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"That's really crazy." I said who knew when I watched them play last year that all this time Lucas was my brother and maybe Nathan to? That didn't happen ever in real life.
"I'm tired." Lucas said lying down.
"Me too." I answered honestly, but I was in for another sleepless night of withdrawn nothingness as I listened to my ipod all night long forgetting all my painful memories.
"Good night." He said turning off the light.
"Good night." I said walking down the hallway and going into his room.
Well I'm afraid that I, I lost myself
I lost myself
I laid there in Lucas's bed thinking how none of this could be real. This never happened to anyone. No one can just descover a family and become part of it over night. I wasn't planning on becoming apart of it ever. After we got a hold of Karen and I finally understood what I've been wondering my whole life and obsessively for the past 24 hours I'd be gone and with everyone else I'd ever met forgotten. I sighed shaking my head and running my fingers through my hair quickly. As nice as it was not to be thrown out instantly I didn't expect them to be all nice and sweet forever, but by then it shouldn't matter I'd go back to Charlotte.
When this began
I had nothing to say
And I'd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
The next morning
I laid stiffly still in the warm bed. It smelled exactly like Lucas did when he hugged me. I have a brother. I couldn't wrap my head around that yet. I might have another one it still didn't seem possible. I hoped Karen wouldn't deny it or scream at me when she saw me. She probably would, although both Nathan and Lucas made her sound not like someone who would do that. If she was so sweet why'd she give me up like I didn't matter? I shouldn't be bitter about it I was way past feeling sorry for myself. After all the shit I've been through I realized what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. Life doesn't fix anything it's people who have to change things. If there's a problem life doesn't do you any favors. A lot of people don't know that yet, they haven't lived enough to know that yet.
I was confused
And I let it all to find
That I'm not the only person with these things in mind
I got up and noticed it was 11 o'clock. I stayed in bed a lot longer than usual. I was still wearing my pajamas which consisted of orange pj shorts that said bobcats across the butt in black lettering and a gray duke t-shirt that said blue devils on the front in blue lettering. I definitely repressented the state of North Carolina when it came to sports. Basketball has always been my favorite. I walked out hoping I didn't wake Lucas up if he was still asleep. I still felt kind of bad he gave up his room for me. He didn't owe me anything, but I did appreciate it. His bed was a lot better than the beds at the foster home.
Inside of me
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I've got left to feel
The tv was on ESPN. I wasn't surprised. All jocks loved watching that channel. Lucas wasn't on the couch. I looked into the kitchen and he was making a bowl of cereal. What a real surprise it was when he poured himself lucky charms.
'Seriously?' I thought.
"Hey how'd you sleep?" He asked when he turned around a took his first bite.
"Good." I lied smilling slightly.
"Are you hungry?" He asked. I nodded. I was and that cereal looked really good.
"Want some cereal?" Lucas asked grabbing a bowl.
"Yeah thanks." I said walking into the kitchen and sitting at the table.
"You should be honored I'm giving you the last of the lucky charms Nathan will not be pleased when he comes over, so I'd eat it fast." He said smiling setting the bowl in front of me.
"What's Nathan going to do?" I asked smirking at the thought of him freaking out because he didn't get to eat the cereal he wanted. I'd do the same thing.
"It's his favorite and we usually hang out in the mornings and play basketball and always eat before or after. He chooses this over everything else I have." He said then taking more bites. I nodded easily picturing the two of them playing ball and hanging out. Acting like real brothers ignoring the fact they were only half. It seemed really great.
"He can fight me for this then it's my favorite too." I said eating more. Lucas laughed.
"That'd be interesting. I know first hand Nathan can hold his own in a fight, but maybe he'd go easy on you because your a girl." Lucas said smiling as he finished.
"Oh I don't want him to use the gender thing and not give me a fair fight." I said grinning at Luke. He laughed harder.
"It sounds like you know what you're doing. Have you ever been in a fight?" He asked. I smirked again.
"Once or twice." I said shrugging and not giving him anymore information than that. Then I thought of something he'd said a minute ago.
"Have you and Nathan fought before?" I asked curiously. It didn't seem last night that they would get mad at each other for a lot of things. He smirked slightly like me.
