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Vampire love

Chapter 3

Despair and Craziness


"May I cut in?" the question rang through my ears. The voice was disgusting. I glanced out of the corner of my eye to see HIM. That weirdo tall blonde vampire from before. Apparently getting the door slammed in his face means nothing to him. Jagger stopped dancing and took a small step away from me. The tips of his fingers still held my waist.

"No." He glared at the blonde vampire and in one swift movement he pulled me back to him roughly. My chest slammed into his and he wrapped his arms around me possessively, before pulling me further into the crowded dance floor.

"Is he the only on whose shown up so far?" Jagger whispered into my ear. What was he …? I pulled away to look into his eyes. He knew. He did recognize me, but he didn't say anything!

"You?" That bastard! He made me believe he didn't know!

"Your scent hasn't changed at all." His blue and green eyes flickered amusedly at me. He thought this was funny? "But you have." Why that little! Wait … what?

"Really?" I asked. I glared at him slightly. What change about me did he notice?

"You're taller." I'm taller? That's the best he could come up with? After everything we have been through together, he still thinks of me as just that girl he was supposedly friends with.

"So are you …" I replied. My lips fell into a frown and I turned away. I thought at least he would be happy to see me, but I guess I was wrong. Coming here was such a waste! I started to walk away from him, but he grabbed my arm.

"We're not done talking." His cold hand wrapped tightly around my lower arm. He squeezed it gently to tell me he was serious. I wrenched my arm out of his grasp and turned to face him. I raised myself on my toes so our eyes would be level to one another's.

"Actually we are," I sneered in his face, before walking gracefully off the dance floor with pride and sadness. I pushed past people and tried to get away from him. His eyes, his smile, his scent. His scent was hard to get away from because it was still on me. I would have to take three showers and scrub my skin raw to get it off. Looking around, past heads and over shoulders, I finally found Raven. She was saying goodbye to Onyx and Scarlet.

"Raven!" I yelled out to her. I waved my arm so she would see me. My antics were useless; she didn't hear me over the music. Darn her humanness. A group of vampires shoved me back into the crowd. You gotta be kidding me! I want to go home! And maybe cry a little. Why does the universe hate me?! The music grew louder and I was squeezed in. I was surrounded on all sides by vampires. Once again I tried pushing out, but I only received an even stronger shove back which made me fall to the ground. My butt cushioned my fall, but it still hurt. I hid my head in my knees and pulled myself in somewhat of a fetal position. I have never been in a mosh pit before and I hope I never see one again. This is ridiculous. They are going to trample on me and I can't do a thing to stop it. I can't even get up! My eyes shut tightly. Now I was ready for pain!

I felt a familiar cold arm wrap around me, and pick me up. Opening my eyes slowly, I saw it was Jagger.

"Put me down!" I screamed and kicked my legs, trying to get away. He had no right to save me or even touch me … EVER!

"Okay." His arms loosened their hold on me and I once again fell on my butt. I pulled myself up slowly and glared at the jerk who I had once loved. Yeah, ONCE! 'Cause I don't anymore! I brushed myself off and looked directly at him.

"I hate you!" I growled through my teeth. Our noses were only an inch apart. I felt his breath on my lips.

"Now you do, but eventually you won't." Jagger tilted his head, so our noses wouldn't collide and leaned in a little. Was he going to kiss me? No! I won't give him the satisfaction! I placed my hands on both of his shoulders and pushed him back. I turned and started to walk away from him … again! I need to put as much distance between me and him as possible, and also find Raven and Alexander, without running into the blonde weirdo.

"Don't run away from me, Andromeda!" Jagger yelled. He was following me, not too close behind me, but close enough for me to know he was there. What did he want from me?

"I'm not running!" I yelled back over my shoulder. When will he get the hint? I don't want to talk to him now! He ruined it for himself!

"Physically, no. but you are running back to Sterling! Like you have always done! It's always the same thing, I do something and then you run off and tell Alexander. Are you here to rip him and his little Raven apart?" he yelled even louder. Some people turned and stared as we stomped past them, yelling at each other. "What's so great about him anyway? He's an artist! Big whoop! He could draw a mountain with a sunset and girls would foam at the mouth and faint!" His sarcasm dripped with venom.

"You're a complete idiot!" I stopped walking. He was wrong, and thickheaded! I would never try to rip Raven and Alexander apart. They love each other! Even if I did love Alexander, as Jagger says, I still wouldn't!

"Is that so?"

"Yeah," I breathed out the answer and ran quickly through the door of the Coffin Club. I stopped to breathe when I was outside. The cool night air hit my warm skin. It felt good. Amazing actually, compared to the heat of the dance floor. I think the next time Alexander and Raven come here, I'll stay home with Uncle Jameson. I'm not into crowds. Taking a seat on the curb I stared up at the sky. The stars were bright as they were the night before. My eyes searched for my favorite star, Sirius. It was brighter here than in Romania, for some reason. I smiled up at it, before getting up and walking to the bus stop. I would have transformed and run back, but I didn't want to ruin my dress.


"Where is Andy?" Raven asked the purple-haired version of her boyfriend.

"I don't know, but she's not here," he replied, looking across the room. Alexander's gaze stopped at his former white-haired friend. "I'll be right back. Stay here." He kissed Raven on the cheek and walked over to Jagger.

"What do you want?" Jagger sneered.

"Where's Andy?" Alexander yelled over the music.

"How do you know her?" he growled out. A fist formed in his right hand.

"Andy's my friend too, Jagger." Alexander pulled the purple wig off his head and looked his old friend in the eyes.

"Should have known it was you, Sterling. You ruin everything!" His growl grew deeper. Jagger shoved his fist in his pocket, so he didn't do anything stupid.

"Where is she?"

