Disclaimer:
It's JKR's world, I just play in it.
THIS CONTAINS MAJOR SPOILERS TO THE CONCLUSION OF UG. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. IF YOU DON"T WANT TO KNOW PREMATURELY, DON"T READ THIS.
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Allosia —
Thank you, for our life together all these years. It makes going harder, but peace seem more plausible. How we are supposed to do without each other, I do not know, although I trust in time you will again find companionship and something resembling ease. I hate to think of it, but do not mistake such a sentiment for jealousy. Rather, it is envy, there is so much more of you I had hoped to celebrate, but know that I shall always be with you as ever I can.
Because I promised you on our wedding day that I would never return to you the token of our pledge, I have included it in my letter to Gabriel. I hope you understand my desire that he has this memory, not just of who I was, but of who we were.
Many terrible things will no doubt come out about me in the next days. I doubt very much that any of it could shock you at this point, and while I cannot help but be glad Gabriel will finally have the truth about his father, it will not be easy for either of you. I am sorry I cannot do more to mitigate that particular series of cruel inevitabilities.
I do not know if this letter will find you, and if it does, why, but let me assure you its messenger, should he reach you, should he have been truthful with me, deserves nothing but your thanks, as odd as that may prove to be. He offered me this opportunity at grave personal risk.
There are questions you no doubt want answers to, that, in truth, I cannot fathom how to address in moments as desperate as these. I am more afraid than I would have thought and find that for the first time in decades I am not so ready for my fate. I am not, at this moment, in much pain. I have been given the sense that I am too dangerous to risk torturing, although I find I must refrain from becoming hopeful.
I love you and wish there was a greater eloquence for it. You have seen a million sights of me no one else ever has, and now, no one else ever will. You will always have the whole of my gratitude for the gift of you, of our son and in so many ways, of me.
I am yours ever and even after.
Your husband,
Severus Snape.
