Yay chapter 3. Gin ... scares the ever loving crap out of me. Had to say that.

Enjoy. - KS


Chapter 3: To be found means you had to be lost

I have to say this:

KID and his mother are insane.

Don't get me wrong I'm reluctantly grateful to both of them for putting up with me. Even I know how much of an ass I've been. KID and I have argued pretty heavily about me staying there with him. Logically you wouldn't take in someone who is being chased by killers, oh right, they are insane. It seemed the only person, besides myself that had any form of rational sanity was Jii and I hadn't seen the old man since that morning. I reclined against the grass and thought back to my latest argument.


"Tantei, you are not ready." KID said taking ahold of my shoulders and steered me away from the front door.

"KID, if you don't let me go" I growled.

"Shinichi-kun, he's right. You're not completely healed yet." Chikage said and took my elbow opposite of KID.

"I am fine!" I shouted and tried to pull my arms free.

"Sure you are." KID huffed.

"Damn it, KID! Look I'm grateful you and your mom for patching me up" I ignored his hushed comment about the sour attitude. "But I've been here for two months, I'm all better now. There is no reason for me to stay here and put you both in danger."

Chikage released me and for a moment I thought I had won, until KID stepped in front of me.

"You don't need to stay here, or you don't want to."

"What difference does it make?" I inquired and knocked his approaching arms away.

"It makes all the difference, Tantei." He said calmly.

"It isn't your physical health we're worried about." Chikage added softly.

I pinched the bridge of my nose and ground my teeth. "I am fine."

"Then tell us what happen." KID said narrowly. "If you're 'fine' tell us exactly what the Black Organization did to you."

I felt icy hands around my throat and glared at him before shoving past him and headed up stairs.


Sighing I sat up and glared at the thief just a little ways off. He was performing at the park, again. I think it was day three to our little agreement. I would accompany him to the parks or go with Chikage to pick up food. At first I was against to having being escorted around but after the mild panic attack I suffered through on the first day I realized that I wasn't okay.

The sudden scream from a man had me leaping to my feet. With my heart blasting against my chest I looked down towards the crowd. Some guy was freaking out about his hair, which just happened to be this obscene color of neon pink and shouting obscenities at KID. I could only guess at what happen with the fearful girl in the thief's hold. The sound of everyone laughter and cheers soothed out the rest of my frazzled nerves and the show proceeded with a new act with the girl acting as KID's assistant. He was good; I had to give him that. Almost every show was different and he rarely repeated show acts back to back.

I leaned back against the soft grass and blew my hair from my face. Closing my eyes I relaxed and enjoyed the soft breeze, the sounds of life, the gentle hands carding through my hair … wait, what? My eyes flew open and I stared wide eyed at KID's knowing smile before glaring at it.

"What did you do, now?" I asked and sat up.

"Nothing~"

The sing song voice was a warning in itself. I ran a hand through my hair nonchalantly and felt nothing weird. Then the angry shouts that came in our direction was my second clue. He laughed and tugged on my sleeve.

"Come on."

He pulled me up and made his way back down the hill, past the dissipating crowd and into the throngs of walkers. Some of his audience waved to him as we walked by but for the most part we went ignored. That was nice, being noticed but never acknowledged. Walking invisible. To everyone else you're just another face, another body, nothing to waste time on and I found myself a little overwhelmed by the humbling feeling to just be part of the crowd. I looked at KID's back and realized that I probably wouldn't be able to do this without him. Hell, I probably wouldn't be alive. The sudden stab of guilt from my attitude and treatment to the thief hit me low in the gut. I need to change. I smiled for the first time in what felt like years I smiled. Picking up my pace I slipped out of his hold and walked past him and turned to him.

"I'm sorry for the way I've been acting and thank you, KID, for everything."

He was staring at me in shock and was holding his hand out exactly where I slipped mine out of it. I stuffed my hands into my, well my borrowed pants pockets. I looked to the sky and blushed slightly.

"I'm not going to repeat myself so"

"Shinichi" He started then froze.

I looked at him. "KID?"

"Kaito!"

I turned to see what he was staring at and sudden felt ice in my blood.

Impossible! This was impossible! I felt my hand shake and stepped backwards.

'No, Kudou! Ran's … Ran's dead! You saw it happen!' That voice screamed in my head trying to reason some logical explanation past the shock.

She looked at me full of concern and confusion before reaching towards me. Darkness flooded my vision and everything tilted.


The metal cuffs were digging into my scabbed wrist and I fought against another dizzy spell as I sat up. How long has it been? Looking up I watched light from a street lamp play with the dust in the air. I leaned back against the wall I was chained to and sighed. I was so tired. I barely flinched at the loud bang when it echoed around the room.

Loud muffled shouts and gun shots made me jump wide awake and watch the door. The noise was getting louder and closer… closer… closer. My breathing increased sharply and I barely stifled a yelp when the doors flew open.

"Shinichi!" Ran screamed and wrapped her arms around my shoulders.