"Once or twice." He said shrugging.
"Really what for?" I asked finding it amusing he answered exactly like me. Our mannerisms were pretty similar. I wonder if I had spent any time with him not knowing what I did if I would've notieced. I knew all siblings fought even twins or siblings who were best friends, but if they didn't live together they probably didn't get in each other's way a lot.
"Umm lots of stuff. Girls, basketball, our dad." He said listing things off.
"Have you guys ever dated the same girl?" I asked wondering if this really is like the O.C. And all that crap happened here. It sure as hell did in Charlotte.
He chuckled again. I'll take that as a yes.
"When I first joined the team I was kind of in love with his girlfriend Peyton. Nathan and I actually hated each other for the first 17 years of our lives. See I guess we didn't explain this last night. When my mom got pregnant with me and Dan left he never came back to us. He got Deb pregnant and married her." Lucas said. My eyes widened. So Lucas knows what its like to be abandoned by a parent. We sure had a lot in common.
Nothing to lose
Just stuck hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
"I'm sorry." I said softly.
"It's okay I'm over it now, but it always bothered me that he didn't want me. I did have my uncle Keith he was the best dad anyone could have growing up." He said smiling sadly.
"Where is he?" I asked.
"We don't know. The woman he was supposed to marry took off the day of the wedding and he went after her." He said shaking his head in sadness. I could tell he really missed his uncle.
"I hope he comes back soon." I said trying to sound optimistic.
"Thanks me too." Luke said agreeing.
"So what happened with Peyton?" I asked. Girl and boy drama is always the most messy. If Nathan and Lucas didn't like each other at all when this went on then it must have gotten complicated and messy.
"Basically they broke up eventually and she and I sort of got together while Nathan started going out with my best friend Haley." He explained. I was a little confused.
"So after you joined the team while you guys hated each other Nathan and Peyton broke up then you and her (I put up my fingers as air quotes) sort of got together and Nathan went out with your best friend." I said slowly.
"Haley doesn't sound like a very good friend if she completely ignored the fact that you hate him and went out with him anyway." I said getting a little bit upset almost thinking about that. Loyalty is a huge thing with me. I haven't met hardly any people who have showed that quality, but what she did must have hurt Lucas a little and that pissed me off a little bit. I know I didn't know anything about the situation but I couldn't help but feel a little bit protective. When I realized that my eyes widened. What the hell? I don't know what was going on with me. Ever since I got here all of this weird stuff keeps happening.
"I know it might sound bad, and I was pissed at first then I let it go because Haley has always been really smart and she wouldn't jump into anything without knowing what she was doing." He said defending Haley.
"Okay when did you stop being mad? And what the hell does sort of got together mean?" I asked hating feeling so confused and not knowing what was going on. He smiled at my irritation.
"Towards the end of the season me and Nathan had stopped hating each other and slowly became closer. He and Haley were getting really serious and I wasn't going to lose my best friend so she sort of bridged the gap between us." Lucas explained and I started to slowly understand.
"Was this last year?" I asked.
"Yep the beginning of last season I joined when some of the other guys got kicked off and after a while Nathan and I realized we were going to around each other on the court and since he was with Haley off the court too. Somehow me managed to stop fighting all the time and started getting along." He said.
"I see. That's good you started getting along. I guess it's a good thing Haley started dating him." I reasoned. I wondered if they were still together. He nodded.
"I didn't like it at first. See it was always me and Haley against the world. Best friends for years along with a few other guys and we always played basketball at the river court. We separated ourselves from Nathan, Peyton, Brooke and all of the popular kids. Since I hated Nathan and he hated me because of Dan we never interacted with them. Then Coach Whitey came and asked me to play. Nathan was pissed he got the team to haze me at first they followed him around and did whatever he told them. But Nathan didn't do well in school so he needed a tutor and at first he chose Haley to get to me and you better believe it did. At some point it turned into more and they actually got married last spring." He finished smiling whenever he talked about Haley or basketball. It was clear both were very important to him.
"Wow they got married?" I asked needing clearification. I had never met any married people who were happy. I had never met any couple that truly cared about each other either. Things were definitely different here in Tree Hill.
