Authors Note: God i should really be in bed but i really wanted to get this out as soon as possible. I was trying to sleep and i was listening to Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and i was just hit with inspiration. So okay first of all i have to say something. This story is being written the way it was always supposed to go. I am NOT changing any of my ideas just to make people happy. I'm sorry if you dont like it but this is not going to be some lovey dovey piece. There is going to be drama and sadness. If you dont like that then this might not be the story for you. And for that i'm sorry. Please just give this a chance because for all the sadness there is also a lot of good stuff. The songs i used in this one were Your Guardian Angel by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus (Please listen to it when i have it in here! PLEASE!) and Saturday by Hedley (LISTEN TO IT AS WELL! IT ADDS TO THE STORY!). Thanks to those of you who reviewed and have alerts set. Please keep the reviews coming. Oh since no one guessed the song for the last chapter that song is being used in the next one so you still have a chance to guess.
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Chapter Three: Your Guardian Angel
Jackie pulled away from Hyde, who continued to stare down at her with tears running down his face.
"Oh Steven," She said as she reached up to wipe the tears away.
He took her hand into his and pulled her against him again.
"You came," He said again as she nodded.
"Of course I came." She said into his shirt as he sighed.
"God I've missed you."
Jackie pulled away from him and looked up into his eyes. "What about Sam?"
Hyde let go of Jackie and stepped back from her. "She's gone." He said as she stared at him.
"Where did she go?"
"She left me a year ago." Hyde said as Jackie stared at him.
"I'm sorry Steven."
"I'm not," He walked away from Jackie and stared down at Ben, "She killed our baby and cheated on me." He looked over at Jackie whose hand was covering her mouth.
"Steven, she killed?"
"She used drugs. Turns out I was the only one that was actually happy when she got pregnant. She was 6 months pregnant at the time."
Jackie felt the tears come to her eyes as her heart broke for the man she still loved.
She silently walked over to him and took his hand into hers.
She pulled him out of the room and closed the door behind them.
Hyde followed behind Jackie as she pulled him down the hall and into the stairwell.
"Jackie, what are you doing?" She turned to him and wrapped her arms around him once more as her tears came out.
"I'm so sorry Steven."
Hyde pulled Jackie closer into him as he felt his grief from the last year consume him once more and for the first time ever he let Jackie see the real him.
Jackie felt Hyde's legs give out and together they fell to the ground as they both cried their eyes out. They held onto each other, afraid to be apart for even a second.
"You were there when it happened."
"What?" Jackie looked at Hyde as he wiped his eyes.
"The day she told me. You were there, singing on the TV." He stared at her as she felt more tears come to her eyes.
"I was?"
"Your song, Your Guardian Angel, it helped me get through it."
"My song?"
"I need to hear that song Jackie."
"Okay, but it's going to sound weird without back up vocals and music."
"I don't care, I need to hear you singing it to me." He stared at her as Jackie nodded.
She began humming, trying to get into tune before she started singing to him.
When I see your smile
Tears roll down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay woah, stay woah
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Hyde pulled Jackie back into his arms when she stopped singing and the tears came out once more. Jackie only held him as he continued to cry his eyes out. This was what he needed. He needed her and she knew that.
"Where'd Jackie and Hyde go?" Eric asked as Donna shrugged.
"I imagine Jackie just saved him." Donna said as Eric looked over at her.
"You think she might have?"
"Eric you know just as well as I do that he hasn't really gotten over anything that's happened in the past year. He's been putting all his focus into helping Ben and us. He hasn't had time to really grieve."
"You think Jackie could be the one to help him?"
"She's his true love." Donna said before she got up and went into her son's room.
"Steven," Jackie said before Hyde pulled back and looked at her, "I'm here."
"I know you are."
"I'm here for you. I'll help you the best I can."
"Why did you come back?"
"Donna wanted me here. I needed to be here. I just didn't realize that until I saw you."
"I missed you more than you know."
"I had to leave."
"I know you did." He cupped Jackie's face in his hands. "Doesn't mean I didn't hate it."
Jackie smiled at him before Hyde leaned forward and lightly kissed her lips.
"What was that for?" She asked as he smiled.
"That was the proper hello you should have received in the first place."
Jackie giggled as Hyde pulled them both up. Together they walked back into the hall and over to Eric.
"Hey where did Donna go?" Jackie looked at Eric who pointed to Ben's room.
"Is she alright today?" Hyde asked as he sat next to Eric.
"She's here." Hyde looked up at Jackie who was staring at Eric.
"I'm going to go talk to a doctor."
"Why what's the point?" Eric asked as Jackie rolled her eyes then walked away from them.
"Forman you can't talk like that."
