A Lucky Night with my Hime
my feelings of loneliness, desiring and love
Chapter 3: The First Step In a Relationship
by
Sha Yurigami
Blasphemy.
That's all I could think of as me and my beloved were siting on this pink and fluffy ,heart-shaped bed.
It came out that the others just made a cruel prank on us…well, maybe I should explain that:
Our family, the Yagamis, were going to watch the valentines firework on the countryside. But as the day went on, everything was set up so that me and Signum would be alone…and yet again it was proved that my family would and will always do everything only to embarrass me, to the point that I would feel like crying!
After those embarrassing moments the whole day over, me and Signum were finally alone on a platform, the perfect place to watch the firework. I can still remember the silliness of that moment, when I gave Signum my letter…m-m-my l-lo-love-let-tt-ter… And I finally CLAIMED her lips!
But I couldn't stand the awkwardness and run away, completely flushed from head to toe!
After wards I ran to the shrine, I wanted to pray to whichever deity out there that everything doesn't ed in one big mess…and when I wanted to stand up, I felt her behind me. Her presence is…I would always notice her.
I was frozen, couldn't move and my heart hurt. A few tears escaped my eyes, but somehow I muttered the strength to stand up.
The moment I faced her, I couldn't belief that the one standing before me could ever have this look.
She looked so vulnerable and -it seemed so- a tear tried to escape her eye. She walked towards me and my uncertainties stopped the moment our eyes meet.
I felt so bolt in that moment and I felt even bolder when she lowered her head and when our foreheads touched. I wanted to feel her and to hold her, to kiss her and to -I don't belief myself- protect her.
And then without a word, we kissed.
Well that is everything so far and now we sit here on this pink and fluffy ,heart-shaped bed.
This was also a prank our little family played on us. And my heart couldn't settle even one bit… 'What now' was all I could think of, and when I looked at Signum, I could see that she was frowning
or she was just as insecure as me in that moment.
Yes it's true that I wanted to sleep with her *blush* I-I-I mean that I wanted to sleep in her arms! An-and not have th-that…well who am I fooling? I wanted to do that too...but not now…not when we still got many things to do.
We didn't go out, well today doesn't count. And we only kissed…she didn't tell me that she felt the same way…
But then why…why did she kiss me?
Did she feel pity for me?
Was I not an adult in her eyes that I couldn't take a rejection?
Why was she all flirty with me on our way back to the car then?
What did she feel for me,and why should she fall for me in the first place?
I…I am but nothing more than a spoiled brat. I always be nothing more than cute little Rein…her little -'I don't want that!'- sister…
We didn't have an exclusive bond, we did a unision a few times, but that was in combat…I…wasn't needed anymore…now Agito became her current partner. How void I felt at first when she brought Agito with her.
She was a devil.
She took away my…
Why would Signum even considering, me, as a possible lo-love interest?
I wasn't all that special – anymore… I – became replaceable.
Then I felt a hand on mine.
Signum sat on my right and grabbed my right hand with her left. Her fingers were trembling…was she afraid? Why?
''Sig-''
''I'm sorry Rein.''
''Eeh?'' She was sorry…a fear creeped into my mind and my heart was stopping…was she going to reject me? Was she going to tell me that these feelings I had for her weren't real? That the tears I shed now were going to stop? That she merrily wanted to respect my feelings and that she…she…she doesn't love me!
When I tried to find any possibility of my fears in her face, she turned her face to the other side…she didn't want me to see her face…and with that my heart sored.
Or so I thought ,but she quickly turned and pressed her face into mine. Our lips crushing onto each other and she pushed my body onto the mattress. I-I somehow undid her hair from her high-ponytail and let her hair fall on to face.
I slowly closed my eyes, but hey shot wide open when I felt a soft wet tingle on my bottom lip…her-HER TONGUE! Her tongue was touching my bottom lip and worked itself sideways, then back to the middle, she inched me- to open my lips for her.
I was a little afraid. Her left hand intertwined with my right, a soft but firm grip. And I opened my mouth for her.
Her mouth overlapped mine and her tongue entered my mouth. She deepened the kiss and then…our lips met.
A feeling I have never experienced. Her kiss made me hot in places I didn't realize that they couldn't feel hot…her body weight was welcomed by my body, as if it wanted to be reassured that this wasn't a dream. We didn't move…well ou-our tongues were moving. First the tip then the sensation was on my the top of my tongue and then she twisted her own to move mine over hers and so on and so on.
I let her take the lead and then I looked up into Signum's eyes…we parted in that moment, much to my dismay!
Then she sat up. Her back facing me as I was still in a daze from our experience just now and I was huffing for air…that kiss was a little tiring, but I also sat up. My kimono was hanging a little loose on my left shoulder and a few strands my hair were a little out of place.
''I-I still ha-haven't said 'it' yet'' Haven't said 'what' yet? I was a little confused, everything happened so fast, and I still couldn't collect my thoughts so far…and what was she saying again? Was she blushing? She stuttered a little, right?
Then it dawned to me!
I threw my arms around her shoulders and embarrassed her as good as possible with my smaller body. She really was scared. Scared of her own feelings. Of her insecurities. Of if I wouldn't reciprocate her feelings!
She was like me…she was scared of all 'what if's'
''It's okay. You don't have to say anything. We – still have much time…So don't force yourself to say something, that your so uncomfortable with.'' I tried to reassure her with a soft voice, to show her that she didn't have to say or do anything, that whatever happens, happens.
She touched the backside of my hands with hers and leaned into my embarrass. Her eyes were still hidden under her bangs, and she – slightly trembled.
Then she lifted her head and looked into my eyes. A few tears were streaming down her cheeks. She looked at me and ''Stay with me''.
Not a ''I love you'' but a simple request ''Stay with me'', how could I have not cried when she said to me those words. She told me in her own uniquè was that my feelings were welcomed.
I smiled at her and kissed her cheek and in that night, we both slept in each others arms.
I dreamt of her…and I'm sure she did of me.
Sorry for the late update, but I feel so lazy in these days! Well on another note:
Also the size of Reinforce 2 in this fic is normal(looked at the StrikerS manga or ViviD if you want!)
The next chapters of 'Meeting, Befriending and Falling in love' and 'Wars Heroes' are in the making.
Also please Read and Review! Reviews are food for an author!
Your dear
Sha Yurigami
