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"No! I can't! I love her but I can't!" he cried. I dropped my eyes to the ground and prepared myself to walk out of the room and back into my cold, meaningless life.

"So you'd rather lose her than be with her for eternity?!" Alice cried, she seemed to be angry with Edward for not listening to her prophecy. "I can see what will happen if you refuse Edward. She will die by her own hand!" I gasped. Killing myself was one thing that I thought I could never do. I guess I hadn't thought about losing Edward twice. I cringed at the thought. Edward seemed to cringe with me because at that moment he grabbed my shoulders,

"Are you absolutely sure that you want to become a monster? How can you throw out your life so willingly when you've yet to even live enough to know what you want? I love you Bella, but I can't kill you!" The room was silent and Edward read everyone's thoughts. Some seemed to anger him, but what angered him the most was that he couldn't read mine.

"Well it's settled then. Emmet, take Edward to his room and keep him there. Carlisle, put Bella on the kitchen counter and do what you can to help her through the pain that will come." Emse said finally. I had never heard her sound so angry before. She turned to Edward,

"I'm sorry dear, but I will not watch you refuse happiness and live a desolate life for the next hundred years." Edward growled as Emmet took hold of his shoulders. He struggled, but at last he spoke.

"Fine. I will change her myself. Carlisle, show me what to do."

The family of vampires assembled in the kitchen of their home. They must have been expecting a mess because there where all kinds of cleaning supplies being stacked in the corner. They placed a pillow and blankets on the unused counter and Carlisle busied himself with preparing plenty of morphine to help me through the change. I tried not to think about Charlie or Renee. Hopefully they would think I'd run away or something. Edward paced around the room looking like he was searching for a reason to deny me this request. Apparently he found none because the time came when Carlisle helped me up onto the counter and positioned my body to lie straight.

"Edward, it's time." He said in a businesslike tone. Alice was sitting in a chair with a look of deep concentration on her face. Emmet and Rosalie where talking silently to Jasper, who was sending waves of calm through the whole congregation. Edward came to my side and took my hand,

"I will love you forever Isabella Swan." He whispered to me softly. He kissed me gently on the lips and held me close to him. I knew he was listening to my heart. Carlisle was telling him instructions through his thoughts because Edward nodded in his directions.

"Okay, I'm ready." he said. It was then that Rosalie jumped up.

"We want to help!" She cried out. Esme, Jasper, Emmet, Alice, Carlisle, and Rosalie looked at Edward.

"We each want to put a bit of venom into my new sister." Rosalie said softly. Edward's eyes widened and he glanced over at Alice automatically. She gave him a swift nod and he relaxed a little.

"Alright. Each of you follow my direction. I will make the last bite, Edward will make the first. Emmet, hold down Bella's arms. Jasper, hold her feet." They all did as he said and I laid there under the mercy of the vampires. My heart was racing and I was shaking. Edward soothed me with a kiss. Esme and Alice each held one of my hands. Edward kept a cool hand on my forehead and spoke to me softly. The time came for them to start and I tensed up a little. Carlisle hooked an IV into me and put morphine into my system.

"That should help a bit." He said, more to himself than anyone else. With that, he directed Edward to begin. Edward craned his neck down,

"I love you so much Bella. I'm sorry." he kissed my lips softly one last time then sank his teeth deep into my neck. I felt the fire before I'd even had a chance to exhale. I screamed out and Edward ran after what he'd done. Carlisle turned Jasper and Emmet,

"Hold her steady so she can't thrash and remove the IV. Esme, her wrist." Esme nodded and quickly sank her teeth into my wrist. The venom burned and I screamed even louder. Esme closed her eyes,

"Forgive me Bella." with that she ran out after Edward. Alice was instructed to bite next. My other wrist was injected with the venom and my screams bounced of the kitchen walls. After the three bites, my screaming didn't pause in between the rest. Rosalie bit the vein in my ankle, Jasper and Emmet both bit the vein in the crease of my arm and finally Carlisle bit the other side of my neck. I shrieked and writhed in pain. Fire couldn't explain the intense heat that was coursing through my veins. Each heartbeat brought waves and waves of pain through my body. It was as if someone had removed all of my blood and replaced it with lava. Carlisle busied himself with cleaning up all the blood from my wounds and bandaging me. Emmet and Jasper held me steady so I couldn't rip my IV out. I shrieked louder,

"Kill me! Edward please kill me!". The burning was excruciating but I knew it was nothing compared to what was to come.

