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Quick note! Sorry if I took a while to post! I was doing a lot of researching for this story! I wanted to make it as decent as possible! Anyways enjoy!

Emeralds

Heart racing and his stomach turning he might have thought he was having a full blown anxiety attack. He sat down on his bed and took in deep breaths and tried his best to clear his mind. He might of made a big deal out of the situation, but hearing the familiar tunes from those instruments just triggered something in him. It overwhelmed him, because each of the songs told a story just calling out to be heard and he wasn't ready to take it all in. He just wasn't ready. It felt like multiple strangers circling around him all telling the story of their lives, about each suffering, romance, and joyful memories. Lovino tried to hear them all out if only his own memory of his grandfather didn't interrupt and send him on edge. Lovino could visualize the musicians faces, focused with their undivided attention each of them in their own bubble. Mixtures of those musicians either stressed or passionate or confident in their piece. Lovino knew that feeling all too well.

He calmed some and looked towards his closet, longing for the instrument locked away safely in there. Lovino slowly got up and opened his closet door and peered inside towards the top shelf. He walked in, reached up, and gripped onto the hard cold case. Lovino hasn't touched this instrument in years, it has been collecting dust since then. Lovino brought over the object to his bed and laid it down, holding his breath with anticipation. He opened the case and revealed it's contents, a sleek silky wooden violin and it's bow tucked comfortably in the maroon velvet interior. Lovino ran his fingers over the violin softly and up the fingerboard, frowning. What was the point in bringing the violin out if he knew he wasn't going to play it? He couldn't possibly attempt to play the instrument now, filling the room with music after years of it being drained from it. And he very well wasn't going to play it now with his brother in the same house.

Lovino closed the case and locked it with a sigh. He placed it back where it has been and laid back on his bed and pulled the blankets over him, suddenly exhausted emotionally and mentally. As he began to close his eyes he remembered those eyes once more, looking back at him with so much genuine concern. He completely humiliated himself in front of him yet again, the first time being bullied in the hallway by Ivan, and now balling his eyes out outside the music room because he couldn't handle having music around him so intensely. He couldn't face him, maybe it would be best to stay away for a while. It would be best. After all, what would he say to him after all of that?

Lovino shut his eyes and soon drifted asleep, a nap was all he really needed right now instead of dwelling on all his mistakes. Then once he woken he would do what little he had left of his homework then have dinner, just like any day.

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Lovino is on a mission, that mission being to avoid Antonio in the hallway between classes at all cost. Of course, Antonio did nothing wrong, it is Lovino's fault for crying in front of this mystery guy. Lovino has had this mystery guy, he now knew as Antonio, visit him after school during while he would be doing his school work. Each time he would give a friendly smile and a wave and go about his way, and this is what intrigued Lovino to discover more about the guy. What brought Lovino to find him in the music room playing a guitar, and seeing him look like a painting on a wall. Absolute perfection. A guitarist caressing his child, looking upon it with tender care. The same caring gaze he gave Lovino whilst he sat upon the hard cold school tile floor, hugging onto his knees crying for help. He needed that. He asked for that. But when it actually happened, he couldn't be more embarrassed.

It is the end of the day and Lovino successfully went through it without being spotted by Antonio. Lovino saw him in the hallway twice in which he quickly hid behind a group of students to skillfully pass by the guy.

Lovino sighed.

Was he being childish? Maybe.

Lovino made his way towards the school doors, he decided he shouldn't stay after to be found in that classroom he often stayed in to be found by Antonio. Before Lovino could walk out he stopped, remembering that he neglected to visit his locker for a couple things he needed from it. Lovino looked back down the school's hallway and reluctantly walked back the way he came and made his way to his locker. Once there he put in his combination, opened his locker, and grabbed the things he needed and put them in his bag in an organized way.

"Hey! There you are!" Lovino heard someone yell from down the hallway and quickly made their way towards him, he looked and saw it is Antonio.

Lovino's eyes widen and rapidly closed his locker and made his way down the hallway away from Antonio, "Shit! Fuck!"

