Chapter three: Memories

Adam got dressed and picked up his phone. He called Lexa telling her he was coming today. He didn't tell her that Jesse was coming with him. While he was calling Brennan almost grabbed his cellphone to finally have a chance to talk with Lexa but sighed and waited. When he hung up Adam looked at him ''I will be leaving in half an hour, and Brennan please stay calm'' he asked. Brennan just growled and walked away.

Shalimar chuckled nervous. ''He would make a good feral'' she tried to joke but nobody laughed. They where all nervous. Nobody wanted to admit that they had missed their teammate. Jesse gave Shalimar a kiss. He knew what had happened to make Lexa leave but Shal and he had become closer after that to a point where they loved eachother.

Both men stepped in the car and they took of silent. It was a long road but neither tried to start a conversation. Jesse was trying to figure out why Adam hadn't told it before and if he would have ever told them if Brennan hadn't found out. Adam was trying to think of a way to talk with Lexa before she would make a run for it.

After a few hours they stopped. ''Jesse please stay in the car till I have talked to her'' he asked but Jesse shook his head knowing the surprise would be better. He stepped out of the car and walked with Adam to the front door. A little boy opened it calling Adam grandpa. The boy looked at him and called for his mother not inviting them in.

Lexa looked up from her work when she heard Connor call her about a strange man who was with grandpa. She stood up and walked to the door. She picked up Connor before she looked who where there. ''Jesse?'' she asked surprised ''Adam how could you do that you made a promise'' she said and closed the door running to her room starting to pack for her and Conner.

Jesse shrugged and phased them trough the door he walked to the livingroom leaving it to Adam to talk with Lexa. Adam straightly walked to the bedrooms and opened the door. ''Lexa I couldn't help it he had found a picture you send me and forced me to talk. I could only make him stay at sanctuary cause I took Jesse'' he tried to explain. ''I should have never trusted you'' Lexa shouted ''Now I need to run again'' she finished packing and walked downstairs bumping into Jesse. He was holding Connor.

''Give me my child back'' she said panicking. Jesse handed her Connor ''Please listen to me while I tell you about everything'' he asked ''If you want to leave after that we let you go'' Lexa nodded and walked in the livingroom. She offered them something to drink and sat down. Jesse started talking ignoring Adam.

''We both know what happened the day you left sanctuary. Brennan and Shalimar have done something they shouldn't have. Both where to blame not only Brennan or only Shal. I talked about it a lot with her. She confessed me that she had always wanted to have sex with him. Nothing more not love. She waited for a moment of weakness and took her chance. Brennan knew this and let her.

But directly after the sex Brennan pushed her away knowing what he had done to you knowing he could never tell you. But you already saw it and left. The moment he found out he started searching for you. He started to trace your phonecalls the car where you left in and more. He never stopped looking everyday he is in your room checking if he has missed something that can make him find you. The day you left we lost the Brennan we used to know. The man who liked to play around. When he found your picture he was so angry he almost electrocuted Adam forcing him to tell where you where. He still loves you Lexa.'' Jesse looked at her finishing his story.

Lexa looked at him only believing a part of what he said. She decided to tell him her side of the story. The story that kept her from going back to Brennan. ''That day I was just walking in sanctuary'' she started her story. Tears where already filling her eyes.

''I had just done a pregnancy test and was waiting for the results. I didn't want to wait in my room and decided to arrange dinner for both of us just the two of us to celebrate if I was pregnant. I heard sound coming from one of the rooms and decided to take a look. What I saw there… I can't explain it. I went back to my room and had to trow up. Then I took the test out of my bag where I had hid it incase someone had come in. It was positive.

I decided to give him a chance to tell me but when he came in I could smell Shalimar all over him but he didn't. Then I left. The next months where the most difficult. I was pregnant and alone. There where a lot of moment that I just wanted to come back to sanctuary. After a stressful pregnancy I labored in a hospital. I couldn't resist anymore and called sanctuary hoping you would answer Jesse. But Adam did. He had returned to sanctuary. He promised to come to the hospital and did. We talked long and I decided that I didn't want to come back and Adam… He helped me out. Gave me a job and a life. In return I would tell him about Conner. I can't come back and I can't face him I need to go. ''

She walked to her desk and sat down writing something. Out of a drawer she picked up all the photo's she had of Conner from baby till now. She did everything in an envelope. ''Please give this to Brennan'' she asked before she picked up her bags and walked out with Conner.

Jesse took the envelope and walked out with Adam. The road back was silent again but this time for other reasons. Back at Sanctuary Brennan was the first to meet him with a face full of hope. When he didn't saw Lexa he felt his heart break and he took the envelope walking to his room. There he opened it reading the letter.

Dear Brennan

Jesse explained everything to me. Don't blame him he tried to make me come back with them. But I can't. I can't come back seeing Shalimar or you. You two have hurted me too much. I can't come back looking at you acting like nothing happened. Like my heart wasn't ripped into two. The few weeks I had with you have been the happiest in my life. I felt complete. That day I was excited. I felt I was pregnant and wanted to tell you during dinner. We never made it that far. With this letter I send you pictures of your son. I will keep sending you those so you can see your son grow up. Don't try to find Conner and me Brennan you won't find us. Not even Adam will find us again. Know that I will always love you.

Lexa

Brennan read the letter crying cause he knew how much pain he had given her. He took out the pictures and saw his son from baby till the age he had to be now. He hated to have missed that much. He looked up to see Jesse in his doorway. ''Don't give up. She had a picture of you standing there I think she still loves you. If only you two could talk'' the younger man said. Brennan stood up with a picture of Lexa and his son. He placed it on his desk. ''I will never give up on them''