Title: Unacknowledged
Pairings: Hitsu x Hina my personal favourite! major kawaii!
Word Count: 443
Summary: Hinamori keeps looking in the wrong direction.
The trouble with love is… it goes unnoticed.
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He knows she doesn't do it on purpose. She's just naïve. And that's why he loves her as much as he does.
But some days, when she's sat there gushing about her beloved Aizen-sama, it's all Toushiro can do not to shout out: 'I'm here as well, bed wetter Momo! Just like I always will be! For once, notice me, dammit!'
She doesn't, of course. She's still clueless. She can't see what's right in front of her.
Some days, he wants to grab her and kiss her until she suddenly realises that he's the one who's been there the whole time, before Aizen came along. He's the one who held her hand when then ran down to the stream. He's the one who watched the sunset with her. He's the one she sat and ate watermelons with, while he told her that when they were old he was going to protect her always.
She's forgotten already.
What is so wonderful about Aizen? Toushiro respects the man as an equal: he's his fellow captain after all, and a very decent man - he knows that. But it doesn't mean he likes him. In truth, he hates him.
Hinamori is not yours, he thinks every time Aizen walks past. She was mine first.
How he longs to tell Hinamori the truth. But knowing her, she'd take it the wrong way and then start going on about how much she loves Aizen.
Does she love him as much as I love her? he often wonders. Aizen can't love her as much as I do. Surely that counts for something.
But it never seems to change anything. Hinamori remains oblivious. Aizen remains adored. Toushiro remains unnoticed.
In his darkest, most secret fantasies, he imagines Aizen turning out to be the villain. He imagines Hinamori, at long last realising how wrong she was to be so devoted to her captain. He takes Hyourinmaru and…
And then Hinamori finally opens her eyes, and she sees him standing there for the first time.
And it's only a fantasy, one that nobody but Hyourinmaru knows.
He knows it wont come true, because Aizen is such a great captain, and if there is a villain in the Gotei Thirteen, then it's Gin Ichimaru. But he can always imagine it.
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Just once, he'd like his baka Momo to look at him the way she looks at her captain.
But she doesn't. Her eyes are always turned in the wrong direction. And he stays in the background. Unnoticed. Unacknowledged.
And it hurts.
He can't help but think; it might be better for him if he couldn't love.
