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Chapter 3: Face-off

In one of Akatsuki's hideouts…

"What you are telling us is that you sent Hinata on this mission because you don't trust her?" the Leader asks Itachi, he just stays silent as he looks at the Leader.

"No, I'm not so sure she has broken all ties to her village," Itachi informs him.

"I've never trusted her," Sasori says.

"What do you mean? How can you not trust Hinata, she's perfect, she is the perfect assassin," Kisame defends his student, Itachi just stays quiet.

"No, she isn't, what kind of assassin or killer, doesn't enjoy slaughtering people? Can you answer me that?" Hidan asks.

"She wastes too much money for her own good, we should just kill her and get it over with, do you know how much money we'd save?" Kakuzu says.

"All you care about is money, umm…She has never betrayed us and never will," Deidara says sounding confident.

"How can you be so sure? Her own teacher doubts her and he's known her the longest," Sasori says.

"Itachi why did you send her on that mission?" the Leader asks him.

"I want to test her," he tells them. They all stay silent at his short response and it doesn't really answer anything but instead it causes everyone to doubt her even more. The Leader clears his throat and says.

"Get started to bring the one-tailed beast," he says before leaving.


"It's very suspicious, the way he sent me on this mission, don't you agree Ducky?" I ask my tiger that can't talk back to me; I look behind me only to find I'm all alone. "You could've told me you were leaving me!" I yell out.

I continue to walk I just have this feeling inside me that's causing me to doubt Itachi. Why would they send me out on this mission for a whole month and on my own? Something fishy is going on here and I doubt that I'm going to find out what it is until it's too late.


We make our way towards Akatsuki's hideout where they have Gaara; I still can't believe they actually got him.

But most of all I still can't wrap my head around the fact that Gaara is the Kazekage of his village, don't get me wrong I'm happy for him. I mean there isn't anyone else who could defend his village better then Gaara, he's suffered just as much as me, he's been through much more shit then anyone else has been through. So I know that Gaara will do everything in his power to protect everyone, just like what I want to do.

I must save him, I have to!!

"You've grown quiet Naruto, anything you want to talk about?" I hear Kakashi sensei ask me, I look back at him.

"It's just now that I think about it, I'll be able to save two of my friends," I tell them.

"Two?" Sakura asks me, I nod.

"Gaara and Hinata," I say.

"What makes you think she'll be there?" Kakashi asks me, I look at him confused.

"She told me before she left that she was going to join Akatsuki and become Itachi's student so why wouldn't she be where Gaara is?" I ask them, I watch both Kakashi sensei and Sakura look at each other, I grow nervous. "What aren't you telling me?" I ask they both stay quiet as they look at each other once more before Kakashi clears his throat.

"Have you heard of White Doom?" he asks me, I nod.

"Yeah, when Ero-sennin and I were traveling we'd pass by some of the village's where she killed, some of the people who have actually seen her say she looks like the Goddess of Death, whatever the hell that means. But, I remember we passed by a man she left alive just long enough so that he could talk. I remember he said she was a was a merciless monster, that it was scary how she killed without showing how she feels, that she was devoid of every emotion. The way he said it…" I shake as I remember that man, the man was missing his two legs and one arm, the way he crawled with one arm to come to us, the fear in his eyes, how when he talked you could hear how scared he was, that he experienced true terror, terror that is beyond this world. "You could hear the fear in his voice as he talked, and just when he finished a few seconds later he died. All I know is that if I face White Doom, I'm going to give her a piece of my mind than I'll kill her," I tell them my voice full of anger. All three of my teammates stay quiet.

"What if we told you that we know the identity of 'White Doom' and that you actually know her," Sakura says to me quietly, I laugh.

"What are you going to tell me it's you," I laugh harder. "You got granny's manly-abnormal-totally-weird strength but you aren't that good-" I tell her but I stop as I notice her eyebrow twitch and her hands clench into fists, I get scared as she looks at me her killing intent evident, I look at the black aura surrounding her, I gulp, now I've done it.

