It's been three days since Julian stopped listening to those tapes. He's angry at Barry, angry that he didn't talk to someone before he took his own life. If he could, Julian would ask Barry why he didn't talk to someone before he jumped off that damn cliff. He sighs and grabs his Walkman. Time to listen to what Barry has to say.

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"How many of you remember what it's like to make a sacrifice? How many of you have made a sacrifice? Well, I did make a sacrifice. After Savitar was defeated, the speed force needed a prisoner to take his place, or the world would be destroyed. You didn't know this, but I've been feeling suicidal for a while now. When that opportunity popped up, I didn't even have to think twice as I sacrificed myself for the planet. I figured at least this way there would be some dignity to my suicide. Of course, I didn't plan on what it would really be like in there.

Did you know that time doesn't pass in the speed force? While it was only six months for you, for me it was an eternity. Did you know that I was locked up in a speedster cage for an eternity? I had nothing but my own reflection and the sound of my own heartbeat to keep me company for an eternity, but you really didn't care about that, did you Iris? You didn't even want me back. You were perfectly happy with letting me rot there for an eternity. What kind of wife are you? So, let me get this straight, six months pass, and suddenly you're perfectly happy with leaving me in my own personal hell? Well, I hope you're happy Iris. Turn this tape over to find out why Jay Garrick is one of the reasons."

Julian couldn't believe what he was hearing. How could Iris not want to get her husband back from the speed force? Wasn't she supposed to love him?

Cassette 4: Side A

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"Speaking of sacrifices, you know all about sacrifices don't you Jay? When you and I were going into the speed force to save Wally, I offered to take his place. I begged to take his place, but the speed force wasn't having it. I told you that we were all getting out of there, but no, you just had to take my place. You just had to stay behind and make me hate myself more than I already do. I wonder, what was your personal hell like? Guess I'll never get the chance to ask you that. Either way, I'm dead now. Depending on your religion, maybe I'll see you in the afterlife. Turn this tape over to see why Team Flash is one of the reasons."

Julian stares in shock. How could the entirety of Team Flash be one of Barry's reasons? What could they have done?

Cassette 4: Side B

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"You know Team Flash, I've realized something. I've had a lot of time to think these past few days. When you're experiencing suicidal ideation, well you have a lot of things to think about. Want to know what I've realized? Barry Allen is nothing more than a pair of legs to you. Oops, did you catch that? Barry Allen is. Guess you can't say that anymore.

The only reason you kept me around, was because I was useful to you. When Zoom broke my back, none of you cared about my feelings. All you did was push, push, push. You never cared that I was scared to face Zoom, you just kept pushing me towards that suit. Not that I expected you to care, of course. After all, it was you that tranquilized me like an animal when I was grieving and threw me in a cage instead of comforting me in my grief.

When I created Flashpoint, I was finally happy. I had my parents back, I was happy, and then my memories started disappearing. I had to ask Eobard Thawne to kill my mother again, but did any of you care about that? Of course not. You were too busy chastising me for a simple mistake made in a moment of grief. Oh, and you want to know what the real kicker was? You encouraged me two years ago to go back and save my mom, but when I actually do it, I'm the bad guy? What the actual fuck?

Oh, and when the Dominators showed up, Cisco chose that exact moment to reveal my future self's message to intentionally turn everyone against me. Oh, and Cisco? You knew blooming well that it was a fucking drunk driver that killed your brother, not me. Also, let me get this straight, it's okay for you to make your own trip in time and cause a butterfly effect, but when I do the same thing I'm the bad guy? Go fuck yourself Cisco. You're a damn hypocrite.

I knew you hated me, but when Killer Frost froze me, and you didn't even check to see if I was alright first, that pretty much confirmed it for me. Lastly, would it kill you to make some fucking pain killers, or hell, anesthesia even? One day I could've gotten injured enough that I might've needed surgery, and because you hadn't made it yet, I would have died during the operation. Well, I guess I don't have that to worry about anymore, being dead and all. I might go to hell for saying this, but I'm going to say it anyway: I hate you. I hate all of you. I hope you rot. Turn this tape over to see why Julian Albert is one of the reasons."

Julian's heart starts pounding. This is it, this is his tape. This is when he finds out how he caused Barry's suicide. His fingers thumb over the top of the cassette tape before he puts it in the tray.

Cassette 5: Side A

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"When was the last time you met someone new?"