Mike is freaking out, it feels as if he is losing both his parents at the same time, again. Rachel can't stop crying and he can't help her. He puts his arms around her and they draw comfort from each other. "What the hell happened Mike?" He is startled into attention at that voice. He had called Jessica as soon as he was able. He knew she would want to know even if he would be disturbing her from a long awaited vacation.
"Someone made a hit and run on Donna,.. and Harvey... he had a heart attack'.He manages to say.
She looks at the tears running unchecked on his face, "Oh my God." Is all she can say. She looks around, Louise is at a corner crying, Scotty is in a shocked state , sitting dejected on the bench and Gretchen is standing beside Louise; bless the woman, she is praying. "How are they?" she directs her question to Mike.
" Uhm... Donna is in ICU, she had a uhm ... a head injury and some broken ribs and... ahh they've just operated on her. They say she's out of surgery but they're not sure she'll make it." He sighs then continues. "And Harvey... ahm he is also in ICU, he had a cardiac arrest but he ... uhm .. he ... they managed to bring him back. He's in a state of comma though, he's not waking up. They say we have to give him time."
"Oh my God." Jessica can't believe what's happening. "Oh my God." She says again, clutching her heart as it dawns on her.
'Since I've been here I've been looking but i haven't found Donna yet. Have you seen her?'He asks , looking around , searching, but he can't find her.
' And why are you looking for her here?'
'Well where else could she be?' He asks, confused.
'Certainly not here, i think its time you went back Harvey. You have people counting on you'.
He looks down at his hands, 'I can never go back. Please don't make me, please dad, i cant go without her'.
'You have to go back Harvey, it's not your time yet. You have to go son'.
Mike is looking through the surveillance camera footage from that horrible day, 5 days ago. He and Rach had had to postpone their wedding. He doesn't understand. This car came from nowhere, aimed at Donna and then sped off. He can't look at the way Donna flies in the air as she is hit by the car. He can't get the image out of his head.
"Mike" Rachel walks into his office, "Found anything yet?"
"Not yet." he sighs, "I swear, this looks like a professional job Rach, someone was aiming at Donna. I wonder why. Why would anyone want to kill Donna?"
"I don't think its Donna they were after Mike. Think about it, if someone wanted to really hurt Harvey who would they target the most? Harvey has enemies." Rachel states.
"I've thought about that Rach, but no one outside of this office knows about Harvey's feelings for Donna and no one here would do such a thing."He takes the extra CCTV footage that Rachel hands him. They are looking through the surveillance footage in silence, "There"Mike points out at a car, parked hidden just around the corner, they can't see anyone inside. "See that?" "That car was parked there waiting for Donna to come out, and someone wanted us to see that. This was a hit Rach. "Oh My God."
"Gallo..." Rachel starts but is cut off by Mike.
"Gallo doesn't know anything about Donna; he still thinks the only way to stick it to Harvey is to get to me."
"How about Forssmann?"She asks.
"Forssmann doesn't know anything about Donna, if he knew, believe me he would have played that card a long time ago". Mike freezes, "Oh my God."
"What is it," Rachel asks.
'You will really let us get away with murder? For your secretary?' 'Damn straight, and I will do it a hundred times'. Mike remembers that confrontation as if it were yesterday. "Evan Smith." He exclaims.
"What about her Mike? You think she could have done this?" she asks incredulously.
Mike reiterates the conversation to Rachel. "I am telling you Rach, she is the only person who saw firsthand Harvey's love for Donna. She may not have had any motive to do this but she sure told someone who did."
Evan sits in the stuffy eerie room waiting for her client. She is furious. He walks in with a smirk on his face and sits down opposite her. "I wasn't expecting to see you here so soon. To what do I owe the pleasure?"Forssman says.
"Would you care to explain to me how, just after I tell you about Harvey Specter's feelings for his secretary, she is hit by an unidentified vehicle and left for dead?" Evan fumes.
"Oh, is that what happened? Are you saying she is not dead?" Fossman feigns dismay. "That's a pity, but are you saying I had something to do with it?"
"I know you did". She sighs, frustrated. "Dad!" She whispers, she rarely ever calls shim that. Their relationship is complicated at best. "If they connect this to you, you'll be up for attempted murder."
"Well they better not connect the dots then. For the record I didn't do this." He tries to assure her. "Now Evan, it was nice seeing you, but I have to go and take care of some business." He stands up and leaves, directing his steps straight to Gallo's cell.
"You did a crappy job, she didn't die." He says to Gallo.
Gallo looks up from his newspaper. "That's unfortunate, but what can I say, my murdering days are over. I set out to send a message and it was well received. Harvey Specter is in hospital right now, next to the love of his life." He gloats. "He's said to be in a comma." He smiles a sinister smile and goes back to reading his paper.
