Sam knew that there was something wrong when Quinn came home to Lima and didn't even tell him a bit about it. It wasn't even spring break yet, so there must be a really important reason why she came back. Yet she didn't tell him. He only knew that she was in town because somehow Jake and Marley saw her the previous night at Breadsticks, eating by herself.
He finally saw her when she was in Lima Bean, getting her own latte as usual, two hours after Jake and Marley told him the news. When he called her, she jumped a little bit. She turned around and her face looks like she was caught doing something bad. She greeted him back and tried to smile but she failed. Sam came to her and kissed her lips but oddly enough, she didn't kiss him back.
Right then, Sam began to feel that something was not right.
When they were sipping their coffee, Sam tried to reach her hand and hold it just like he used to do. She didn't pull her hand away, but she didn't even try to intertwine their hands just like what she usually did. She just let Sam held her hands. Then when Sam reached over to tuck a strain of her loose hair, she just snapped at him, telling him not to do that. Sam was surprised cause it wasn't like the usual Quinn.
They spent the rest of their coffee date, if you can call it a date, in silence.
Sam walked her home after that. He tried to reach for her hands again, wanting to hold it, but she folded her arms across her stomach. Sam sighed. But then he noticed something. The way Quinn put her arms around her stomach was just weird. It was like she was protecting something. Sam didn't know what that was though. He just walked with her, without saying anything.
And on the inside, Sam was dying.
They arrived at the Fabray's household not long after that. She didn't even invite him to come in. She just said see you later and went to close the door. But before she could close it, Sam grabbed her wrist, stopping her movement. Sam went to kiss her lips and again, she didn't kiss him back. He looked at her but she was avoiding his gaze. He gave up then. He said 'I love you' to her but she just closed the door without saying anything.
That was when Sam realized something.
Quinn was losing it.
She was losing the love that she had for him. And Sam, who had been in love with her since the day when he tried to kiss her in the astronomy room, was panicked.
What made her losing it? Sam was a really good boyfriend after all. Well, maybe not that good when he dumped her in the hallway after she cheated on him. But he was being a really good friend to her after Finn dumped her during Jean's funeral. That break up with Finn was the one who made Sam and Quinn picked up their friendship again, thus leading to them to be together again.
They were together even when Sam moved away to Kentucky. Sure that made Quinn depressed and lead her to her dark Skank days. But even though Quinn was at the dark side, Sam was with her and he never left her side.
They were also together after he transferred back to McKinley. Sam was with her when she was in the hospital after the accident. He was with her during her physical therapy session. He was the one who saw her first step out from the wheelchair. He was the one who danced with her at prom. He was also there when she graduated and left for Yale.
Despite their long distance relationship, they made through it really well. All of their friends were breaking up because of the distance and trust issue but Sam and Quinn were still together when Quinn came back for Thanksgiving and Christmas.
They were also together when Quinn made a surprise appearance at the Sadie Hawkins dance. They were also together when Sam discovered his super low SAT score and Quinn came all the way from New Haven just to make sure that her boyfriend was alright and encouraging him not to stop believing.
They were also together when they attended Mr. Schue's failed Valentine's Day wedding. It was their third Valentine's Day and they made it really special in the hotel room that Quinn booked earlier.
Even when the school shooting happened, Sam and Quinn were still together. After they could go out from the school, Sam just jumped of the train and went straight to Quinn's dorm room in New Haven. He just needed to see his girlfriend. But he didn't expect to see Quinn's puffy eyes when she opened the door and she just collapsed in his arms when she saw him. It appeared that she heard about the shooting and she had been trying to call her boyfriend but Sam didn't answer. She was just relieved to see him safe and alive. Sam left after he said 'I love you' and she said 'I love you too' to him because that was the only thing he wanted to say after the shooting happened.
Two weeks after the incident, Sam just couldn't understand why Quinn losing it. It was fine two weeks ago. Now she was avoiding him. She didn't say she was breaking up with him but he could feel that she was pushing him away although he didn't understand why.
He couldn't let that happen. He was going to marry her someday. And that was going to happen. But if now Quinn was losing it, he needed to do something before he completely loses the best thing that ever happened to him.
