CH.3

"Kaoru! Kaoru, wake up!"

A familiar voice cut into the darkness but I couldn't, for the life of me, figure out who it was that owned the voice. I slowly opened my eyes and as soon as I did I was blinded by the bright light in the room. I heard a sigh of relief and then sat up slowly, ignoring the pain in both my arms due to the weight I was putting on my wrists. There was really no point in me sitting up though because as soon as I did I was tackled back down onto…the bed? How did I get on the bed?

"Kao-chan, I was so worried!" a pleasant voice called.

So that's how, Hunny-sempai must have found me. In the moment my eyes adjusted to the light and I saw Hunny-sempai sitting on the bed next to where I was laying, his arms wrapped around my neck in a tight hug.

"Hunny-sempai?" my voice trembled as I sat up once again. He pulled away to look at me and what I saw filled me with guilt. His blond locks were tussled and his chocolate brown eyes were red-rimmed and filled with unshed tears; he looked like he'd been crying for hours.

"W-what happened?" I asked although I already had a pretty good idea.

"Today at the Host Club, after Hika-chan left with Haru-chan….you looked so sad. So I came to check on you but when I got here you weren't in your rooms I thought I'd check the bathroom. And when I found you…..you were….."

I looked away from him, my bangs covering my eyes. Hunny-sempai put his hand on one of mine and tried to look me in the eyes, without success.

"I was so scared Kao-chan…" his voice had dropped to a whisper as if he was trying not to scare me off. A single tear slid down my cheek as I felt the guilt consume me.

"I'm sorry" I mumbled. Hunny-sempai simply nodded and pulled me into a hug.

"You need to talk to Hika-chan." Hunny-sempai's voice sounded almost demanding. I shook my head in reply, pulled away and slipped under the covers. Hunny gave another sigh, this one of aggravation, before he stood.

"Fine don't tell him, keep putting yourself through this." He said stopping in the doorway. Again, I just looked away, too filled with guilt and shame to look him in the eyes. "Call if you need anything, okay?" and with that the short blond disappeared from the doorway. A deep sigh escaped my throat and I buried myself further under the covers, eventually falling asleep.

(A/N: The writing after this should be the next chapter but I decided this was too short so…yeah)

I was lying in bed, after storming out of the Host Club when Hikaru had , yet again, decided to sit with Haruhi instead of me. It was starting to tear me apart inside; how could he choose her over me, his own twin?! Just as the tears started to flow freely from my eyes, Hikaru burst into the room looking pissed off and I looked away to keep him from seeing my teary eyes.

"Kaoru, what's wrong with you?" Hikaru asked, standing directly in front of me now. Not a single word came from my mouth; I didn't move an inch. Maybe if I ignored him long enough he'd just give up.

I was wrong.

Hikaru suddenly grabbed my chin, forcing me to meet his gaze. His expression softened for a split second at seeing the unshed tears in my eyes, but vanished as quickly as it had appeared.

"Tell me what's wrong. Now." He demanded, his voice stern, like when a mother scolds her child.

"Nothing." I replied as I wrenched myself out of his grip and looked away again.

"Don't give me that bullshit! You've been acting weird lately, Kaoru and its starting to worry me!" Hikaru yelled. I hate making him worry but I really can't tell him.

"Kaoru just tell me! I'm starting to get tired of this and-"

"GOD HIKA, WOULD YOU JUST SHUT THE HELL UP?! YOUR SO STUPID! IT'S YOU, YOUR MY PROBLEM!" as soon as the last words rolled off my lips, I clamped my hand over my mouth. My sudden outburst had surprised not only Hikaru, who's eyes were wide with shock, but myself as well. After all, I am 'the nice twin'. After a few seconds Hikaru narrowed his eyes at me and I braced myself for the question I knew was sure to come; I waited for him to ask me what I meant. But the words that came from his mouth surprised me to no extent.

"Oh, I see." He said. Theres no way he could figure it out from just those words, right? My heart started hammering in my chest.

"You do?" I asked breathlessly.

"You know if you wanted her you should have just gone for it. Its your own fault." He said, now standing at the foot of the bed, crossing his arms over his chest and smirking at me. My heart stopped and my gaze shifted back to him.

"What?" was all I could manage to say in response.

"Your being a jealous baby. You like Haruhi." Hikaru said sitting next to me on the bed, still smirking.

"I do not like Haruhi!" I yelled getting angry.

"Oh come on, just admit it! Theres no ther reason why you'd be acting so damn jealous! Admit it!" he yelled back and grabbed my wrist. I couldn't take it anymore, couldn't hold it in.

"I don't like Haruhi! I love you Hika; I'm jealous of her!"

Hikaru immediately let go of my wrist and his eyes widened.

"Kao…" His expression then changed from one of shock to one of anger and disgust.

"How can you do that, Kaoru, how can you feel that way about your own flesh and blood?! Its sick." Hikaru's voice was low and menacing. I was expecting him to yell but somehow I felt that his whisper-like voice hurt much worse than him yelling would have. Tears started forming in the corners of my eyes and I looked away from him. Apparently Hikaru wasn't done breaking my heart yet because he pulled me out of the bed by the collar of the night shirt I was wearing and shoved me against the wall. Hard. When I looked into his golden eyes, identical to mine, all I saw was fury and hatred. He hates me now, everything is ruined!

"You…..you sick fuck! You incestuous bastard!" at his hurtful words, the tears forming in my eyes fell.

"I know Hika, I know that I'm sick!" I close my eyes and didn't expect what came next.

Hikaru punched me in the gut. Then he did it again. (A/N: I hate writing this!)

"Hika please st-" my words were cut off by his fist again, this time in the face.

"Hika, please stop!" he punched me again and again and again until I saw a light and heard someone calling my name.

Suddenly Hikaru is leaning over me but he isn't hitting me or taunting me. It was just a dream, thank god.

"Oh my god, are you okay, Kaoru? You just kept screaming! I was so worried!" Hikaru said with a concerned expression on his face as he grabs my hand and intertwines our fingers.

"I'm sorry Hika, I'm fine. I just had a nightmare." I said sitting up. "When did you get home?" I asked, hoping to change the subject. Hikaru puts his hand on my cheek and wipes away tears I didn't know were falling with his thumb.

"What were you dreaming about?" he asks, obviously disregarding my want to change the subject, and paused, looking at our intertwined fingers. "Kao?"

"Yeah?" I ask, ignoring his first question. When he looked back up at me, I saw a mix of emotions in his beautiful golden orbs. I see confusion, worry, and…sadness?

"Why were you screaming for me to please stop? Was I hurting you?" my body immediately tenses up. Shit.

Ahahahaha cliff hanger! Don't fret my friends, because the next chapter has what you've all been waiting for…. Confessions and a lemon!