GUESS WHO'S BACK AND BETTER THAN EVER
y'all...i'm 90% sure that after 7 years nobody who read this story when it was published is still here, but if you are...and you're still reading...i'm so sorry you haven't forgotten about this cringey disaster of a fic
ANYWAY this is so tragic but I was 11 years old when I wrote this and I never continued it, but i'm ninteen now and I feel like I owe it to my 6th grade self. These are the pages I wrote at the time but never posted, but dw you guys...i've written more...and in the next few days you'll all see what you've been waiting for for 2,557 days. and you know fucking what. I'm still gonna do that thing where the author has conversations with the characters in the description because fuck, why try to make this good now?
TWINS: WELCOME BACK 2010
Kaoru POV
When I woke up, I wasn't sure what happened. All I remember is that I was playing tennis,
and I guess I got hit. Probably because I was staring at Hikaru… Agh! No, what am I
thinking? I'm just a sick, messed up freak… I feel sorry for Hikaru because he has a brother
like me. He deserves so much better. So much better than me. "whaa? Where am I?" I
asked the air. "Ah, yes, Mr. Hitachiin. If you're feeling better, you can go back to class
now." Said the nurse. "Yeah, umm… thanks." When I got back to class and sat in my spot
next to Hikaru, he looked at me with worry. "You should still be resting." He whispered.
"It's fine, Hikaru. I'm really fine. Can you please just… just leave me alone?" I could tell that
hurt him. His golden eyes looked sad, and he looked down. "You're right Kaoru. I
shouldn't act like your body guard." "Hikaru… I-" "Hitachiins! We are having a class now!"
the teacher scolded. "Right, sorry Miss" we said in unison. I looked over at Haruhi. For
some reason, I saw her smiling. I wonder why? Hikaru and I barley spoke for the rest of
the day. "Hikaru… I- I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that back there." I said. "No no, you
were right" he said. "I shouldn't be on you like that all the time. It's just… you're my little
brother. I care about you…" that's right. I am his little brother. Nothing more. When I
think of us that way, it's just sick. I am certain I will burn in hell for it, and I accept it.
The next morning when I woke up, Hikaru was gone. His phone was ringing, and I saw
Haruhi's name on the screen. She left a message that said "Hey, Hikaru? Well… you're late,
so, call me back, I guess… bye." Late? Late for what? What was he doing? Why was he
with Haruhi? Somehow, I knew where to go. It was at the lobby of some classy, 5 star. hotel. I saw them both, and if I'm not mistaken, it seemed like they were flirting. I saw
Hikaru lean in on Haruhi, and whisper something to her. Then, he did something truly
horrid.
He kissed her.
I overheard him say "Forget about Kaoru. All I need is you, Haruhi." I
wanted to die. I wanted to disappear. I wanted to be skinned alive, because compared to
this, being skinned alive would be a walk in the park. At that moment, my heart dropped
dead.
Then, thank god I woke up.
I was shaking, sweating, crying my heart out. "Kaoru! What happened?!" Hikaru demanded. I knew it was just a dream, but it was still there. It just reminded me of the inevitable. He held me close, and I clung to him for dear life. It seemed that if I let go, he would disappxxear. "Kaoru, it's alright. Everything's fine. Now, what's wrong?" He
whispered. "Just… just promise not to leave me." I sobbed. "Kaoru… I would NEVER leave
you. Do you understand?"he looked me in the eye, deadly serious . But I knew I would. He may say that now, but I knew that one day, he
WOULD leave. He'd find a girl, (probably Haruhi) and leave me. It would be hell for me,
but it was good for him, even if I couldn't do the same. No mere girl could ever come close
to Hikaru.
Hikaru's POV
I couldn't stand it. When he was sad, I felt like dying. When he was happy, I was
overjoyed. I tried to comfort him, but I couldn't. And it hurt like hell. So I held him. I held
close to me in the darkness, praying he would feel better. It was also cruel of him. Putting
me through so much torture. He is weeping like this, falling apart, and not telling me
anything, and it was awful. That moment was heaven and hell at the same time. It was
blissful just having him there in my arms, and torment having him crying here. All I could
do was cling to him in the night, whispering his name.
the next day at school, we were told in an assembly we would be going on a field trip to the beach. Great. I mean, I like the beach and all, but Kaoru can't swim. We had to learn that the hard way, and it was probably the most terrifying moment of my life, and I was only 6!
Ah, the good times. When I still thought I
only loved Kaoru as a brother. When I wasn't a sick bastard. I exchanged glances with
him. He looked nervous, like he was looking to me for help. "don't worry." I whispered.
