Im such an awful person I'm so SORRY for this late update life has caught up with me these past few days "/ good news i got a new job! But had to resign at my first job!

But can you believe how NCIS ended this week I mean come on! Ugh and than "Interview's Over" I'm dying for tuesday to come now lol

Anyways these's characters aren't mine read on =] had my doubts about this chapter so let me know what you think?

He hadn't slept this good in a long time but that wasn't what woke Tony, no the smell of Shea butter on his nose rose him from slumber. And the fact he recognized that special fragrance made Tony stiffen because he quickly realized two things, one he wasn't alone but in a bed naked nuzzled into a women's neck and two that very naked body next to him was no other than his partner. Tony was confused and the massive pounding of his head told him exactly how this had happened "Shit" he whispered trying not to wake his sleeping partner. What the hell had he done racking his brain for memories of last night coming up with short memoires of cloths being taken off pushing his partner up against a wall and practically devouring her whole. He must have drunk a little too much, hell he must have drunk a shit load to wake up with his partner naked. She's going to kill me he thought god she's going to murder me or worse rip off my genitals for this. He tried to think of a way out but that's when he realized that Ziva wasn't asleep he knew her body well from their time in Paris and the fact she wasn't snoring confirmed his suspicion.

She felt it the second he rose hearing him curse confirmed it and while she kept still evening her breathing begging her heart to stay in her chest. She tried to gage his reaction to the situation because she wish she could turn around and face him but the idea of actually seeing him having to face him after everything prevented her. Ziva went through her memory of last night trying to remember more but couldn't remembering little much after her attempt at walking to her bedroom but failing as she stumbled over her own foot. Tony catching her in time mouthing something about sweeping her off her feet slowly making it to her bed surely they must have passed out because her brain was cloudy with the details. She needed a plan she couldn't just lay still any longer with Tony's hand thrown across her stomach. Tony god Tony what's he's going to think, they've built these walls from each other for so long being cautious not to cross that oh so thin line. And now they've crossed that line god how far they crossed it what are they going to do how will they go back to work and act as if this night didn't happen? Because it shouldn't have happened it wasn't supposed to happen and now she just wished it was a night to forget.

Ziva could do just that though act like nothing happened, get up collect her things and sneak out quietly she's done it before she could do it again. But thinking more about it the more guilt she felt because the matter stood that this was Tony her Tony and she didn't know if she could do that to him. Maybe he wouldn't remember what happened, he was beyond drunk more than her she thought, she hoped.

Minutes seem to pass, as they both lay motionless stunned at their actions to have put their partnership at so much risk in a fraction of a second. But the matter stood that Tony wasn't going to talk first she knew it; she knew he was just as terrified about this all as she was. Both just lay trying to fool one another that they both still slept hoping somehow this was all just a bad dream and they'd wake from their own alarm clock any minute now. Facing the fact it wasn't going to happen because they really did sleep together and last night really happened he just wish he could remember it, hell anything because he and Ziva had sex and he knew it had to be earth shattering amazing and if she was going to murder him after today he wanted to die with the images of her naked body beneath him the sounds of pleasure she must have made while he penetrated her over and over again. Than he'd surely die a happy man but no images came and that just frustrated him more that he couldn't remember the night they had the one they so carefully tried to avoid for years.

"Ziva?" he mouthed into her neck sending chills down her spin god she was going to miss that. "Tony" he backed away from her getting a good a better look of her face immediately hating what he saw because it wasn't going to end the way he had hoped. Removing his arms from around her he spoke "Did we…?" he asked quietly "Yes" she responded cutting him off before he could say anything else she turned from him abruptly "I should leave" she said quickly getting up trying to find any piece of clothing in sight only to find none. Pulling the sheets around her she walked quickly heading out the room. "Ziva wait! You cant leave" tony spoke behind her while she dressed "Of course I can, you cant stop me Tony don't be foolish" he laughed at her response shutting his mouth from the deathly glare she shot him "No Ziva I mean you cant leave because this is your apartment remember" She finally looked around his words true, they were in her apartment not his how was she going to run from this one now.

"We need to talk Ziva" he spoke first she had her back to him she couldn't face him. Not now she needed to be alone needed to put all the pieces together have a thought to her. "Ziva look at me" he said firmly "..Tony..leave please" she hated the way her voice sounded she could practically see his pained face at her words she knew she was hurting him and yet she couldn't stop the words from coming out "This was a mistake Tony, it shouldn't have happened. We were drunk and weak Tony this didn't mean anything" turning to look at him she saw it the confusion in his eyes and the pain her words brought him. She stood her ground though this wouldn't change them they still had time to fix this at least she hoped. "Zi..I.." he couldn't speak he couldn't find the words to tell her that no this wasn't just an act of weakness even if he couldn't remember all the details of the night he knew she knew this would happen between them yet he was completely dumbfounded at the way she was trying to handle it she was pushing him away like always. He could already see her walls pulling up all emotions erased from her eyes and she stood just a few feet away from him yet she felt so much farther away. Dragging a hand through his hair he started to put his cloths back on "Ill leave, but we still need to talk Ziva, you cant shut me out like this, we slept together damn it and your not going to act like it didn't happen" he stepped forward not sure what to say deciding to be brave and pull her near but she stopped him with her hand "Don't Tony...Leave now" she says through gritted teeth. With a sigh he backs away from her walking past her roughly because all this anger runs through him at the fact she's being so stubborn shutting the door roughly behind him.