"Believe it or not they did. Haley's always had this hidden singing talent though so when she met this guy named Chris Kellar he worked with her and they recorded together and eventually she left and went on tour with him, Gavin Degraw and the Wreckers leaving Nathan and all of us really heartbroken. She never told anyone she was leaving." He said looking sad again. Jeez this place was filled with crazy stories. Then something hit me.
"Oh my god Haley James!" I said excitedly. He nodded and smiled at my outburst of excitement.
"I saw them in concert." I said thinking of how strange this was.
"You saw Haley?" He asked still smiling.
"I did she's great the whole concert rocked I love that song she sings with Chris Kellar I have it on my iPod." I said smiling thinking it was so cool that he was best friends with her. She's a celebrity.
"It was really hard on Nathan while she recorded it I wouldn't bring it up to him." Lucas said.
"I won't I'm so sorry for him that she left and you too you've known her the longest." I said sympathatically.
"I was really happy when she came back. I think Nathan was to he's still hurt." He said.
"So did she and Nathan get divorced?" I asked prying. This still wasn't any of my business, but I was curious and I was feeling protective again for Nathan this time.
"They didn't he signed the annulment papers and when I went to New York to give them to her she wouldn't sign them. She's back now and trying to win him back, but she broke his heart when she left. He's been struggling with it since she got back. Nathan's an amazing basketball player and he gave up the chance to go to High Flyers to stay and try to work out their marriage, but so far there hasn't been any improvement." Lucas said.
"That's really sad. Do you think they'll work things out?" I asked wondering what he thought about this.
"I really don't know. I do know that she loves him and he loves her. But now I don't think he trusts her anymore so if he can't do that then I don't think they'll make it." Luke said and I nodded agreeing. Trust is so important.
"So in one year a lot has happened." I mused.
"It's pretty crazy here. Nathan just forgave me for going to New York to see Haley I didn't tell him I was going." He said.
"It's good he forgave you." I said quietly.
"I'm glad he did. Since Haley's been back I've hung out with her but I know she's spent a lot of time with Peyton and Jake." He said. Okay who the hell is Jake?
"You never told me what happened with Peyton and who's Jake?" I asked. I was beginning to figure these people out and then he throws more complicated stuff at me.
"Oh sorry. It's a long story but after Nathan and Peyton broke up I thought it was finally my chance and we kissed but she ran out and I got to know her best friend Brooke really well. So me and Brooke hang out and eventually get together, but when we do Peyton tells me she wants to be with me and I get really confused. After a little while with Brooke I couldn't deny my feelings for Peyton anymore because they never went away. We started sneaking around and it was wrong and we ended it because we didn't want to hurt Brooke, but we did and it took a very long time for her to forgive us." He finished and I just stared at him. He wasn't any different from Patrick and Kirsten.
I wanna heal I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
Erase all the pain til it's gone
I wanna heal I wanna feel
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
"You cheated on Brooke?" I asked in disbelief. Lucas didn't seem like the type. That just shows you can't trust anybody.
"It was a huge mistake I didn't know what I wanted, but when she forgave us we all became friends again. After hanging out with her again I realized some of my feelings for Brooke started to come back and when she was getting ready to leave for California I told her and she just left me standing in my room." Luke said.
"Oh my god this is like a soap opera." I said shaking my head. This was unbelievable.
"It is. I'm waiting now for her to get back and tell me how she feels." He said.
"I guess if she can forgive you then you might have another chance as long as you don't do it again." I said looking right at him.
"I wouldn't ever again." He said looking determined.
"Are she and Peyton still best friends?" I asked it sounded a little similar to my situation with my friends excpet none of these 'friends' would ever rape another person from the group or anyone at all.
"Yeah she forgave Peyton and they're still like sisters." He said.
"Good so who's Jake?" I asked again.
"He's Peyton's boyfriend. Jake's a great guy he's the only one who didn't haze me when I joined the team. He and I are pretty good friends." He said with a grin. It seems like this group here was really close and I was a little bit jealous they cared so much about each other.
"So you have your group then huh you, Peyton, Jake, Haley, Brooke and Nathan." I said thinking about how cool it was that even though they've hurt each other that they love and care enough to work it out. Except for Nathan and Haley I guess but that could still work out.
