'What love made us do'
Chapter 3
1 week later...
"I liked much more the last one, that loft with good view. It's near to the ferries, you love ferries." Addison said to Derek. They were in the corridor of the hospital. Addison was with the story of two of her patients in her hands, Derek just came out of a surgery.
"I do. I thought you liked the one near here." Derek told her. She nodded.
"Yes. But the loft is much more better. It has three bedrooms, one for us, another one for your office, and the other one... maybe could be a nursery." She said. Derek smiled and realized that she really wanted that loft.
"Okay, Okay. I accept. Let's buy that loft." He said happily, kissing his wife. "Also we have to use that big bath the bathroom has." He laughed.
"Shut up!" She said filled by happiness, she hit her arm softly and playfully. He kissed her temple and left.
"See you later." He mumbled getting away from her.
Derek was so tired of having to look at Meredith everyday, they had to work in the same space, everyday. Bailey assigned her in his service again and it was pissing him off. He wanted to get rid of her; because he knew once he felt like he found himself a new soulmate, but after all, it was just the charm of her sweet voice and personality. He knew he wasn't in love with her anymore and that she was annoying, the vibe was annoying.
"Doctor Shepherd; can I scrub in your next surgery this afternoon?" Meredith asked, following Derek like a total stalker, or that's who it felt like.
"Sorry, not this one." Derek replied, getting inside of the elevator.
"But, why?" Meredith said, not letting the doors close.
"My wife is watching me perform that surgery." Derek said simply, she removed her arm from the door and left Derek leave. He felt kind of bad for being so mean to his interns, he was pure charm but he decided he had to be much more serious, this was medicine. This was a proper hospital. And he was here to save lives.
The elevator stopped, making doctor Webber and Sloan to get into the elevator with Derek. He rolled his eyes as soon as he saw Mark in there, standing.
"Today I got to operate with your wife, Doctor Shepherd." Webber commented. They both worked on a surgery together to a woman who had some cardio problems and Addison had to save the woman's twins. A girl and a boy. Everything went perfectly.
"Really? You are a lucky man, Richard." Derek joked. Richard nodded and smiled. Mark didn't say anything, he just stood there until the doors opened again and they all left, going to different places.
Addison was coming out of a consult, she seemed tired. Derek ran into her. Smiling, being very dreamy as always. She smiled when she saw him.
"Hey" She said.
"Hi! Webber told me you two had a successful birthday surgery today." Derek said. She nodded and caressed her own neck. "Are you okay?"
"No, not really. My neck hurts." Addison said. Derek rolled her, so he could massage her neck softly. "Oh, God! That feels so good."
"Where are you going now? Are you going to see me perform today after all?" He asked, still massaging her neck.
"Of course I'm going. First I need an appointment with an GYN/OB and then I'll meet you there. At four thirty, am I right?" She told Derek. He rolled her again now looking into her eyes.
"Okay, I'll meet you there. And tell me how everything goes." Derek said to her, he touched her stomach and she just rolled her eyes with a smile; thinking We are not pregnant yet! She pecked his lips.
"I'll tell you everything." Addison promised.
"Good. Is your neck feeling any better?" Derek asked her now. She pecked his lips again.
"Yes; thank you honey. Will see you later.." She left him there. He waved her goodbye and kept walking. Addison entered the meetings room, knowing Miranda was probably going to be there, eating her lunch in peace.
"Addison. What do you want?" Miranda asked in her typical mean and arrogant tone.
"Hey... so, I need you to recommend me a good Gynecologist." Addison said, kind of embarrassed. Miranda just looked at her.
"Why would that be?" Bailey asked. Addison took a sit next to her.
"I need an appointment... and my gynecologist is in New York, plus I don't trust doctor Harris that much like letting her talk to me about my menstrual Circe..." Addison confessed. "Come on Miranda, I just wanna get pregnant." She admitted, with that begging voice.
"Addison, are you talking to me seriously?"
"I am!" Addison begged.
"I will tell doctor Rutherford that you are coming. Hour?" Miranda was being so nice to Addison. She smiled.
"Actually... do you think I can meet with her now?"
After Addison's meeting with her new gynecologist, Doctor Rutherford; she stepped out of the room trying not to show her stress to anyone. Also trying not to be seen. Callie stopover by running into her.
