AN* i am sooo sorry this took so long. there is no excuse for my tardieness, although i'll be giving one. between cross country, work, a failed home inspection, packing...then having to unpack it all a loss of my muse and a laptop being kicked off my bed i've been a little preoccupied. Although there was plenty of procrasination atributed. honestly if it weren't for reviews this update would have never happend.

Special thanks to all of my reviewers on this one, really, you saved this fic.

disclaimer-please see chapter 1

chapter 3- it's complicated

Honestly, how does he expect me to help him if he won't tell me what he has to do, I mean not even a hint. Well that's easy isn't it, he doesn't want you to help. Say's getting involved is 'to dangerous'. What does that even mean 'to dangerous' this is a war, it doesn't matter what side your on, nobody's particularly safe.

Does this mean you've chosen a side then? No, I would never be on His side. Not even for Draco. No, I'm fighting my own battle, assist Draco in keeping himself alive...while opposing the Dark Lord best I can. But how good could I really oppose him. Even without worrying about whether or not Draco was breathing I still have to factor in family matters, such as fathers dark mark and our general opinion of the situation.

What does our general opinion even mean? Mother use's the term constantly. It isn't even true in the slightest for usually our general opinion is something I don't understand and Daphne can't be bothered to.

I'm getting off topic here. I'm supposed to be scoping the library for anything useful. There's plenty useful to be found in a library though, especially one as vast and prestigious as that of Hogwarts. So how I was supposed to chose only as many as I can carry was beyond me.

Madame Pomfrey refused to release Draco from the hospital wing, which I'm behind one hundred percent, but his confinement is rather inconvenient. Although it give's me plenty opportunity to help, which I like…but I probably shouldn't, it is slowing his progress. He really needs the sleep and food though, honestly how he hopes to accomplish this task, whatever it is, without eating or sleeping is beyond me. He's lucky he hadn't had to go the hospital already as it was.

It doesn't really feel like I'm even helping. All I do is run around the library for books so he can research whilst in the hospital wing and knock on the door to let him know when Madame Pomfrey's tucked in for the night so he can sneak out.

This is pointless, how can I make any sort of reasonable decision when I have absolutely no idea what he needs.

Restricted section. I wonder what's so restricted about it. I mean if they don't want us reading what's inside there why bother keeping them within the school?

"What you looking at?" I didn't think anybody else was in here, it is rather pleasant weather to be in a library.

"Oh….um, well, nothing actually, just…thinking. It's Jessie right?" I recognize him now, curly chestnut hair, brown eyes, that smile... he's a Hufflepuff in my year.

"Yeah…" Aw, poor thing looks a little lost.

"Were in the same year, I'm in Ravenclaw." Oh, he recognizes me now.

"I know, Astoria, you're the one Stewart shoots spitballs at"

"heh…yeah"

"I can't imagine why though, if I was him I wouldn't want to be on your bad side."

"And whys that?"

"Well…your smart, and very pretty." Oh goodness Astoria, stop it, your blushing like mad, and no shoes are that interesting…look up!"

"You also seem far to nice to have a bad side, which is a bit of a shame, I'm sure you can cast a marvelous jinx to straighten him out."

"Oh…I'm not so sure about that anymore."

"And why's that?"

"I've recently made a rather large mistake."

"What kind of mistake?" Oh no, I know where this is heading. Get out of here Astoria, before you ruin everything. "Don't worry, you can trust me. Hufflepuff's honor."

"It has to do with a boy." And you wonder how you get yourself into messes such as these.

"Well if it's just a boy."

"He isn't just a boy" He isn't? "…it's a bit more complicated then that."

"Then make it less complicated."

Then make it less complicated. Make it less complicated. Such a simple, measly little statement, Jessie had hardly said anything really, yet…it changed everything. Why were things so complicated between me and Draco? Things really shouldn't be. I mean, the situation we were in was complicated yes but we shouldn't be. I don't even know what we were. What am I saying, he already is very much in a relationship, were friends and just that. That isn't complicated at all…but they never see each other anymore because he's been busy but not to busy to see me but you know exactly and Pansy doesn't. So he trust me, at least a degree more then Pansy, which must mean something. Or he's just been using you all this time. No, don't even start considering such silly notions. Entertaining such ideas will only end in disaster, Daphne has taught you at least that.

Make it less complicated…make it less complicated. You know what I think I will.

"Umm, Astoria…"

"Huh…oh, sorry, what you said just had me thinking a bit."

"Umm, well see when I first came over here it was because, uh, I was thinking that, if you would like to, would you maybe, possible, want to, uh, I don't know, maybe hang out sometime? Like a date?"

"Hang out…like-like a date date?"

"Uh…yeah."

"Um…I…I have to go." How can you be so cold, turn back around this instant.

"I meant-"

"It's alright, if you don't want to."

"No-no, I want to." I do? "I just, have to go make things less complicated first."


Inhale, exhale, inhale, exhale. Here I go, time to make things less complicated

"Draco, you don't have to pretend to be asleep, Pansy isn't in here."

"Oh…."

"Why do you pretend to be asleep whenever she's in here?"

"Because she's going to start asking questions."

"So then answer them."

"It's not that simple."

"Why was it ever complicated?"

"It's Pansy, when isn't she being complicating?"

"If she complicates things so much-"

"Look it's complicated alright." He thinks I'm going to drop the subject...any other day I probrably would, something about what Jessie said,more how he said it...or maybe it was who had said it?

"Dosn't look all that complex to me. You avoid seeing her, you avoid speaking to her why waste your time being with her."

"Seeing as you know everything about are relationship why don't you tell me!" Good he's mad, at least I'm no longer the only one, oh Astoria that's horrible of you.

"It's because your a coward! Your afriad of her...you are aren't you!" That...was low

"Why are you suddenly so intrested!" But it's true, and even he know's it.

"So you are afriad, although I really didn't need to clarify."

"Just because your smart for your age dosn't mean you know anything, your just a kid."

"I'm fifthteen, your barely any older!"

"Age is just a number, I'm talking about maturity."

"Maybe I don't know anything because you won't tell me anything!"

"I shouldn't have to explain myself, nor Pansy, to you!"

"Oh, you don't need to explain Pansy to me. Everybody can see she's a bitch!" Oh my... I, I just swore. I have never, ever sworen before.

"did you just swear?" It can't have been that surpirsing...

"It was in proper context."

"This interogation isn't! Since when has any of this been your bussiness!"

"Since I fetched books for you! Since I helped you sneak out! Since I found out about that-that MARK!"

"shush...Astoria..."

"Oh, yeah and since I LIED for you! I NEVER lied before Draco, not before you!" You even have me lieing to myself.

"Funny, I don't remeber asking for your help! I never needed the books, I never needed assitance sneaking out, I sure as hell didn't need you to know about my mark and YOU...YOU NEVER NEEDED TO LIE FOR ME! I NEVER NEEDED YOU!"

"Then why'd you hold my hand?"

"Your the one who grabbed mine!"

"After the tow-"

"You sought me out...look, you'd said it yourself. You were making a mistake, things would be less complicated for everyone if you just went back to ignoring me."

"But, if you fail-"

"It never was your problem. You just made it your problem." Draco's right. He wouldn't have bothered saying it if he wasn't.

"I guess things just got a lot less complicated then." and she left.

AN* please don't hate me forever. they had to fight, see they can't be together during the war, and Draco is still dating Pansy...it's just really complicated, but if the public demands an encore i can properly wrap this up, with the nice gift wrap and a bow.

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