For a few stunned minutes I sat there with her sobbing against my shoulder. "Ran … How did you find me?"

"It doesn't matter." She smiled and shook her head. "We're getting out of here."

Freedom, life. I choked and leaned against her. She hugged me and kissed the top of my head. I watched Ran unlock the hand cuffs and once free I instantly wrapped my arms around her. My wounds and broken ribs protested loudly and got ignored. Before I could say anything I felt gentle hands pull me into a kiss.

"I love you." She whispered and I laid my forehead against hers fully intending to reply the same way.

"Hey, Angel I don't mean to interrupt but we have to hurry."

I spun around fast and put Ran behind me. "Vermouth." I hissed.

"Shinichi wait she is the one that brought me here."

"What!?" I felt sheer panic ebb into my mind. I gripped Ran's arms and angled her so I was still in between. "She's with the people that took me!"

"SB, I" She cut herself off and raised her gun.

I felt sweat trickle down the side of my face and I turned to face her. The sound of footsteps echoed around us solemnly. I shuddered and stared wide eyed at the door. I knew that gait. I had heard it so many times since my capture. Ran's concerned questions went unanswered and I swallowed the lump in my throat.

"Gin." I whispered hoarsely when he came into view.

"Oh it seems as though our little pet has a friend." He said and flicked the cigarette towards me. "Vermouth, what are you doing here?"

"Just to deliver a message: The Boss wants Kudou alive." She smiled and lazed her stance.

"Does he now? Did he say how alive he has to be?" Gin smiled and looked at me.

I felt Ran shake and cling to my arm.

"Vodka."
"Right, Come on now girly."

I stepped back from him till I felt Ran pressed against my back and braced my hand against the wall on either side of her. As his hand got closer I ground my teeth. The sudden gunshot had us all jumping. As the room plunged into darkness the room erupted into chaos. I pulled Ran with me under the window and ran for the door.

It was just a matter of seconds of me to see Gin raise his gun and hear the blast. I jumped full bodily and froze. That came from … I spun around fast to see Ran pitching forward. Arms locked themselves around my throat and a rough hand muffled my screams. Horrified my mind sharpened and locked in the sight. I bit into the hand at my mouth and tasted blood. Tearing at the arms around me I faintly heard a hiss.

"RAN! RAN!" I shouted.

My bare feet slipped in liquid and I nearly bit my tongue. I felt my head grow light when I looked down. Blood, warm rivers of it crept like fingers towards me.

"Ran …" My voice was barely a whisper now.

She didn't move, nor would she ever again.

For a moment the only thing I could see or feel was rage. There were arms, many of them binding around me in vices. Then I could see black through the red. Ink dropped in all the blood.

"Gin! You son of a bitch! I'm gonna" I heaved as a hard punch plowed into my diaphragm. I hit my knees and dry heaved bile.

"Boss, what do you want to do with the body?" Vodka called out above the roar in my head.

"Drop her in a ditch somewhere outside of the city. Make sure not to leave any evidence."

Adrenaline and white hot anger flashed threw me as I tackled Gin.

I sputtered and gasped when freezing water was dumped over me. Fearful I looked around at my new surroundings. A tiny, cramped room, no windows, and just a bed I lay in. Chains rattled when I moved and I forced myself to continue to breath.

"It's a shame you had to get her involved. If she had stayed away from you … wait … I have it backwards. If you had stayed away from her she would definitely be alive right now. Was it that you loved her that much?" Gin's voice said from somewhere in the shadows and his question stunned me.

Light bounced off the blade and I barely had enough time to brace myself before it sliced threw my flesh. I clamped my jaw shut and arched my head back. It was becoming too much. It was a continuous onslaught that mixed an old pain with a new one. I whimpered as the bladed dug under each of my nails, scratch lightly along my ribs, then swipe shallow cuts along my chest. I gasped and gulped down mouthfuls of air when it disappeared.

Then I screamed and went completely rigid. The knife was plunged onto the outside of my thigh. My voice hiccupped and cracked then rose again when he pulled the blade out and stabbed through my right hand pinning it to the matrices.

"So tell me great detective, how does it feel to know this is entirely your fault?"

I closed my eyes so he couldn't see me break. The sudden caress along my scratched ribs made me shiver and open my eyes. Gin was quiet and calm and for a moment seemed to be lost in a memory. That, more than the psychotic anger and the crazed pleasure in killing, scared me more; the fact that he could be human. Mesmerized I watched his hands trail butterfly touches over my hip bones, lift then return to the inside of my uninjured thigh. I felt my breath hitch when they moved up and over my clothed member.

I looked away and nearly vomited. I jumped and tried to arch away when those icy fingers slipped into my pants.

"Don't …" I whispered.

He looked up at me and I realized I wasn't the person he was seeing. My repeated went as ignored as the first time I had said it and he began to stoke me. I choked on bile as it raced into my throat. The only thing my mind could rationalize was the humiliation everything else was to outrageous to even comprehended. I groaned in frustration and felt my face flush. In a last ditch effort I tried to hide it behind my good arm. I felt his other hand take my chin and hold it so it wasn't hidden.