"Wow! Addison; you scared me. What are you doing in here?" Callie asked, just because she saw her getting out of that room. Addison panicked and then realized it was still her are and floor.
"What? Callie, do you remember that I am a neonatal surgeon? I work with gynecology all the time!" Addison acted very savage and 'easy peezy'. Callie nodded. Addison nodded too.
"Sure... um. Okay; see you later." Callie said, she kept walking going to god knows where. Addison took a deep breathe and swallowed the anxiety she was feeling. After lunch with her husband and the Chief, she went to watch Derek's surgery. She loved how her husband looked like while performing a surgery, she loved every little detail about him. The way he always ran his finger through his hair, the way he smiled, when he always replied to whatever she said with an "ironic" tone. The way he looked in scrubs...
She sat there and saw him perform the surgery, suddenly she realized Meredith Grey was behind her. "Oh, hello Meredith." Addison greeted her. Addison did not hate Meredith, after all she couldn't blame her for Derek's affair with her. She just waved and smiled. "Hi" she almost whispered.
Addison wanted to stay there, but suddenly got paged 911. A car accident. "Geez" she whispered. There was not any other interns in there, Stevens was with Torres and Yang was with Burke, she didn't know where Karev and O'Malley could be. "Grey, get up, you're scrubbing in with me, hurry!" Addison said standing up from the chair, Meredith didn't know what the hell was going on, she just left the room with the redhead. Now it wasn't about her private life and problems, she needed to save a life.
They both ran across the hall, to get to the emergency area.
"31 year old woman, 32 weeks pregnant. She has a broken femur and a contusion on the brain, she's unconscious and just started labor." A nurse said quickly.
"Okay; thank you! We got her." Addison said. They ran into the ER as soon as they could, Addison having to give her a c-section to save her baby; Grey was helping, stopping the internal bleeding.
After surgery, when the mother was stable just as the baby, Addison held a hand up. "Come on Grey, high five me." Addison giggled. Happy she saved a life. Meredith high fived her and smiled at the neonatal surgeon. Both came out. Of the ER, victorious and relieved.
Meredith left and Izzie Stevens passed across the hall. "Stevens, there you are. I had to scrub in with doctor Grey instead of you." Addison said to her. Izzie looked petrified not knowing what to say.
"I'm so sorry doctor Shepherd... I was busy doing something else... umm..." Stevens tried to explain, Addison laughed.
"Your lipstick looks kinda messy. Seems Karev kept you busy." Addison laughed, walking towards the ER where her husband was, probably the surgery was over and she missed it. Derek came right out of the ER as soon as Addison was walking around.
"Damn, i missed it, didn't I?" Addison said sadly. All she wanted was seeing her husband performing a surgery. Since a while she didn't do that.
"It's okay. Where were you? Suddenly you disappeared." Derek asked. She nodded.
"Sorry, i got paged, car accident." Addison explained. Derek held her hand and smiled at her, she managed to get him a close lip smile. He kissed her temple.
"It's okay, really. Are you going home now?" Derek asked. Addison nodded.
"Yes i am, but I'm still on call, sadly. I'll meet you there." Addison said. Kissing her husband, walking away, getting into the lockers room, Mark entered the room. Addison didn't even look at him, she found some of her contraceptive pills and threw them to te trash can. Mark looked at her in a weird way.
"Why are you...?" Mark almost mumbled. He was getting into her business and he didn't really care. He was that way. Does he really care? She thoughts.
"I'm trying to get pregnant." Addison said sincerely, looking at the man in front of her, laying her back against her locker. He grinned. Mark was maybe the jerk that made her and Derek to split up once, but he was also that jerky friend that stood by her side during hard times and he also shared some good memories with their med school friends... like the song Derek wrote for Addison.
"Makes sense." He commented. She now took a sit on the floor, her back still against the lockers. She was reflecting. Mark saw her a little sad and sat next to her. "Is everything okay?" Do you really care, Mark? Or are you just trying to flirt a little to get some action, otherwise that would be weird. She laughed in her head at her own internal jokes.