"No, actually it's not Sakura but its…it is Hinata," Kakashi sensei tells me.

I heard him but after he said her name, I couldn't hear anything, I can't hear me landing on the branches, or the wind, I look up to find Sakura's mouth moving but I can't hear her words, I feel my pulse quicken, I feel my heart beating so fast that it hurts. My whole world has gone silent.

Is it true?

Could Hinata really be White Doom? Could she really be that ruthless killer? Could she have really stooped so low that she'd kill innocent people, people who can't defend themselves against a powerful shinobi like her?

She wouldn't! She's not that kind of shinobi, she isn't! She can't be White Doom, she just can't.

Hinata is kind, she's everything good in a person…she is the perfect girl.

"Hinata isn't White Doom," I whisper.

"She is Naruto, the Hokage has confirmed the identity of White Doom and its Hinata, I'm sorry Naruto, that must be painful but, it's true," Sakura tells me in a soft voice.

My heart is asking me to believe in Sakura and Kakashi sensei, they wouldn't lie to me. As much as it hurts to believe them, I know they speak the truth. I stay quiet I could feel their gaze on me as I stay quiet and absorb the news.

So Hinata is White Doom does it change how I feel about her?

I don't even have to think about it, my feelings for her haven't changed one bit, if anything my need to save her has.

My heart is telling me that there's something more to her betrayal, something she didn't tell me about.

"It doesn't matter," I inform them, they all look taken back. "To me, the fact that she is White Doom does not matter; she's still the same shy-little Hinata Hyuga."

"You can't honestly believe that Naruto!" Sakura yells at me, I don't look at her as I continue.

"I do believe it; I don't care what she is. I still care for her. I remember the little girl that asked to be my friend. How she and Sasuke, were my first friends. How the both of them accepted me even knowing I have this monster inside of me. She always had kind words for me and encouraged me. How, even when I didn't believe in myself she did, Hinata always did. I will save her, I'll save her from Itachi, and if I have to I'll beat some sense into her and bring her back home. Then Hinata and I will go get Sasuke and bring him back home too. We'll go back to being the punk, the misfit, and the failure; it'll be like the old days. They will be by my side when I become Hokage." I look forward not looking at any of my teammates but, I could feel them smiling at my back, so I smile forward knowing I will bring back my two friends, I hear Kakashi sensei sigh, I look back at him.

"I had a feeling you'd say that," he tells me with what I could only say is a smile.

"I'll help too! I'll do anything to help bring Sasuke back and Hinata too," Sakura tells us, I smile at them.

"Thanks but, right now isn't the time to be thinking about that, we have a mission," I tell them with a smile.

We jump off the branches and onto the ground only to be greeted by Itachi.

"So they sent a welcome party, how about that," I tell Itachi.

"Don't look into his eyes," Kakashi sensei warns us, so we all look to the ground as Kakashi starts to fight with Itachi.

"You," Itachi says I was about to look up but, then I remembered Kakashi's warning and look at the finger he's pointing at me instead. "Are coming with me," he tells me.

"No, where is Hinata?" I ask him, I hear some rustling in some nearby bushes that are behind Itachi, I look up to find Hinata in back of him.

I look at her shocked but most of all I'm happy to see her. But then I notices her hair, it's brown instead of the dark blue, and her eyes, those beautiful vibrant pale blue eye's look dead. They look empty, sad, and dark like they've seen too many ugly things, it scares me.

She doesn't even look at me; I blink only to find her behind me cutting Sakura and Chiyo down, they were shocked at how fast she was, they didn't even have time to defend themselves, I look at their dead bodies with a surprised expression on their faces. When did she even unsheathe her katana, I didn't even hear her do it. I look over at Kakashi sensei only to find his body falling to the ground with his head missing, I look at Hinata to find her once white kimono is the same color as her obi, a blood red, she throws something at me, I catch it, only to see that it's Kakashi's missing head in my hands, I let go of it. This urge to throw-up takes over, I swallow down the urge, I watch as she starts to walk over to Itachi, I run at her and grab onto her shoulders.