"Yeah that's the group. Of course I can't forget my oldest friends Mouth, Skillz, Fergie or Junk." He said and I shot him a weird look. What kind of names are those?
"Are these the people you hung out with before you joined the team?" I guessed.
"Yep so I'm pretty lucky now that I have such great friends and a brother who likes me now." He finished laughing softly.
"What the hell makes you think I like you now?" I heard from behind me and I knew immediately it was Nathan.
"I don't know I just figured since you stopped being such an ass all the time." Luke joked with him. They both shared a laugh and bumped fists as I looked at Nathan.
"Hey." He smiled as he walked into the kitchen.
"Hey." I said back trying to smile a little.
"What have you guys been up to?" He asked as he got a bowl out and opened the cabinet to look for something. I turned to Lucas who was trying not to laugh and I had to bite my cheek to do the same.
And I've got nothing to say
I can't believe I didn't fall right down on my face
I was confused
"What the hell is this Lucas, where's my cereal?" He demanded as he continued to search through the cabinet for it. When he said that I felt the table shake with both Lucas's and my laughter. Nathan turned to look at us.
"Did I miss something?" He asked looking from him to me.
"It's gone." Lucas choked out trying to stop laughing. My cheek started hurting from me biting it so I wouldn't burst out laughing.
"Could you elaborate on that please?" Nathan asked taking a step closer.
"I had a bowl earlier." Lucas said running his fingers over his face while his laughter subsided.
"There was half a box yesterday there should be at least one bowl left for me." He said and I put my hand over my mouth because I would be reacting the exact same way if the roles were reversed. Nathan saw me do that and he saw my bowl that still had some left in it.
"Oh I see how it is." Nathan said backing up.
"What?" Lucas asked smiling.
"So you gave the rest to her." He said pointing to me. I had to turn away I was about to lose it.
"She said it was her favorite and I figured why not?" Lucas said chuckling again when he saw Nathan's expression.
"Fine that's fine I get it. New girl comes in saying she's your sister and all of a sudden she gets put up higher on the cereal priority list than I do that's just fine." Nathan said turning around to get frosted flakes and I couldn't take it I bursted out laughing when he said that. Lucas did to and Nathan turned and looked at us like we were nuts.
"Okay see if it was different and it was your cereal getting eaten I don't think you'd be laughing!" He said knowingly as he messed up my hair walking past me to sit down with his bowl. For some reason me and Lucas couldn't stop laughing because Nathan was completely serious and was actually mad. Finally he stopped eating and started laughing with us. I laughed even harder there than I did last night. My cheeks hurt from smiling and I couldn't stop laughing so my stomach started hurting as I threw my head back trying to stop. When I finally did stop the other two started stopping to.
"Damn it now my cereal's all soggy because of you two!" Nathan said as he threw his spoon down in the bowl. I laughed again.
"It surprises me that lucky charms is your favorite Nathan." I said looking at him.
"Why is that?" He asked poking his spoon around the bowl of soggy frosted flakes actually looking disappointed he couldn't eat it.
"I don't know I guess I picture you more as a wheates kind of guy." I observed glancing at Lucas who laughed again.
"Wheates huh? Yeah wheates are good, but not as good as lucky charms." He said the last part sourly mock glaring at me.
"I would say I'm sorry, but truthfully I'm not." I said playfully feeling strangely familiar and happy hanging out with them.
"Oh I'll get you for that just wait there will be reprocutions for taking my cereal." Nathan said grinning and I rolled my eyes in amusement.
"So Nate I've spent the last half an hour filling Allie in on our complicated history together with our group of friends." He said and Nathan nodded.
"It only took a half an hour with all our messed up pasts you'd think it would take days." He said sarcastically.
"You small town folks sure have a lot of drama within your family and friends." I added with a fake southern accent.
"Oh small town folks hmm where are you from again munchkin?" Nathan asked as he got up to dump his bowl in the sink.
"I'm not a munchkin!" I said standing up then realizing compared to these boys yes I am a lot shorter so I sat down quickly.
"You were saying." Nathan joked.