"I gotta take some hormones to make my uterus much more fertile. So, no. I feel like an old grandma." Addison said. She wanted to say ovaries, but just said uterus, knowing Mark wasn't really gonna care and she didn't want to work too hard at the moment like thinking about it or not.
"You are a bit old." Mark said. Addison hit his leg for being so mean. "Easy! I'm just kidding. Take the hormones, and just wait for them to work."
"Why are you even talking to me?" Addison wondered.
"Because we were all best friends now. Because I care about you and Derek." He said softly. Squeezing her knee a little, showing his support
"Thank you." Addison smiled. There was a silence. Mark stood up.
"Gotta go." He said taking off his doctor robe.
"Me too." Addison said, standing up, taking off her scrubs and getting into her normal clothes again. She left the hospital alone. She was happy of being alone in her car for a minute, just thinking, sometimes loneliness was her best friend. She knew that Derek was going to go home also, she was just scared sometimes. Scared that she could leave earlier and he could get home too late like for letting her know he was with someone else.
She drove her car to the ferry that was going to take her to the other side of Seattle. One of the reasons she hated the woods was that she always had to go in that ferry, but, that made her husband happy, she couldn't complain if there was a bright smile on his face. When she got home, she took off her heals and hit into some comfortable pajamas. She felt so old. 'Hormones? Why me!? God gives me a child from the wrong man, and then takes away my right to procreate with the right one. Great.' She thought. She sat on the bed, resting her head on her knees, crying the most she could because she didn't want Derek to see her that way. She heard Derek's car. She wiped away the tears she had and ran into the bathroom to wash her face.
"Hi, sorry I arrived a little late. The last ferry was waiting for a man to arrive. Are you okay?" Derek said, walking into the trailer, realizing his wife was Inside of the bathroom washing her face. I am scared I'm never gonna accomplish my dreams. She thinks... kinda cheesy, but she tells herself that anyways. She smiled at him, trying her best. She was so happy he was home. 'She's been crying. I know she's been crying.' Derek could just tell. He took off his coat and shoes. Addison came out of the bathroom closing the door. She walked towards him and hugged him.
"Hey" She replied. She wanted him to hold her for a minute and just, feel home. Derek didn't know what was going on and thought that maybe she had some very bad news at the gyno today. He hugged her back. She smiled at him. Even if it wasn't the happiest smile, Derek knew it wasn't that bad by the look on her face, but she was... frustrated.
"What happened? How was your appointment?" Derek asked, she walked into the bed and wiped a tear away her eye. Derek followed her and sat next to her on the feet of the bed. He rested his hand on her leg, making her know she was being supported.
"I... It didn't went so good. I have to take some pills and..." she couldn't keep talking. Her crying started. Derek nodded at her and just hugged her. He envolved his arms around her torso, letting her head to rest next to his. He caressed her back, he could feel Addison's tears coming down, getting his shirt a little wet.
"Addie, it's okay! Don't worry." Derek said breaking the hug, just so he could look into her eyes and peck her lips. She could help but kept crying. The frustration was heavy.
"Ads, Addie, no. Don't, just don't cry. I don't like seeing you this way. It will all work out!" He promised. It ached his heart to know she was in pain. She just wanted to raise a family with Derek.
"I'm so sorry Derek." Addison said. She felt so stupid for even letting herself sleep with Mark. Everything had changed. She wanted to know she was going to be okay; but every time she thought she was going to, something bad happened, she always committed a new mistake. He hold Addison again, she was now calming down. "I'm such a drama queen" she laughed.
He laughed with her, he wiped the last tear coming out of her eye. "We will be fine. And yes, you are in act, a drama queen."
"You're an ass, Derek." She laughed. She wanted to believe him, and she did. Everything will be fine. Addison then thought about the apartment they were talking about; she knew Derek loved the woods, the clear air, the view. She was kinda sad of just killing the way he enjoyed that place.
"I might be an ass. But you love me." Derek replied. He laughed.
"I do." She almost whispered, letting her head rest on his shoulder. Derek looked down at her and caressed her head. "What will we do?"
"What do you mean?" He asked confused. She looked up at Derek.
"With the trailer. I really want the loft!" Addison said. She really did wanted the loft. Suddenly the theme changed.
"We will have the loft, Addie." Derek said softly, making Addison melt, that soft but sexy voice always killed her softly.