"She ran out." He looked away. Alexander could have sworn he saw something similar to shame and guilt on his face.

"Are you crazy? You should have stopped her or followed her! She's out there alone!" he yelled in anger. Andy could get captured and thrown into slavery in a matter of seconds.

"Andy is a big girl, she can take care of herself," Jagger scoffed, and bumped his shoulder past him.


I crept slowly up the stairs and into my room, so I wouldn't wake Uncle Jameson. I stripped off my dress, converse and fishnets, and opened the window slightly. I closed my eyes, and let my muscles go. I started to transform. My muscles pulled apart into different shapes, my bones cracked and reformed to form my wolf body. Chestnut colored fur appeared everywhere on my skin, and my jaw lengthened into a muzzle. My tail was the last thing to appear. After the transformation was complete I shook myself, and jumped up onto the window seat. The moon called out my name. The beautiful bright yellow white moon. I stretched out my fur-covered limbs and circled before lying down on the cushion. I rested my muzzle on my crossed front paws and I felt tears fall from my eyes. For the first night in a long time I cried myself to sleep.


"Andy?" I opened my eyes and looked at my friend. I noticed that he just woke up since there were sleepies still in the corners of his eyes. I was still in wolf form and I didn't feel like changing back soon. Opening my jaw I groaned at him and turned my head away. I don't want to talk; I just want to lie here and wallow in my own self-pity. Is that too much to ask for? A snort pushed through my nose. Listen to me, I sound like one of those annoying emo female protagonists, when life doesn't go their way they whine. Oh woe is them! But the only difference is that I'm not whining. My heart got broken … so what? It's my own fault I expected too much. I thought he might profess love to me or something, but that was only a pipe dream.

"You slept all night and all day." Alexander sat down on the window seat. So I slept for an entire 24 hours … great! He pet me behind the ears gently.

"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked leaning towards me. I jumped up onto my four paws gracefully and put my tail in his face. No! I don't! I don't want to talk to anyone! I don't need to talk to anyone!

"Andy? Please?" he sighed and walked out of the room, but we both knew he would be back later. Alexander had to know that I was as good as normal. Is someone the same after their heart gets broken? I turned, pushing my mind in all different directions to get away from everything … to just stop thinking.

My ear twitched backwards at the sound of a squeak. Turning my head I saw a little bat figure hanging upside down on the tree branch closest to me. Both of his blue and green eyes stared at me. A low growl rumbled out of my throat, and he replied with another squeak. I don't speak bat dumbass! French, Russian, Chinese … yeah, but bat … no! Jumping off the window seat, I walked into my closest. I couldn't transform back with him hanging around. Without thinking I threw on the clothes that were in arms' length of me, and walked out to find Jagger in human form sitting on the window seat. With one look at him, I started walking towards the door.

"Hey!" he leaped in front of me and grabbed my face, making me look up at him. "What did I do?" Mutely, my hands encircled his wrists and pulled them off. I pushed myself past him, and through the door. I need food!


Once I reached the bottom step, I heard a knock at the door. Slowly, I walked to the strong oak door and pulled it open. The blonde vampire, Damien Vlas, I think, was standing there. He smiled down at me. What a creeper! At least he was wearing normal clothes now, not the Romanian "I am a vampire" thing.

"Hello," I said emotionlessly. He was a persistent one. Maybe I should just accept the fact that I will be working with him for all eternity.

"Even in the deeps of despair, you are as beautiful as ever, Andromeda Cromwell." His smile grew wider. It looked as if his face would tear.

"Thank you," I said politely. Part of me wanted to kill this guy, just rip him limb from limb. Maybe that was just the ancestry between our kinds.

"Will you now accept my offer of employment?" Damien bit into his palm and reached out his pale bleeding hand to me.

I licked my lips thoughtfully. Should I do this? This is permanent for all of eternity. Or at least until he dies and I can't kill him!

"No! She doesn't! Get out of my house!" Alexander appeared from the kitchen, my uncle not too far behind him.

"When she turns eighteen, and is not bound in a legal promise of marriage, she will be mine." The blonde pulled his hand away, but he continued to glare at Alexander.

"She is already engaged," he replied. Who was I engaged to? Wait... no he wouldn't! But Raven? I can't let him say that he's bound to me!

"To whom?"

"ME!" Maybe it was my imagination but Alexander's voice sounded a lot like Jagger's for a second there. I turned to look at my best friend, but he was looking at something on the top of the stairs. Following his gaze, I … oh god! You have to be kidding me! I saw Jagger glaring a hard-core badass death glare at Damien. The smirk on his face revealed both of his fangs. Why?! Just why?!

"I will openly say I do not believe you, but I will let you live your lies. Just remember I will be checking in to see this unfold. And most importantly, your beautiful face, Andromeda." I closed the door before I could watch Damien turn and walk away.

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!" I faced Jagger and screamed up at him. He just … sentenced us with an eternity together. Right now I don't want to have an eternity with him, yesterday maybe … but today hell no!

"Oh, now you're talking to me?!" he yelled, walking down to the bottom step.

"I will do way more than talk to you!" I raised my balled fist at him. I really feel like punching him … right in the face.

"Is that a threat or a promise?" Jagger asked huskily, after leaning his face towards mine. Our noses were millimeters apart. Bastard!

"This is going to be fun," I heard Alexander whisper underneath his breath.

"Shut up! I'm mad at you too!" I turned and pointed my finger at my best friend accusingly. "You were going to say it was you! And ignore the fact that you love Raven! And I do not! I repeat do not! Appreciate that! She's my friend too now!" I breathed in and out deeply to control my rage. I almost transformed, which is not good. Grams taught me better then this.

"Now I am going to go upstairs away from all this craziness!" I walked up the stairs and refused to look back at them. I need to think about this.


End of chapter 3


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