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I tremble
They're gonna eat me alive
If I stumble
They're gonna eat me alive

Can you hear my heart beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer
Help, Im alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer

Hard to be soft, tough to be tender
Come take my pulse, the pace is on a runaway train
Help, Im alive, my heart keeps beating like a hammer, beating like a hammer

Help I'm Alive, By Metric

Goodbye, Apathy. Chapter 3

Disclaimer: I don't own anything!!! No Copyright infringement is intended!!!!


Bella's POV

The drive home was nerve-racking to say the least. I couldn't stop shaking, and my imagination was getting the better of me. I had all these different scenarios playing in my head of them coming and killing us in so many different ways, that it made my head spin. I knew the possibility of them letting us go was slim, so much so, that I was positive that my fast-paced heartbeats were numbered. I couldn't see anyway out. Even if they did let us live, that didn't mean that they wouldn't tell the Volturi about me.

I felt a shiver run down my spine as I thought of the Volturi. They were such awful creatures; how anyone could want to bow down to them was beyond me, but it had happened before, and my main fear was that it would happen again.

We reached the house in no time, running in quickly with caution, in case they were near by.

"Bella," Lisa began, once we were inside. "I think we need to find them before they find us. Maybe if we explain this can all be handled decently."

"I agree." I whispered, trying to keep my calm façade.

"If they are like us," she said more to herself then me. "They will be more reasonable then others. I think we should be able to explain ourselves."

"And if it doesn't turn out that way, I'll go back into hiding by myself." I added, standing up so we could leave. "You can create a cover story as to why you were with me and live in peace like you've should've been doing for all these years."

"Absolutely not Bella!" She shouted halting my quick steps to the front door. "I am going to leave you by yourself. If it doesn't work out then I will come with you and we will both go into hiding again."

"Lisa, you have sacrificed too much for me!" I defended, holding back my angry tears. "You can run away from this mess while you have the chance, and be happy! I can tell already that you're much happier trying to live a normal life here! I can't let you walk away from what you want, it's not fair!"

"Bella," She sighed walking over to me, trying to stay calm. "You are like the daughter I never got to have. I knew what I was getting into when I told your father I would help you. I am allowed to make my own choices, and I want to help you."

I closed my eyes and let out a frustrated growl. "Lisa-"

"Bella, you are not going to fight me on this one." She interrupted, "Now let's go."

"Lisa, please just listen to me for once!" I begged as I ran outside after her.

"Bella, stop!" She growled, "We have more important things to worry about now. I am sorry that this has to happen again, but there's nothing we can do right now but try and stop it. Let's just try and get through this before we talk anymore, please?"

As much as I wished to deny she was right, I knew I had to give in. For there were more pressing issues to deal with at the moment.


Dear Diary,

Just as I thought this morning, this change is not a good thing. I'm currently sitting in the passenger's seat of Lisa's car, as we try to find the house of the vampires who are going to kill us. We've been searching a while now, and finally caught some scents outside of the town. I'm not as scared as I was earlier today, because I know I must be brave for whatever is to come. I can't change whatever is going to happen now; and if I am going to go down, I've promised myself it won't be without a fight. I'm usually a very none violent 'vampire', but if I can find away to make them leave Lisa go, I will do whatever it takes. And even though we might possibly be meeting our death, his face keeps popping up in my mind. I can't help but think of the horrified look on his beautiful face and wonder why I had made him so upset. It just doesn't-

"Bella, I would appreciate it if you would put that thing down and help me out here." Lisa said pushing the cover of my diary down over the pages.

"Sorry," I apologized, looking down on the blood red cover of my diary.

"From what I can tell, the scents are getting stronger around here so can't be much farther."

"I'm really sorry about all this," I whispered trying to hold in the tears forming in my eyes.

"Oh, Bella," she sighed. "It's not your fault, in fact; I'm surprised that we've lasted this long without problems. You are my little danger magnet after all."

I smiled a bit at her joke, but didn't reply for fear that I would break down if I spoke.

After a few more seconds of silence, Lisa took a sharp turn into a small clearing that lead into the forest.

"I think this is it," she whispered, gripping the steering wheel tighter.

It only took a moment, before I could hear what sounded like shallow breathing beyond the small stretch of dirt we were driving on. They were waiting for us.

I felt like my heart was going to leap out of my chest as the trees parted, and a beautiful white house appeared in an open clearing. The beauty and sweet sounds surrounding the area was like something out of a fairy tale. The house which must've been very old, was completely restored. The only part that looked to have remained from the original structure were windows and doors, giving the house a certain charm. The beautiful clearing around it was amazing; the open area was completely surround by the forest, the mountains on the horizon could be seen from above the tress. I could also hear a stream flowing in the distance, and a few animals walking around.