"Okay, but you love the woods. You always have loved the nature. I don't want to take that away from you." Addison said to him. She cares. He thought.
"We can come here all the time! Make a fire, spend some time together and ..." Derek was saying, but Addison trailed him off.
"Please don't say camping" she kind of begged. Addison was a fancy city woman, she wasn't into sleeping in the woods, or going fishing or the nature.
"Camping." Derek said. Addison made a mad cute face. She couldn't help but laugh.
"No, no. No way. Not even if I'm crazy. I don't want to have poison oak ever again." Addison hit his leg playfully, she loved the face he always made at her complaining.
"Hahaha! Poison oak. That was fun."
"It wasn't. Not at all." Addison hits him playfully.
"Am I going to get punished?" She nodded and kissed him.
"You don't deserve to be punished, at least not today." She explained as she broke the kiss, getting into bed. Derek smiled at the thought of her smile before she fell asleep. He stood up from the bed, taking his pajamas, now noticing that Addison borrowed his sweatshirt. He rolled his eyes and smiled at the thought of her. One more time. He was now wearing pajamas, he got inside of the bed, turning the lights off, moving closer to her, now both in the called 'spoon position'.
He knew her so good, it was breaking his heart all her frustration. He knew things were going to work out. He kissed her neck, making her groan a little, she moved herself, rolling, now facing Derek. She was so tired. Derek moved her a little closer, making her rest her head on his chest, he kept caressing her back. Slowly. She was smiling while sleeping.
Derek knew his wife better than anyone, he knew that her favorite color was blue, but also liked red a lot. She always complained about her eye bags and always hated how they looked like, Derek loved those eye bags. Derek loved her wearing blue, even if she always thought it didn't look that good on her. Because it didn't "fit" with her red hair. She loved to stole his clothes sometimes. And he loved that she loved to do that. Derek loved to see Derek upset, the look on her face, even serious she was sexy and flawless. Yes, flawless was the word that could describe Addison the most. Addison rolling her eyes was gorgeous. Addison talking about one of her patients with such dedication made him fall for her all the time. The brightness she had.
He was regretting every single thing he ever said to Meredith Grey. Everything.
Derek now thought about what Addison said. She was right, if they wanted to live in that loft, maybe Derek would hardly get to spend time in the nature. That concerned him a little. He had to look for an idea to make this whole moving thing work out.
The next morning Addison woke up before Derek, she realized it was 4:47 am, she hated herself for waking up at that hour. She realized she was in her husband's arms, she looked up to his sleeping face. Addison could remember the day she married Derek. "Love is dangerous, but also safe." She said. It was true. That sentence came right up into her mind that morning. For some weird reason she loved Derek that much, that when she wrote her vows she was a poet. A poet writing a romantic novel. A headache hit her as soon as she tried to stood up from the bed, Derek was still asleep, she needed to go to the bathroom but that headache killed her, she could stood up again.
"Derek..." she said, trying to wake him up, she didn't want to wake him up, but her head was in such a constant hard pain and her stomach was starting hurting now. Derek groaned, in sign that he wanted to keep sleeping. "Derek!" She insists.
"What?" He says slowly and sleepy. Addison rests a hand on her forehead.
"I feel awful." Addison said. Derek groaned again waking himself up. He really wanted to keep sleeping. He turned the lights on; first getting used of the light, he then looks at Addison, now closing her eyes in pain. Yes; she was sick.
"What are you feeling?" Derek asks. That's the good thing about being doctors, and having a husband or wife that is a doctor too, in moments like this you know what to do, or how to stop the pain.
"My head, it hurts. And my stomach also does." Addison says, opening her eyes slowly, she has puffy eyes and she seems a little pale, Derek touches her forehead.
"You're hot. You must have got the flu." Derek tells her. But now what? She couldn't go working. And Derek felt sorry for letting her stay alone in the trailer she hated so much.
"Ugh.. the flu." Addison says, and starts coughing. "I hate this. I have a surgery today." Derek knew she hated that, she was in love with neonatal surgeon since meds school, he knew her since eleven years, even more, and she was about to be married to that woman for twelve years.
