Hullo.
Blech, sadness chapter. But big deals. Short, yes, but the next one should be fairly long.
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Kel.
Disclaimer: I am not Stephenie Meyers. Stupid heads.
"Edward, I'm sorry!" I whispered as I felt him tense more. Suddenly, I felt myself flying through the air, snarls ripping through the my ears as I crashed into something hard, wooden. The stairs. I thought to myself.
"Stop! Jasper!" I heard Alice scream, her voice seeming farther and farther away as I felt even more blood slip down my neck.
I heard Edward growling, my eyes focusing on him, standing protectively in front of me, his arms struggling with Jasper's shoulders, along with Emmett and Carlisle attempting to pin Jasper's arms behind his back. I heard Alice sobbing in the background, of course, dry sobs. I couldn't feel anything but the pain pulsing through my body, until I felt a woman's hands grip my side, gracefully picking me up and whisking me off before I slipped slowly into unconsciousness.
"Edward?" I whispered groggily as I awoke, my head spinning.
"Lay down Bella." I heard a musical woman voice whisper to me softly.
"Who…" I wondered aloud as I laid my head back into the pillow that I assumed to be on Edward's bed.
I felt a cool hand stroke my cheek one, gliding up to the scar on my head. "Rosalie Bella. It's Rosalie."
I felt my heart spasm, afraid of why she was here. Sure, she had explained her reasoning behind her resent toward me becoming part of this family, but still, she didn't talk to me much more than she had to. I sat up again, slower this time, and looked at her. "What happened?"
Rosalie bit her lip, "You mustn't be angry with Jasper. None of us have fed for almost 2 weeks, he was extremely thirsty." she attempted to stick up for her brother.
I shook my head, "No, no. I'm not. At all. Jasper's always been nice to me, I know he didn't mean to do it."
"But he lost control" she whispered.
I nodded, shakily. "Please… make sure he knows I don't hate him, or I'm not even the slightest bit angry with him."
She nodded, and smiled a small, hesitant smile. "Bella… I have something I need to say to you."
"Shoot" I said as nonchalantly as I could.
She took an unneeded deep breath and began. "Bella, I've told you my history, my horrible past. All of it, or well, the sufficient details. I've told you about before my change, after it. You know me fairly well, though we never talk much." I hadn't realized that all that she was saying was true. I did know an awful lot about her, but we seemed to only have talked once or twice.
She examined her fingernails for a moment, then looked back at me. "You see… at first I was envious of you. You had the life I wanted, and you wanted to throw it away! Just because you've fallen head over heals for my little brother!" she shook her head incredulously. "I've told you this before also, I believe."
I only nodded.
"Well, sooner than later the jealousy faded, turning into a sort of weary state of mind."
I breathed in, reminding myself this was real. "And what is it now?"
"Admiration. Thankfulness?" she admitted timidly.
My heart sputtered more. This was ridiculous to care so much about what Rosalie thought. I took a deep breath, "For?"
She looked down at the ground, then back up at me through her hair, "Bella… if only you could have seen Edward before he met you. He was… always acting happy. Never truly happy. His eyes held a sadness that could have only been described as pain, and his chest was even more hollow than the rest of the family's."
I felt my eyes brimming with liquid from just that.
"I assume he was miserable to always be surrounded by love. Myself and Emmett, Jasper and Alice, Carlisle and Esme…" she shrugged, "But he dealt with it, you know?"
I nodded, biting my lip.
"But as soon as you came into the picture, even those first few weeks at school… he seemed different, like the hole in his chest had become a bit less black. And now… Bella… you make him immensely happy." she had a small smile on her face, "You are the one and only one that Edward wants to spend forever with. Granted, he doesn't want to change you, for your own benefits, but that's understandable." she bit her lip again, "Bella… I've realized that my brother is irrevocably in love with you and nothing I can say, nor do, will ever change that. And I've also realized how happy you make him, and how his eyes have joy in them after a hundred years."
I breathed, attempting to make something out of this. "So, what are you trying to say?"
She looked at me, square in the eyes, her own filled with guilt and hope. "Will you be my sister?"
I felt my heart swell as I nodded too quickly. "Rosalie, I've always thought you hated me. I would have been your sister long before now if I hadn't gotten that sort of vibe." I whispered, looking down as to break the stare of her golden eyes.
"I understand that Bella." she nodded solemnly, "May I hug you?" she asked me quietly, a major first. My head snapped up to look at her, "Really?"
She nodded hesitantly and I bit my lip, "Of course you may Rosalie."
"Rose." she corrected, "call me Rose if you'd like now."
I nodded, "I'll stick with Rosalie for now," I said quietly, opening my arms for a hug.
She laughed a musical laugh, "That's fine." and she hugged me, being careful not to touch my temple area, which was crusted over with blood.
As she pulled away she cleared her throat. "Thank you Bella." "Anytime." I said, nodding once. I put my hand to my head, suddenly feeling a pulsing pain. I closed my eyes tightly, "Where's Edward?" I asked through clenched teeth.
"Sustaining, along with scolding Jasper. Emmett and Carlisle are supervising and I believe that Alice brought Esme along with her to tell Charlie you'd be home tomorrow evening, Alice is telling him something about wedding plans." she said quietly.
The pain in my head continued to throb, as I remember my last birthday, and how something exactly like this had happened. How Jasper had attempted to attack me, causing my life to spiral downward into depression, for he had made Edward realize how dangerous this was, and left me. I hadn't noticed I was crying until Rosalie pulled me out of my daze, "Bella? Are you alright? Does it hurt?" she asked concerned. "Get Edward." I whispered through the tears, rolling over to stuff my face into the pillow to hide my weakness, "Please."
I barely heard her footsteps, and the door closing quietly. I wasn't sobbing, but I was crying awfully hard, close to the sobbing stage. I was almost positive my cheeks were splotchy and my nose was red, along with the puffy red eyes I got when I cried. I had blocked out the pain of my head, and now focused on the worry and pain of my heart. He was going to leave me again. I just knew it. And this one thought made my heart break in two as I began sobbing into his golden silk covered pillow.
"Bella?" I heard Edward's voice, fast and concerned in my ear. "Bella, are you okay?"
I shook my head into the pillow and felt myself being hoisted into his arms as he sat back down on the bed with me cradled in his arms like a baby. "What is it? Does it hurt?" he whispered loud enough for me to hear as I continued to sob, burying my face into his chest. I shook my head again.
He tense a bit, "What is it Bella, you need to tell me." he whispered again.
I somehow stopped sobbing, tears still rolling steadily down my cheeks as I pulled my face from his cold chest and struggled my way out of his arms, sitting on the bed with my knees pulled to my chest and my body tense. When I glanced up at him, he was staring at me, his arms still as they were, waiting for me to enter them once more. "Bella…" he said cautiously, "come here… why did you…" he asked, sounding immensely hurt. I took a deep breath and shook my head. "You…" I heard myself whisper, "You're…"
"I'm what Bella?" he attempted to get me to finish.
I took another deep breath, looking up from my tears and into his eyes. "You're going to…"
"What the hell am I going to do Bella!" he asked, in a low, frustrated voice.
"Leave again!" I screamed at him, pulling my legs to my chest tighter and sobbing into my knees.