But my thoughts of fairy tales soon turned to horror stories as I saw six vampires standing on their front lawn. Two of them I didn't recognize, but I did take notice to that fact that he wasn't standing there with them. I took a deep breath as the car stopped and as I opened my door, prayed that Lisa and I weren't taking our last breaths.

We walked forward, stopping about half way towards them, standing our ground though we might die.

As I looked into the faces of my soon to be killers, I couldn't help but feel that they belonged in the fairy tale more then a horror story. The two that I didn't know were in front of the group, the male was very handsome; he had blonde hair and a youthful look in his features, making him look no older then twenty-five. The way he seemed to hold himself though made him seem very wise, and much older. His arm was wrapped around the waist of the woman next to him, whose elegant beauty made her look as if she was a movie star from the twenties. She had long caramel colored hair that accented her heart shaped face, and a kindness about her that made her seem motherly.

The blonde man stepped forward, walking towards us confidently.

"My children told me we had a new family here in Forks." He spoke pleasantly, smiling as if he were greeting old friends. He stopped right in front of us and held his hand out to Lisa, who took it hesitantly.

"I hope this isn't a bad time, as I'm sure you might already know we have some explaining to do." Lisa said calmly, hiding any fear. "I'm Lisa, and this is Bella."

"Carlisle Cullen," He smiled letting go of her hand and holding his own out to me, looking somewhat apprehensive.

Wearily, I reached my hand out to his which he shook with the slightest presser.

"It's nice to meet you Bella." He said sincerely, eyes gleaming in what could only be described as wonder.

The woman stepped forward then, stopping at Carlisle's side smiling warmly at us as he wrapped his arm around her again.

"This is my mate Esme." He introduced, smiling fondly at her.

"It's a pleasure to meet you both." Esme smiled reaching out to shake both of our hands.

The second Esme was done with her exchange, the short spiky haired girl that was with him in the parking lot earlier, walked forward towing the blond hair boy from the cafeteria right behind her.

"I'm Alice; it's so nice to meet you both!" She exclaimed happily, taking me off guard as she pulled me into a hug.

"I hope we become great friends." She whispered before she let me go and shook hands with Lisa.

The blond boy stood behind Alice, awkwardly, watching the exchange. Alice giggled when she saw his face, and wrapped her tiny arms around his torso.

"This is my mate Jasper," She told us smiling up at him.

Jasper only nodded his head slightly in our direction, looking very uncomfortable.

"That's Rosalie and Emmett, they're mates as well." Esme said pointing to the big brown curly haired boy and the beautiful blonde girl, who were unmoving from their places on the lawn.

Emmett greeted us with a warm smile, while Rosalie chose to glare at us menacingly, in a way that frightened me even more then I was before.

Alice moved in front of me blocking my view from them.

"They're not as scary as they look." She whispered to me, giggling softly.

I looked back over at them, to see Rosalie storm off, but not without giving me one last hard glare. Emmett, after mumbling a low 'sorry' ran off after her.

"I apologize for Rosalie's behavior; it's been a hard day." Carlisle said smiling sadly. "We have another member, Edward, but he left to visit some friends."

At his words, the other three grew similar expressions of sadness for a passing moment, before Alice decided to change the subject.

"Bella, I have to tell you that you have one amazing gift. Though, it does bother me that I can't see you." She told me, a bit of a pout appearing on her face towards the end.

"W-what do you-u m-mean?" I stuttered.

"Bella doesn't have a gift," Lisa said immediately backing me up.

Alice just shook her head with a small smile appearing on her face.

"No one has ever blocked Edward or me out; I'm sure you have one." Alice said frowning a bit towards the end. "Jazz, are getting anything?"

Both Lisa and I moved into crouching positions as soon as Alice's words left her lips. Lisa, jumped in front of me to protect me, hissing at them as she moved, both of us ready for a fight.

The remaining Cullen's stood as still as statues, all seeming taken aback by our reactions.

"Perhaps we should've explained ourselves a bit more." Carlisle sighed, stepping in front of his coven. "We mean you no harm. Even though Bella is an extraordinary being, we know she will not touch us."

Lisa and I slowly moved with caution, until we were standing again, watching for any of them to move forward for a fight.

"I'm sorry for our reactions," She apologized, looking over at me in concern. "You must understand though that I will do whatever it takes to protect her."

Esme seemed touched by her words, and put a hand on Alice's tiny shoulder. "I understand what you mean completely." She smiled.

"Jasper will not hurt her," Carlisle assured us, smiling slightly. "If you would do the honor of joining us this evening, we can explain more."