I look into those dead eye's, God it hurts, it hurts to see her once emotion filled eye's are now blank, nothing in them. I also feel scared, I start to shake her, hard, hoping to get a reaction out of her but nothing, I feel the fear slowly take over, I will it away though, I have nothing to fear. I blink and when I open my eye's I find her kneeling before Itachi, how could she have gotten out of my hold so quickly?

"Hinata what's wrong with you? Snap out of it!" I yell at her, she doesn't move as she kneels there still, bowing her head at him.

"She won't listen to you," I hear Itachi's voice. "She belongs to me," he says it like it's a fact, I shake with anger.

"That's bullshit, Hinata belongs to no-"but I wasn't able to finish because he looks down at Hinata and tells her in that stupid-detached voice of his.

"Capture it."

"Yes, my Master," Hinata says in a similar voice like Itachi's she gets up and walks over to me, I look at her as she reaches behind her to get her katana. I look at the hilt and it's white, next thing I know she stands before me, she brings down her sword on me but she gives me enough time to evade it, she does this for a while pushing me back but not actually cutting me, that is before she decides to take me seriously and cuts me, she cuts me so deep that I felt her katana cut into my bone, I hold in my scream of pain as I look at this stranger before me.

"Really Naruto," she sighs as she looks at me standing a few feet away from her, I bring my arm down to my side ignoring the pain from my arm and heart as I look at her. "How do you expect to save the Kazekage if you couldn't even stop the Traitor from leaving the village?" she asks me letting out another sigh.

"As it turns out I wasn't the only one not being able to bring Sasuke back," I tell her, she looks at me confusion on her face as she scratches the back of her head. "I'll be Hokage someday so of course, I'll save Gaara," I inform her. She looks at me her face totally blank then she does the thing I least expected out her.

She giggles, she begins to giggle like a madwomen, I look at her not understanding what's so funny, then she puts her sword into the ground and begins to laugh really loud. She puts her head in one hand and the other holds onto her stomach.

She gives me her back to look at Itachi, still laughing.

"Master Itachi," she says between laughs. "Naruto is better at telling jokes then me…I bet if Master Kisame were here he'd be laughing his head off," she finishes with this really loud laugh.

"I agree," Itachi says from over at his place, where he is leaning against a tree looking at us. Hinata turns around to face me wiping away the few tears that fell out of her eyes.

"You made me laugh so hard that my stomach hurts," she whines at me sounding like a child, she gets a hold of her katana's hilt then looks at me.

For some reason my whole body begins to shake as I look at her she turns serious as she walks closer to me, ever so slowly, I feel as if I'm an innocent-defenseless prey to a big-hungry tiger, that gets a kick out of chasing it's meal. I tell my body to stop shaking but it doesn't listen. I tell it, it's only Hinata, but it still doesn't listen.

"You're so full of yourself," she starts off in a low-serious voice. "How could a kid like you even think of a achieving such a dream? It's foolish! No matter how hard you try, you won't ever get the respect that comes with that stupid title…You are only the container of the nine-tails, nothing more. No one fears you; they fear the thing inside of you. No one care's if you die today, no one, not the Traitor or me."

How could her words have shaken me? Now I'm starting to doubt myself, I feel the fear creep in as I look at her. Do her words matter to me so much? How stupid could I have been to actually believe I could save her!! She's beyond my or anyone's help there is no hope for her. The Hinata I knew was killed and buried deep in the earth, too deep to dig her out.

I doubt I could defeat her, how could she have gotten this good in just three years?

"You'll never reach the Traitor or me with your mediocre talent. Well if you could even call it that. The only thing you have going for you is your chakra, other then that you have nothing, no talent or skill. It won't matter how long you train be it three years or a thousand years, you'll never develop into anything."

I feel my anger bubble inside of me. "You've changed," I tell her.

"I'm glad you noticed," she flashes me that fake smile. "Yes, I was weak before, now I have strength and talent. Two things you'll never achieve," she finishes with that smile of hers. I go at her with the nine-tails chakra since she sucked away all of my own. "God, you're so predictable," she tells me with a laugh.

