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WARNING! Self-harm in this chapter. but on a random note, that chapter name though O.O I can't believe I came up with that. XD Yay!

Chapter Three: The Brush and The Blade Are One In The Same

Zero was fast asleep beneath the tree. He hadn't cared that falling asleep was a risk; it meant he could fall to E. He had lost his incentive to care. He had hurt Kaname. He hadn't meant to. His damned hunter side had gotten through. He had let it lash out at the pureblood. He had watched, doing nothing though he wanted to, to help the fragile creature that was Kaname as he fell, so wrecked that there was nearly no hope.

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Across the grounds, one could find Kaname, sitting alone and looking scared. He had thought about it since Zero had left. He was sitting on the bathroom floor, door barricaded and nearly impossible to get through. He had taken his razor and removed the blade. It glinted at him, winking in the light, begging him to use it. He was terrified. He wanted to do it, he truly did. But he was afraid that he wasn't numb enough. He didn't know if he'd cut deep enough. He healed quickly, so he knew it would need to be an awfully deep injury.

The blade looked cold, sitting in the white light, shining against the gray tiles.

A sob escaped him, and he put his hands over his mouth, trying desperately to keep all of his pain in. It didn't want to subside however. The tears flowed freely, his muffled sobs making his breathing labored. The glimmering tears flowed down over his trembling fingers, splattering onto the cold floor. Without further hesitation, Kaname grabbed up the blade and slashed his arm. The cuts healed quickly and he cut deeper and harder each time.

After a few moments he dropped the blade and screamed into the emptiness. Blood slicked the floor and stained his shirt. The razor blade, lying half in a small pool of his blood, was suspiciously free of the red mess. It still glinted silver, now mocking him for having done it. His sobs grew silent but no less severe. As he sat staring at the blood before him, a furious and incessant knocking began. He knew it was either Aido or Ichijo, as both were prone to coming around just when he didn't want them.

"Kaname?!"

It was Aido, his voice sounding just as frantic as his knocking.

"Leave me be!" The pureblood's voice was weak and he knew that Aido would have noted the pain.

He heard fast footsteps as Aido fled the room. He thought that he was going to be alone again, but within a moment, a second set of footfalls sounded on the other side of the door. He heard muttering and knew that he had dragged Senri into it.

There was a moment of silence before a gentle knock.

"Kaname? Will you please come out here?"

"No." At the moment, Kaname hated the calm demeanor of the younger vampire.

"I'll get the Headmaster."

"Damnit!"

Kaname stood slowly, feeling a little off balance. He threw a towel over the blood on the floor and took his shirt off, dumping it into the hamper. He quickly moved the items barricading the door and unlocked it. His cuts were all completely healed, and with his shirt gone, there was no evidence of what he had just done. He opened the door and stared into Senri's eyes.

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Zero felt a pain in his mouth. Sharp and metallic, it cut his gums. He felt the grass beneath him and didn't know where he was for a moment. He let a vicious growl escape from his throat. He opened his eyes and saw that the sky was a deep orange. He sat up, feeling like there was blood coating his hands. When he lifted a hand to see if that was the case, he was terrified to see it was true. The blood had dried, but it was still fairly fresh. Distantly, the wind carrying it to his ears, Zero could hear people in the nearby town in a panic. Someone had been killed.

"No…"

He stood and looked at the school. He saw a few of the Night Class students watching him from the tower of the moon dormitory. He looked down at his feet, feeling scared.

"So this is how it starts."

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Senri had made Kaname sit on the bed. They had obviously found the blood, as they knew the scent of it, and had freaked out. Senri and Aido were talking quietly away from Kaname, deciding how to go about watching him so he didn't try it again. Kaname was sitting tensely upon his bed, worried about what they would do. The anticipation of waiting for them to talk to him was unbearable.

"Don't tell Zero."

The two B vampires looked at the pureblood, thoroughly confused.

"Why does Zero matter? He doesn't fit into this."

Tears formed in Kaname's eyes. "He's the reason I did this."

They both felt their jaws drop as Kaname buried his face in his hands.

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