Two days after that so called coffee date, Sam went to the Fabray's household before he went to school. He really hoped that it was Quinn who opened the door, not her mom, cause Quinn wouldn't be able to avoid him that way.
True to his wish, Quinn was the one who opened the door. She looked surprise but she greeted him.
"Hi…"
"Hey, beautiful," he smiled at her.
"What are you doing here?" she asked, not looking at him.
"What happened, Quinn?" he asked back, not answering her question.
Quinn was taken aback but she said, "I don't know what are you talking about."
"Really? Then why are you avoiding me?"
"I'm not…" she mumbled.
Sam decided that he had enough so he confronted her. "Why you're not kissing me back? Why you're not allowing me to hold your hands? Why you don't say 'I love you' to me again?"
Sam could tell that Quinn was surprised and he could also see that tears forming in Quinn's beautiful eyes but he didn't even want to apologize for that.
Quinn chocked back a sob then said, "If you're just gonna be mad at me, then you should go."
Sam snorted. "You're avoiding me again."
"I'm not…"
"Then you come with me to school."
He could tell that she was confused. "Why should I?"
"I need you to come to glee rehearsal today."
"And why is that?"
"You'll see. But we need to leave now."
Quinn hesitated for a moment but she knew she couldn't avoid Sam anymore so she said, "Okay."
Then Sam led her to his truck and drove both of them to McKinley.
They arrived at McKinley not to long after that and Sam led her straight to the choir room. Everyone was there, including Mr. Schue. Quinn could feel that Sam was planning something together with the New Directions kids based on the looks on their faces, including Mr. Schue's, but Quinn decided to just ignore it.
Sam asked her to sit on one of the chair in the front row while he took one of the stools and placed in directly in front of Quinn. He also brought his guitar with him.
"You must be wondering why you're here, right?" he asked.
Quinn nodded.
"I had a feeling, not a really good one, about us. And since you were basically avoiding me, you didn't even tell me in the first place why you're in Lima when it's not spring break yet, I just decided to drag you here and sing something for you."
Quinn nodded again. This time, she was resting her hand on her stomach. Again. And Sam did notice that.
"I don't know what happen. I have a hunch but I'm not sure. So, I want you to listen to this song carefully, okay?"
He saw Quinn nodded her head once again. He looked at all of his peers and Mr. Schue who gave him an encouraging smiles. Then he started strumming his guitar.
You never close your eyes anymore when I kiss your lips
And there's no tenderness like before in your fingertips
You're trying hard not to show it
But baby, baby I know
You've lost that lovin' feeling
Whoa, that lovin' feeling
You've lost that lovin' feeling
Now it' gone… gone… gone… woooh
As Sam sang, he locked his eyes with Quinn's. She wasn't looking at him at first, but as the song progressed, she brought her gaze to meet him. Sam knew that she realized what was this song about.
Now there's no welcome look in your eyes when I reach for you
And now you're starting to criticize little things I do
It makes just feel like crying
'Cause baby, something beautiful's dying
Sam could see that tears starting to form in Quinn's eyes. He didn't know why though. Maybe she felt guilty? Or maybe she was going to break up with him after he sings this song? No, that couldn't happen.
We had a love, a love, a love you don't find everyday
Oh, babe
So don't, don't, don't, don't let it slip away
Baby
Now Sam could see that Quinn was crying. He wanted to brush the tears away but he had to finish the song.
Bring back that lovin' feeling
Whoa, that lovin' feeling
Bring back that lovin' feeling
'Cause it's gone… gone… gone…
And I cant' go on
Whoa, oh, whoa, oh, whoa
As Sam finished the last words, Quinn was sobbing hard. She reached her hands and said, "Come here, Sam…"
He obliged her. He put his guitar down and he went to her, taking her hands in his.
She shook her head. "No, I'm not losing it, Sam… I love you, you know that," she said in between the sobs.
"I love you too. But what happened?"
Quinn contemplated for a second before she said, "I have something to tell you… But can we go to somewhere more private?"
Sam nodded then he pulled Quinn out from the seat. He turned to Mr. Schue to ask but before he could say anything, Mr. Schue said, "It's okay. But after you two done talking, you need to come back here, okay?"
