Author's notes: I know it's been a really really long since I updated and I actually thought that I was not going to finish this story. As I thought about it, and read all of my reviews I realized that I would be letting down a lot of my fans. So this is for all of the people that commented on the story and my friends at school. Love only me is going to be getting two new updates very soon so be on the lookout.

Disclaimer: I own no part of star wars clone wars this is strictly fan fiction!


Rated: M for mature

Enjoy!


Recap:

~*later on the ship*~

It was over. My dream was over and it was time for me to wake up. I had Anakin and just like that he was gone, sitting on my bed thinking of a way to get some sleep I had a long day ahead of me. When I finally close my eyes, I heard a very familiar knock on the door. I sprang out of the bed only to stop at the door, I could feel the warmth of the person on the other side.

I slowly opened the door just a crack, only to see Anakin on the other side. In a blink of an eye he swung the door open pushing his way in. I turned my back to him have no access to my lips or…anything else. "Ahsoka I am your master and you are my padawan, but that doesn't stop me from loving you. What I said about us being a mistake, I did not mean it." He said in a firm voice, taking me into his arms. I didn't move I could not; all the different emotions that were going through my body had me paralyzed. What was to happen now? Was Anakin going to try to- I did not even want to think about it.

"You're such a liar" I screamed as I turned around facing him. Covering my ears and shaking my head I did not want to hear it. "Do not tell me anymore lies I can't take it." I said as I felt tears rolling down my cheeks. The tears blurred my visions and the pain in my chest grew unbearable, I needed him so badly.

"Anakin don't you ever pull some shit like this again" I cried as I ran into his arms feeling his strong embrace. This is where I belonged.

~with Padma~

Standing outside of Ahsoka's room back pressed against the door listening to every word that Anakin and Ahsoka spoke. Clawing at the door I felt as if my fingernails were going to clack. This was complete bullshit, how could he chose that child over me, I am all woman. I can't believe I lost, but I am not out of this game completely. I have ways of getting what I want and what is MINE!


Chapter 3: when the drama becomes too much

Lying comfortably in Anakin's arms I let my nose brush lightly against the nape of his throat. The instant spark of our flesh coming in contact sent Goosebumps down my back. The strange relaxing quality of hearing Anakin's strong heart beat slowly lulled me into a sleepy state. I could feel his arm tightening around my waist as he drew me closer to his warm chest. Without words Anakin swiftly picked me up and placed me on my small twin sized bed. The moment I felt him pull away I moaned softly like a small child begging not to be put to sleep.

"Anakin… don't go not yet"

I said softly as I pulled on his arm. Anakin smiled lovingly at me as he leaned down to kiss my lekku softly. Every emotion that was running through his mind rushed through my body in one split second. His fears, lust; happiness, and longing, were a part of me now.

"I'll stay till you fall asleep." he whispered as he crawled into bed with me. My back was firmly pressed against his hard chest, and as we lay together our breathing became like one fluid and rhythmic motion. I don't know how long it took for me to finally fall asleep, but I didn't really care either I was at peace with just knowing Anakin was lying next to me.

~*Anakin's P.O.V*~

It had only been ten minutes since Ahsoka fell asleep. I know she must have been exhorted from all the pain and confusion I put her through. Listening to her shallow breathing almost put me to sleep then with a quick jolt of energy that ran through me I snapped out of my sleepy state. No matter how much I wanted to spend the whole night with her it was way too risky. With this in mind I slowly eased my way out of the small bed, and creped to the sliding door, then into the hall. To my surprise padme was waiting for me I suspected. She was delicately leaned against the wall on the opposite side of Ahsoka's room.

"What are you doing leaving your "padawan's" room at such a late hour" she quickly asked as she pushed herself of the wall, A deep scowl now visible on my face.

"We were discussing important business and we ended up falling asleep, what are you doing out of your room at this time of night" I said in my usually cold voice, she scoffed at my answer and took a few more steps closer to me until there was barely any space between us anymore.

"I wanted to have a word with you if you don't mind Ani" she said as she ran her fingers across my check her thumb brushing the lower part of my scare.

"What do you want to talk about padme?"

"I want to know what you can possibly see in that child that you don't see in me. Am smarter then she is by far, I have a high social standing, more attractive, and not to mention a great lover you know I'm telling the truth Ani" every time she said that stupid nickname I could feel my skin crawl and the short hairs on the back of my neck stand on edge. She could always have such a great effect on me and she knew just how to use it against me.

"I haven't had the pleasure of making love to Ahsoka but when I do it will surpass any lustful uproar that you thought you sparked in me, and as for you being smarter than Ahsoka don't make me laugh she knows things that you will never understand." My voice getting a little louder and stern with her, I'd never felt a fire like this in me before, and the angry flushed face of Padme Amidala was priceless.

"we will see about that" she said before she swiftly wrapped he arms around my neck pulling me into a firm and passionate kiss. I'd actually forgotten how soft and luscious her lips were, I actually let myself get caught up in the kiss. Every stroke of her lips against mine sent me to a new leave of high. Finally snapping out of this delusional fantasy I pulled away from padme and stormed down the hall.

~*Ahsoka*~

I slowly began to wake to the sound of soft mumbling outside of my door. Slipping out of the bed I made my way to the door and lightly pressed my ear against the cool metal. The sound of Anakin's voice quickly caught the sound of padme's smooth voice chimed in. what were they talking about?

"I want to know what you can possibly see in that child that you don't see in me. Am smarter then she is by far, I have a high social standing, more attractive, and not to mention a great lover you know I'm telling the truth Ani" Padme said no louder than a whisper. Oh no she knows about me and Anakin, what was I going to do now? And what was this business of she and Anakin making love, I must have heard things wrong!

"I haven't had the pleasure of making love to Ahsoka but when I do it will surpass any lustful uproar that you thought you sparked in me, and as for you being smarter than Ahsoka don't make me laugh she knows things that you will never understand."

Anakin's words had confirmed their relations together and the thought made me sick to my stomach. The lovely complements were nice and all but I couldn't over look that fact that they had sex..!

"We will see about that"

Those were her last words before everything grew silent, only the soft moans could be heard now. My curiosity and fears peaked as I listened closer to the strange noises. Finally I willed myself to slide the door opening it just a crack to see padme and Anakin caught in a passionate kiss. Have you ever had the feeling that your chest was caving in crushing your heart, and you couldn't breathe, well I felt like that but a million times worst. No matter how many steps I take to get closer I'll always be ten steps behind her. Still focused on my life shattering in front of me I watched as Anakin pushed away from padme and stormed down the hall in a furious rage.

At that moment padme and my eyes connected. Her pink swollen lips curled into a wicked grin as she stared at my completely distraught face, her smile turned into a low cackle before she walked away leaving me where I stood. This pain in my chest was becoming unbearable so finally closing my door I walked back to my bed and stretched out. There I slowly cried myself to sleep; Anakin Skywalker was truly going to be the death of me.

To be continued very soon….


Okay it's been months since I last updated and thanks to the constant nagging of my best friend Bryan I finally went ahead and updated my story. It's been awhile so tell me all of your likes and dislikes, and recommend my story to other people I need all the help and support I can get. Oh and I love ideas on how you think the story will pan out or how you want to see it go, I'm open to anything. I love you guys and see you next time ttyl. AniXsoka forever!


p.s. I so did not prof read this I was too excited to post so sorry if my words are a little messed up or something like that lol it's like 2:10am where I am so I'm a little half awake. Oh well!