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AN:Hello! Here's chapter two, so sorry it's taken me so long to update. Sorry for any and all mistakes. Enjoy the chapter! And let me know of your thoughts or questions! Love to hear from you guys! : )

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How do You Feel Today By Gabrielle Aplin

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I Awoke to the smell of bacon and pancakes which quickly peaked my interest. God I missed having someone cook for me, Thank God for Alice. I threw on some sweats and a blanket over my shoulders and quickly headed over to the kitchen to see what else Alice was throwing together. As I walked to the kitchen I realized that Alice wasn't in the kitchen. As a matter of fact Alice was no where to be found, and neither was any of the evidence of last nights festivities. At the realization that Alice was not the once cooking up this storm I instantly became weary. I became aware of the fact that I was about to face someone whom's heart I had broken to pieces. Someone who deserved an apology but I had no idea where to begin. I Stood at the entrance for the kitchen for what felt like ages. I felt that If I stood there silently and tried not to move maybe he wouldn't notice that I was awake and staring at his back.

"So how long are you going to stare at my back?"

I instantly felt a pang of guilt in my heart, I felt so frozen and couldn't find the words I wanted to say.

"Ah-" I sighed in frustration wishing for my thoughts to sort themselves out.

"Don't Worry Bells, I know I'm the last person you expected to see cooking you dinner. I just couldn't —" He sighed Heavily and still hadn't turned around, and thats when I noticed the note on the kitchen counter reading :

"He begged me last night, He really wanted to talk to you. Just Give it a chance, be honest and listen to what he has to say. I know it's going to be okay. And if it's not feel free to take it out on me later today at Rose's. Just trust me on this one please. I love you."

-Alice

I chuckled as I realized Alice had set this all up and It's not like I could ever expect anything less from Alice.

The only noise in the kitchen at the moment was the sound of the bacon sizzling and the music on the radio playing. I walked over to the cabinet and grabbed two mugs, turning on the kettle to make us some coffee.

"Emmett, Is there anything I can help you with at all?" At the mention of his name he turned around to face me for the first time since I walked into the kitchen.

"So you're speaking to me now?" and I couldn't help but notice the raise in his eyebrow and the fire in his blazing blue eyes as he stared into my soul, or so it seemed.

"Ah I—" shocked by his tone I couldn't help but look down at my feel, feeling so intimidated by him in this very moment.

"I'm sorry" He said.

"I Just haven't seen you in over 2 1/2 years and now you're here in front of me and I don't know how to handle you being right in front me. I have a million emotions running through me. I want to hug you, I want to shout, I want to cry. Damn it Bells, What do you expect from me? How do you expect me to react? I know This was my doing but I needed to see you."

" Emmett I am so—" he quickly interrupted me.

'"No, You don't get to say your "Sorry" Yet. I need answers before I can hear you tell me all about how sorry you are"'

Emmett What do you want me to say!? I quickly realized my frustration was starting to leak into the tone in my voice.

What do you need me to say!? Because I hate to remind you but you are in MY HOME. YOU are the one whom came here to talk with me. YOU'RE the one making me breakfast. For Gods sake Emmett what can I do to make it fucking better. I know I made mistakes, I have to live with the mistakes I've made. Or do you think I've forgotten? You THINK I don't know That?!"

I couldn't stop the Sob that tore right through me, and it took everything in me not to run. It took everything in me to not revert back to what I knew so well. Hiding in plain sight was my specialty or had he forgotten already. I took a deep breath to calm myself down before I spoke to him.

"Emmett I appreciate everything you've done for me this morning breakfast and all that, But I have to get ready soon to go meet Rose."

I paused looking at him and my heart continued to shatter. I looked at this impeccable human being who never had anything but love for me, patience, Kindness, and here I was not giving him the answers he desperately wanted. I had Broken him in the worst way possible, It was like I ripped out his heart and fed it to the cat… I Bella Swan was the most idiotic insensitive woman on this earth.

I sighed knowing this was going to take all the energy I had within me. I walked over to Emmett and turned off the stove, grabbed his hand pulling him in the direction of the living room.

" Come on, lets go talk in the living room, I think it's important that you know why I left."

I heard him sigh as I walked over to the couch and sat down getting comfortable looking up at him and meeting his stare before he sat down. We silently sat there for a couple seconds before I mustered up the courage to start the journey of healing with Emmett.

"Emmett I loved him— " I sighed heavily and continued

"I was always the girl in the background that had grown up never being acknowledged. And frankly when I met you guys I went from being the lonely pitiful young girl whose dad left her to being so loved by your family. When Edward would look at me I had some hope that Maybe one day I would be loved by him. That maybe he would see in me what I could never see in myself. But when Rose came into the picture I saw his any and all his attention shift from me to her immediately. I mean look at her… Look at her beautiful long legs, striking blue eyes, and long blonde hair. Their was never any way I could ever had competed with her at least in my young brain that was the situation. But as time passed and I watched their love blossom I couldn't help but grow bitter. I grew bitter because I thought I had lost my chance at happiness. Everyone saw the potential in their relationship before it even began. They were just meant for each other without a doubt. And I see my mistake now. I see the young girl I once was and cant help but cringe because I was so in love with a man who had no clue. For years and years I thought it was me, that I was the issue and that I'd never be enough because I couldn't have him."

I pause for a couple seconds making sure to stay calm and composed. I look over to see him staring intently at me, looking at me as if he saw right through my soul knowing just how damaged I still am.

