Owen had a very long day he walked out of Charlottes room feeling good that she was ok but he needed to see his wife. He walked past the daycare and glimpsed in, he continued walking then stopped and watched. Cristina was sitting with Zola playing with her she really got attached to Zola in the past few days when she was staying at Mers house. Owen stood there for a while watching her he didn't want her to see him so as Cristina was getting up he pretended like he was walking down the hallway.
Cristina saw him; she didn't know he was going to be in the peds wing. Owen walked towards her they both stopped in front of each other not saying anything for a minute.
"Owen…"
"Cristina….."
They spoke at the same time
"Owen can we talk please?"
"Yeah of course we can, I know the right place"
Owen brought Cristina up to their place, the vent, it had been awhile since they were up there but this was their place it felt safe for them
Cristina started
"Owen I….I'm sorry for all of this, I love you so much, I love you more than anything and I am so scared that if I go through with this I am going to lose you and I don't think I could handle that. I know I hurt you and it was wrong of me to not include you in this huge life altering decision, I am so sorry Owen I hope you can forgive me"
Cristina started crying, Owen wanted to hug her so bad but he resisted he was tearing up to
"Cristina….did you have it done yet?"
Cristina wiped away her tears and looked up at him
"No…..I couldn't go through with it, I couldn't do this because all I keep thinking about is you, I don't know what to do, I mean I don't think I want to be a mother, I want to be a surgeon but…"
Owen couldn't bear it any longer he went over and wrapped his arms around her
"Cristina it's ok, we will get through this and figure it out, I love you so much and you are not going to lose me, remember when I said I wasn't going anywhere? You aren't going to lose me all I wanted was us to talk through this and figure it out together. I know you were scared and freaked out when you found out you were pregnant I get that, but let's just think it through properly together."
Cristina felt comforted by Owens reaction she thought he was never going to talk to her again and that he was going to leave her but at that exact moment she knew how much he loved her and how much she loved him
"Cristina let's go home tonight and figure this out. Can we do that?"
Cristina paused she thought about this for a moment she had her appointment booked for 7 that night but she needed to talk to Owen about the situation and what would happen in their future. Cristina knew this was going to be one of the hardest times in their relationship but she had to get through it she needed there to be a her and Owen.
"Yeah…I want to go home and figure this out with you"
Owen nodded
"Ok let's go home….I have missed you so much I won't ever kick you out again I promise, I'm so sorry for that"
Cristina looked up at him and even in this kind of a situation Owen was still be so nice and so loving to her, she never loved a man more than him
"I missed you to and don't be sorry I deserved it I was being too harsh and I get that"
As they started walking out of the vent room Owen grabbed Cristina's hand and they walked towards the resident's locker room
"Ok I am going to my office I will meet you in the lobby ok?"
"Ok be there in a bit"
Cristina walked in the locker room no one was there, she quickly got her phone out and started texting Meredith
Text
Cristina: Hey Mer, so I am going home tonight Owen and I talked I'm not going to the appointment tonight he wants to talk about it so I am putting it off for now. But I wanted to let you know I won't be coming to your house tonight, will you be ok with Zola? Oh and how did the meeting with the Chief go?
Meredith: Hey ok that's fine I hope everything goes ok and you text me if you need me! I will be fine with Zola Lexie is home so she can help, I will have to tell you about the meeting with the Chief in person I am fine though. Ok well let me know how things go!
Cristina: Thanks Mer! Talk to you later!
Cristina got changed, got her bag together and headed towards the lobby to meet Owen. She was feeling nervous about what was going to happen she was so confused she didn't know what to do but she was hoping that talking to Owen would help. She saw him standing there in dark jeans and a dark green shirt with his signature jacket, Cristina thought to herself how much she loved him and how lucky she was to have him in her life as her husband, a thing she thought she would never have a husband all she thought about when she was younger was being the best surgeon she could be but Owen showed her that there was more to life than surgery; he had changed her for the better.
Cristina walked over to him
"You ready to go home?"
"Yeah I was thinking did you want to get something to eat maybe?"
"Ok sounds good, I really haven't eaten all day I was busy doing a valve replacement today with Teddy"
They started walking out towards Owens truck
"That sounds like fun so you're back on cardio then?"
"Oh yeah Teddy told me she wanted to teach me and put all the stuff in the past behind us so I'm back on cardio"
"Well that's good you must be happy about that"
"Yeah I am but I wasn't really thinking about cardio today Owen, I was thinking about you all day, my valve patient was an older woman she was married and they were just still so in love and all I could think about was that being us in 40 years from now, and I know I don't usually talk like this and I sound completely cheesy and stupid but I want that to be us Owen, I need that to be us"
Owen paused and looked at her he couldn't believe Cristina Yang was saying this, she was never one for talking about her feelings and expressing herself, she had before to him but not this much
"Cristina we will work this out, I need there to be an us to I've never loved a woman like I love you"
Owen leant down and kissed her, he missed kissing her when she was staying with Meredith he never wanted her to leave again.
They made their way to Owens truck got in and drove home.
To be continued….