EPOV

Carlisle told me to stay out for a while so I ran to Bella's house with Alice to plant a fake note from Bella explaining that she'd run away. They would search for her where her mother lives first so that by the time three days was up, it wouldn't matter if they searched my home. They wouldn't find Bella writhing in pain in out kitchen. Alice was good company but her thoughts bothered me. She kept translating the Bible from Hebrew to English again and again in her mind. I knew that was a trick she often used to keep me out of her thoughts.

"Edward, you made the right choice. Bella deserves to know that you love her back." Alice said finally, after dropping the note at Charlie's. I just nodded at the comment without breaking stride,

"We should go hunt." and with that we started running toward the mountains. I hated leaving Bella at the house, I knew how much pain she was in. I felt like a monster and it didn't help the feeling go away when I ripped a bear's head off and threw it across the mountain. Alice kept looking at me with a worried look in her eyes but all I could hear was the Bible in her head again and again.

Carlisle called finally and us to come back. I sighed and ran at full speed toward my home. I beat Alice there and rushed to see Bella. She was crying out for her mother and for Charlie. I sat next to her silently and tried to take her hand. She was thrashing and crying for me to kill her so I just sat there and stared at the ground.

'at least she stopped going on about that dog Jacob.' I heard suddenly in my mind. My head shot up to glare at Emmet. He tried to smile but looked away sadly. 'Sorry Ed.' was all he thought after that. Jasper kept his thoughts in line, he mainly thought about hunting and running. Finally, when he could take it no more, he let go of Bella's feet and ran as fast as he could from our home.

"Edward, help me! James is killing me again!" I heard Bella shriek. She was clearly out of her mind from the pain but I couldn't help but feel paralyzed by her stare. She looked at me with blood shot eyes, her brown irises where beginning to take on a blood red quality. I shifted my gaze out the window and inhaled her scent for what I knew would be one of the last times.

Slowly the day drifted to night and twelve hours had elapsed since she'd been bit. She couldn't kick her legs or move her arms much anymore. Her spine would bend upwards and she would cry out but other than that she just lay there. She vomited often and cried continuously. I didn't think I could take seeing her in so much agony, but that wasn't the main reason I wanted to leave her side. Every time I took her hand she would mumble something about Jacob. Her Jacob. It made me sick to think about how much the mongrel had affected her in my absence. I walked away and sat on the roof for a while. The stars seemed to hide from me this night. They knew that I was a monster for what I'd done.

"You can't brood around all night Edward." Esme said, I'd heard her approach but I waited to look at her until she'd addressed me.

"I don't know if I can face what I've done to Bella." I said softly. I knew she'd heard me but she paused to think about her words.

"It wasn't just you, Edward. We made Bella one of us, as a family. It wasn't just your decision . None of us wanted to watch you mope around for the next hundred years if you had let her slip away. I'm sorry I resorted to such rude actions, but it was for the best." I nodded, I knew she was right. Though she was younger than me, she was wise for her years. I loved her for that. I stood and hugged her, then returned to Bella's side. That's where I belonged.

BPOV

'Charlie? I was sure he'd just walked by!' Scream. 'He must want to put a band aid on my knee. I fell down his morning.' Scream. 'Why wasn't it making sense? Where am I?' Scream.

"Jake?!" I screamed loudly. I thought he was here to save me again. Pick me up off the forest floor and take me home to my dad. Scream. I started thinking about my Dad. Growing up with my mother and visiting him in the summer. Scream. Fishing trips we went on and I always got bit by bugs. He laughed when I tripped all the time after he knew I was alright. 'What if I die before I get to hug him again?' Scream.

I could barely breath and my vision was becoming more and more blurred. The only breath I could take I used to scream. I cried and repeated the names of all my loved ones over and over again. Sometimes I'd crescendo the names when I felt I needed to scream. My spine had a mind of it's own and I writhed in pain at all times. I couldn't remember ever being happy and normal. Pain was all I could feel and think about. Pictures of Charlie and Renee passed through my mind but they where quickly over and more pictures of things zoomed in. When the morphine had no effect on me anymore, Carlisle unhooked my IV and let Edward hold me. His cool chest comforted me a little, but the pain still burned in every pore of my body. The sun came up and Edward held my head up to see it.

