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Night after night I sat there listening carefully to every sound coming from the sleeping angel's mouth
Night after night I sat there listening carefully to every sound coming from the sleeping angel's mouth. Every whisper, every breath, every groan. Her steady even breathing was calm and to me was the metronome of life, just as her heartbeat provided me a steady repeating rhythm. I looked at the girl lying peacefully sleeping in the bed across from my chair. Her long brown hair and pale skin looked beautiful in the moonlight, her soft pink lips and long black lashes made her simply stunning. No matter how many times she called her self plain she was definitely not, no one could deny it my Bella was truly Bella.
I stared in awe at the angel sleeping in this room and thought over our whole time together. That first day in biology, the day Tyler's van almost killed her, that first amazing day in the meadow where we shared our first kiss, the night we spent in the tent camping with the mutt Jacob Black. There was just so much, even after all this time I couldn't believe she had chosen me, but I was just so in love with her. This was My Bella, my angel my savior, my life, without her life didn't matter…nothing did.
I loved the feeling of having her in my arms, I felt as though I had a chance of saving her from what I thought was inevitable. What Alice had seen so many months ago was truly a blessing, not a curse. My Bella was sent to save me, not destroy me. I wanted to give her all of me but I couldn't risk her life I couldn't risk her leaving me even in death I would not be able to follow her where she was going. Getting up from Bella's childhood rocking chair and moving over towards the bed I brushed a piece of stray hair away from her face at my touch she whispered softly "Edward" I froze on the spot not from shock or fear but simply so I could enjoy the sound. I loved the way she said my name it was like thousands of angles voices signing out in rejoice I leaned in and took in her heavenly scent...almost floral... I'd never smelt anything like her and I knew I never would because she is my love, my one and only...I could, even if I wanted to, forget my love for her I couldn't
It killed me a little inside every time she talked about...me changing her...how could I do that to my love? It hurt so much to think that I was going to be the one to end my sweet angels' life. That she wanted me to be the cause of her death, and even though if all went to plan I would be the source of eternal life to her, all I really was doing was damning her for eternity. A life of eternal damnation that was what my life was or at least until I found my Bella.
But now I couldn't live without her...how could I do this? send her into eternal damnation?... how could I let her human life slip away?...I knew it would happen though, Alice had seen it...and you never bet against Alice.
How could I send my angel to a living hell? To hell itself on earth? How could I take away her soul?... I lay there next to her for a long time thinking, just listening to her heart beat cherishing its every beat and counting them knowing they were numbered.
As much as I loved her and couldn't live without her I wanted to save her but what if the only way to save her was to change her? What would I do then? Would I be as strong as Carlisle? Would I be able to do it? Just as I was begging to doubt myself my Bella uttered my name, once again reminding me that no matter what, I would save her. Even if I had to die doing it.
But I refused to hurt her! I wouldn't hurt her! I couldn't, No! I couldn't think about it anymore, my head was going to explode. The sun began to rise and my sweet angel began to wake up I instantly wrapped my arms around her and nestled my face into her neck inhaling her scent deeply. After all, this was exactly where I wanted to be for the rest of my life, with Bella. Preferably with her living. But as Alice would say some things just don't go to plan.
I parted with my angel for the first time, she had English, I had physics the only two subjects we didn't have together... I missed her already the way her hair bobbed as she walked the way she smelled and the way she twined her fingers with mine. the 50 min lesson of physics was the longest lesson of my life. all I did was long for the touch of my Bella her lips against mine her scent her heartbeat I searched the minds of Angela Webber and Jessica Stanley to find out what my Bella was doing Bella was fazing out just as much as I was Jessica Stanley was thinking about the fact that my Bella was apparently always away with the fairies I laughed to myself fairies wasn't right more like vampires but it was nice to know that I wasn't the ony one, the couldn't concentrate.
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