Both blondes nodded and they left the choir room. Sam led Quinn to an empty classroom which happened to be the astronomy room. The room that meant so much for both of them.
Quinn took a seat on the chair and Sam sat himself at the table in front of their chair.
Still sobbing, Quinn took a deep breath and finally said, "Do you remember what happened on Valentine's Day?"
Sam blushed to the memory and mumbled, "Yeah…"
"Well… we're not very careful at that time right?"
Realization drawn to Sam. His hunch has been right. He knew that she was going to tell him this after he saw her absentmindedly put her arms around her stomach, almost all the time.
"Sam?"
That brought Sam back to reality. He cleared his throat and braved himself to say, "You're going to tell me that you're pregnant, right?"
Quinn was surprised. "How could you… but, never mind. You're almost right."
Now Sam was confused. "What do you mean?'
"I was pregnant, Sam. I was…"
"You were?"
"I lost the baby…"
At those words Sam was stunned. She was pregnant? He was going to be a father? But why did she lose it?
And if Quinn was sobbing before, now she's crying for real. She couldn't stop her tears, not even when Sam tried to comfort her by rubbing her back and planted some kiss on the top of her head. She knew Sam was confused and surprised but Sam, the gentleman he always been, was making sure that she was fine before he could worry about himself. He was always like that.
After Sam was sure that Quinn was calming down, he braved himself to ask. "What happened? When did you find out? Why didn't you tell me?"'
"I found out the day of the school shooting. I was about to tell you when I heard the news and I just forget it completely. All I think about that time is you. Are you okay? Are you still alive? I thought I lose you because you didn't answer any of my calls…"
Sam moved himself to the chair next to Quinn's and wrapped his arms around her, letting her to lean on his shoulder.
"Then you showed up at my door and I was so relieved. But you looked like a wreck so I need to take care of you first. I decided that the news about the baby could wait…"
Sam stroked her hair in attempt to make her even calmer. And it seemed to be working.
"What happened after that?" he couldn't help but asked.
"I woke up the next morning and I felt bloods dripping on my legs," she paused. "I know something's not right then so I braved myself to go to the doctor."
She straightened up her body and faced him.
"It was a mess. The doctor confirmed both my pregnancy and my miscarriage. It was horrible. She said that based on the calculation, I was 9 weeks pregnant so she needed to do some procedure to clean up everything…"
"I'm sorry I'm not there with you. It must be hard," he said as he pulled her into a hug.
"I'm the one who should say sorry, though. I lost our baby…"
"No, Quinn. Don't apologize. It's not your fault."
"But the doctor said the cause of my miscarriage is because of stress. I was stressed out when I heard the news about the school shooting…"
"Then it's my fault then. I'm sorry I didn't call you before I jumped to the train."
"It's still my fault…" she cried.
Sam pulled away but didn't let go of her. Quinn looked away but Sam cupped her face.
"I think it's our fault. And maybe, God knows that we're not ready for a kid right now."
"You think so?"
Sam nodded. "I think so. No more crying after this, okay? We need to let go. Though I'm still a bit surprised that I was going to be a father…"
"I'm sorry. It did crush me when I realized I lost another chance of being a mother. But you're right. Maybe it's God's way to tell us that we're not ready…"
Then there was silence between them before Sam asked again, "One more question. Why are you back in Lima and not telling me?"
"I need to get away from New Haven for a while. My course finished early that's why I can come home. I'm not telling you because I'm kinda afraid to face you after the miscarriage. That was also why I kinda push you away. I'm sorry…"
"So… you still love me?"
"I never stop loving you, Sam. I don't think I can," she said.
Sam breathed out a relief. "I love you too, Quinn."
Then he leaned in and kissed her lips. This time, she kissed him back. And he knew that Quinn wasn't losing that loving feeling.
A/N: Hi there! So, I already had the idea for this story since a few weeks ago but I just had time -not really, I sneaked out from my internship report- to write this. Sorry if it's kinda sad, but I just need to write it this way.
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Song I used: You've Lost That Lovin' Feelin' - The Righteous Brothers (or Chord Overstreet on the Glee version)