"Oh hold on amigo wait up!" Antonio change his pace immediately to catch up to Lovino and grabbed onto his shoulder.

Lovino turned around and pushed his hand off, "Don't touch me! What do you want?"

Antonio raised his hands in apology, "Lo siento guapo."

"Please I don't know what your saying in that language." Lovino crossed his arms. "Just tell me what you want!"

Antonio smiled, "I been looking for you all day! You worried me yesterday. I wanted to make sure you are okay!"

Lovino's face reddened and frowned at him. "Why the fuck would you do that? I don't know you bastardo and you don't know me so why would you concern yourself with how I'm doing? And for your information I'm fucking fine damn it! What you saw yesterday was nothing! So just do me a favor and forget about it!"

Antonio blinked caught off guard by how quickly he got angry and the amount of swears he put in what he said- Lovino kind of reminded Antonio of a little angry kitten, it was cute. Lovino glared at him and Antonio snapped out of it and smiled at him, "Oh you are so cute~ I never did catch your name. Como te llama?"

"Fuck you! Fine don't listen to me! See if I give a damn!" Lovino turned to walk away but Antonio quickly got in front of him.

"Lo siento! Sorry um... please I just been really wanting to talk to you. So I am a little bad at this. Forgive me! Let's start over si? Me llamo Antonio~" He took Lovino's hand and gave it a quick peck.

Lovino snatched his hand back, his expression seemingly angry but truthfully he is red with nervousness and didn't know how else to react other then to be angry. "Me llamo going to kick your ass!" he let out a sharp breath, then replied. "My name is Lovino."

Antonio laughed, "Lovino~ Come come! We should go to the music club together no? You are not busy si?"

Lovino frowned, he couldn't go back to that room after how he reacted yesterday. "No! no.. I can't."

"Oh you are busy? Is it homework? That can wait! I really would like an audience to listen to my music! I play a really good guitar!"

"It can't wait and I said no already so just dr- hey!"

Antonio grabbed onto Lovino's wrist and started pulling him down the hallway in the direction of the music room. "I will not take no for an answer!~ You need to have fun sometime!"

"Let me go bastard!" Lovino pulled and yanked but couldn't break free.

Lovino could hear a faint sound of a piano's keys start to increase as they went nearer to the room and this made him stop struggling. Antonio looked back at him and smiled but Lovino was looking down, looking almost defeated and torn by the sound of the piano. Antonio raised his eyebrow in confusion but continued his way into the music room, and greeted the president of the club.

"Hola Roderich! Sorry for being a bit late! I had to get mi amigo here. You don't mind right?"

Lovino looked up and looked at the guy named Roderich that he is speaking with, and noticed he was the one playing the piano. He is a proper looking guy with dark brown hair, almost black, with a cowlick poking out at the top of his head, and has violet eyes much like Ivan's but with less menace in them. He also has glasses and a mole just below his mouth on the left side of his chin.

Roderich turned towards Antonio with a scowl on his face, "You realize how close the performance is right?"

"Si si of course and I'm completely ready for it don't worry amigo I won't ruin the show! So it's okay if I bring someone along?"

Roderich sighed and looked Lovino up and down, analyzing him, "Just as long as he doesn't distract you from your practice. But if he do-"

"Yay! Gracias amigo!" Antonio cut off Roderich excitedly and made his way away from him, dragging Lovino along.

Roderich sighed and turned back to the piano and continued playing.

"You don't have to drag me everywhere, man handling me!" Lovino pouted at him, in which Antonio let go with a simple 'lo siento'.

Lovino looked around, following along, and they went to the far side of the room that leads into a hallway of its own. Lovino didn't notice this part of the room yesterday, he was too distracted by all the music that was being played. Although, right now there was no one out into the classroom area of the music room that Roderich was in now, but instead the other members were in individual sound rooms that were in the hallway portion. Lovino remembered these kinds of rooms, each individual room was designed to keep any noise inside so that each musician cannot hear anything from the next room. Each door to the small square rooms were glass doors, so Lovino was able to see each musician.