"You shouldn't talk to your friend like that," five of me tell her as we surround her.

We go at her with kunai in our hands, she jumps up in the air kicking two away, then she spins while in the air and brings down her sword on one of my heads and the other she grabs by the collar throwing him over her head. The one with the sword in his head disappears, three of the last four of us go at her again but she quickly gets rid of two of them, then the last one goes at her with one objective on his mind. He kicks her hand which cause's her to let go of her sword and it flies in the air and lands up in a branch.

She looks at me surprised, and then begins to laugh and a scary smile appears on her lips.

"This has just turned interesting," she says that sinister smile on her lips. I create much more shadow clones and they all go at her, I notice her get a hold of another sword and this one has flames swirling, two swirls both of them going up the blade, and she easily destroys all of my shadow clones.

"I guess I could admit that your good at the shadow clones, oh and I can't forget those perverted jutsus," she says sounding bored.

Then two of my shadow clones appear behind her and get a hold of her arms, she looks at them surprised then looks up to the sky.

"I guess I should've activated the Byakugan," she says out loud, then sighs. "I got careless, again. I should blame Master Kisame, since he is always telling me, I'm great. I take his words seriously so I don't try as hard as I should, you know? Oh, I forgot, you wouldn't understand since no one has kind words for you, huh Naruto?" she asks me I just look at her, how could in the three years we last saw each other, how could she have changed so much. She looks behind her at Itachi.

"Master Itachi how about lending your loyal subordinate a hand?" she asks him, a smile appearing on her lips as she looks back at him.

"I can't since you got into this mess in the first place," he responds, she lets out a huff and stomps her foot, if she could I wouldn't doubt she would've folded her arms across her chest, like a toddler throwing a temper tantrum.

"Fine, next time you ask for my help I just might not agree to help you," she tells him without looking back at him. I could almost see a smile appear on his lips under the cloak.

"Fine, I'll remember it," he tells her as she smiles at the ground, then looks up at me.

I watch at what I see before my eyes, I watch as the Hinata before me disappears and in her place leaves are flying everywhere.

All three of us look around for her but she destroys my two clones and before I know it she kicks me up in the sky I watch as she waves at me and smiles then with her katana she throws flames at me.

I wait until the flames disappear and stand before her then punch her in the stomach. She falls to her knees before me holding onto her stomach and letting go of her katana.

"You are returning to the village with me whether you like it or not," I tell her seriously, she looks up at me.

"How do you plan to do that?" she asks me quietly, I look down at her and smile.

"By force," I watch as her lips form the first genuine smile she's used since I first saw her again.

"The only way I'm returning to that village is dead," she tells me turning serious.

"But we are going to need your help if we plan on getting Sasuke back," I tell her. I watch as her eyes close off right before me, she stands up and looks at me, I see this black-ugly chakra surround her, I feel her killing intent, I feel as if I have a knife to my throat. I don't breath, blink or move, afraid that anything might set her off and she'll end up killing me.

"The only thing I plan to do is to kill him really slow, I'll stay by his side watching as all of his blood comes out, until there is nothing of it left in his body. I'll stay there watching him die slowly and painfully by my own hands," she tells me with that evil smile on her lips.

"Did I not mention the name of him sets her off, and not in a good way?" Itachi says to me but I ignore him as I look into her pale blue eyes.

"Why?" I whisper, she looks into my eyes and for a second I saw loneliness and sorrow flash in them.

"I can't stand him any longer. Also because he beat me and I want to pay him back for that," she tells me as she looks at me but it looks like she's lost and faraway, she gives her head a little shake as if to clear her mind, then she focuses all her attention on me. "I'd like to kill you too, for being stupid but, my Master wishes you to be alive still," she tells me then I see something flash in her eyes that look's like excitement. "I know!" she says in an enthusiastic voice almost like a child's voice. "I'll almost kill you! I'll play with you until you are almost dead! That way I'll be keeping Master's orders intact and I could have fun! How does that sound nine-tails?"

