Title: Season 7 Shorts
Chapter: Hold (7x10 Internal Affairs)
Rating: T
Disclaimer: I do not own NCIS LA or the characters
Summary: This series will be a collection of short scenes added to the episodes of season 7. They will be mostly Kensi and Deeks scenes. This chapter takes place during 7x10 Internal Affairs. The first scene is just a little insight into what I felt Kensi might be thinking after seeing Deeks in the holding cell and her motivation for losing it on Hetty. The second scene is a post-ep.
Hold
After she talks with Deeks in his holding cell, her suspicions are confirmed. She is sure now that Deeks is lying and that he had something to do with Boyle's murder; otherwise he wouldn't be trying to prepare her for the worst. She is pissed at him for lying and not letting her in after she'd asked so many times. In fact, she's so pissed and scared and emotional that she can't even stay in the same room with him, but she also trusts he is doing what he is doing for a reason. He is everything to her, and she sure as hell isn't going to let the worst happen no matter how angry she is. Hetty knows everything. She had to have known about this. Why hasn't she taken care of this already Kensi wonders? If she's pissed at Deeks, then she's furious with Hetty, for keeping this from her, from them, and for not helping sooner.
As soon as Roberta is upstairs washing up for the night, Kensi says in what Deeks has deemed her serious tone, "We need to talk."
"I know," he sighs. "I'm so sorry baby. I know this has been hell for you." He reaches over for her hand.
"I was so freakin' scared," she admits a bit accusatorily as she pulls her hand away, stands, and begins pacing the living room.
"I know, I'm sorry," he reiterates his apology, not sure what else to say. He can't tell her everything until things have settled a bit, but he's afraid if he doesn't he might still lose her.
She wants to call him out on lying to her about everything, but a larger part of her needs to wait and have him come to her. Still, she feels the need to release all of her emotional energy on something. "You never told me you were spending $400 a month on a prostitute." Even though she knows he never actually bought her services, Kensi phrases her accusation this way knowing it will rile him up, maybe even enough for him to spill why he felt the need to protect said prostitute by taking a life.
"You don't tell me everything you spend your money on. I'm sure you help Astrid out," he returns.
"Astrid isn't a hooker." Kensi's voice raises a level.
"Neither is Tiffany," Deeks responds also getting louder. He recognizes that Kensi is baiting him into an argument, but he agrees that they both need some kind of release.
Kensi balls her fists and turns away from him.
"If it bothers you that much, I'll help Tiffany find a better job so she can be more independent."
"That's not what's bothering me!" Kensi exclaims.
"Hey," Deeks says calmly. Knowing that he can't get into everything with her, he decides that an all our argument may not be the best way to release their tension. "Can we not do this tonight? I just need to hold you."
Kensi thinks about this for a long time. Even though she's mad at him for keeping things from her when she asked over and over for him to share, and even though she's assuming he killed Boyle to protect Tiffany, that doesn't change the fact that she loves him more than anything on this earth, and she's going to keep on loving him through this.
"I thought I was going to lose you," she says quietly as she turns back toward him. She returns to the couch and lets him take her in his arms as she buries her head against his chest.
"Me too baby, me too." He savors having her in his arms as he strokes her hair.
Both are so tired from the lack of sleep that they are asleep on the couch within minutes. Deeks awakens when Roberta comes down to check on them and turn off some lights.
"That's better," Roberta says when she sees that Deeks is awake nodding to the cuddling pair.
"Sorry mama, we don't usually get loud when we argue," Deeks explains.
"It's been an emotional few days," Roberta waves off his excuse, "but do your mama a favor and remember that Kensi loves you and trusts you. You keep her close and hold onto her." Roberta knows her son has a tendency to push people away when times are difficult.
"Yes mama," he replies, very grateful to have these two wonderful women in his life.
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