and licked her up as she began coming down from her orgasm.
She pulled herself up and began kissing down his chest he grabbed her face and laid her on her back, "No tonight, tonight is about you."
She nodded and he positioned himself between her legs, she bit her lip and he thrust into her once, twice, three times till they got a rhythm going. He felt her start clamping down around him and he lost it. He pounded into her until they entered ecstasy together. He rolled off her and laid next to her, she got up and he watched her pull her clothes on, he knew this. This was her regret, she wanted it but she wanted to make him hold out longer. She opened and shut the door and he laid there and stared at it, not giving another thought he laid his head down and went to sleep, too exhausted to worry about what he just put himself into.
He awoke the next morning to find his bed empty and the play pen empty. He quickly jumped up and threw on some sweatpants and smiled when he walked into the hallway, there in an inverted yoga pose was his old lady. She sat on her forearms with her head between her arms, her legs were above her with her feet resting on the walls her body making a Y shape. Jax passed under her leg and handed Happy his daughter, Jasey smiled and touched his face, he kissed her small hand and then kissed her head. "We gonna talk about last night?" Her eyes shot open as she fell out of her pose onto her stomach.
"For right now Hap it was nothing; just two people reacquainting themselves with each other." She picked her head up off the floor and he stared at her.
"That was more than nothing." She sighed and pulled herself up sitting Indian style on her yoga mat. She tightened her bun and wiped the sweat off her face.
"It was more than nothing okay? I missed you Hap, you act like I left to get away from you when it was just for my own safety. I don't know what you want me to tell you." She looked up at him.
"I want you to tell me you love me and that you'll be my old lady again." He knew the answer.
"I can't do that yet Happy." He looked at her and took in a deep breath.
"You act like getting back together would be the worst thing in the world, you act like you don't know who you are and who you have always been. You don't think I don't know you've changed? I know you're not the same girl as before. I know that our relationship will be different. But I'm willing to try, and so should you. I don't do feelings and I didn't want an old lady, but then you came along. And it was like everything was set straight." Happy kissed his daughter again. Hartley watched, she watched the man she loved hold their daughter, a symbol of their love. She watched his relaxed shoulders, the way he leaned casually on the wall and looked at her.
"Give me some time to think about it." He nodded and handed her their daughter. Jasey smiled and curled her fingers into her mother's hair. Hartley got up off the floor and watched the retreating back of her husband walk away. Lyla came around the corner and smiled at her, Hartley let out a laugh.
"So now that your back, will you be my maid of honor?" Hartley pulled her into a hug and they put their foreheads together laughing.
"Your timing is impeccable." Hartley giggled and she nodded yes.