I begin to shake with anger as she gets a hold of her katana and I see the flames swirl around the blade.

"Why have you changed so much?" I ask her, she stops as she looks at me with those eyes, the one's that I remembered and dreamed about the one's that used to bring me warmth and love, now all they bring to me is fear and emptiness. I still can't wrap my head around her change.

"I haven't changed Naruto," she tells me in a soft sad voice. "I've always been like this, that's why Master picked me," she tells me, I look at her confused at her change.

"It's a lie!" I tell her feeling the fox's chakra react.

"It's not, I've always been like this, nothing you do will change that fact," she tells me.

"It doesn't matter! I'm going to end this now and bring you back to the village," I tell her as I create a shadow clone. I create the Great Ball Spiraling Sphere with the help of my clone, we run at her yelling, she looks into my eyes, I know she'll try to avoid getting hit but to my surprise she didn't, it connected with her and she goes flying back, I stand here unable to move, I watch as she looks over at me, coughing up blood.

"Why didn't you avoid it?" I whisper to her as I find my feet moving towards her, she looks like she's in some serious pain, I feel the tears form in my eyes and they start to fall.

"I-I…want you to suffer…forever…relive this moment…the rest of your life…remember you killed me…" she says but then I watch her eyes soften and tears start to fall out of her eyes, I kneel next to her and she reaches up to touch my cheek. "I'm sorry…" she whispers taking her last breath before dying.

I cry harder but then I feel someone behind me and look back to find Sakura and Chiyo.

For a minute I stay confussed but then I get it, I look over at Itachi who is fighting Kakashi sensei. I get angry, I still feel the tears in my eyes as they continue to fall.

I watch as Itachi smiles and Kakashi sensei comes over to us.

"Where's Hinata?" I yell wiping away the tears.

"On a mission," he answers me. I think back to Hinata and my fight while I was in the genjutsu.

"Is she that strong?" I ask him.

"No," he says, I let out a sigh. "She is much more stonger," he tells me, I feel the core of me left shaken by his words, I begin to shake on the outside. Much more stonger? And this is coming from Itachi a man who does not give out kind words or praise. "She's most likely better then Sasuke but, since I haven't seen him in three years, I can't tell. But, let me say this, in a few years she'll probably be as good as me, she might even surpass me. Want to know what the best part is…" I wait and watch as he gives me that evil grin. "She belongs to me." I was about to attack him but Kakashi sensei stops me.

"This situation calls for teamwork, wouldn't you agree, Naruto?" Kakashi sensei asks me, I nod. "But first let me continue then well work together," I nod again and wait, until he needs my help.


I walk around the village looking for anyone I might've over looked. I see a women in her late twenties get up and start walking away, blood spilling out of her fatal wounds.

"Don't you want to die peacefully instead of in agony?" I ask the lady.

"My d-daughter m-must p-p-protect m-my daughter," she says in a low voice, it hears hollow, I step behind her and was about to cut off her head but she turned around to look at me and whispers. "I f-forgive you…b-b-but please p-protect my d-d-daughter…" I cut off her head.

"There's nothing for you to forgive me for, it's not like I enjoy this but it's my mission," I tell the dead corpse.

I begin to walk away looking at the now defeated village. Some of the houses are on fire while others are beginning to catch on fire. I look at the ground to find my shoes in a river of blood, I look at the dead bodies, arms, legs, heads, hands all detached from different bodies. How weird I would think it would hurt me to kill all these innocent people but the truth is…I got a little excited…I remember hearing their yells and a nice, warm shiver went up my spine.

"Shit!!! I have to get out soon or else…" but I heard movement behind me, I activate the Byakugan to see a young girl under the women I just killed.

I go over to her as the little girl gets out from under her mom to look up at me, her eyes growing huge. She has blue eyes and blond hair like a certain boy I used to know. I put Attainment at her throat and she looks up at me no fear in her eyes only compassion, I feel shaken, I swallow down my saliva.

"I'm going to kill you, aren't you scared?" I ask the little girl, she keeps her eye contact with me, no tears in her eyes, she isn't afraid of me, she smiles at me.