"I know, but you can't perform this way." Derek stood next to her. He caressed her arm and made her calm down. "I have an idea. I could drive you to a hotel, and then I can go to the hospital working, what do you think?"
"A hotel?!" She asks in happiness. She's still in pain but can manage to smile at him. Derek loved the way she was so childish sometimes.
"Yes sure, so you can have room service and stay there all day, I'll bring you medicine after work and we can spend the night there." Derek proposed. She nodded slightly. Derek stood up, Addison closed her eyes, trying to handle her headache. Suddenly she felt something heavy on her feet.
"Geez, what's that?" She said with a sick voice, opening her eyes slightly, spotting a bag of hers with another pair of pajamas and clothes. "Thank you." She almost mumbled, getting up from the bed, but now sitting there trying to handle the stomachache.
"You're welcome, hey, lay in there. I must have something for the headache." Derek says, looking into his things, he finds some pills and hands them to Addison.
"Thanks." She said weakly. Derek dressed up quickly, while Addison was also trying the same slowly. The flu was letting her with low energy. Derek was outside waiting for Addison, he could get late to the hospital considering the situation. Addison was looking into her things as fast as she could. Addison stepped outside, Derek had her bag, and she was wearing a warm big coat. Derek was ready so Addison was, they got both inside of the car and left.
"Can you turn off the air conditioner?" Addison complained. Derek nodded and turned it off. She was so pale and so weak. "I'm so upset I will miss this surgery." She commented. Derek held her hand.
"Oh, I'm sorry addie. I know the feeling." He smiled at her. She just closed her eyes and placed one of her hands on her forehead.
As soon as they were inside of their hotel room, Addison changed herself into pajamas, Derek checked her to make sure she was just having the flu.
"Addie, I gotta go for work, but if there's anything you need, just call me." Derek said to her, getting her under the covers, checking her forehead once again.
"Thank you. Don't worry, I will." She said. She was starting to fall asleep, being sick made her sleepy. Derek took his key of the room, his coat and then left as soon as he could, he had to find a replacement for Addison and he had to check on his patients.
Addison looked into her coat now, after Derek left she stood up slowly and took the dvd she had in her coat, the tv the hotel had was good, she wanted to watch that dvd now, for some reason this morning she was thinking about her wedding, a lot. She came back in bed, with the covers until her neck, feeling comfortable in the big bed and the soft pillows. She coughed a little, and then smiled at that stupid dvd, it was hilarious seeing herself so nervous, Nancy around her doing her make up... her brother flirting on Amelia even if she was the youngest person there.
Derek got to the hospital, Miranda Bailey looked upset seeing that he wasn't with his wife. "Where is Addison?" She said, walking towards Derek, following him through the corridors, until the lockers room.
"She's not coming, she got the flu. She's very sick. I need to find someone to cover her today, she mentioned she has a surgery today." Derek told bailey; while talking he was taking off his coat.
"She's got the flu in summer? That's weird. Are you sure she's okay?" She questioned Derek. Derek nodded, he was trying to hurry. "I will find someone to cover her, see you later in surgery." Miranda said, leaving the room. Derek was now in his classic scrubs, walking to check on some of his patients. Suddenly he realized Meredith was inside of the room of one of his patients. And he realized he hasn't told her yet... he hasn't talked to her... and she was now, looking at his ocean eyes reading the patients chart. He came inside of the room, greeting Doctor Grey and focusing on his patient.
Every intern knew that Satan and McDreamy were together again, but Meredith still didn't have any news about it for sure, she could see that everything was the same since the ball. Or gala... or dance... or prom! Or whatever it was! Derek came out of the room after checking on Nelson, his patient. She smiled at him, even flirted a little.
"Meredith..." he said in a serious tone, trying not to show too much "McDreaminess" If that was even possible. Derek and her walked inside of an on call room.
"Derek..." she flirted again. Derek looked at the floor and thought about the perfect words to practically tell her to back off from his marriage.
"Listen... what happened at prom, that was a mistake. A horrible mistake I committed to Addison. She's been working on this, I have been working on it. I'm sorry if I made you feel like us was going to happen..." Derek finally could speak the truth out.
"We already talked about this, it is not necessary."
"You keep looking at me that way! We need to talk. I..." Derek was trailed off by her.