"I'm from Charlotte and I go to school at Bear Creek Prep." I said ignoring Nathan's comment thinking I would get the same reaction like I did from Lucas.
"Wow you've been pretty close all this time and by the way I hate your school." He added sitting back down.
"I know Lucas told me and then I figured out I'd seen you both before at the game last year. It was at our court and I was cheering on the sidelines." I said sort of hoping he might have seen me and remembered.
Looking everywhere only to find
That it's not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
So what am I?
"You're a cheerleader?" He asked and I nodded saying yes.
"Brooke's going to love you." Nathan said smiling.
"Yeah our cheerleading captain isn't a fan of Brooke Davis they hate each other." I told him he laughed.
"Who could forget how psycho Brooke went last year at the classic trying to beat your team she was pretty disappointed when you won for best dance, but then she won for best coreography so it turned out okay." He said remembering how demanding she was with her squad.
"I remember how pissed Claire was for not winning that. Also your squads music was way better than ours I wish they would've let me pick then maybe it would have been even better and more fun to dance to." I said remembering asking Claire if I could burn the cd and she flipped out saying freshman were barely important enough for the dance so I was put in the back anyway.
"You're into music?" Lucas asked.
"You could say that." I said smirking. Music was the only thing now that kept me sane. Hell I could even say it saved my life.
What do I have but negatively
Cuz I can't justify the way everyone is looking at me
"What do you listen to?" Nathan asked. Where to begin.
"I'm into everything really. I love some of the classics like the Beatles or Led Zepplin I'll even put on some Jimmi Hendrix. Newer bands like Breaking Benjamin and Linkin Park are amazing I've always liked Sum 41, Radiohead, and Nine Inch Nails to. It just depends on my moods really. If for some reason I'm in the mood for more girly stuff I'll listen to Avril Lavigne or Pussycat Dolls. That doesn't happen very often, but sometimes I'm just in the mood for it." I said wondering if they liked any of the same songs or bands as me.
"Nice I'm glad to hear your musically educated you'll fit right in with Peyton." Luke said. What did that mean? Brooke will love me I'll fit right in with Peyton they're making it sound like I was staying here. I knew I wasn't I guess that's all that matters.
Nothing to lose
Nothing to gain
Hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
"Do you think we should call Karen soon and get her to come home?" Nathan asked.
"If you're ready." Lucas said looking at me. I wasn't exactly ready who knew what she'd say. I put up the brave front and nodded reassuringly.
"Let's do it." I said. Lucas grabbed the phone and dialed the number. I glanced at Nathan he looked back smiling reassuringly and it calmed my nerves a little bit. I still had no idea if he was my brother, but already he was acting like it and last night he said even if he wasn't he'd still feel like it. That meant a lot.
"Hey mom how's the trip?" Lucas asked and I knew she'd picked up. I hope he didn't give me the phone I couldn't talk to her now like this with her so far away.
"Everything's fine here." He paused to look at me. He had an unreadable expression I could tell he was debating on telling her now or waiting until she got home.
"I think you need to come home though." He finished and waited.
"No one's in trouble we're all fine, but there's someone here to see you and it's pretty important." Lucas said.
"I'm not sure I had never met her before but she came here for you so I think you should come home now." He said a little more urgent. He waited for her to talk then he covererd the mouth piece with his hand.
"She wants to know who you are do you want me to tell her?" He asked. I didn't know this was all happening to fast. I swallowed nervously and folded my hands in my lap that were beginning to shake slightly.
I wanna heal I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
Erase all the pain til it's gone
I wanna heal I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
"Sure if it'll get her home you can tell her." I said softly looking down. If he told her she might not want to come back here ever.
"Mom it's Allie your daughter." He said as softly as I just spoke. All of a sudden Lucas realized what this meant. He has a sister a real living breathing sister who's lived 45 minutes away all his life that he never knew about. He's been lied to about this his entire life and now here she is he didn't know much about her, but already he feels close to her. He didn't know what possessed him to spill his life story to her and talk about all his friends he just wanted her to know him so he could get to know her. She was mysterious and had already been through a lot in her short 15 almost 16 years. He heard his mom gasp and that as well as the information in the folder confirmed it. Now it was real.
