I'm Sorry That I Love You: 3

Around twenty minutes later V had come back into Zack's room. "Za- Oh I'm sorry."

Zack was putting on his shirt when V walked in. "It's fine. Not like I'm completely naked."

"No. But I should've knocked."

Zack chuckled as he pulled his sweatshirt over his head. "Not like it matters. You knock like a ghost."

"What? Is it really that soft?"

"Sometimes I think you're trying to catch me changing."

"Ha ha, why would I do that? I guess I should learn to knock louder." He pulled the door halfway closed and nearly pounded on the door. "Like this?"

"Yeah, now just add 'this is the police! Come out with your hands up.'"

"Ha ha, I guess I have a knocking problem. I'll work on that. Are you ready?"

"Yeah. And thanks for the coffee."

"No need. You're not really a morning person."

Zack chuckled as he grabbed his keys.

"Oh?" V smirked. "Are you actually going to lock the door for once? Or is that just for show?"

"What? I always lock the door."

V gave him a look.

"Okay. So we both have door problems." The two laughed as the left the house. V made sure to instruct Zack how to lock doors. Zack knocked on the neighbors door and the two quickly ran down the hallway before they could get caught.

The park was mostly barren with only a few runners here and there. Zack stuffed his hands into his hoodie pocket and watched as V took pictures. In all honesty Zack only tagged along just to watch him work. V thought Zack liked going on the trips and seeing all the locations that V went to in the surrounding area, and yeah that was fun but more importantly he just wanted to be with him. He shook his head. He needed to stop having these feelings. Easier said then done. Maybe he'd slowly drift away? That was painful to think. But it was even more painful to stay.

"Zack?" V called out.

"Huh?"

"Daydreaming?" He smiled.

"Something like that."

"C'mon, I'm going to get a shot from over here."

"Sure thing." They walked closer to the edge of the lake. "Careful, it's a bit iced over."

"Mm." V mumbled as he focused on his camera. Guess he wasn't listening. V edged forward a bit more. "!?"

"Watch out!" Zack grabbed V by the arm and pulled him towards him. The two fell backwards right into a soft patch of grass…with some rocks. "Ugh…ow… V are you okay?"

"Y-yes. Are you Zack?"

"Yeah." Zack looked up. "!" Dammit. He was so close, V looking down at him in concern. "Y-you're camera okay?"

"Yes thankfully." V still hadn't gotten up as he looked at his camera. Please get off of me. "What had you said before I fell?" V sat up straddling Zack for a split second before getting off of him. He reached out a hand to help him up.

Zack took it. "I said watch out."

"No before that."

"Oh, to be careful because the ground was a bit iced over."

"Yes…I should've listened to you more. I'm sorry. Ha ha," V grinned, "I'm so glad you're here with me." It's time to end these feelings. "If you hadn't been there I would've —mmph?!" Zack had grabbed V by the face and pressed his lips against V's.

My god what the hell am I doing!? Stop! Stop it!?You fucking dumbass don't you understand he only sees you as a friend. Damn you! Damn you! Zack pulled him closer. He felt his tears running down his face. God it felt so good and yet he felt so guilty and hurt. Zack pulled away. "I-I'm so sorry…" He took a step back.

For once V looked completely shocked. He just stood there, one had over his lips. This wasn't how Zack wanted it to go but it was now or never.

"I'm so sorry. I just…I just… I'm in love with you!" He brought his hand to his face trying to hide the fact he was crying. "…I…have to go."

"Zack wait." V grabbed his arm. "Wait…I…don't know what to say."

There was a long pause. They both stood there staring at each other. "Just tell me what you think." Zack's heart was pounding so loud he was sure V could hear it. Again with another long pause. V stared at him intently. One had ghosted over his lips then his hand touched his jacket pocket. He was considering something and Zack felt himself growing more and more anxious.

"…I…I'm sorry but I…can't love you back."

Zack felt something inside of him break. "R-right. Ha ha ha… That was so stupid of me. Ha ha… I sh-shouldn't've…I'm an idiot." Zack looked away. He forced himself to smile and looked up at V. Damn it… I can't hide the tears. "I'm sorry I kissed you. That was very inconsiderate of me." He turned around wiping his face. His chest felt as if it were collapsing in on him.

"Zack wait."

"I forgot. I have a paper due. I need to get home."

"Please I-"

"See you!" Zack broke into a sprint. The relief of finally telling him never hit. In fact he felt nothing but regret. He'll never look at me the same again…he'll stay away because he'll think he's hurting me. I'm so dumb. So dumb. Why…why!? Why was I even hopeful for him to say he loved me back.

That was stupid of me.

I'm sorry that someone like me…loves you