"It's too late Hyde. My son is gong to die and there isn't a damn thing I can do to stop it." He turned to Hyde with tears in his eyes. "You know what that feels like."
"Yeah I do know what that feels like. But I didn't get the chance to spend all this time with my child like you do. If this really is the end for Ben why aren't you in there right now with him? Why are you out here fighting with me? Are you really that big of a dumbass?" Hyde asked before he got up and stormed away from Eric.
Eric stared at Hyde until he couldn't see him anymore. He knew Hyde was right. He was being a dumbass about this. These might be Ben's last days and so far he was wasting them being in the stupid waiting room instead of with his son.
"Eric," Donna said as she rushed over to him.
Eric stood up before Donna made it to him. "What's going on?"
"It's Ben, he's awake." Together they ran to their son's room.
Two Months Later:
"Are you sure you're going to be alright?" Jackie asked as she stared at Donna in the middle of the Point Place Airport.
Donna wiped the tears from her eyes and nodded. "It's been 2 months Jackie. It's time I started dealing with Ben's death on my own."
Jackie wrapped her arms around Donna as the older woman cried into Jackie's shoulder. "I can cancel if you need me."
"No," Donna said as she pulled way from Jackie, 'you've canceled enough gigs as it is. You need to get back out there."
"If you need me for ANYTHING you call alright?" Jackie said as she stared into Donna's eyes.
"Got it midget." Donna said as she picked Stephanie up and held her in her arms.
"Bye Steph, it was really great meeting you." Jackie smiled before Stephanie launched herself into her Aunt Jackie's arms.
Jackie hugged Stephanie then handed her back to Donna before turning to Eric.
"Take care of them Eric."
"Will do devil." Eric said before he hugged Jackie lightly.
The Forman family walked away leaving Jackie and Hyde to their goodbye in private.
Jackie gave Hyde a shy smile before he pulled her into his arms and buried his face in her hair.
"I'm going to miss you so much Steven." She said with tears in her eyes.
"I'm going to miss you too. You're my best friend." Jackie pulled away from Hyde and leaned up to kiss him lightly on the lips.
"You're mine too." She squeezed his hand one last time before she walked away from him.
Hyde watched her leave as he felt his heart go with her. Over the last two months she had helped him heal not only from the death of his nephew but the death of his own child as well. She had become his best friend and a constant presence in his life. In two short months they had become inseparable and it was going to be hard getting use to life without her again.
They waited until her plane was in the sky before they went back to their daily lives and before they knew it things were back to the way they'd always been.
Jackie stood in front of the crowd as she felt her hands shaking at her sides. She had no idea why she was so nervous. She figured it was probably because she was doing this on live television for the first time, but she also figured it was probably because she singing about him.
"Now we're going to bring out Jackie Burkhart, who is going to perform her song, Saturday for us live in our studio." The VJ announced as Jackie came out in front of the screaming crowd of the MTV studio.
She heard the crowd cheer and the drums start playing before she let the words come out of her mouth.
Believe me
It's easy
To scream when you're dreaming
And wonder what's under your bed when you're sleeping.
They beat you.
And blame you
For all that you went through
But hey it's just another Saturday.
It's only just another Saturday.
I love you.
I need you.
Like a thousand times before.
Wonder why I hate you.
But I'll scream and ask for more.
I only wanted your attention
At least the hate is some connection
But hey, it's just another Saturday
Believe me,
It's easy
To live between the lines.
When mommy says sorry,
Over a thousand times.
You're tied up
You're cried out.
You gotta get outta here
But hey it's just another Saturday.
It's only just another Saturday.
I love you.
I need you.
Like a thousand times before.
Wonder why I hate you.
But I scream and ask for more.
I only wanted your attention
At least the hate is some connection
If I feel, then I need
If I love, then I'm free
Then I'm free
You make a mess of me
You make a mess of me
I love you.
I need you.
Like a thousand times before.
Wonder why I hate you.
But I scream and ask for more.
I only wanted your attention
At least the hate is some connection
But hey it's just another Saturday, another Saturday
It's only just another Saturday.
Another Saturday and I'm free
And I'm free
And I'm free
And I'm free
The crowd cheered as the VJ announced the commercial break. Jackie walked off the stage and saw her phone going off on the sofa of the green room. She walked over and smiled when she saw the name on the front of the screen.
"I knew it would be you," She said as she smiled.
A/N: I wonder who she was talking to? Okay yes i killed Ben. I had to and it was always intended that he was going to die. It was what was going to happen. I'm sorry if you get mad and stop reading because of it but it had to happen. I hated doing it. That's why i didnt write his actual death scene. I could physically do it. I'm sorry. But his death is serving a purpose and you'll see that in the next chapter. Let me know what you thought.
