A list of songs that have passed between us as well as several songs/poems I've written.
Songs I sent him: Hymn for the Missing (RED), I Don't Dance (Lee Brice), Ignorance (can't remember the artist), Crime and Punishment (sent him a Leafeon and Glaceon amv I found, suitable. (Leafeon is one of my three favorite eeveelutions, Glaceon is his favorite) Can't remember artist), Still Worth Fighting For (My Darkest Days), Get Up (Superchick), Perfect (Simple Plan (sent him this for a different reason)), I'll Remember You (No Secrets), Keep Holding on (Avril Lavigne), Never had a Dream Come True (S Club), Quiet (Lights), On My Own (Ashes Remain).
Songs he's sent me: Lullaby for a Princess (ponyphonic), Amsterdam (Imagine Dragons).
Songs I've wanted to send to him if he ever stops talking to me: How to Save a Life (The Fray), Care (Joel Faviere), She is the Sunlight (can't remember artist), In the End (Linkin Park), I Will Not Bow (Breaking Benjamin), Cat and Mouse (Red Jumpsuit Apparatus), What Hurts the Most (can't remember artist), Broken (can't remember artist), Hello (Evanescence), Missing (Evanescence), A Little too not Over You (can't remember artist), Youth (Daughter), One Day (Trading Yesterday), Let it Burn (RED), Impossible (Shontelle).
The following are Songs/Poems I've written for him. First two are when I was angry with him for not answering me, and I would have sent him if he'd ever given up and stopped talking to me. The third is... well... I was planning to send it to him on the aniversity of the day he left, but I completely lost my nerve...
"No More"
...
We used to be such good friends
Why'd you lie to me till the end?
I was once shy and afraid to say
That I loved you from that day
But now, I'm not
...
I never thought you'd betray me
I never thought this would come to be
I was so afraid when you left
But now only rage remains
...
Did you ever feel guilty
When you were lying to my face?
When I was smiling
Were you secretly scowling?
Did you ever love me
Or was it all my imagination?
Was it all part of the separation?
Why'd you lie to me till the end…?
No more, no more…
...
I shared everything with you
My hopes, my fears, my love, my despair
But you hardly said anything
While I poured my heart out to you…
...
We were so alike
And then we weren't
Where'd I go wrong…?
...
Who'd have guessed you'd be the one
I've come to hate?
...
Did you ever feel guilty
When you were lying to my face?
When I was smiling
Were you secretly scowling?
Did you ever love me
Or was it all my imagination?
Was it all part of the separation?
Why'd you lie to me till the end…?
No more, no more…
...
(Was it all my imagination?
Or was it a part of the separation?)
...
Did you ever feel guilty
(Was it all part of my…)
When you were lying to my face?
(Imagination…?)
When I was smiling
(Or was it just a part…)
Were you secretly scowling?
(Of the separation…?)
Did you ever love me?
(Love me…?)
Love me…!
No more…
...
No more…
This is, the end…
For us…
"Losing Me"
...
For the longest time
I've trusted you
Not to leave me hanging
For the longest time
I've trusted you
To keep me answering
...
But then you started
To grow distant
And not respond to me
I always thought you were my friend
By my side, until the end
I know you've had troubles, and
I can't pretend to understand
But…
...
How far away
Can you get
Before you lose me?
How many times
Can I try
Before I give up?
How long
Will I cry
Before I no longer care?
You're losing me
And not getting anywhere
You're not getting anywhere…
...
What you don't realize
Is that you're losing me...
"I Wish..."
...
Time flows through the hourglass
So quickly, sand falls through
It's all gone by tonight
And my heart still aches for you
...
Time flowing endlessly
It's all gone by tonight
I'm left with everything
When you left, hoping for nothing
So as fades this light
I just want to admit my love for you
Before I lose the chance tonight
...
We've known each other for so long
Sharing everything
I've tried hinting through a song
But I don't know if I was wrong
To try to tell you how I feel about you
...
Did you ever mean anything
With the things you sent?
I may never know
You may be weirded out by this
But I want you to know that
No matter what you say, we'll still be friends
But maybe, just maybe, closer than before
...
So as the time flows
And as I re-watch you go
I'll admit my attraction to you
As the moon wanes
In the black diamond sky
I'll be here
Hoping you are there
Wanting to fly
With me...
And finally, I will end with something special. This is on Kent's profile on the website we chat on. Skylar says she thinks he is referring to me by it.
Even though it may seem dark, There's always a shimmer of light. Either from the stars or the moon, or from the friendship we share. Our friendship will never let us down. After all this time, after all we've been through. I've realized something, our friendship is stronger then ever.