"I wished for all of high school that maybe he would one day look at me the way he looked at her… I had hope that a man would look at me the way rose was looked at by Edward. I was in my own personal Hell Emmett, I couldn't stand it I was so foolish. When I realized that I had the possibility of graduating earlier I didn't do it because even if I could see him every day for one more year I'd take it no matter the damage it was to myself. Senior Year I realized that If I didn't plan my move then I'd never leave, nor would I ever heal. So thats when I began to look into universities in Sydney, Chicago, New York City, and in Seattle. I didn't know what I wanted to do but I knew I needed to leave…"

Emmett quickly interrupted me

" So thats why you suddenly started disappearing through out senior year, you were visiting all these places seeing where you could call home"

I chuckled and responded

" Yes my Emmett my disappearing act was because I was trying to find where I wanted to go."

I could see him begin to piece memories together just like a puzzle everything was beginning to fall into place in his mind.

" When I first began traveling around I didn't know where I wanted to go. At first I thought I wanted to move to the other side of the world. I thought that the more distance their was the easier it would be to move on. And man Was I wrong. In the end I decided on New York City, The moment I walked through central Park I knew this was where I would call home for how ever long I stayed. So fast forward to three weeks before the end of Senior year and I was packed and ready to leave. I only left the bare essentials in my room before shipping everything I owned to my apartment in New York. Emmett I need you to know that Their were so many moment I almost told you I was moving. So many times I wish I could tell you I was leaving. To tell you I was finally going to move on. But the words always lost their way somewhere between my mind and my mouth. I knew I was selfish and that either way I was going to break your heart. And not only break it but shatter it. Knowing how you felt about me. No matter how hard you tried to hide your feelings You always stared a bit too long, loved me more than what just a friend would love me. You went above and beyond and I never gave you the credit you deserved. You loved me and I knew I was too broken to let you try to even piece me back together."

"Bella what gave you the right to make that decision for me? Who gave you the right to take that choice from me? Bella You, You took every single choice from me and did what YOU thought was best for ME. When in reality you had no idea just how much I noticed you. You don't think I don't know about how you lost your virginity to Mike prom night. Do you know just how bad I want to rip him apart for touching you? For taking something that Did no belong to him?!"

Emmett's breathing became very heavy and I began to notice just how worked up he was getting. And I realized at any moment he could tear me apart piece by piece and I would be okay with it because I deserved it. I deserved All of his wrath no doubt.

"Emmett I — How"

"Nope your time for explaining is being paused because I need to get this off my chest."

I sat back shocked by the harshness in his tone.

" Bella, Bella, Bella… I noticed you the moment I first saw you. I knew you were different, I knew you had already experienced more of the cruelty of life than most had at the age of 13. Not only did I hear all about the freshman who wanted to have their way with you but I hear about all the juniors in my classes talk about how much they wanted you. I cannot even begin to tell you how many men I fought of and purposely intimidated because I didn't want you to get hurt. Bella you deserve the utmost respect and the most beautiful and profound love one can give you. Bella I want you to know that No matter what, No matter what woman ever came into my life they were never you. I have no right to expect anything of you. But I want you to know that At this point in life, It's best we move on. I want to know about New York I want to know what You're doing but it's important for you to know that I'm not angry. If anything I'm so sorry I couldn't be your rock. That I couldn't be what you needed in that time."

He Stoped talking and I couldn't help the sob that ripped though my body. It wasn't that I was sad, or ashamed, but it was as if a huge weight had finally been lifted from my shoulders. Like I could begin to heal from the pain inflicted in my soul from all the hurt I caused.

Emmett knew my time was limited and that quite frankly we still had a lot to talk about and a lot to clarify, but I also had responsibilities today. He needed to know what I had been doing with my life since I left. He wanted to know about any and all boyfriends I'd had since I left but i couldn't help and chuckle at the question because quite simply their has just not been anyone who could capture my attention. Maybe it was just the fact that I wasn't paying attention to the men I met but I was too busy.

Emmett and I reheated breakfast and quickly had what he had made scarfing it all down and enjoying it in the process. As we finished washing the dishes he let me know that he would head out and let me prepare for today. Prepare for the shopping and last minuet wedding details that needed to be fixed or changed.

I walked Emmett to the door of my home and couldn't help the smile the crossed my face because for the first time in a long time I knew I'd be able to fix things. Wether it took many many months of groveling, or months of repeated " I'm Sorry's" I knew one day we'd be okay. I knew he still loved me. That much was evident in his eyes and the way he looked at me. But I knew we were both not in any place in our lives to pursue anything. I still have a lot to work past and he still has some dark secrets he's hiding from me.

We stood at the door for a couple seconds looking out at the tree's when I looked up and noticed him staring at me. I chuckled and looked away walking away to gain some distance.

" Well Bells enjoy your day, I'll see you around sooner rather than later. I just need you to make me a promise…"

He paused and quickly continued

" I need you to promise me that You wont just leave. That if at any moment you need a breath, break or pep talk please find me, call me, and I'll be right there for you no questions asked. But please… Don't just leave me. I'm probably being selfish but I just want to make sure You know I cant have you just leave me like last time."

I didn't realize I was crying until He wiped the tears from my face. I'd really truly hurt him and I couldn't find the words to explain how sorry I Was . I looked up and passed before answering.

" I promise… To never leave without you knowing, I promise to never vanish ever again."

And i knew deep within my heart that was a promise I would Always keep. No matter what It cost me, I vowed to fix him. Never would he feel the pain I caused him.:

He walked over to his truck and got in, I waved as he slowly drove away. And it wasn't until I lost sight of his tail lights that I realized how much he truly meant to me.

AN: First of all I just want to apologize for how long this chapter took me to post. I am so sorry but I faced a major writers block. I slightly unhappy with this chapter but I do hope you enjoyed it. Please leave your comments of what you thought, what you love what you hate! Love you guys so much and thank you for ALL your love and Patience.

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