Stefan walked me up to my room. He even helped me change into my pajamas… I had asked him to my clothes were still a little damp and stuck to my skin a little to much for my hyped-up sense's liking…well it's not like it's anything he hasn't seen before. He put me in my bed and tucked the covers in around me. He shyly leaned in and planted a kiss on my forehead. I leaned into his lips, and he lingered there for a long while. I put my hands against his face and trailed them down his shoulders, until our fingertips met. I felt so safe with him. It was just so right and warm and I genuinely felt like everything would be okay as long he was there. And as long as he was loving me. I pulled back slightly to look in his eyes. My gazed trailed down his beautifully sculpted face and settled on his lips. His perfect lips. I looked up again to meet his eyes. His perfect green eyes. Everything about him, it was all perfect. Yeah, I thought. This is just what love should be. He stood up, about to walk out but I grabbed hold of his hand. I didn't know what I was going to say.

"I don't want to complete the transition Stefan." I said breaking into tears. God, I was so sick of crying… why was I crying so much? He squeezed my hand and I could tell he was on the verge of crying as well.

"I know," He said. And he walked out.

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I was in my room, listening to Stefan and Damon argue downstairs. I heard a knock on the door, and Jeremy walked in, keeping the door half closed.

"You have visitors." He said smiling, and holding the door open. I saw Bonnie and Caroline, walk through the door. Bonnie stood reserved next to Jeremy but gave me a genuine smile, whilst Caroline ran into my arms.

"Hey," she said, with her face buried in my neck.

"Hi," I said as I pulled out of the hug to look at her.

"Are you okay?" she said as tears ran down her face. Looking me over as if to see any damage done.

I started to nod and give a fake smile, but a sob broke through and I just couldn't lie to her.

"No," I said shaking my head, and the tears came streaming. As she gave a sympathetic look and pulled me back in for a hug.

"I'm so sorry." She said rocking me, and cradling my head. I was so tired of crying. I felt like the tears just kept coming and I didn't know why. I heard more footsteps, outside my door and I pulled away from Caroline again. Matt walked, tentatively through my door. I ran up to him and fell into his arms. He held me tight against his chest, and I could hear him crying. He pulled back for a moment, held my face, and looked me in the eyes.

"Elena, why did you do it?" He asked firmly. But we both were sobbing against each other, before I could answer. He pulled me back against his chest, and we held each other crying.

Then I was really hungry, my mouth was watering, Matt smelled really good.

I pushed him away, and ran to stand behind Caroline. It dawned upon everyone what had just happened, and the awkward silence of the century filled the room. Jeremy ushered Matt and Bonnie out of the room and I was left with Caroline.

"So…" Caroline was staring at the ground. "What are you gonna do?" she asked, looking back up at me.

"I don't know." I said, which was probably the most honest thing I had said today. Because I didn't.

I just didn't know.

"Jeremy, said that I shouldn't think-" I staggered into a sob. "I shouldn't take him into consideration, but I want to." Caroline rubbed my arm, comfortingly.

"I mean, I have to he's my brother, you know?" Caroline nodded and took my hand in hers. "I don't want to die, but I really, really don't want to be a vampire either. I mean it's so much to think about, 'cause I can't just leave every one, especially Jer. I mean, he's my little brother and your supposed to look out for your little brother. And Stefan and Damon, I mean what am I supposed to do about them? If I die now, then everything between them would just be left unresolved, and they might not ever be able to be brothers again, and I don't want all that on my shoulders."

Caroline gave an understanding nod and a silent appreciation, as she held my hand a little tighter. "I- I love them and I'll be damned if death is piece without all of you. But then again, living as a vampire, that would just… that would be hell all the same." She squeezed my hand, again.

"Elena, if I know you." She paused and returned her gaze to the floorboard. "I mean you would do anything for Jeremy. And don't take this the wrong way, but I know you would do the same for Stefan… and Damon." She sighed reluctantly. I knew where she and Damon stood. "You are the most selfless person I know, and if I were trying to speed things up, I would say there is only one conclusion you'll arrive at. We can't live without you, we need you, Elena. And without you, we would fall apart; in the end we all know that you won't let that happen. 'Cause you just care too damn much." She finished, blinking back tears of her own. I thought about what she said, and I knew she was right. I loved them all too much, and I could never leave them behind. I got up from bed and headed downstairs.