Antonio went into a room at the far side of the hall and closed the door behind them both, taking the guitar case holding his guitar off of him, placing it down leaning against the wall. Lovino took one of the seats that is in the room and sat down watching him. He felt really awkward being in this small spaced room with someone he just met, but as he watched Antonio pull out his guitar he became curious to know how he played.

Antonio grabbed the other chair in the room and placed it across from Lovino, he sat and smiled at him, "I am so happy to have an audience outside of the music club to listen to my song before the performance."

"You are in that music club performance?"

"Si~ Are you coming? Oh you really should! I would feel so much better if you were there to watch me!"

Lovino shrugged, "Don't know if I will. Maybe. Depends if you are even good.."

Antonio smiled, "Watch me I will blow your socks off!"

"Please don't." Lovino leaned back in his chair, mentally preparing for what was about to happen. He quietly took a deep breath.

Antonio positioned himself comfortably as he did yesterday when Lovino saw him through the window and began to play. ( www. youtube watch?v=o8p0TGZvQoQ )

Antonio delicately played the first couple chords and Lovino wasn't prepared for what was going to happen next. Antonio began to sing in spanish to go with the music coming from the acoustic guitar. Lovino broke his gaze on the guitar and up to Antonio's face, those emerald eyes looking at Lovino softly making his stomache flutter. He has never seen someone look at him the way Antonio looked at him now and he wasn't sure how he felt about it, but it for sure took him off guard. Lovino fell in a trance as Antonio further played and sang beautifully. Antonio's voice was gentle yet powerful, the moment he started to sing the whole room was filled with his spanish influenced voice. His voice is so powerful, in fact, that Lovino could almost feel the volume of his voice as the song began to pick up. Lovino watched Antonio's face, he can see the amount of care and passion he is putting into this song. Lovino didn't know what any of the lyrics meant but he did know what Antonio is feeling. Lovino could feel the tenderness, the want, and the passion to have his voice be heard. It all sent chills up Lovino's spine. Lovino was holding his breath and studying him without taking a moment to blink, he didn't want to miss a second of his performance.

Antonio finished his song and smiled at Lovino, "So~ What did you think? Bueno?"

Lovino didn't know what to say, he looked down away from those stupid eyes. "I-It was good I guess! Are you performing that at the music show?"

He chuckled, "Si si! Oh I'm so glad you like it! Muy lindo~ Roderich disapproves of my singing part of it! He thinks that all performances should have it strictly instrumental, so that the instrument can speak for itself and tell it's own story. I completely understand that, pero I want to have fun with it and tell my own story. You know?"

Lovino nodded, "Yeah I get it."

"Plus I want to stand out from all the other performances. Everyone is doing instrumental! So if I sing, then I will be remembered."

"You make it sound like a competition."

Antonio laughed soflty, "It's not, of course, pero I am just excited. I just moved here and I want to make my existance memberable."

"You just moved here?"

"Si! About 3 weeks ago I think," he placed his guitar down, leaned against the wall. "Don't know if you noticed but I'm like extremely spanish sooooo."

"Wow really?" Lovino replied sarcastically.

Antonio laughed, "Si well Spain is my home! Have you always lived here?"

"Si.."

Antonio scooted his chair closer and took Lovino's hands with a sweet smile, "Lovino~ Lovi~ Can I call you Lovi?"

"No."

"Okay Lovi~ I want to know more about you~~ You are so interesting and cute to me! So cute~" Antonio started to play with one of Lovino's hand inattentively while he spoke.

Lovino furrowed his eyebrows at this, "A few days ago you would come by to that classroom while I worked and wave at me but never said anything else. Why?"

Antonio smiled timidly, "Oh si~ I forgot about that! Well I was walking with mi amigos I met and I just happened to look into that classroom and thought you were so cute! So I waved at you! I had asked mi amigos if they knew you but they just said you were some smarty pants student. Anyways! So I wanted to visit again, just to see you, pero I was shy I guess! I didn't really know what to say to you since we don't know each other you know? And then what happened yesterday..."

