Hello everyone, erugenel here. I will be updating reflections with Radagast first, then the ithryn luin, or more commonly known as the blue wizards. Thanks to all my lovely reviewers and May god bless you!

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Reflections of a Wizard

Middle Earth is an intriguing and fascinating place.

Can the other wizards see the beauty that is in it? I do not care anymore of what they say about me, abandoning my duty to Middle Earth and being enamored with the beasts and animals of this world. Is that not what they called me here to do? I am learning more about the land and of it animals, is that not a valuable contribution? In time they will learn to appreciate the knowledge that I have gathered.

Why does Gandalf go about doing thankless tasks that everyone will scorn him for? We are on this delightful world; we might as well enjoy what we can around here. Mission? Maybe not. Why waste your time, Gandalf? Middle Earth is a lost case anyway.

Saruman truly knows how to cultivate gall bladder stones. Holed away in orthanc, doing nothing but plotting, plotting, endless plotting… sometimes I wonder what he is up to. He should come out and enjoy the tranquility of the forests, not the damp musty rooms full of books that he spends most of his time in nowadays.

This carefree life is not without guilt though. Sometimes I feel the probing eyes of Manwe and all the valar and the Valier on my back, questioning me, why, why did I sway from the task that they had appointed to me in faith? Then, looking around, I would see my beloved trees and animals around me, and all traces of guilt will be gone.

I came to this earth at the vala Orome's behest. I had loved it in valinor, when I was just a spirit of the forest, not ensnared in flesh and with the countenance of an old man. I loved it when I was just Aiwendil, a Maia of the forest. Manwe took away all that I had by exiling me to this eru-forsaken world! Wait, if this world was forsaken, then why in Aman's name am I here? Oh yes, I am here to save the world and bring down the dominion of Sauron. Frankly, I couldn't care less. It was only when Saruman and Gandalf asked me to help was I obliged to as I saw the amount of work they were doing, I felt so sorry for them.

I can sense the scorn that Saruman has for me. I feel the exasperation in Gandalf's words as he tries to persuade me over and over again to change my ways and I reject him. I have chosen a much better path that the others. I chose my freedom when I could grasp it. The others have taken a path doomed from the very beginning.


Sorry this is such a short chapter. i ran out of things to say about him. thanks to all my lovely reviewers. You really make my day!

Note: i will be posting the blue wizards next in two parts. anyone who has ideas please please please! drop a review to me.

erugenel