"One down, two to go Bella." he whispered softly. I screamed and clawed at his arms. I couldn't take it anymore. Two days was much to long considering the last day felt like years to me. I looked at him with tears running down my cheeks,

"Please, kill me Edward. Kill…me…" I tried to speak evenly but I couldn't. Breathing became more difficult as the hours ticked by and my body felt like clay. It felt like more and more weight was being added to hold down my chest but nothing was touching me. I wanted desperately to die.

Tingling mixed in with the burning at thirty-six hours. Some of my muscles started to become more defined and it felt like someone was tearing them from my body and lighting them on fire. Edward held me close to his chest the whole time. He would walk around with me in his arms like an infant while I cried and screamed from pain. He was shocked to find that when he walked by the window that my skin was beginning to take on the diamond-looking shine his did when in the sun. His worried expression never lifted and he just held me and stared off into space.

At sundown I pushed Edward away from me and began the process of throwing up my own blood. Edward had to leave and Carlisle helped me. I screamed and shook between vomiting spells. My bones began to re-align themselves all over my body. The pain was excruciating, but no longer burning. It felt like every bone in my body was constantly being broken. I couldn't stand to be touched by anyone from the pain so Carlisle placed me in a dark room for the remainder of my change. All through the night I screamed and cried from feeling of my bones shifting and vomiting my own blood. My eyes burned and I couldn't see and my hearing was almost completely gone. I couldn't even hear myself scream. The hours ticked by like minutes in my room and I never knew how long it had been. My throat tightened and breathing became even more difficult. I could feel my heart slowing and my breathing becoming a bit more unnecessary. I could go five to ten minutes without having to take a breath. The pain was beginning to fade but the pressure of my body changing so fast was still unbearable. But throughout the pain of the whole night, morning still came. Edward came in to speak to me for a while, the lights had to be kept off because the brightness was painful to my eyes.

"It's morning again Bella, one more day." His tone sounded like he could be crying but I knew that was impossible. I still couldn't really speak but my hearing was coming back at impeccable speed. I could feel my heart barely going and I knew this was upsetting him. He tried to hold me, but I couldn't take the pain so he laid me on the floor. I couldn't see him in the pitch-black room but I could hear him. I knew he was with me the whole time.

At sixty hours in my voice began to come back. It sounded richer, and deeper. I didn't stumble over words anymore and my tone was somewhat melodic. I couldn't cry anymore after that, my ability was gone. The last thing I had ever cried about was Jacob and that would bother me for the rest of eternity. My hearing was at an all-time high. I could hear a conversation Esme and Carlisle where having all the way outside in the garden. My sight became even better, I could slightly see in the dark room but no colors due to the lack of light. I could feel that my legs had become longer and my bones where beginning to settle. I wanted it to be over so badly but I still had to vomit the remaining blood I had in my body out.

The last six hours where horrible. I vomited more blood out but the business of my heart and breathing stopping still wasn't settled. Edward held my hand and let out a long sigh,

"I can barely hear your heart anymore. The second that it stops, you're complete. I love you Bella." He said. I felt like crying but I couldn't so I just took his hand. I almost cried out when I felt that he wasn't cold anymore. He was a bit more cold than me but he still felt normal now.

"I love you too Edward." I said softly. I attempted to stand and kiss him but it was too much for my body right now so I lay back down to think. Four more hours passed and my breathing was almost completely gone but toward the last hour of my change, pain came back. My heart felt frozen as it tried to keep beating. The blood that was left was so cold that it felt like needles ripping through me.

"Just a little bit more", Edward said as I began puking blood again. I stopped abruptly and sat up. Edward went rigid and turned to me.

"I can't hear your heart anymore, you're finished." He said a little bit more cheerfully. I jumped to my feet and tried to feel my heart beat. There was nothing. All my blood was gone, I'd puked it out. I felt taller, that was for sure but my senses were impeccable. I could hear for miles and I could see in the darkness more vividly than I probably ever could see in a well lit room as a human.

"I'm not human anymore." I stated, more to myself than Edward but he responded softly,

"nope." I smiled and walked toward the door with Edward in tow. As I walked out into the light of the hallway I could tell that I'd never miss my human abilities. There was no question of my clumsiness being gone, that was definite. The first order of business was to bathe and to change out of my bloody vomit clothes. I bounced into the shower down the hall at inhuman speed and Edward chased after me playfully.

"No, no! I need to shower! Out!" I said to him playfully, but shooed him out like a puppy.

