The hardest part about being a Mortal Guardian isn't the job itself really. It's keeping things a secret.
You see, if anyone knew about us... the few of us who are Mortal Guardians... if we tried to tell them the truth we would most likely find ourselves locked up for being insane. For believing in "things that don't exist" we would have our loved ones hounding us about our sanity even if we managed to keep from being locked up.
Perhaps one of the worst things, I think, is the most recent development. I don't know if it's because I understand him or what, but I am worried for the youngest Guardian. Three years ago his story was told, the amount of believers spiked which was great... but all things considered, by the time the story came out there's a good chance that the real believer who saved us all is getting dangerously close to that age where he will no longer believe.
I haven't seen him for myself, but it's just a feeling that I have. Something in the air that just doesn't feel quite right and not in the sense that something awful is going to happen, but in the sense that hurt and heartbreak is prevalent in the air. To be quite honest, there's no way for me to know when he truly got his first believer. It obviously wasn't three years ago. I would have noticed something like that. I doubt he would speak of it even if I did see him.
It's not really in his character to talk about things that bother him... he is the Guardian of Fun after all. He wouldn't want to spoil anyone's fun or happy day... but what about his day? I can't help but feel worry for him. Even for all the believers that he may yet still have now. My mind is now coming up with the worst possibilities as I write this. I hope that I might gain some answers... but I am not banking on it. I have tasted his snow... but it has only come twice so far this year and it is about two weeks until Christmas. Last year was lax in snow too... I wonder if maybe something actually happened the year before that I just missed...
It's almost heartbreaking to think about really... but I have to be strong... for his sake. Even if he never comes talk to me, I will not let belief in him or the other Guardians fade so long as I draw breath. I wouldn't be much of a Guardian myself if I did.
