Mike wrapped his arms around Tracy, he didn't want to leave her, but he had to talk to Gina and Cam
"Tracy.. listen, i'm gonna have to tell Gina, i have to, we all have a responsibilty for these children, and i think that you need as much support as we can get you. is that ok?"
Tracy looked into his eyes still hugging him tight.
"OK , tell them. Is it okay if i'm not there when you tell them? i don't wanna see there reaction..." Tracy calmed herself down, reminding herself that it was gonna be okay.
"Course kiddo, how about you help Tee Carmen and Lily paint their rooms?, we will not leave your side Tracy Beaker. We never will." He kissed her forehead, and left the room, allowing Tracy to calm herself down.
MIKE POV
I didn't see that coming, she's like a daughter to me, i feel like i've been kicked in the stomach hard. I have to stay strong, for Tracy and i guess in some ways for myself. So now how Tracy is feeling, but i don't know why she would do such a thing.. she didnt exactly come out and tell me that she.. well you know. i can't even say it myself. so i can't force herself to tell me more if she didn't wanna tell me in the first place. I don't want her to never talk to me again.
Everyone POV
Mike went into the kicthen, and found the person he was looking for, and Gus.
" Hey umm, Gina can we go and talk in the office please? it can't wait" Mike requested.
" yeah, of course, of course. I'll be back in a miniute okay Gus?" Gina replied.
" But your helping me with my chore! i can't cross it off my list! Which means everything has to wait!" Gus protested
" Gus, i'm sorry, this is very important, this won't happen often. Promise." Somehow Mike managed to make Gus understand and Gina and Mike began to walk to the office.
" Is there a problem?" Gina shaking her head, it was often that she was called in the office, and if she was, she always had some sort of idea about what it was about.
" It's Tracy" He began, he didn't know how to say this, he didn't know if he even should say this. " I'm worried about her, she.." He took a deep breath and forced himself to say it. " She cut herself today.. i'm worried, she wouldn't tell me why. When she was younger she would shout the place down, make her voice and opinions heard but also made them matter. Then she had that panic attack, it was only after she told me. But this.. this has never happened before."
Gina was speechless she had no idea, then she finally managed to make her words come out " Does Cam know?"
" Not yet, i'm going to bring her in later to talk. But i have a feeling she won't tell me or Cam why, we are too close to her. I mean, I've been with Tracy since she was a kid, and Cam adopted Tracy. I feel she needs someone who isn't AS clos to her.. i was hoping you could do it?"
"Of course Mike" Gina left the office and made her way up to Tee's room.
"Tracy? Is it ok if we have a talk downstairs?" Gina asked
Tracy stared at her in disbelief, unable to process what was going on, she knew EXACTLY what was gonna happen, but she didnt want to believe it. Her face turned pale agaon, an all to familiar look on Tracy's face recently. She knew Mike was gonna tell her, but didn't think it would be that sudden..
"Tracy babes? Are you okay?" Gina became worried, had she been too upfront? She didn't wanna scare her to death.
Tee, Lily and Carmen stood there, staring. They too had noticed Tracy. They had never seen her like this. Earlier when they were painting there rooms she was perfectly fine, smiling away. a false smile, plastered on her face to hide all her REAL feelings. Tracy came back to reality, and slowly took steps forward towards Gina, her comforting arm wrapped round Tracy as they made their way to the office.
"I know, Mike told me what happened, is it okay if we talk about it?" Gina held Tracy's hands, her soft voice coming back. This voice she had used once when Sapphire was gonna run away with Riff but Harry didn't know if she would come back. This was her reassuring voice. Tracy gave a small voice, then Gina proceeded.
" Why?" Gina said
" I wanted everything to stop, i can't do it anymore. Hiding from everybody.. Mike, you, Cam, the kids.." Tracy mumbled.
"Darling, what are you hiding rom everyone? can you tell me?" Gina felt a hole in her heart, she had the feeling that something bad was gonna come of this.
" I- I can't say.. i don't wanna think about it" Tracy said, her eyes staring at the floor, still holding Gina's hands tightly.
" We want to help you.. do you think you can tell Mike?"
Tracy shook her head.
"Can you tell me?" Gina felt like begging her, just squeezing her tightly and not wanting to let go. Even though sometimes she felt Tracy's plans were ridiculous she still very much cared.
" I guess.." Tracy made very little eye contact with Gina.
"Take your time sweetheart, take all the times you need" Gina shook Tracy's hands lightly. They sat in silence for 5 miniutes when Tracy began to tell her.
" There was this man.. he was a taxi driver.. he ma- made me do things.. i tried to stop him. Bu- but i couldn't.. Its all my fault" A tear rolled down Tracy's cheek she had just unvailed her biggest secret to Gina.. Cam was gonna know, Mike was gonna find out. Everyone was gonna know.
" Oh babes come here..." Gina pulled Tracy in for a hug. " Darling he -"
"Please.. don't say that word. I already know." Tracy begged, she didn't wanna hear the "R" word, she knew, but didn't wanna be told. She was raped. She was not gonna tell anyone else about it anytime soon.
"Listen to me, you may not wanna hear it sweetheart, but the police need to know about this.. i know this is hard for you to hear, but we need to tell them. It's gonna be okay Tracy, everything is gonna be fine."
Tracy shook her head "No" she began " It's not"
Gina knew that Tracy could be pregnant, but decided to not press her to tell anymore. This was all she needed.
So this is Tracy's secret! What's gonna happen next? Please review, any advice is very much welcome! :D