"No, you look like a nice girl. Your pretttyyy!" she says to me. I look at her surprised. I let go of my two swords and fall to my knees, I feel the warm tears fall down my blood splattered face. The girl keeps looking at me, with those haunting blue eyes, the one's that seem to look into my soul, I feel naked and exposed.

"Why are you crying?" she asks me sounding concerned. I reach out with my trembling hand to hold on to Attainment's hilt, and put it at the side of her throat, she looks at the sword but then looks at my tears and reaches out to wipe them away. "It's okay," she whispers like she's telling me a sceret. "Mommy always says that it's okay to cry." I look at her and Attainment slides out of my hold and falls to the ground.

"Am I getting rusty?" I ask as I look down at my bloody hands.

"R-rusty what's that? Huh?" the little girl asks me, I look into her big owl-like eyes. Her eyes are scary I know they will haunt me in my sleep. I begin to cry silently then I sob.

How could I have done this? How could I have let this happen? Everything is getting out of hand! Everything is spiraling out of my control! Why have I gone this far, for what purpose?

I feel the girls little arms wrap around my back. I stop sobbing, I only hiccup as I feel the little girls warmth. I close my eyes. When was the last time I was held like this? When was the last time I exprencied this type of warmth?

Naruto, yes it was with Naruto before he left to retrieve Sasuke he hugged me, and that was the last time I felt the warmth, that is until now.

I sob, harder, louder; my throat begins to hurt as does my stomach.

How did I become so weak? How did this little girl make me break down like this? Why her?

But then I remembered her eyes and hair, Naruto, she looks like Naruto. She didn't even blink when I put my blade to her throat. She has his strength and courage.

I miss him! I miss his laugh, warmth, confidence, stubbornness, courage, strength, goofiness; I just miss everything about him.

What I wouldn't give to see and talk to him again.

"Its okay my friend," I hear the little girls voice. "Everything will turn out fine."

How was it that I've never experienced true pain until now? Sure I was hurt a few times during some fights but this pain in my chest that has been slowly consuming me. This pain that I have felt after killing people, the one that I ignored, the pain that I hid in the deepest part of my soul. Is now gathering inside of me and it will stay there forever out in the open.

But, I don't care I deserve this pain; this is what I must live with it, that is my fate.

I get up and go into one of the house's that haven't caught on fire yet and get a scroll out of my pack and begin to write a letter, I write it quickly.

I prepare my chakra and bite down on my thumb, then do the hand signs. Before me appears a white tiger with black strips and blue eyes, she's as tall as me.

"Hello Aoi," I say to her as I bow at her.

"You reek of human blood," she says to me, I look down at my bloody kimono, and then look at her.

"Didn't you know it's the newest fashion craze, in the shinobi world," I say to her.

"Hmph, what the hell do you want?" she asks me.

"Shesh, I never really liked your temper, Aoi," I tell her she begins to growl at me a low-deadly one. "But, then again it's one of your best qualities!" I say to her.

"Why did you summon me? I was busy talking with Sakuya," she says to me, I freeze as I look at her, I stay silent unable to talk but then I hear my voice ask.

"How is she?" I whisper.

"Fine as can be, considering she has a knife stuck in her back, she's had that knife there for three years now," Aoi tells me softly, I look into her eyes.

"She told me not to summon her," I tell her being serious.

"Hmph! You actually listened to her! You really are stupid," she tells me.

"Pretty lady, where are you? Who are you talking to?" but then the little girl stops in the doorway looking at Aoi. "Wow…" is all she says as she runs over to me. "Can I touch it?" she asks me while looking at Aoi.

"Why don't you ask her, her name is Aoi and she's best friends with the Princess of their Realm," I tell her.

"More like servant," Aoi mutters.

"May I touch you Miss Aoi?" she asks her, and Aoi just nods, I watch as the little girl touches Aoi and walks around Aoi looking at her.

"Are you telling me she isn't angry anymore?" I ask getting back to our previous conversation, hoping it's the truth because I miss my friend.

