chapter 3 : embers

Lita silently cheered kane on during his match , she knew big show wasn't really competition but she couldn't help but be his cheerleader in her head , thankfully Charlotte was busy doing her hair so she was not distracting lita from his match , when she seen kane win she had to hold the inside of her cheeks with her teeth so no surrounding eyes would see the huge Cheshire smile that she so desperately wanted to release .

Lita wiggled in her seat , hoping maybe from where she was sitting in the open station in the hall she would catch a glance of kane on his way to his dressing room , she didn't want to look obvious but she almost couldn't help it with how stretched out she was making her neck to see over the bodies standing around , sadly she realized she was to far down the long passage and would just miss him walking by .

The red head sunk back into her seat , a frown appearing on her face , she was convinced by this point that she didnt want to hate kane ... infact she was working on the balls to talk to him after her scene tonight , but ... she thought to herself ... puzzled ... what would she say ... "hi i'm sorry i ran off earlier , i know i'm your ex wife but lets be friends anyway , wanna get a coffee ?" she wanted to punch herself , damn-it she thought , what would she say , maybe she could casually bump into him again and wait for him to speak to her .

She knew after her stunt earlier that also was not going to work , Lita was fishing for ideas in her head and was so tuned out from the rest of the world she didn't hear Charlotte ask her 3 times "so what do you think about the finally look ?" lita shook her head slightly and starred at herself in the mirror , she was beautiful , her classy makeup complimented her red bouncy soft curls , she smiled and nodded at the woman's work , Lita thanked Charlotte with a big hug and a smile .

She wasted no time walking over to the rack of clothes and began searching for her name on one of the outfits , after she pasted a few names she dug hers out from the back , it was a crop leather tank and a tight pair of jeans with a few rips in them & leather boots . Lita grinned at the outfit wwe had chosen for her , it was a mix between her old and new style .

The queen of extreme changed quickly and waited for further instruction of where she was going to be set up for her nightly "event" . In true red head form lita rebelled out and wandered off after 15 minutes of just standing around , a little stroll wont hurt she thought .. she needed a small change of scenery .

Lita walked around a couple corners aimlessly not really paying much attention to where her legs had taken her , she stopped in front of a large monitor that was rolling some raw footage from over the years , she watched the motion pictures dash in and out of the screen , hearing music and sounds that she had forgotten long ago .

She smiled at the memories that played , & then her heart sank into her stomach like a sinking ship as the monitor displayed white roses with the back ground music of love, She and edge of course were the first couple to appear on the reel since their marriage had been the most recent , she hoped they would not dwell on either of her weddings in this video and would pay more attention to the more known superstars , sadly again Lita had been wrong , the wwe incuded more of her and kanes wedding than anyone elses , mocking the horrid service & making it into what seemed like a terrible cruel joke

The reel played on as Litas heart started to sink lower and lower into her stomach , breaking into small pieces as she watched on .she should have never come , the last thing she wanted was to relive both failed marriages . she no longer was looking at the monitor but threw it . she had definitely had enough excitement for the night and was more than ready to leave the arena .

kane was directed around a corner , not expecting to see lita standing on the other side , he was stunned , he couldnt move , he felt like there were a ton of bricks weighing down his chest . There was a rush of excited and nervous feelings over coming him . Kane didnt have to much time to process his feelings before he was motioned by the camera crew to move behind lita .

The reel ended and lita shook away the overwhelming feelings , shaking her head and giving a forced half smile . She moved back just slightly and felt something hard and warm against her back , turning suddenly to look & seeing her handsome nightmare staring back at her . she felt her heart rate quicken and her eyes widen to what she was sure was the size of saucers.

Lita would have loved to walk away in that moment but she noticed with fearful eyes there was a camera crew standing in front of them . she mustered together the only sentence that would fall from her lips "H.. Hey hows it going?" . Lita was trying to look casual in front of the camera but she knew how awkward they looked , she knew how awkward she looked , this had to be one of the worst spontaneous scenes the wwe would ever witness.

kane's body language had an unfamiliar clumsy tone to it , he seemed like he wasn't even sure how to respond to her question on the spot he shrugged his shoulders asking "seen any good movies lately?"

lita deciding as well on the spot to play along to get through this ridiculous scene responded back with a half honest answer " i.. i mean not.. not really " ducking her head down for a moment to twiddle with her fingers she kept the conversation going to keep from having him decide what the topic would be , " yea , the weather is crazy "

kane nodded and said "yea its bad... its cold " , both feeling un easy and awkward with nothing else to say .

looking to her right she seen Ron Simmons standing next to her , him seeing the awkward situation he finished the scene off with his famous words "DAMN!"

Everything was over and lita could now finally leave , exiting the area she moved with quick pace down the long stretch of the hallway , not even paying the slightest attention to rough gruff words of her ex husband who was following behind her yelling "LITTTTA!" "LITTTTTA!" .

Kane let her leave without speaking the first time and he wasnt not about to do this a second , he didnt care how he would look , he didnt care what the other superstars were going to say as he was chasing her down , he had to talk to her , and nothing was going to stop him .