"there's plenty to do on the shore." I think he was worried that people would find out he
didn't know how to swim. I looked behind me and could see Tamaki automatically
showing Haruhi pictures in a swimsuit magazine. What happened to, "I don't want my
daughter showing skin!" smooth, milord, smooth. "But Haruhiiii!" he whimpered "this one
would look so good on you don't you think? You're so cute!" "Please Tamaki-senpai, do
you really expect me to wear that? I heard some Haruhi fangirls squealing about how
they'd love to see her cross dress. Kaoru and I decided to walk home that day. I suggested
it, because I wanted to talk. I wasn't sure what I really wanted to talk about, but
something didn't feel right. "Hey, Kaoru… about that dream you had last night. Was it-"
"Hikaru," he cut me off "Hikaru, are you in love with Haruhi?" he asked firmly. What kind
of question was that? How could I be in love with haruhi? "Kaoru…" I was too shocked by
his question to say anything but that. I looked down. "I knew it…" he said. He ran home
fast as lighting, leaving me standing there, shocked and clueless like the idiot I am.
That night we slept in our separate rooms. Kaoru's room was pretty much never
used, so it wasn't really "his room." I felt horrible. Because it was never used, the maids
never went in, so it had spider webs and bugs, and the floors creaked. I knew Kaoru got
scared easily in there. I wished I could sleep there instead. I swear I almost cried myself
when I heard his whimpers. I know it's wrong, but I seriously resented Haruhi right now. I
know she didn't mean to, but if it weren't for her, we wouldn't be like this right now.
Kaoru POV
He loves her. I know he does, even if he denies it. Eventually, he will leave for her. And
now, I'm stuck in this cold, dark room filled with all the things I hate, when I could be in
my- er, Hikaru's warm bed. Wait- ahg! I have to stop thinking like this! We're brothers for
God's sake! I should just die… someone so twisted as I doesn't deserve to live…ugh! Never
mind! I'm just feeling sorry for myself again! Well, let's try to ignore the creaking of my
floors and- "WHAA!" I screamed. There was a huge crack of lighting outside. My door
burst open. Hikaru came running in. "Kaoru! Are you alright!?" he cried. "I-I'm fine" I
stammered. "J-Just leave m-me alone!'' He ran over to my bed and gripped me by the
shoulders, looking me straight in the eye. It was then I also realized all he had on was
boxers. I blushed at that, so for once I was glad of the darkness. "Kaoru, I'm not going
anywhere when you scream like that!'' "It was just the thunder, Hikaru! It just startled me!
Go away, I don't need you here!" I started to cry. "Kaoru," he said. His tone softened,
which surprised me. Then, he did something odd. He caressed my face In his hands, just
like he would in one of our acts, and did something that shocked me the most.
He kissed me.
I just sat there In shock, eyes wide. This time, I was sure I was dreaming. There was no
way. Even if it was real, he probably just did it to shut me up. But I didn't care. He looked
down and furrowed his brow. "sorry…" he said. Then he ran out. I sat there for what
seemed like a lifetime, just trying to remember who I even was.
When the shock wore off, I realized I had other things to worry about. Like tomorrow, we
were leaving for the beach trip. People would notice I couldn't swim. Honestly, I'm in high
school, and I can't swim! How sad is that? Hikaru used to offer to teach me when we were
kids but I said no… well, for now I guess I'll just try to get some sleep. Maybe I'll get some
mercy tomorrow…
Hikaru and I didn't talk at all the next day. We didn't even sit next to each other on the
plane ride. (Which was to the bahamas the way.) Once we got there, I did something pretty
stupid. I decided to go up to a big mound of rocks, that were pretty much a cliff, or, as
high as one. I sat for a while, and then decided to climb to the top. I guess the tide had
dropped a lot, because it was wet and slippery as wet ice. (Or, I guess it would be partially
melted ice. Can ice be wet?) And then the bad part came. I slipped.
And it all went black.
Hikaru: Kaoru is so clumsy! ^_^
Kaoru: Hikaru! How could you….why are you so mean?
Hikaru: I-
Me: k guys! Theres no fangirls here! You can stop pretending!
Both: heh… who said we were pretending?
Hikaru's POV
I didn't know what was happening. All I remember is seeing a slender boy with red hair
falling into the water. And I also remember practically having a heart attack. I ran. I ran as
fast as I could, faster than I ever have, screaming "Kaoru!" when I reached the water I
dove in as deep as I could. I saw him sinking. The I saw something that really made my
heard stop. He had hit his head on a rock. He was bleeding terribly. I swam like Poseidon
to him, grabbed him by the waste and pulled him up. I put him on the shore and ripped
off my T-shirt sleeves to stop the bleeding. Then I realized it wasn't just the bleeding. I
pushed on his chest, trying to make him cough up the water. It wasn't helping. Kaoru,
swear, if you die now… I thought. Then I stopped myself. No! Kaoru is NOT going to die.