"Oh, no she's still pissed. But if you ask for forgiveness, she might not kill you," Aoi tells me I sigh.

"I rather not risk my life on Sakuya's whim. I'll wait a bit longer before I ask for her forgiveness," I tell Aoi.

"Yeah, sure whatever," Aoi says sounding bored. "Now, why did you summon me?" she asks, her irritation returning.

"Well I'd like you to use your power to take this girl into safety, well Sado's place is the only place I could think of but, I'm not totally positive it's so safe there. But, I know I could count on him," I say not completely sure what I said is true because Sado is a shady character.

"So you've actually let someone survive?" Aoi asks me as she looks at the little girl. "Ahh, now I get it she looks like Naruto, so you do have a heart," Aoi says to me, I shush her.

"Don't tell anyone about the turn of events, not even Sakuya. Now leave with her before anyone of them decide to make an appearance," I say to her.

"Hey little girl you want to take a ride on me?" Aoi asks, she beams nodding, Aoi lies down and the girl sits up on her back. "Shouldn't you get on also? Now is the perfect time to escape if you want," Aoi says as he lays there waiting, I shake my head and she gets up.

"No, I haven't accomplished my original goal yet," I tell her.

"Which is?" she asks me sounding bored but I saw it in her eyes that she is interested in what I have to say, I send her a secretive smile as I say.

"Nope, I can't even tell you," I laugh at her anger. "Sorry," I say not really meaning it.

"It's not like I care," she says sounding mad, I touch her nose then lean in and kiss it. I go around and hand the scroll to the girl.

"Give this to the man named Sado, he'll take good care of you, I promise," I tell the little girl.

"What about you?" she asks me sounding worried.

"I'll be fine, don't you worry," I tell her with a smile.

"I don't want to go if you aren't going," she says trying to get off of Aoi, I shake my head.

"No, you have to go the place I'm going isn't a place for little kids," I say to her she looks at me with tears in her eyes. "Don't worry we'll see each other again I promise," I whisper to her wiping away her tears. She looks at me then nods, still crying. Then I watch as Aoi and the girl disappear, Aoi has the ability to become invisible, and undetectable to the sharingan or Byakugan. I stand in this empty house, I go outside to gather all the dead bodies so that I could at least give them a grave to rest in peace.


I walk towards the base one week after the month given to me to complete the mission, will I be punished? I near it but then I felt a presence I know, I stay frozen at who is behind me, I'm unable to say anything as I look at him.

"Hey, Hinata how have you been?" he asks me, I go to him and drag him away. I stand before him and kneel in front of him.

"Lord Jiraiya, that was reckless," I say as I look at his feet, I hear him sigh.

"How many times do I have to tell you not to call me Lord Jiraiya, just call me Jiraiya, he says, I nod. "Now get up," I do as he says; he hugs me hard to him. "Oh my loyal little Hinata how I've missed you, a month is too long, tooooo looooooong," he says to me as he hugs me harder. I gasp for breath, then he lets go of me and keeps me at arms length and leaves his hands on my shoulders. "How is my favorite mole?" he asks me smiling, unable to hold back I smile right back at him.

"Fine, thank you for asking," I say to him.

"Do you have any new news to give to me?" he asks me, I shake my head and look to the ground.

"I've been away for a month on a mission assigned to me by Itachi," I tell him.

"So you don't know what's new?" he asks me, I shake my head.

"Itachi and Naruto fought," he tells me. "Naruto told me that Itachi cast a genjutsu on him and made you two fight, he said he was afraid of you, and couldn't believe how strong you've gotten," he says to me, I ask.

"Did Itachi capture him?" I ask him in a hollow voice.

"No, but they did capture the one-tailed beast," he tells me turning serious.

"Gaara the Kazekage is dead?" I whisper.

"No, Chiyo an elder of his village used a jutsu to bring him back to life with the help of Naruto," he tells me.

"I've failed, haven't I?" I whisper as I look at his chest.

"No, Hinata, you haven't there's still tailed beast out there, their objective isn't complete so there's still hope. You haven't failed and you won't," he tells me sounding so sure.