"She's there?" Karen whispered almost afraid to know the answer.
"She's sitting right here at the table with me and Nathan she came last night." He answered. I couldn't help but notice how calm and collected he was. He seemed smart. Obviously he'd been a huge dumbass when he cheated on Brooke even though I don't know her I've been there and no one deserves to be betrayed like that. Nathan seemed like he was the stronger one. He was probably the brawn out of the two. Lucas problem solved and thought everything out and Nathan made sure it happened. So they were the brains and the brawn. I smiled thinking about the episode of the O.C. Where I got that from. I kept comparing this situation to that show, because it seemed to be the only appropriate thing that even came close to what was going on right now.
"I'm on my way." Karen said and hung up. Lucas hung up the phone and turned to us. I was still deep in thought about this mess.
"Allie Allie!" He said a little louder and I looked up.
"You okay?" Luas asked.
"I'm good sorry I was just thinking." I said trying to stop all the thoughts running through my mind.
"She's on her way." He said.
"How long will it take her to get here?" Nathan asked.
"She'll be here tomorrow can you stay that long?" Lucas asked looking at me.
"That's fine I brought enough clothes for that long." I said nodding.
"I noticed your shirt and I'm very impressed." Nathan said smirking I looked down at it.
"I'm a Duke fan what can I say?" I said grinning slightly and getting up to put my bowl in the sink like they had.
"She's a Bobcats fan to?" Lucas asked amused. I turned around nodding.
"Of course." I said leaning against the sink.
"You definitely just scored a bunch of points with me I already know I'm going to play at Duke next year and after that get drafted to the Bobcats." He said with a cocky smirk and I rolled my eyes playfully.
"Sound pretty sure of yourself Scott." I challenged raising my eyebrows.
"I am." He said arrogantly.
"Basketball's my favorite sport to watch and play. The playoffs have been on all month, but it's hard to get time to watch tv in the home. I read the paper and I know the Bobcats are still in it. I hope they win." I said and they both had the same surprised look on their faces.
"What?" I asked.
"You love basketball?" Nathan asked with a smile.
"Always have." I said with a grin.
"I think that confirms she's a Scott." Lucas said. Nathan shook his head agreeing.
"Are you any good?" He asked.
"I'm decent." I said shrugging. I was pretty good. Patrick and Justin play on the varsity team so I always used to play with them. I clenched my jaw as I thought of them.
"We should go to the river court and introduce you to the guys." Lucas said getting up.
"Are you sure?" I asked. If I was leaving tomorrow after talking to Karen what was the point in meeting their friends?
"Yeah she won't be here until tomorrow anyway so we should introduce you to our friends." Nathan said getting up also. He was already dressed in black basketball shorts and a blue Ravens shirt.
"Okay if you're sure." I said still standing by the sink.
"We can get a pickup game with them Scotts versus everyone else." Nathan said smirking at Lucas.
"That would be interesting." He smirked back.
"If we're going to play I don't have anything to wear." I said. I thought about bringing long basketball shorts, but decided against it and I didn't have the right shoes.
"I could lend you some shorts." Lucas said and I nodded hoping it had a drawstring on them.
"What about shoes?" I asked.
"I have extras, but they'd be way to big." He said.
"Same mine wouldn't fit you." Nathan said.
"It's not a big deal I never wear shoes anyway." I said shrugging.
"You should wear basketball shoes." Nathan said.
"It's really fine I used to play all the time without them my feet got pretty tough so it's okay." I said meaning every word. I always played with the guys without shoes.
"If that's okay with you then it's cool." Lucas said I nodded. It wouldn't bother me.
"I'll get you some shorts." Lucas said walking to his room.
"This'll be fun." Nathan said smiling.
"You like showing off don't you?" I mused looking at him.
"I'm not going to lie I do." He said laughing.
"If you can back up your talk with how you play then you shouldn't have a problem." I said accepting the shorts Lucas handed to me.
"I always do." He said confidentley. I nodded smiling and walking to Lucas's room to change. I put his shorts on that were pretty long and they had a drawstring so that was good. I packed another t-shirt I planned to wear to sleep in tonight, but I put it on and slipped my flip flops on.