"Thank you Carlisle, we would like to join you." Lisa smiled wearily, putting an arm around my shoulders. "We have quite a bit to explain as well."

"Lovely," Esme smiled as she walked forward, to lead us into their home.

One thing caught my attention the minute we reached the front porch; was that front door had been ripped off its hinges and broken into pieces.

"You'll have to excuse that," Esme said looking embarrassed as she caught my interest. "And the dining room as well." she added, before walking away from me quickly.

Ignoring the chaos of the door and dinning room that I had yet to see; their house was beyond beautiful. It was very open with high beamed ceilings, and a glass wall that covered the whole backside of the house. The walls were colored with white paint, and the floors were made up of a mix of white carpet and light colored wood. The furniture matched as well, with white chairs and couches, and light wood tables.

The walls were covered with beautiful paintings, and several antique and new decorations.

They began to lead us up a beautiful light wood staircase to the second floor; which was an open hallway filled with doors all leading into to unknown rooms.

"Esme, designed the whole house," Alice said as she appeared beside me.

"She did an amazing job." I complimented.

"Thank you, Bella." Esme called down from the top of the stairs, making me blush.

We soon found ourselves in Carlisle's study, which was magnificent to say the least. It was paneled with darker wood then the rest of the house had, and had the same color of wood floor to match. All around the study, he had huge towering shelves filled with as many books as a library would have. The only wall that wasn't covered with books was home to all kinds of different paintings.

"Most of those pictures are places from Carlisle's past." Alice explained from beside me, as I looked at all the pictures.

Reached up on her tiptoes to point towards a picture made up of three men painted onto a high balcony, looking down open the people below them.

"That's Aro, Marcus, and Caius, the leaders of the Volturi." she whispered, as she pointed to each of them as she said their names. "Carlisle was with them for a while. Not many of our kind have ever met them. I'm guessing you haven't because you're still alive. I doubt they would take kindly to you."

I could feel myself shaking as she spoke, drowning out must've what she was saying towards the end. The only thing I could concentrate on was the faces of my father's killers. The room started to spin, as their dark red painted eyes stared back at me, tauntingly.

"Bella, are you alright? Bella?" I heard Alice yell faintly as I fell into darkness.


"Bella, honey," I heard Lisa's voice say from somewhere close to me.

I opened my eyes slowly, bilking back the harsh light that was in them as I became conscious again. I found myself on the hard ground of Carlisle's study, with four worried looking vampires surrounding me.

"What happened?" I asked groggily, as I tried to find my way out of the haze that was clouding my mind.

"You fainted," an unrecognizable voice, answered, sounding far away. "You were feeling very anxious and terrified from something Alice had said to you. I'm surprised it didn't happen earlier with the amount of fear you had built up earlier."

Jasper appeared in front of me smiling a very small smile, as I sat up against the wall behind me.

"Obviously her gift doesn't block me out as I wished to tell you earlier. My gift just doesn't turn on and off when I wish it two. "

His smile grew when I opened my mouth to ask how he knew what I had felt.

"You're confused now; I can only guess that you're asking how I know all of this?" He asked before I could speak.

I nodded weakly.

"I can read and manipulate the emotions of people around me." He answered lightly shrugging, as if to say it was no big deal.

"What happened Bella?" Lisa asked moving in front of Jasper, looking on the brink of tears.

I let out a jagged breath as I was brought back to the moment before I fainted. "We need to leave, we can't be here." I yelled standing up and a making my way towards the door.

"What do you mean you can't be here?" Alice asked appearing in front of me, blocking the door.

"They'll kill you if they find out you know where I am, what I am." I explained hysterically to her, finding it hard to breathe again.

Alice just stared at me in response, her mouth slightly ajar. I turned my back on her after a moment, to find everyone else in the room looking at me with concern.

"I understand if you need to tell them to save your own coven, but please leave Lisa out of this." I began to beg, walking towards Carlisle. "I'll go with the Volturi willingly, just please don't involve Lisa."

"Bella, no one here is going to the Volturi. Like I said before, you're safe here." Carlisle tried to assure me.

"Yeah, you're safe around us," Alice chimed in from behind me.

"No, you don't understand!" I said fiercely backing away from them. "They've been after since I was a baby. I go against everything that they believe in. My father was a vampire who decided to have a stupid fling with a human; then she got pregnant, had me, and I killed her! The Volturi found out about me and wanted me to die. They killed my father, and have been after us even after that. We've been hiding for fifty years from them; and if they find out that I'm here, and that you know about me, they will kill you because of me!"

"Bella, calm down," Lisa said appearing next to me, and wrapping her arms around me tightly, to keep me still. "She does have a point though; we can't stay here and put your coven in danger over two vampires you don't even know. I promise you though that Bella doesn't have the strength, power, or the heart to hurt any of you."