"Let's not speak of it! I told you to forget about it!" Lovino frowned.

"Pero it was heartbreaking to see you that sad! It was like you were trapped in some kind of darkness! I want to help, I don't want you to be sad. Tell me what happened. Por favor?"

Lovino looked down at his lap, he couldn't bare to look at him. Memories of the day before started to flood in, he is glad he was able to handle Antonio's performance but he wasn't sure if he could handle any more. Lovino was thankful that the musicians were in their sound barrier rooms or else he wouldn't have made it down the hall. He didn't know what could be wrong with him, he didn't know how to control it. He hated how he was triggered to the point of tears then, he felt as if he was truely drowning.

Lovino sighed, "It was just a bad day.."

Antonio looked at him as if saying 'keep talking', and Lovino didn't want to talk more about it but something about Antonio made Lovino feel as if he could tell him anything, maybe that is how he made friends so quickly.

Lovino groaned, "It's stupid really!"

"It wasn't stupid if it made you cry Lovi. Tell me."

"...Fine. Whenever I hear music I break down. Hearing all that music yesterday set me on edge, I just lost it. It was overwhelming." Lovino looked down shamefully.

"Why does music make you feel that way...?"

"My grandpa. Passed away when I was thirteen." Lovino tried his hardest to not make his voice shaky as he felt that familiar burn up his throat. "He was a really great musician. Him and I would often play music together. He taught me everything I know... Now he's gone. I haven't touched an instrument since."

Antonio listened and surveyed him carefully, the silence built but Lovino hardly noticed because he was choking back tears. It burned so much he could hardly stand it, he sat there feeling the emptiness around him with darkness. It surrounded him once more and he felt completely alone once again, Lovino honestly didn't know what he could do.

Antonio got up from his seat and hugged Lovino, holding onto his head gently to his chest. Lovino gasped softly and peered up at him to confirm that it was actually him hugging him. He let it happen, he looked down Antonio's neck and across his shoulder. He felt so warm and his scent was sweet but not the sickening kind of sweet, it is a warm kind of sweet like cinnamon and sugar. Yes that's what it was, it was actually very comforting.

"I'm so sorry that happened to you Lovi.." He pulled back and took Lovino's face in both of his hands gently caressing it. "I want to help you get through this. Do you trust me?~"

Lovino's heart started to pick up, he could feel himself get hotter underneath Antonio's hands which embarrassed him some which made his face even redder. "N-no not really, bastard."

Antonio chuckled softly, "Well you are going to have to! Because I am looking forward to making your cute face happy~" He softly ran his thumb over Lovino's lips and it tickled slightly.

"Okay okay!" Lovino moved his face away and pushed him. "You can stop now with your weird spanish flirting tactics!"

Lovino quickly got up, picking up his bag, he suddenly felt like the entire room was getting warmer and warmer and he needed to get out of there quickly.

"Awww leaving so soon?~ You like it~"

"No shut up! I mean yes I am leaving! No to the liking bit! Vaffanculo!" Lovino grabbed onto the door knob and exited the sound room swiftly.

Antonio laughed, holding onto the possibility that Lovino enjoyed every bit of that moment they had, "Adios cutie~~ I will see you at the performance!"

"Fucking bastard..." Lovino made his way out of the music room cheeks puffed out in anger, still red making him look so much like a tomato.

Fuck that guy..

It's just that stupid spanish charm that made him react that way. He just performed in front of him with that breath-taking voice, anyone would've reacted in that sort of way. He was also emotionally unbalaced so honestly it just caught him off guard. Anyone would have blushed stupidly as he did.

Cazzo idiota...

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Author's note: I thought it be a fun idea to have the songs links be a part of the story so y'all can be more indulged in the story! So i hope yall enjoy that little treat I'm putting into the stories. Just know that they are coming from You Tube! All credit goes to the performers/artists. Song used in this story is: Para enamorarte de mi by David Bisbal.