"Ready?" Lucas asked as he finished tying his basketball shoes. That was sort of a loaded question. Ready to what? Meet your best friends, meet my real mom, go back to my miserable world of dark nothingness? Honestly the first two I wasn't that ready for. The third one I'd become so used to I was always ready for that. The mask was on.
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
I will never feel anything else, until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything til I break away from me
I will break away, I'll find myself today
"Ready." I said believably. I rode with Nathan in his piece of crap of a car. It made me laugh when the music system didn't work.
"You should really fix that." I pointed out.
"Really? I hadn't noticed anything was wrong." He said sarcastically.
"Oh so Nathan Scott you're a smartass and a show off." I said smirking.
"Something like that." He agreed smirking matching mine again. We had the same hair, same eyes and same smirk it was pretty creepy.
"So we're meeting Mouth and them right?" I asked making sure I knew who these people were.
"Yeah I wasn't always friends with them, but now we're cool." He said as we pulled in and Lucas parked right next to us in his red truck. There were 4 guys shooting hoops. I had never once cared if someone was going to like me until yesterday now I was caring what people thought. Deep down I wanted these people to like me. Not just their friends but them and Karen. I hated feeling so self concious and insecure.
"They're going to like you." Nathan said answering my thoughts like Lucas had. I nodded at him forcing a smile and getting out. Nathan sat there for a second feeling strange. He was hanging out with this girl like they'd been friends forever. She was probably his sister it seemed unreal. A lot of crazy things had happened in his life, but a sister he never knew existed? That definitely topped the rest. She seemed like a cool person. She loved basketball, she had a good personality, decent taste in music he knew Peyton would freak out over, a cheerleader it was pretty insane how comfortable he was with her already. The conversation so far hadn't been forced. Her sarcastic nature matched his. She had the same smirk as he and Lucas. The facts were right in front of them. He got out and walked to the court with them.
"Who's that girl with Luke and Nate?" Junk asked.
"I've never seen her before." Mouth said looking closely. He noticed the hair color was the same as Nathan's as she walked next to him and Lucas. She also wasn't wearing any shoes. The 3 of us walked to center of the court where they were. Lucas and Nathan all did the guy clap thing with everyone.
"So this is Allie. Allie this is Mouth, Skillz, Fergie, and Junk." Lucas said pointing to each guy as he said their names.
"Nice to meet you." I said feeling awkward.
"You too." They said.
"She loves basketball so we thought we'd play the 3 of us against you 3." Lucas said. They looked surprised but nodded.
"You got game?" Skillz asked. I grabbed the basketball from him and dribbled between my legs while walking to the freethrow line. I stared at all of them while I did my routine and shot the ball never taking my eyes off of them. It swished and I smirked in triumph as I saw all their jaws drop. It had taken a really long for me to get that shot down, but once I had it I shot it all the time showing off.
"I'm decent." I said repeating what I said earlier in the kitchen. Lucas and Nathan looked at each other thinking the same exact thing I could tell.
"Let the games begin." Lucas said smirking at me grabbing the ball. We started playing and Mouth was commentating the whole time. He was amazing at it he was quick and paid attention to all the details of what was going on.
"Hey Allie what's your last name? I need to know for when you get the ball." Mouth said after a minute. I don't know why I didn't automatically say Valmont. I started to, but stopped and glanced at the boys. They were also wondering if we should tell. I'm sure the others were wondering how I knew the Scott brothers anyway. Nathan shrugged and Lucas looked at me and nodded. We still didn't know for sure if I had the same dad as them I shouldn't say Scott, but it felt better saying that than Valmont. I took the risk even though we didn't know and answered, "Scott." He looked at me confused and so did the other 3 boys.
My head was spinning I couldn't believe I just called myself a Scott. I shouldn't have done that. I didn't know yet and even if I was it wouldn't matter. My eyes clouded over as I looked at the 6 boys in front of me. I was getting too attached already I couldn't believe I let myself do that. I knew I shouldn't have come here I was going to get abandoned again I would end up alone. Why try to be happy when I knew it wouldn't last?