"I knew something was wrong…that's why he sent me on the mission…he doesn't completely trust me," I whisper.

"I guess not… you've done everything to earn his trust but he still doesn't trust you," he says to me, I nod. "Don't you think you should get out now?" he asks me, I look up at him.

"I can't Jiraiya not yet, I'm so close, and I have to stay here in order to help our village, Naruto and Sasuke. I must stay in order to help Sasuke, so that he could finally kill Itachi, I must keep my promise to him at all cost," I say to him, he smiles down at me then nods.

"I can understand," he says. "I just came to make sure you were alright, and to check up on you, I must protect you for Naruto, until he learns the truth it is my duty to protect you," he says as he smiles down at me.

"Thanks, I should be the one to protect you but, I guess I could let you protect me for a while," I say. "I should get going, I'm late they only gave me a month and I'm a week behind," I tell him as I wave at him and begin to run. I look back to find him gone then I crash into someone, I look up to see the sharingan eyes I fear the most. He looks down at me, and looks at where Jiraiya once was; he looks down at me silently accusing me. I look away, unable to look into his eyes, he reaches down for me and takes me away with me towards the base, and I begin to shake in fear wondering what type of punishment I'll receive.


"Hinata if you decide to betray me you better be ready to fight until one of us dies," Itachi tells me as I look at him in shock.

"Master Itachi how could you believe that!" I ask him outraged. "I've belonged to you Itachi, I've belonged to you from the moment we first saw each other. You've known it since then, I belong only to you, Itachi," I tell him as I go to him and kiss him softly on the lips, I feel my tears slide out of the corner of my closed eyes. I sense that he hasn't closed his eyes and he looks at me with his sharingan, I open my eyes to look into his. "I only stayed close to him so that I could feel as if I'm with you," I tell him softly as the tears continue to fall much more freely.

"How could you doubt me?" I whisper to him as I rest my hands on his chest. I look at the cloudy image before me, he walks away from me and goes to the door he opens it and leaves, he locks me in my room. I stand in place until I see him far away from me.

I fall to my knees sobbing, who am I fooling?

I don't get why he didn't say anything to the Leader, instead Itachi just brought me to my room and locked me in, what does he plan to do to me?

I can't take this anymore! I can't pretend to be the perfect girl or the perfect assassin! Can't anybody realize how broken I' am or how fake I really am?

I put my hands into my hair and pull on it. I scream, I let out my anger, my outrage at everyone, I continue to scream at the top of my lungs.

I can't take much more of this! I hate having to pretend liking Itachi, my throat feels raw but I continue to let out my scream.

There's a part of me that fights back, a small part of me that knows.

How I hate this, I hate what I've become, I hate being this fake girl, this wannabe, can't they see how easily I could replaced, why me?

I take in a deep breath, I sob harder, longer, I continue to scream.

I stay on my knees, pulling on my hair, directing my scream at the door.

How could they not even notice how fake I' am, even I don't buy my own disguise.

I can't pretend anymore, I can't take this! It's been three years already. If I stay much longer I will become one of them, I truly lose myself and this time I really will belong to Itachi and be lost forever.

I stop screaming, I continue sobbing, I let go of my hair and make my way to my bed, and I almost fall a few times.

I lay on my bed sobbing, feeling hollow, I feel as if I'm in a deep, dark, ugly fog one that'll always surround me, how could I feel so alone, I try to hold on to the little piece of my old self. The one that has all the good memories of Sarutobi sensei, Sasuke, mom and Naruto, I hold onto these knowing how much they mean to my sanity.

How could I have been crazy enough to actually join Itachi? How could I have hated Sasuke that much, to actually be doing this? For three years.

I need help and soon.

I bury my face in the pillow crying into it and letting out an all new scream I couldn't hold in any longer.

God it hurts.

I feel so alone, so alone…I continue to sob softly into my pillow.


I hope you liked it, and if you want to know why I wanted perverted jokes then you'll have to wait until the next chapter and you'll find out, so until then, I hope you liked it…