A/N: Chapter 3 is up! This story will from now turn to the dramatic side… PLZ ENJOY ;3

«Morning beautiful!» Seiko said and waved to me the moment she saw me by the door to our classroom. I waved back and sat down on my seat, putting my bag down on my desk. Looking down at the first row, I saw Kishinuma-kun messing around with a recording device.

«Good morning, Kishinuma-kun!» I said, waving at him. I decided to be a bit bolder and actually greet him like normal friends. He turned around and bashfully smiled at me. «Mornin' Rolling girl,» he said, grinning. Hehe… Rolling girl.

«So, no erotic situations last night?» Seiko asked, smirking. I laughed and shook my head. «I thought there were someone behind me, but turned out that person was Kishinuma-kun. We ended up taking the same train, so nothing happened,» I reassured her.

Seiko's eyes widened. «Kishinuma, huh? Was he stalking you?» she asked. «W-What? No, we were just walking the same way!» I blurted out, violently shaking my hands. I seriously don't know why that made me that upset.

«Ah well…» she breathed out and giggled. «If he did do something to you, his girl definitely would've found out somehow.»

An electric stream of shock went down my spine.

Seiko giggled at my shocked expression and asked: «Girl, don't tell me you were THAT shocked. What did you expect?» I guess… He's popular. No wonder that he would have a girlfriend. But still… My heart tightened when I processed the fact. It hurts so much to know that…!

She sighed at me and gently stroked my shoulder: «Sorry sorry… But I had to say it anytime soon, before you got more hurt than you're now.» Yeah… She's right. I tried to process the fact, but the naïve part of me didn't believe Seiko at all. She must be joking. Yeah, she knows that I have a thing for him, so she must be playing a prank on me or something, right? Yeah, that has to be it!

Yui sensei clapped her hands, allowing herself to begin her lesson.

«Sorry Seiko, I need some air. See you later!» I blurted out the moment lunch break started. «Alright. Seeya!» Seiko said, allowing me to leave.

I hadn't really throughly explored this academy, so I decided to walk around a bit. Even during class, I was still really shaken up after those news from Seiko.

«If he did do something to you, his girl definitely would've found out somehow.»

Ugh, I need to stop depressing myself… And I have to work after school too. Why can't I just be satisfied by being his friend? Why can't I just get over it? Distracted by my own thoughts, I didn't realize that I had walked into the composion classroom.

However, I didn't realize that until I opened the door and saw Kishinuma-kun playing his guitar.

He looked up, stopped playing and blurted out: «Rolling girl? What's up?» Oh god. There's no escaping now. I closed the door behind me and said: «Nothing special. Can I just… stay here?» I don't really know why I made that sound like a question. «Sure,» he mumbled and continued playing like nothing had happened.

The classroom was really similar to the singing classroom. Except that there were several different instruments hanging on the walls and the two pianos by the teacher's desk. «Do you hang out here every lunch break?» I asked. He didn't stop playing as he answered: «Whenever I get the chance to play, I jump into it.» «Ah, nice…» I almost sung out and giggled. Closely looking at him, I noticed that he was wearing a choker with a lock on it.

«Woah, that's such a cool choker! Where'd you get it?» I asked. He looked suprised at my question and looked downwards at the lock on it. «Oh… Thanks. It was a gift,» he said. I nodded understandingly. A part of me thought that he got it from his girlfriend. N-No, what am I thinking?! Seiko was just joking…!

We remained quiet, only listening to the song he repeatedly played over and over again. He played it so many times that it didn't take me long to know it by heart. I pulled out a chair from one of the desks and sat down next to him. It was so tempting to sing with that lovely song in the background, even without lyrics. Giving into my want, I opened my mouth and started singing with the chorus.

But the moment I started singing, Kishinuma-kun stopped playing.

«Huh…?» I turned to him and flinched when I saw a grim expression on his face for the first time. «Why… Why did you stop?» I asked hesitantly. His bangs were covering his eyes.

«I won't let anyone sing that song… My song,» he said. His song… «Um… What about any of your other songs?» I asked. He breathed out a laugh and nodded. «That's alright. Just not that song,» he replied. «Why not?» I asked. Kishinuma-kun sighed, really frustrated.

«Sorry… Maybe I shouldn't have asked that,» I mumbled. Kishinuma-kun shook his head and said: «That's not it… It's just kinda complicated. The easiest way to explain it, is that I'm waiting for someone special to sing it.»

Someone…special? «But… You can't stop someone who loves singing from singing a certain song,» I said. «Huh?» he said. I sighed and muttered: «For me, singing is a way to express feelings that my body language and verbal language can't. Feelings that don't need words to describe them. If I can't be able to do that… I'll feel trapped in my own body.»

«Shinozaki… Is that so?» Kishinuma-kun asked, looking amazed. His reaction let me out of my trance. «S-Sorry! I'll just go…» I blurted out and started running out.

«Wait!»

His yell flicked a switch in my mind and I automatically stopped. «… I'll see you around,» he ended up saying. I smiled to myself and nodded. «Bye… Kishinuma-kun,» I muttered and went back to class.