I wanna heal I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I've held so long
Erase all the pain til it's gone
I wanna heal I wanna feel
Like I'm close to something real
I wanna find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
"Hey Allie are you okay?" Nathan asked concerned walking up to me. I backed up guarded. 'Shit what's happening?' I thought. I looked into his eyes and I saw the worry. I only met him last night how was he already worried about me?
"I'm fine." I said immediately. This wasn't me. I wasn't fine. I was empty.
"I'm sorry I'm okay." I said in a convincing voice looking right at him.
"You sure?" Lucas asked concerned also. I nodded.
"Yeah I just sort of zoned out I'm fine I promise." I lied. Empty words, empty promises, no one knew the difference.
"Okay." He said slowly looking at me like Nathan is.
"It's good I'm good." I said forcing another smile. I had almost convinced them I was perfectly fine. I had to keep it up for just one more day. I pretended everyday for the rest of the world this shouldn't be any different. For some reason it was.
"Is it just a huge coincidence your last name is Scott or is there something you want to tell us?" Skillz asked looking at the 3 of us.
"It's a really long story, but what you're thinking it's true. She's our sister." Lucas said and put his hand softly on my shoulder. I froze again like the night before.
'Relax Allie.' I told myself and I wasn't as tense.
"Your sister?" Fergie asked the boys nodded.
"How?" Mouth asked.
"Like I said long story, but-." I cut him off. I might as well tell my story.
"I was adopted and I just found out yesterday morning who my real mom is. Karen Roe." I said and they all had the same look as the boys the night before.
"Karen?" Junk asked. I nodded in confirmation.
"Whoa she gave you up?" Mouth asked.
"I know we called her this morning and I told her she's on her way back now to explain everything that happened." Lucas said taking his hand off of her shoulder. She didn't liked to be touched that was obvious.
"I don't see how this is possible." Skillz said.
"We don't know for sure who her dad is we think it's Dan." Nathan said noticing Allie tense up and wondered the same thing last night. Why did she freeze when she was touched?
"No way that's impossible." Mouth said looking at Lucas.
"We think I don't know who else it would be and we're all really confused about it so we're waiting for my mom to come back and tell us the story." He said.
"Wow baby Scott." Skillz said in disbelief and I had to bite back a smile at the nickname.
"We think so." Nathan said grinning at the sound of baby Scott.
"That is really unexpected." Fergie said.
"I was surprised when the lawyers showed up and gave me information on her." I said.
"You just found out yesterday?" Junk asked.
"Yeah I got curious and my adoptive parents died in March so they didn't care obviously." I said trailing off knowing they wouldn't have cared even if they were alive.
"I'm sorry." Mouth said.
"It's okay I'm over it." I said in a careless voice.
"Where are you from?" Skillz asked.
"Charlotte." I said they nodded.
"How old are you?" Fergie asked.
"I'll be 16 in August." I said.
"So Luke you were only 2-2 in a half do you remember anything about your mom being pregnant?" Mouth asked still not believing there was potentially another Scott member in Tree Hill.
"I don't remember anything at all." He said.
"Is there a reason why you guys put all the Scotts on the same team against us?" Junk joked trying to lighten the mood.
"We're testing her basketball skills and that'll tell us I'm pretty sure with that free throw it makes you think we're right." Nathan said pulling on my ponytail lightly. I smirked out of habit. It's funny they think if I'm really good at basketball that makes me a Scott. I guess they're basketball gods here or something.
"Do you want to keep playing?" I asked them.
"Sure let's see what you got baby Scott!" Skillz said smiling and I was becoming overwhelmed again with the feeling of comfort. How were these people reacting so well? At first they're shocked then after I explain a little they're completely calm. It was amazing. I could see why these guys were so close they were all good people. I smirked stripping him of the ball and going in for a lay up making it easily.
"Oh 2 points for team Scott!" Mouth said happily sitting back down commentating the rest of the game.
I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
I wanna heal I wanna feel like I'm somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
I'm stopping there for now. Please drop a review and I promise the next chapter will be Allie meeting Haley, Peyton, and Jake. Karen will come back and explain everything. Thanks for reading!! 'Somewhere I belong' by Linkin Park I'll try not to repeat songs I've used in my other stories, but it'll be hard.
Xoxo Marissa
