WARNING = THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS UPSETTING CONTENT!


It is a cold, dark night.

I am young and a little more innocent. Not completely of course…. My tragic past, abandonment, mum's death and bullying saw to that… but more innocent than i would be when aiden was through with me. And when I was through with him.

I am waiting at home for aiden to return. Yesterday he told me i was uggers and needed to loose wait so i was only eating carrots even though I was soo hungry. Aiden used to be kind to me and say i was the most beautiful gril in the world and he loved me so much… but over time that changed. He became a horrible boyfriend. A mean bully.

Still, I love him. I can't change that. I am like a prisoner trapped behind the bars of love.

It is late, nearly and I am bcoming worried. Aiden said the'd home by now! He was at football practise with his friends at the park, I remember. Maybe he's hurt himself or something?! I'd feel terrible if something happened to him after all the bad things I've thought about him…

I grab my coat and race towards the door and run to the park to check if he's there and ok. My heart pounds like the wings of a butterfly. When I get there, the park is empty and my heart sinks to the floor. No one is here. Where is he?!
"Aiden?! I call desparately. "AIDEN?!"

And then i hear it. A noise. A high pitched giggle… coming from a nearby bench. My heart sinks even lower. I turn to the bench and my jaw drops. I couldnt believe wat I was seeing!

It was Aiden...and he wasn't alone.

Benehat him was Anne Rogers - one of my SO CALLED BEST MATES. He was lying on top of her and he'd pulled his trousers down, much to my horror. Anne's skirt was pushed up. And her kncikers were laying on the floor before me, laughing at my pain and taunting at me as I glanced down to see their black lace and hot pink leopard print design. THEY WERE DOING SEX! ON A BENCH. A BENCH OF ALL PLACES.

I opened my mouth to scream but only a strangled noise came out!

That was when aidan saw me.

"Oh it's you…" he muttered. So casual, yet somehow so dismizzive and cruel. He was taunting me. I coul feel that in the depths of my soul. "What do you want?" he aksed.

"ME!?" I finally found my voice, thunderous as an eagle and unforgiving as a giant knife. "What are YOU doing aidan!? Why are you doing sex with Anne!? I thought you love me! I'm saving myself for you!"

"your e so boring sometimes." he sighed, scowling as our eyes met. I'd never seen them so dead and filled with cruel venom; poisonous as a million cobras. "Annes funn and sexy and she lets us do it wherever we feel like it," he rolled his eyes. "Also she's really hot and has bigger boobs than you. I always liked her more than you but knew you'd let me spend you money and shit, so i picked you as my meal ticket. LOL! Your face!"

My first thought was sadness and tears. But I WILL NOT cry in front of this… this…. Monster!

Instead, I turned to Aiden with absolute rage burning in sinde of me like the fires of the sun, they would never go out as long as I lived.

"WE'RE OVER!" I SCREAMED. "Never come back to my house, never talk to me again! I hate you beyond words! You bastard!"

Aiden stops smiling instantly. His face becomes grim and dark. For a moment I am pleased, but as he gets off te bench and walks towards me I start to feel scared.

"What did youjust say?" He asks furiously.

I wanted to run but i stood my ground bravely like a lion. "I said you were a bastard. Because you are, Aiden. You're a bastrd."

Then Aiden's eyes flashe with rage and he puncheded me in the face. I fell to the floor onyl to see him storm off.

"Loreeli are you OK?" Asked Anne Rogers, all concerned. She reached out to help me up but I pushed her away.
"Don't touch me." I hissed at her. "YOu betrayed me. I never want to see you again eiter. You're a knickerless whore."

Anne burst into tears and ran off into the bushes.

I was left alone/. But even the pin stinging through the left hand side of my faece coudnt overcome the tidle wave of anguish bursting through my heart. How could ever of them do this to me?! Anne had been one of my best mates. despit e all his faults and meannness, i kept trying to love aidan. I'd never have imagined he would hit me. EVER.

Did she really have bigger boobs than me? Had aidan always liked her more than me?

Maybe i had been the foolish one? Almost everyone in the year fancied anne rogers. She wore her skirt shorter than almost anyone else - accept amy porter that slapper - and had sexy stockings that were a sensual nude colour. No man could resit her. She wore her shirt with the butons undone so you see the tops of her bra. She always woere underwear that was relay sexy colours. Like hot pink and jet black and powder blue. She had a long spray of bright dark brown curls that wound around her shoulders; even glossier and smoother than my own hair. She had large, almond coloured eyes with long curving lashes and deep maroon pouty lips. I should have seen it coming. Noone could ignore how sexy and gorgeous and sensual and voluptous anne rogers was. Especially not aidan

I'd had my suspicions he'd cheated on me before. He was always hanging roun his ex-girlfriends house over night...but he'd promised me it was just because hs dad hated him and made him sleep out back in the rabbit hutch. I had never met aidans dad so i believed him. My own dad had been so cruel...why coudn't his!?

Maybe that had been just another lie. Now that they were both gone, the tears came, they started to cascade down my face like a waterfall. How had it all gone so wrong? What had I dont to deserve this? Nothing I wa ssure…. I was just hated by Fate.

There was only one place I could go when I felt sad. At home was tainted by Aiden's presence, the mell of his lynx bodyspray and his harsh words about my room. But there was one place Aiden hadnt ruined… one place he'd never been. The vegetable garden at school made by my favourite teacher Mr Mead. Aiden had always said it was lame and dumb and he had better things to do than grow carrots. Well, noe I knew that one of those things was Anne Rogers that prep.
I felt like my whole world was crumbling around me!

I'd loved Aidan! I thought he loved me too. But i was wrong. He had only wanted to use me for money, and probably sexy as well because he was SUCH A PERV. all he ever wanted to do was spend my money or have sex! Maybe I was better off with out him?

Well. he could have Anne now. That knickerless whore! He cleaely wanted her and her lack of wearing pants more than he'd ever wanted me. I felt so liberated then. It was like my strength was coming back to me!

But i still needed to clear my head...and I knew the perfect place. The vegetable garden back at school.