I could feel it, the rising build just before the topple over. I sobbed, pride abandoned as he brought me over the edge. I heard the bed squeak in tune with my ragged breathing. I glared at him as he loomed over me.

"Kudou …" He looked so lost.

The door slammed open and I found myself paling. Vodka looked at us briefly before speaking. Whatever opinion the man had he wisely kept it to himself.

"Gin, we had a problem, Cops, a lot of them."

Gin rose and walked toward the door. "Un-cuff him and take him down to the car."

He slipped out of the door and I breathed again. I could deal with Vodka. As he unlatched my left hand and legs I swiftly pulled the blade out and hide it under my arm. He unlocked my left wrist then stared at my hand.

"Wasn't there a knife?" He asked.

Not the brightest bulb are you? "Yes there was." I said.

We jumped at the loud shouts from below us and he turned his back to me. I leaped and slammed the butt of the hilt onto the base of his skull. He crumpled and held the back of his head. I raced for the door and stepped out into the hall. Gin and I held each other's gazes from the opposite ends of the hall before I ran towards the noise. I could hear the 'pop, pop' of the silencer before I hit the floor and slid over the edge of the stairs into Mouri Kogoro.

We tumbled together before stopping at the base of the stairs. I stared wide eyed at the commotion before completely collapsing against the stairs.


"Tantei …"

Who? Who is that?

"Tantei, come on. Wake up."

I opened my eyes gingerly before focusing on KID four inches from my nose. I stared at him blankly for a moment before closing my eyes again. I slowly sat up and leaned against his arms as they helped me up. The world was still spinning and my head hurt.

"What happened?" I asked and caught the hand kerchief as it slipped off my head. I rubbed the back of my head and winced. That was a bump.

"You had a horrible panic attack. I was about to call the hospital." KID explained and knelt down in front of me. He watched my eyes before raising two fingers. I sighed and rolled my eyes.

"Two and just so you know all I have is a head ache."

"Do you have any idea what it sounded like when your head hit the pavement?" He exclaimed and latched on to my hands. "An egg. It sounded like an egg breaking."

I blinked at his shaking hands and looked up to his face. Fear was pretty apparent in his violet eyes and his voice was slightly quivering.

"I'm sorry." I mumbled stunned.

"He woke up!" I jumped and looked at 'Ran'. She ran over to us carrying a water bottle before thrusting it at KID. "Are you alright? Anything broken? What about your head? You smacked that pretty hard. I'd never seen Kaito go so pale in my life. How many fingers am I holding up?"

"Ah … Is that water for me?" I asked softly.

"Huh? Oh! Yes." She said and took the bottle from KID. "Here."

"Thank you." I unscrewed the cap and downed half of it before taking a deep breath. "I'm doing better now."

"I'm glad. You had us worried." She said.

I looked at her more seriously now that she wasn't a whirlwind. They looked similar at a distance but up close it was easier to tell the difference. Whoever this was had a wildness to her. I watched her squirm under my gaze before I softened it all around. I leaned my elbows on my knees and swung for the charm I once had.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to stare so intensely at you. It's just" I took a deep breath. "You look like some I knew."

I could feel KID's questioning gaze and stood. "Thank you, Miss …"

"Oh! I'm Nakamouri Aoko, childhood friend to this idiot." She said and elbowed KID lightly in the ribs.

I struggled to hide my shock. "You're friends with him? Interesting."

"Yeah, We've been friends since we were really little. Sometimes it amazes me." She laughed.

"I'm"

"Kudou Shinichi, The Great Detective of the East."

I rocked back onto my heels and nodded. "That's right."

"I know about some of your work. My Dad really thinks highly of you."

"Your father?"

"Hm, he's an Inspector in the robbery"

"You don't mean Nakamouri-keibu! The one that in charge of the KID task force." I exclaimed.

"Yeah?"

I wanted to laugh so badly. I guess his luck had to run out somewhere.

"What's so funny, Tantei?"

"Nothing~. I'm just amazed at how much of a small world this is." I said and smiled at him. I watched him pout and clench his fists. "Were we meeting her at the park?"

I watched the fight go out of him as he looked at Aoko then to me. "We weren't."

"Hm." I looked back to Nakamouri and stuffed my hands into my pockets.

"Since we have met and you" She started and pointed at KID. "Have no more performances to do, why don't you both come with me?"

KID shot me a worried look and I ignored it. "To where?"

She laughed and hooked an arm around mind and KID's. "To go shopping there are some things I want to get."

KID groaned loudly and I thought to the clothes I was wearing.

"That actually doesn't sound like a bad idea." I mumbled.

"Really! You want to go?"

"I have to buy some clothes." I stated and leaned back.

"Tantei, you just made the biggest mistake in your life." KID said and clamped a hand onto my shoulder.

"I can't keep going around wearing your clothes." I hissed.