Author's Note: Sorry this is so long, I didn't want to do 3 chapters on the talk with Charlie, and also I wrote half this story at 1-3 am so sorry if it sucks. Please review :

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight

Previously

"No that's not what I'm saying exactly, I want to move out just…. Not in with mom." My voice got quiet towards the end. It was probably only seconds, but it felt like a lifetime waiting for his response.

BPOV

"I-I don't understand" I could tell he did understand by the way he stuttered, he just didn't want to believe it. I sighed and started to explain.

"I don't want to live with you or mom" I said carefully

"I want to try living on my own, don't get me wrong I loved living with you, I just feel like I need a change, I need to start over somewhere new. This town is just becoming a little too much, if that makes sense." I can't believe I got it all out without stuttering or messing up my words.

"NO THAT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE!" Charlie yelled

"There are just too many b-bad memories here." I stuttered a little because some of those bad memories popped into my head, but I continued,

"I need to go somewhere new, somewhere where the memories won't consume me. I'm just afraid that if I don't leave I won't be able to move on" I purposely left out the part about how me leaving would also benefit him by not having to deal with my moping.

Charlie is a pretty quiet person except when he is mad. When he is mad all hell breaks loose, he will yell and scream just because he thinks it will help get his point across. Hate to break it to you Charlie but just because are neighbors can hear you that doesn't make you right. Which is why I was taken back when what he said next came out as nothing but a whisper.

"This is because of him isn't it?" Charlie didn't have to say his to know who he was talking about, I winced anyway. Yeah I know I'm pathetic.

When I didn't respond he knew he was right, and continued.

"Bells, I hate seeing you like this, and I hate the bastard even more for doing this to you, but running away from the people who do care about you isn't going to solve anything"

I understand where Charlie is coming from, but he still doesn't see my point.

"I know dad, I know that you and mom care, I'm not denying that, but that doesn't change the facts." I said, trying my hardest to make him see my point, and failing miserably.

"WHAT FACTS?!" he yelled

Now I have to choose my words real carefully, or I'll never get out of this town.

"The fact that he left me here…-wince-. That he, the love of my life left me in this town and I don't think I could ever get over him with the constant reminders that this town gives me." I don't have words that could describe how much it hurt me to say that.

"THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE! BELLA YOU'RE EIGHTEEN HOW IS HE THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE!" He screamed, I knew he would react this way when I told him I loved Him.

"Because I've tried moving on, I even went on a date with Mike Newton (I failed to mention that Jake accompanied me on said date), and considered going out with Jake" I said sharply.

"But you know why it never worked out, because I keep comparing them to him, but that only makes me miss him more." There was nothing but truth in that statement. A few tears slid down my face.

"Wh-what about Jake?" Charlie stuttered, he was never good with tears.

"I love Jacob, but as a brother, and as my best friend, and time isn't going to change that. I will never have those kinds of feelings for him" I'm pretty sure him and Billy have been planning mine and Jake's wedding since we were 10 years old.

"Bella you're only 18, you could eventually fall-" We were getting of topic so I needed to put an end to this.

"No dad that kind of love is something either you feel or you don't, and I just don't feel that way for him. But we are getting off topic." I said confidently

"Bells I don't understand why you don't just move back in with your mom if you no longer want to live in Forks." He said, I could detect the hurt that he was trying to hide.

"Well I just feel like I need to be alone right now and holing up in my bedroom can't be healthy and I'm in need of a change."

"But Bella, I hate to say this but you haven't exactly been very emotionally strong lately" I was trying really hard not to get offended that my own father was basically calling me mentally unstable.

"I-I know I haven't been doing well lately but that's why I need to leave, so I can get better." I said this with my head down. I could tell that Charlie was seeing my point.

"I just don't know Bells I really don't like the idea of you living somewhere all alone, but you are right, you are 18 so I can't technically make you stay. I just wish you would give it some more thought." He said

"I have put a lot of thought in this dad, and I think it would be for the best." I said, being so close to what I want.

"Okay if you are really going to do this then there will be some conditions, first, you will have to tell your mother, second, you can't leave until after Christmas, I want you home for the holidays and lastly, I will help you choose a school and an apartment… Oh and I will help you with your first month's rent by I would like you to get a job if you are going to be living on your own. How does that sound?." He said the last sentence with a little smug, thinking that one of those conditions would break me.

In all honesty none of those conditions were that bad, I figured now wouldn't be a good time to tell him that I called Renee a week before and asked her. She said it was ok with her as long as it was ok with Charlie, I wasn't surprised when Renee said she was okay with this, she just want's me to happy. As for the second one, I wasn't expecting him to let me leave right away, so staying until Christmas wasn't unfair. As for helping me out and getting a job that was fine by me I'm a pretty independent person, so I wouldn't feel comfortable with taking Charlie's money.

"Sounds good to me" I said after I said this there was a knock on the door.

"That's Billy we are going to watch the game and you said you have homework to do. We will talk about this more when the time comes closer. Okay?"He said as he got up to get the door.

"Okay, night dad" I said as I headed for the stairs.

"Night Bells" He said as he opened the door.

Once I got in my room I thought about what just happened. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't surprised by how well that went, now all's that's left to do is wait.