He's been awake for what seems like hours now, when Mike and Rachel came in to see him earlier, he pretended to be sleeping. He doesn't want anyone to tell him what they think he should know. The only person who could pull him through this is the same person who is...; he lets the thought trail off. He can't think about that right now. He can still see her, the way she was when he last saw her. Her smile, her eyes betraying the pain he had caused her; the promise of a dinner they never had. His mind blocks out the image of her lying on the tiles in the street, deathly pale. He hears footsteps coming his way, the troop must be back, it must be visit hour. Jessica walks in looking every inch the managing partner that she was, for a moment there he forgets that she resigned. In tow is Mike, holding on to Rachael .For strength? The kid can be a pile of emotions sometimes. Surprise surprise, Louise is dry eyed, not for long if he knows him well. Scotty is here too, ahhgg, he really doesn't want to talk. But they've been told that he's regained consciousness a while ago. Well he can't feign sleep again, but he doesn't have to talk, not until he's good and ready. Which can be never. He couldn't even if he tried anyway. His throat feels constricted, he's afraid he might start to cry if he did. The pitiful looks they are giving him are not helping any. "Harvey?" Jessica says. "How are you feeling?" He just stares at her, how does she think he's feeling?"
"Hey Harvey," that's Louis now, "Hey I am sorry man, just wanted you to know that I am holding down the fort at the firm. So you don't need to worry, we've got it covered."
He doesn't even look at Louis, 'well if everything is in control why is the whole firm at the hospital instead of actually at the firm, did you close down or something?'He is thinking. 'So much for holding down the fort Louise'. He doesn't say it though. Mike is saying something, then Rachel looks like she's saying something, everyone seems to be talking to him but he can't comprehend anything anymore. Somehow he has developed the ability to shut down the activities going on around him. He is protecting himself from hearing those words. He will never be ready to hear them. He turns on his side facing the wall, wishing he could distract himself with something. This hospital room has no color whatsoever. So much for having the best money can buy, money can't buy shit. He stares at the wall instead and wills himself not to think. After a while he realizes his visitors have left the room, peace at last.
"He's not looking good, we should call his therapist. Maybe she can help him through this."Jessica says directing her question to the group.
"I don't think that can help, Harvey is shutting himself from the world." Mike replies. "The last thing he remembers before he passed out is Donna lying on the street with blood coming out of her mouth. I think he thinks she's dead". Everyone looks at him with comprehension.
"Nobody told him she is still alive?" Louise asks, a little shocked.
"Well, he's not talking to anyone, he probably didn't ask Louis". Jessica says impatiently.
"We should take him to see Donna." Mike suggests.
"Mike, I don't think that's such a good idea. Rachel points out. "Donna is on a ventilator with tubes and monitors attached all over. It's not a good sight, that might not help him."
"Well, if we tell him she's alive, he might not believe us. He will want to see for himself. It's better than letting him think that she's dead. I can't see him like this." Mike says, looking at Rachel.
"Ok, we need to get back in there and show him the truth; he needs to snap out of it." Jessica says, then in a whisper almost to herself. "He has to".
The door opens and, 'Oh crap, they're back. He had thought they'd called it a day'. He thinks as he turns back to the wall. "Harvey, Donna is ..., uhm..." Mike starts. 'Oh please don't.' He thinks as he tries to shut him out.
"Donna is alive Harvey. Do you know that?" Mike continues tentatively.
Harvey can't believe his ears. Dare he hope? He turns and looks at Mike, but he doesn't say anything. Mike is good with that response, however small. He presses on. "We can take you to her right now." Harvey takes the bait. He stands up and looks at Mike, challenging. He rejects the wheel chair that Rachel pushes to him as he walks himself out of the door, waiting for Mike to lead the way. He better not be lying to him or he won't be responsible for what he'll do. Moment of truth, he sighs as they all begin to walk. He is tempted to turn back around and go back to his room, to his oblivion. He can't quite breathe that well right now. He's not quite sure he is breathing. What if they are lying to him? Trying some psychology 'face up to reality' bullshit. He sees Mike enter a room, he hesitates. Jessica takes his hand and he holds on to her for dear life. He finds himself face to face with... is that Donna? His Donna? For a moment he thinks they are showing him a corpse, that psychology 'face up to your fear' bullshit. They lied to him!
Then he hears the beeping of machines, sees the tubes connected to Donna. The monitors are showing a steady heart beat. Those tubes and monitors are the best sight he has seen in a long time. She's still alive? He can't breathe. He feels Jessica squeeze his hand and whisper, "She's still alive Harvey. She's still here."
At that, his knees give out from under him. He clutches at Jessica's waist, on his knees crying like a baby as his heart breaks into a thousand pieces. Jessica puts her arms around him and holds him close.
"She's not the arm Jessica." Harvey says in a whisper muffled with sobs. "She's my heart". He says brokenly. "She's my heart."
At that, Jessica tries to swallow through the constriction in her throat and fails. She ignores the tears that escape unchecked through her eyes as she holds him close. Her heart breaks for him. There is not a dry eye in the room as all witness the unmaking of the great Harvey Reginald Specter. Scotty stands there stunned, defeated, accepting. Well she had got the full picture through this whole tragedy, but it still hurt to hear and see with her own eyes. She had thought Harvey had no heart when it had seemed he couldn't communicate his feelings toward her. He did have a heart, she realized. It just didn't belong to her. It never did. She turns her head from the sight of the man she loves so broken.
So, thanks for reading this and for the reviews. There's a light at the end of this tunnel. Watch out for Chapter 4 . Darvey all the way!
