"The Hybrid" -M.C Newman Twokinds fanfiction

Chapter 3

The day was closing as night came. Buck was with Kaiya setting up the guest room for her. She was moving in with him and his father. It had taken some time for her to convince Buck into letting her move in, his father had been more then willing to let her stay.

"Yeah. He just loves you Kaiya, real smart of you to ask so soon."

Buck looked at her.

"Kaiya, why are you talking to your self?"

"No reason."

She's nuts. Buck thought to himself. It had been two weeks since Buck had drawn Kaiya her portrait. Kaiya did like him but there was no way she was telling him that.

He finished hanging the last picture and made his way to the door.

"Where are you going?" She said in a girly voice. This was her twelfth attempt at luring him in, and like every other one, it failed. He left the room without saying anything to her. This irritated her, he was acting like a jerk. What could he possibly have against her.

Kaiya went to Buck's father for answers about why he was acting the way he was. Alister told her that Buck at one time had a lover that died when he was seven.

"So he doesn't want to fall in love because he doesn't want to loose another lover. That's stupid, he doesn't know what could happen...he won't even take a chance!"

"Calm down, Kaiya. You don't need to get so worked up."

"What do you know!"

"I know that it doesn't help."

"He doesn't even like me!"

"Is that what you think?"

"You've seen how he acts around me! He won't talk to me or even really look at me."

Alister could see tears welling in her eyes. She was bad with keeping her emotions in check and would usually break down during moments like these. It was her x-masters fault that she was like this, if he hadn't abused her the way he did she might have had more self confidence.

"Kaiya, if it helps, Buck has told me that he's starting to have feelings for you but that he doesn't want to ever see you go. You know what that says don't you?"

"Yeah it says that he's so paranoid about loosing me that he's not willing to take a second chance at love."

"Well...yeah that... but it also means that he likes you more then you think. He cares...even though it's only been two weeks, he has grown quite attached to you."

"Then why doesn't he at least show me that he cares. He doesn't have to flirt with me or any thing."

"Yes but Buck is also an affectionate person and enjoys your company much. It's very hard for him to avoid you and its not like he wants to."

"Well he should stop living in the past and start living a meaningful life with someone he cares for."

"Your right, he does, but you also have to be patient with him. Just...give him a little push every now and then to get him on the right path."

"Is it bad that I...that I...might be in love with him? I mean because it would be hard for me to be patient with him."

"No, on the contrary I believe it to be for the best that you like him. You know the reason why you have been able to develop feelings for him so quickly is because where under normal circumstances a new young couple doesn't live together. You and Buck live together now, so it has only taken half the time to really get to know him."

Kaiya took what Alister had said with some difficultly. She just didn't see why Buck felt the need to bottle every thing up.

"I guess it's because he's a guy."

"You quite right on that, some men don't like sharing what hurts them the most. I should know it took me over a year to cry in front of him once his mother died."

"Well I'm going to go talk to him."

"Good luck."

He meant this by the fact that she would have to be to get anything out of Buck.

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"I wish I didn't have to ignore her so much but i don't want to chance it. What if I fall for her and she dies two weeks later."

"That sounds morbid. Your really worried about that."

Buck jumped at the sound of her voice and wiped around in his chair. He fell over on his face and let out a moan.

"What are you doing here." Irritation in his voice.

"I want to talk."

Buck shook his head.

"Buck you shouldn't think those kind of things. It's not healthy, besides I'm not gonna die any time soon. You have nothing to worry about."

"Yeah that's what you think but I bet you you won't live any longer than a week with me around."

"Your being an idiot Buck, do you honestly think that, cause your pathetic if you do. You wont take a chance. I know your only ignoring me to protect me but there is a difference between liking me and being paranoid because your scared of your past.

You need to suck it up and get a grip. Your father told me you were an affectionate person so start acting like it. Buck I don't mean that we have to have a serious relationship but it would be nice if you at least showed me that I'm your friend. At least show that you care. Stop hiding in the shadows and see some light for crying out loud." She stooped to take a breath.

"Now just be your self again Buck, be you."

Buck stared at her for a long time. He knew she was right and knew he needed to change but he just didn't want to loose someone who could be important to him. It hadn't been long since the day they met but he felt, for the most part, pretty close to her.

"I just don't want to loose more people. I lost both my mother and a girl I had loved at a young age."

"What about your father Buck, you love him but is he gone, no. Your such a hypocrite! Just face the facts Buck, your mothers dead and some girl you loved is dead. Your still here and now you have me, so focus on the potential relationship you could have with me."

Buck turned his chair, he was crying.

"Did you not just hear me!" She grabbed his chair and spun it around to face her.

"Stop ignore..." She stopped when she saw the tears in his eyes.

"Buck I...I'm sorry but it's the truth and you need to except it."

She tried as best she she could to comfort him. She hugged him and patted his head but anything she did didn't seem to have an effect. Buck had stopped crying a while later after Kaiya had left and came back.

"I'm sorry. I just wish I hadn't acted like such a jerk to you. I know your right."

That night Buck did something he never thought he would do. He slept with a female.