"But... you chose her after all." Meredith nodded in sorrow. Not sorrow... it was more like disappointment.
"I did."
"I just don't get you. What about all that cheesy crap you said about me, about us? What about all of that, Derek?! What changed?" Meredith asks the man with ocean eyes standing in front of her.
Yes, he regretted every single word and verb he ever told that woman.
"I love her. Maybe she's not flawless, she also committed mistakes... but, it's not about who did what or who didn't... I'm in love with her." Derek was being spontaneous and he didn't know why he was saying too much cheesy crap to Meredith. Yes, that was what changed, Derek realized how much Addison meant to him.
"I understand. You want me to back off. You love her. She's your wife. I can't change what it's done." Meredith said seriously, doing little pauses between each sentence. Still flirting a little.
"No. Doctor Grey, I'm married. You don't get to flirt with me after what I just shared with you." Derek says seriously, rolling his eyes, getting out of the on call room. Meredith Grey was never going to be even similar to Addison, that was Derek's point. But, he thought he should have said 'let me live my life with the woman of my life, and don't look at me that way ever again.' But he didn't. he was a sweet man not wanting to. It was his heart, not his intentions.
As soon as he stepped out of the on call room he coughed a little. "Damn it!" He mumbles angry and walks away down the hall. She has infected me the flu. Amazing. He thought. He coughed a little again.
A kid got electrocuted and Derek was paged 911, he was walking quickly down the corridor, when a big strong arm stopped him. "Mark, what... what to you want?" Derek says a little weak, his voice shaking a little.
"Derek you are pale, where are you going? You're sick! You gotta go home." Mark states. Derek rolls his eyes and coughs.
"Wow, now you look at me in the eye? I am totally fine." Derek takes his ex-best friend hand out of his arm. Why does he even care.
"Hey, man, you really do not look good. Go home." Mark says again, walking down the hall. Derek suddenly feels his head so heavy and realizes that Mark is right. He is sick. Chief Webber now walks down the corridor.
"Excuse me, Chief... I'm sick, I need to go home." Derek says. "Addison must have infected me the flu this morning..." Hell yes she did.
"Oh Shepherd... well, go home, or take a pill. Do whatever is best for you." The chief says leaving him in the corridor, he practically ran away excited for the new case.
Derek stood there for a little and went to change into his clothes, so he could join Addison at the hotel room. As soon as he entered his key, and he opened the door, he spotted Addison in the bed, looking awful. She was asleep and there was a movie on the tv. At first Derek didn't really checked what was on tv but then he stopped for a minute to just realize it was Addison and him in their wedding day dancing. Derek coughed again, waking Addison up.
"Hi..." she says sleepy, opening her eyes. Derek takes some pills from his pocket, and he leaves them in the nightstand.
"Hi, I got the flu." Derek says, he throws his stuff in the floor not caring about it, he takes his clothes off and gets inside of the bed. Both shaking, they were cold. We got the flu!
"I got my period." Addison cries. Derek tried not to laugh and just embraced her, caressing her back.
"We are having a bad day..." he says. "Do you need anything?" Derek asks, kissing her temple. She coughs and cuddles next to him.
"No... I have enough tampons." Addison starts laughing. Derek can't help but starts laughing too, she doesn't know why but she hates the feeling of being sick. It's ironic that they spend everyday around sick people and barely get sick. They had to end their laughing, they started coughing. Addison sighed. "I hate being sick."
"Me too. You were watching our wedding?" Derek then goes to look at the tv for a moment.
"Kind of... I fell asleep. I think I slept the whole day..." Addison says. Derek pulses rewatch on the control remote, so they can watch all over again. Mark and Derek's scene appeared. "I'm not even hungry."
"Same." Derek says, cuddling closer to her.
"Jerk!" Both said. Then both giggled and got much more comfortable, Addison was resting her head on Derek's shoulder and he had his arms around her.
"Look at that!" Derek laughed at Nancy stressing out in the wedding video.
"I can hardly believe that this was almost twelve years ago..." Addison said, caressing Derek's shoulder.
"Me too." Derek agreed. There was a long silence. Both very concentrated on the movie. Addison walking down the aisle with that beautiful dress. "Besides, somehow me haven't aged." Both laughed at that one.