Not so long as I'm around. So I had to resort to something else. I remember in an old class
of mine they taught vvus mouth to mouth. Here goes nothing I thought. 1…2…3... I was
trying so desperately to revive him. Eager fangirls huddled around us, and I wanted to
slap all of them. What did they think this was, another act? Kaoru's life was on the line
here and all they could do was squeal! Finally, he sputtered some water, but he was still
unconscious. This was all my fault. If I hadn't done what I had done last night he wouldn't
be mad, we would have been together then, and he wouldn't have fallen. "Someone get
call an ambulence!" I yelled. Kyoya called one of his family's ambulances and they were
here within minutes, thank God. When I saw them loading him onto the stretcher, I
actually broke down. The host club had to hold me back as I tried to run to him, shouting
and screaming. They were taking my brother from me. Taking my little brother to a place
where people died, a place of sadness and loneliness, and they wouldn't let me go with
him. When I finally calmed down, (which took a fair amount of time) kyoya allowed us to
take a car to the hospital. On the ride there, Haruhi tried to comfort me, which just made
it worse. She was also part of the reason this happened. Kaoru thought I loved her, so he
got mad. Then, I was completely reckless, and did, well, what I did. And now this. I know
it's wrong of me to blame her, but it's my brother. My twin. My best friend. And now he
was officially on the "life or death" scale. When we arrived, I dashed into the hospital,
nearly crashing into the front desk. "Hitachiin Kaoru" I practically yelled "what room?" she
gave me a card that said "176" on it. I darted down the hall at a pace that would have
made the wind seem like a snail. I almost ran past the door when I reached it. I flung the
door open, seeing nurses surrounding Kaoru. "Will he be alright?! Is he conscious? Is he
okay?" that was a stupid question. Of course he wasn't ok. And it was all my fault. "He
won't be regaining consciousness for a while," said the nurse. "And he has lost a lot of
blood. Unfortunately, we can't find anyone with the same blood type." "I have the same
blood type. I'll give him as much as he needs. "I said "very well. Just go down the hall and
make a right…" I was speeding down like a bullet before she even finished her sentence.
Once everything was settled, I was allowed to go into Kaoru's room alone for a minute.
"God Kaoru… do you enjoy giving me heart attacks?" I asked my unconscious twin. I hated
what I was seeing. He had a whole bunch of medical tubes and wires hooked into him,
and his head was bandaged. "Hika…ru…" he murmured in his sleep. I laughed and gently
kissed him, just like I had when he got hit with the tennis ball. Only this time, it wasn't on
his forehead. It was on his lips. I know it was horribly wrong. I knew I shouldn't have done
it. But I couldn't help it. I kissed his perfect, soft, lips, and walked out.
Kaoru's POV
"What happened? Hikaru? Where are you? Am I dead? Hikaru! I'm scared hikaru! I need
you! Help!" I thought. I didn't know what to do. I was Surrounded Darkness, all alone in
the gloom. I needed someone, I needed Hikaru. I must have been dead. I must have been
in hell. I always thought hell was a place where you got physically tortured, but now I see
what it is. A place with no Hikaru. A place where I am not a twin. A place where I had no
one to love. I ran and ran, trying to find my way out of the darkness, pointlessly calling
Hikaru's name. Then I saw something through the fog. A figure, matching my exact height
and body type. I could make out spiky red hair the same as mine. It was Hikaru. I reached
for him, and he reached for me, and just as our fingers were about to meet, he
shimmered, and dissolved into nothingness. " Hikaru!" I screamed. Then I stopped. I
dropped down to the floor, realizing this is what I deserved. I was so messed up, so sick in
the head, this is a better deal that I would have expected. Suddenly, there was a break in
the the darkness. When I opened my eyes, I was in a dark room, but visible enough so I
could make out several objects. I was in a hospital. I heard someone breathing. I looked
next to my, and Hikaru was asleep on a chair. He didn't look comfortable at all. He had
stayed with me. After how awful I was to him, he had still stayed with me, making me tear
up. "Hikaru… I whispered. As if automatically, he woke up his ginger locks falling softly in his face. "Kaoru?" he said sleepily. Then
his eyes grew wide. "Kaoru! You're ok!" he hugged my tightly. "Ow…." I said. He pulled
away quickly. "Sorry!" he cried. "What… what happened?" I asked. "Guess" he said. "Oh
yeah…" I remembered now. "
"But Hikaru…. Why did you stay? After how I acted…" My eyes were starting to tear up.
"Of course I stayed! You're my Twin!" He wrapped his arms around me, more gently this
time. It was pure bliss. My head was throbbing; I could tell I had several ribs cracked from
pain alone, but Just being here, knowing that Hikaru was with me made up for all of that.
At this point I was bawling. I was so weak, so pathetic, I felt stupid. But I didn't care. I just
wanted him now, all of him. It was the biggest sin, and I would burn in hell for it. I put my
shaking hands around his neck. I pulled them back immediately. "S-sorry…" I stammered.
He smirked at me evilly. "Don't be sorry." He whispered seductively. I could feel myself blushing.
"Anyways, you should be asleep right now." He said, dangerously close to my lips. He
gently pushed me down on the bed, and went back to his chair. I wanted to protest that
he shouldn't be sleeping in a chair, but I hadn't realized how tired I was. In a matter of
seconds my eyes were closing, and I was asleep.