"She's right," Jasper said speaking up from behind us.

Lisa turned us towards him, to see that he was standing in front of Alice protectively.

"You shouldn't have brought this here." Jasper hissed. "Alice comes first and I won't let anything hurt her or my family for that matter."

"Jasper, you have to see-" Alice began but was interrupted by him.

"Alice, I'm doing what's best for this family, and their lucky that we aren't any other coven who would've killed them already without the Volturi's help." He growled glowering at us. "This is one very dangerous secret to keep."

"Please don't tell them about her. Will leave right now and never come back." Lisa pleaded, before Carlisle moved in front of us.

"Jasper, that's enough!" Carlisle hissed. "This is enough of a difficult situation, without you threatening them."

Lisa wrapped her arms tighter around my shaking form as I held back tears.

Even with Carlisle defending us, I knew there was no hope. With the look Rosalie had given us earlier, I knew she would side with Japer, and the boy who I now knew as Edward, would surly be with them. Just thinking about his name made me shake even more.

"They are not going anywhere." Esme's voice rang out, breaking the tension in the room.

She gave a weary smile, before walking towards me with a determined look in her eyes.

"There's something about you Bella that is special, and it's not just what you are." She told me taking placing her cold hand on my cheek tear stained cheek. "Something happened today, I saw something that I thought I would never see again, and I for one can't see you go. If the Volturi come we will deal with them then, but you've done something that we've all been trying to do for years. You are welcomed here in Forks and around our family for as long as it pleases you."

I let out a shaky breath that I had been holding in, as she walked away leaving the room without another word.

I was so confused by what she had told me, I hadn't done a thing today other then bring them into the hell that my life held. As I looked up at the three remaining Cullen's; I could see that they had got meaning of Esme's words more then I had, and that no matter what It was it had held something that they all could agree on.


We left the Cullen's shortly after that, Lisa promising a visit from us soon. Carlisle, after accepting what Esme had said, seemed amazed with me and wanted to know more about me as a vampire hybrid. He told us that he doctor for humans, which was mind boggling enough for someone like us. Needless to say, we were interested to hear more about him as well as the rest of the family.

The ride home was silent. I could feel the new tension in the air around us, just waiting to be broken by the words that needed to be spoken, but neither of us said a thing.

The moment we reached the house, I walked up to my room without saying a word to Lisa. By the time I had discarded my jacket and shoes, Lisa was already standing in my doorway looking worn out.

"Bella, we really should talk about this,"

"Talk about what? About the fact that even more people are going to get hurt by me?!" I snapped glaring at her.

"They know consequences that come along with leaving us live here! You can't just decide for them! If this is what they want, then we can't do a damn thing about it!" She yelled.

"We can't do a damn thing about it?" I mocked grabbing my bag from school and dumping out it's contents. "What about what's right and what's wrong? It's wrong for us to stay here and put them in danger! They don't control us; we can do what we want! It's as Esme said, we can stay here for as long as we want, and I think we've been her long enough! I'm going to do the right thing and leave before they get to take on the demand problems that follow us!"

I started tearing through the boxes on the floor grabbing what I would absolutely need while tears began to fall from my eyes. Before I could even fight back, the bag was gone from my hands.

"Bella, we are going to stay here!" Lisa said, pushing me away lightly when I tried to grab my bag back. "The Volturi have given up the hunt, they are no longer after us. You are fully-grown and enough time has pasted that I doubt they would even recognize you. They don't know anything about your characteristics; they wouldn't even give your heartbeat a second thought or your scent either, if they found you in a crowed. If they do show up then they do, but you can't let this fear rule your life."

I glared at her through my tears, knowing if I spoke I would hurt her, and I didn't have it in me to hurt anyone else tonight.

"I'm going hunting and when I get back I expect you to still be here." Lisa said calmly throwing my bag down before walking out the door.

After the front door slammed shut, I crumbled to the floor defeated, sobbing quietly. After a while I made it to my bed and the last thing I saw before I succumbed into slumber, was his cold, dark stare.


A/N So I hoped you all liked it:D It took me forever to get this chapter where I wanted it. And I know there's no Edward:( But he comes back next chapter.

Which speaking of the next chapter, I already have all of Edwards POVs almost done. But I changed a lot of stuff in this chapter so Bella's needs a lot of work. I will now start putting a date on my profile of when I will update again, so that way you guys know what's going on. It shouldn't take me more then a few days to get it done so expect the new chapter soon:D I can't believe how many emails I get every time I update this, thanks so much to all of you out there reading this:D

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One last thing before I go, I saw Remember Me is weekend and it is amazing! Anyone who loves a good movie should go see it:D