Haaaa… Okay, it's just a three hour long shift. I'll get through this! A new employee is starting today, so my boss asked me to teach him the basics. Alright, I'll do my best! I put on my waitress uniform and put my hair back before going out of the wardrobe and into the resturant.

I was about to serve a table, before I saw Boss walking towards me with a familiar figure walking next to him. W-Whaa… No… It can't be…

«Ah, Shinozaki-san! Here's the new employee, Yoshiki Kishinuma-san!»

My eyes widened when me and Kishinuma-kun's eyes met. «K-Kishinuma-kun!? What a surprise!» I blurted out, pointing at him. «Hah, yeah! So, you're working here too, huh?» he said. «Oh, you guys are friends?» Boss assumed. «Ah, we go to the same academy,» I explained. «Well, that's great! You'll co-operate better then, no?» he asked. «I guess. Better than being strangers, though,» Kishinuma-kun said. I nodded. «Excellent, excellent… Alright, just teach him the basics Shinozaki-san. I trust you,» Boss said and left.

Kishinuma-kun grinned and said: «Well then, teach me everything, master.» I giggled and nodded at him.

«Sigh, such a busy evening… Is it like this every single night?» Kishinuma-kun asked, cleaning one of the last tables of tonight. He picked up the basics really quickly, so he wasn't a pain in the ass. «It is a family resturant, but I think today was special, Kishinuma-kun,» I replied.

«Geez, will you stop that already? Can't you just call me "Yoshiki"? he asked irritated. I turned around with widened eyes. His first name… «Is that really okay? Can I call you by your first name?!» I asked, louder than expected. He chuckled and nodded. «We're friends now, aren't we?» he asked. A warm feeling of joy spread out in my heart and I almost felt like crying.

«Yeah…»

While changing into my everyday clothes, I noticed a pair of short heels that I had left here a few days ago. Those are really hard to run with. I remember I lost the last train one time because I was wearing those… Then, a really selfish thought came up in my mind.

And so, I put on those heels and went outside to the train station, accompanied by Yoshiki.

«Oh no!» I yelled out while we were running up the stairs to the train. Yoshiki was several meters ahead of me when I felt my shoe fall off my feet. «I lost a shoe!» I yelled behind hm. «Eh?» he mumbled and turned around.

«I'm sorry Yoshiki!» I yelled, still feeling tingly when I said his first name. «Just go ahead! The last train is about to leave!» «What?!» he yelled surprised. I went downstairs and grabbed my shoe, expecting Yoshiki to run ahead of me. That's why I almost got a heart attack when I saw him sitting on the staircase, waiting for me even when the train had already left.

«Yoshiki…» I whispered out. He actually waited for me… Yoshiki furrowed his eyebrows together and muttered: «If you knew that you'd have to run for the last train… Why did you wear heels?»

I didn't want to lie to Yoshiki. I don't know if Seiko was lying about him having a girlfriend. But I know that… I want him to be aware of my feelings.

I looked into his eyes and said:

«I did it on purpose.»

His eyes widened and I could see a hint of red show on his cheeks. The mood immediately changed though, when his phone started to ring from his pocket. He jumped and picked up the phone, his face slightly darkening when he looked at the screen. He answered the call and said: «Hello?» I could faintly hear a woman's voice at the other end.

«Yoshiki! Did something happen? I stopped by your place a minute ago and you weren't there!»

My heart completely skipped a beat when I thought I knew who it was. «Yeah sorry… I'll get home in a while, so don't worry,» he said. His loving words through the phone were a million knives that pierced through my heart so many times. But my heart didn't bleed. I didn't scream. I didn't cry, no matter how much it hurt. I just… bared with it. But truthfully…

… I just wanted to scream out all of my feelings.

«Here, money for the cab,» I said and handed him 1000 yen as he was sitting down in a cab, about to leave. «Oh, you don't have to. You apartment is on the way,» he said. «I know that… But it was my fault that we missed the train,» I said. «I told you, it's okay,» he said, almost irritated. I sighed as I thought back on just a few minutes earlier.

«Yoshiki…» I whispered. «The one who called you earlier… was your girlfriend, right?» I asked. He looked up at me, some forlorn sadness in his eyes. I gave him a forced smile and said:

«I'm not letting a guy with a girlfriend do favours for me.»

He furrowed his eyebrows together at me as I forced the money into his palm and closed it. «Goodnight,» I sternly said turned around, letting him close the door and drive home.

That was it. Everything I'd held back came bursting out at that moment. I can't lie to myself anymore. From the moment Seiko told me that he was dating somebody, I clearly knew that she wasn't lying. But for some reason, I kept hoping. Yoshiki is already taken. I can't have him.

Saddened, I fell onto my knees and covered my mouth and nose when I felt hot tears build up in my eyes, streaming down in waterfalls. I don't want to accept it. Never ever. But that won't change the truth.

Yoshiki is already taken.

I can't get between him and his girlfriend.

I can't ever have him.

And… I am so heart-wrenchingly in love with him.

A/N: Aw… We all know that feeling, don't we DX Hope you enjoyed though! UNTIL NEXT TIME ;3