Learning to fall

Summary: Alex and Sarah are left babysitting Evan, who suffers and a seizure hat maybe more than it seems. How will Sam and Tony deal with it?

Chapter 3: Goodbye and good luck

Carter had been eagerly for the moment he and AJ would go to Europe. He had been asking Benfield for a break since he had come back to work at county and he had finally made it. The trip was still a couple months ago, but Luka and Abby had agreed to come to Chicago earlier and spend some time with their friends.

"How's Evan?" Carter asked Abby as she opened the hotel room's door

"He's stable, but in ICU" Abby said sitting on the couch next to him

"And Luka?" Carter asked with a grin

"He wanted to stay and help Sam" Abby said shrugging "they are good friends"

"Right" Carter chuckled, Abby rolled her eyes and he laughed again

"What?" she asked

"Nothing, I just can't stop thinking about…" he cut himself off and turned around towards the bed behind him. AJ and Joe were sleeping

"About how we would turn out to be?" Abby asked

Carter nodded "I mean, don't get me wrong, Luka is one of my closest friends and I love Kem, but I just think about us sometimes"

"Me too" Abby breathed brushing her hair "how are things with Kem?"

"Changing the subject already?" Carter smiled "she's fine; we are trying to work things out"

"While you are here and she's back in Africa?" Abby asked rising and eyebrow

"It's complicated" Carter said defensibly "you don't know…"

"I don't know what?" Abby asked sarcastically "I know you love her, I do"

"And?" Carter asked "you are going to start rubbing it in my face?"

"What?" Abby asked with hurt in her voice. She moved closer to him and Carter pulled back

"You know what" he said harshly "I didn't know back then and you didn't have the guts to tell me either"

"I didn't want you to know, because I didn't want you to come back just because I was pregnant" Abby said sadly

"Why not?" he asked "I loved you, I still care about you and I would have been happy to help you with him"

"You are now" Abby placed her hand on his "and that's enough for me, Luka and AJ"

"Daddy?" they suddenly heard a small voice whisper

"Hey honey what's wrong?" Abby asked picking him up and placing him between her and Carter. He watched her and wondered still what his life would have been like

Flashback….

September 24th 2003

"Are you sure you are okay?" Kerry asked her once again

"I'm fine, just a bit tired, I think, I'm just going to go home" she said grabbing her jacket

"Okay, you call me if you need anything" she said as Abby and her huge belly walked away. She arrived home grabbed a slice of pizza and watched TV. A couple hours passed without her feeling anything, but finally contractions arrived. She tried to reach for the phone, but instead dialed Luka's phone number on her cell. A very concerned Luka arrived at her place the same time the ambulance did and she was rushed to the hospital

"I can't do this!" she screamed in pain. Luka held her hand while she pushed, the delivery didn't take long and when he was finally here, Abby cried, but not from the pain and exhaustion, but by the pressure of having to raise him alone. She hadn't told Carter about it because of the damn breakup letter and her pride, she loved Carter and knew he would run by her side if he knew; even marry her if she had told him before he left for Congo. She had first declined on adoption. Someone else could give him everything he needed but in the end she couldn't, she could give up just yet, he had made a promise to this little person and was going to keep it

"Do you have a name for him yet?" Luka asked as he sat by her side

"Adam" Abby breathed soundly as she watched the sleeping baby on her arms

"I think is great" Luka agreed with a smile. "Listen I have something I need to tell you"

"What?" she asked curiously

"Carter called a couple weeks ago, and Jerry…." The expression on Luka's face wasn't good. Jerry had told carter about the baby

"He's here in Chicago, I called him a few days ago" Luka said weakly "I told him not to show up and the hospital, I begged him not to"

Abby stared at the baby for a moment, sooner rather than later she would have to face him

A couple weeks passed, her heart hurt with the only thought of seeing carter again

"Coming!" A voice answered. Carter opened the door and his jaw drooped. He was speechless

"Hey" she said. She held the baby close and tears were rolling down her cheek

"Are you sure?" he asked looking at the baby

"He's yours Carter" Abby said sobbing. He led her inside the house

"I …" he could move "why didn't you tell me?"

"I couldn't" Abby said "I didn't want you to come back, just because of it"

"And I had to find out from Jerry and Luka!" Carter burst out "I don't know what to say, to think"

Abby stared at him for a while "you are not forced to do anything"

"I … can't believe you lied" Carter said "I could have done something"

"His name is AJ" Abby said as she cleaned the tears from her eyes

"What does it mean?" Carter asked

"Adam John" she said, the last word made her heart ache "I thought I owe it to you"

Chapter 3! Next one, we'll learn more about, Evan, AJ's relationship with Luka