I removed my clothes and turned the water on. I could feel each molecule of steam in the room as it clung to my naked skin. I smiled as I entered the shower and felt the warmth all around me. I washed myself with my favorite body wash that Alice had gotten me and washed my hair. It was much longer than it had ever been, and darker too. My skin was horribly pale, yet it had a creamy beautiful look to it. I wondered how the paleness would look in my face. As I was bathing, I heard Alice place fresh clothes and shoes on the counter in the bathroom. I shouted my thank you to her and continued soaking in the warmth. She just giggled and ran off.

I finished bathing and dried off. After putting on the clothes Alice had put there for me, I blow-dried my hair without looking in a mirror. I was honestly a little afraid to see how I looked. I shook off the feeling and finished with my hair and clothes. I felt much lighter and my hair felt gorgeous. It had never been silky and straight, yet it flowed down past my shoulders and stayed there perfectly. I took a deep unnecessary breath and opened the door the find a crowd of the people I love the most outside my door waiting expectantly. They all gasped and I smiled.

"What?" , I asked self-consciously.

EPOV

I listened to the shower running and sat in the hallway glumly. Usually I could hear the beat of her warm, loving heart out in the hallway while she showered; but of course, I couldn't now. I heard the rest of my family come up the stairs to wait outside the door with me. Alice tried to sneak a peak when she placed clothes in the bathroom for Bella, but all she could see was steam.

"What could she possibly be doing in there?", Emmet whined as the time ticked by. We all laughed at his childishness even though we silently wondered the same thing.

'Why isn't she crying out for blood yet? She must be thirsty!' , Jasper thought. I growled a little bit, but kept myself under control. The shower suddenly shut off and we all tensed up. Alice shook her head with an impatient little look on her face and we all heard the hair-dryer turn on. Emmet groaned and fiddled with the carpet and Alice bounced around and giggled. I wondered deep down if Bella was thirsty yet, I know when I was first born that blood was all I wanted. My thoughts where interrupted when the door flew open and Bella stepped out into the light.

"Dear God.", I said and my jaw dropped. The rest of my family followed suit. She squeaked out a little, "what?" and stared at us with a scared expression in her golden eyes.

Bella's legs had definitely grown longer and more defined. Her waist curved into a lovely hour-glass shape as it connected with her perfect hips. She looked thinner and more toned and her pale skin glowed with a beautiful radiance. Her breasts had grown in size, but I honestly wasn't looking at the time. My eyes were fixed on her face. Her cheek bones were more defined and flowed into a perfect nose. Her lips were plump and blushing red.; the same color her cheeks used to be when she blushed. I smiled in remembrance and let my eyes drink in the sight of her. Her hair had a silky shine and flowed down to the center of her back, she looked gorgeous. I had never seen anything more beautiful on the planet.

"Edward, do I look alright?", she asked me sheepishly after I hadn't said anything. The others where still starting at her with wide, golden eyes.

"You are the single most gorgeous thing that has ever walked on this planet." I said honestly. She smiled and looked at the others. Alice screeched and ran to hug Bella tight,

"I knew you'd be gorgeous Bella, but I didn't think you'd give Rose a run for her money!" she cried happily. Rosalie shot her a murderous look and took off from the room. Emmet didn't follow after her, his eyes where still trained on Bella. Flashes of what he'd like to do to her new body came through my head and I looked at him with angry eyes, he gave me an honest apology in his head and I let it go. This time at least. Emmet hugged Bella next and Jasper and I looked away, I could hear what he was thinking and poor Jasper could feel it. This kind of tension wasn't going to be good.

"Bella, you're so hot now!", Emmet said and with a reluctant smile, he took off after Rosalie. Jasper and I traded disgusted looks, but then he walked to hug Bella. She looked shocked, seeing as how Jasper never really liked to be near her.

"Now that you aren't edible or breakable, I can touch you." He said softly, and Bella smiled at him with perfect white teeth. She truly looked like an angel that had been ripped from the heavens' to share eternity with me. A lump formed in my throat, but I cleared it away. Jasper let Bella go and Carlisle and Esme took their turns welcoming her into the family.

Finally, it was my time to be with Bella. The others left us alone and I grabbed her around her small little waist and ran her to my room. She giggled happily and wrapped her legs around me. I smiled and flung her into the room so I could lock the door. She landed on her feet and smiled at the balance she had.

"You're sure I look alright?", she asked me softly. I smiled and led her to my mirror. She looked at her new body and gasped.

Two chapters in one day? HOW DOES SHE DO IT?! I don't know but some reviews would be GREAT!! -Your friendly neighborhood Willow D