What exactly is happening now? I'm bleeding from my head with a towel pressed up to it, I'm in the car with some of the most popular boys, I've been accepted into their band, and I'm sitting next to Sasuke's girlfriend right now, who must I say, looks a bit too young for him and is so pretty!
My favorite song began to play on the radio, and I just couldn't help it… I had to… sing along!
"I love, love, love you. I'll sing it so loud and proud!
Looking at the full moon reminds me of you.
Look at me, what do you see?..." My little whisper of singing became louder and louder, and soon, I was singing my heart out. I stopped awkwardly as the instrumental came on and I blushed at the silence throughout the car.
"Wow, what a nice voice!" I turned my head to see Yuki beaming at me, first time I've heard her speak, gosh, even now she looks younger! She looks the age of… of… thirteen years old! Oh my Gosh, Sasuke's going for the young ones!
"Thank you," I muttered half heartedly to her.
"Hey I got an idea, maybe Sakura can finish her song and it'll be part of the band! She can perform a singing solo!"
"W-what?! No, no, I co-"
"Sounds fine with me," Sasuke muttered.
"B-but!"
"Aw come on Sakura, you're part of the band now! Come on!" I didn't know what to say, part of me wanted to do it, but part of me didn't want to due to bias-first-impression remarks that would be made on me.
"U-um… I'll think about it,"
"Is this your house?" Naruto stopped in front of a large, modern, beautifully painted house. I always hated people coming to my house, it was a slum, if I would always get asked "is this your house," and it was, I would end with an 'oh…' with both of us feeling awkward and stupid.
Yes. I was poor, and worse, my family had fallen apart since when I was three years old.
"Yea, thanks guys!" I hopped out with Naruto's stained clothes still on me, I popped my head back into the car.
"I'll wash this for you," I smiled at him gratefully and then looked back at Sasuke who was holding Yuki's hand, I flicked a little smile at him and he nodded, I didn't bother to look at Yuki. Well… more like I didn't want to.
I waited for the car to drive away then I walked around the corner, surprisingly the rain had lightened up, but the clouds were still heavy. I opened the door to my crappy house and entered. I was greeted with loud, masculine grunts and moaning, I felt an angry surge inside me and I blushed from embarrassment.
"MOMMMMMMMMMMMMM!" Screaming so loud made my face go redder. My mom came stumbling downstairs a few minutes later with the bed sheets wrapped around her naked body. Her hair was messed up and behind her came a man, creepy looking, had a stubble, flicked hair and gruff looking.
I avoided eye contact with the both of them, feeling my anger squeezing my guts.
"Sa, this is Takuto. I met him awhile ago-"
"Yea whatever," I stormed off to my room with Takuto's eyes on me.
"Whose clothes are you wearing?" My mom asked and I turned around, sighing angrily. I knew what was going to come next.
"Just a friend, I got into a band and had an accident, and he lent me his clothes," I clenched my fist, ready to punch something hard.
"Did you sleep with him?! And what's with this band?!" My mother stormed up to me and faced me angrily, pfft, as if I was intimidated! Adults are always so shallow now these days.
"No mom, I didn't sleep with him!" I'm not like you I thought. "And it's a band, you know, music blah blah blah?!"
"Don't you talk like that to me! And I already told you to quit all this music shit! It's not good for you!"
"You can't tell me what to do! And besides, that's for you not me Mom!" In a split second, I saw my mom raise her hand and then next thing, I had a sharp stinging pain in my right cheek along with a bleeding scratch from her diamond ring. I stared at her bitterly, then without another word, I walked to my room. I slammed my door as hard as I could then grabbed my pillow, pressing it up to my face I screamed as loud as possible.
I screamed until my throat hurt, I even screamed so hard, I think the world went silent.
Without anything to do and with my anger still raging inside me, I tried my best to fall asleep. Yes, we are poor, yes, my mom does sleep with random strangers she picks up from the strip club, yes, my mom is a stripper and yes, and all her boyfriends have hated and tried to get rid of me.
Yes, my life is shit. The only thing keeping me sane right now is music. My mum hates music so much, that I hide a keyboard in my room and only play when she's out which is good since that she's normally always out.
My dad, who I loved dearly walked out on us when I was three. The last thing I remember was that he was shouting at my mom and she was shoving him, she finally pushed him out the door and then… I never saw him.
I remember one day, my mom who was still in good shape came up to me when I was seven and said that my dad loved me dearly, he wanted to have me all to himself but she wouldn't let him, she said that I was a mistake. I didn't know what that meant back then, but now I do.
It seems that everything I've done, or everyone I've loved has… disappeared away from me.
…
I woke up to a new day, the house was silent and outside was newly doused with fresh rain, dewdrops were sitting gracefully on the tips of blades of grass, the morning atmosphere was great.
I sat up to realize I was still in Naruto's clothes, how gross. I lifted my hand to touch my head, a large scab had formed at my wound, wow, it was that big?
I slid off my bed dully and took off Naruto's clothes, dumping them in the washing machine and pressing the start button. While it was doing that, I hopped into the shower and blasted the hot tap along with some cold.
Oh god, that felt nice…
After showering for ten, heavenly minutes, I finally got out and dried myself, slipping into a dress, tights, another pair of legwarmers and my dried sneakers from yesterday, along with a warm coat.
I glanced at the clock and my eyes widened, oh shit! I'm late for school! I grabbed my backpack and shoved a bag of chips in, also putting in my pencil case and exercise books.
I ran towards school as fast as I could, avoiding a few cars along the way and a crowd of people.
A car suddenly drove beside me, the tinted window wound down and Sasuke's head appeared.
"Get in, otherwise you'll be late," The state of his tone was blunt. Was he always like this?
I decided quickly and hopped in, Sasuke sped off, and the awkwardness began.
"We're gonna practice today in the hall at lunch time,"
"Oh okay,"
"So you wanna go out tonight?" My ears suddenly perked and I creased my brow, a bit confused and yet excited.
"What?"
"Wanna go out tonight?" He repeated as if I was stupid. I took a moment to stare at his face in wonder, his skin was so perfect… I want his skin! And his eyes were so dark that they were so beautiful! His perfect pink lips… I wonder what it would feel like being kissed by him… what am I thinking?! Without thinking, I lifted my hand and slapped my forehead in distress, sighing at myself.
"No?"
"No! I mean-"
"No…?"
"I mean, I mean… yea, sure…" I blushed hardcore and bit my lip, out of the corner of my eyes I began to stare at his face again.
His swished hair looked so light and his fringe was pushed to the side. My eyes wondered to his forearms which were so… muscular and his hands were big… I suddenly screwed up my eyes, realising what I was thinking.
Was I crushing on Sasuke!?
