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Today is the day
The worst day of my life
You're so content it hurts me
I don't know why
The cost of misery
Is at an all time high
I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight
I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know,
it should have been me
Could you be with him?
Or was it just a lie?
He doesn't catch you like I do
And you don't know why
You change your clothes and your hair
But I can't change your mind
Oh, I'm uninvited
So unrequited now
The sound of reckless laughter and things being smashed around me wasn't comforting. I looked over to see Sora dancing with some girl he probably had no feelings for whatsoever. I'd promised him before the party started that I would try and make sure he didn't do anything stupid, but hell, he was Sora. Everything he did was stupid. Ugh, I'm outta here. I had to avoid people and objects being tossed around in order to make it to the door alive.
"Roxas!" Selphie called over to me. "Will you dance wif me?" she slurred all her words. I just rolled my eyes and walked out. Since I lived right down the street from Hayner I could just go home. Go home and sleep, go home and watch TV... Anything was better than this.
I frowned as I saw Seifer walking with my best friend Naminé, walking hand in hand. A familiar pain stabbed in my chest, just where my heart was. This happened every time I saw them together. By now I realized that it happened because I was in love with her. Her hair, her eyes... Everything about Naminé Anderson made my heart beat faster then I thought was even possible. Too bad she was taken. Taken by some complete asshole that I despised. She could do so much better, why didn't she see it?
"Hey Roxas." she greeted, smiling. My heart fluttered, but I ignored it as well as I could.
"Hey."
"Leaving the party already?" she questioned. I was walking in the opposite direction of Hayner's house, so yes, it would look like that.
"Yeah, I wasn't having a good time."
"Awe, cheer up." She teased. "Why don't you go hang out with Olette? She said she had nothing to do tonight."
"Yeah man, call up your girlfriend." Seifer said, glaring at me harshly. I knew that he knew I liked Naminé, I didn't know how, but I knew he did.
"Maybe I will." I said. "Actually, yes, I'll invite her to the party." I smiled sarcastically at Seifer, who just kept glaring.
"Alright, see you later Rox." Naminé brushed her hand over my shoulder as she passed me, sending tingles down my spine. I looked back at her and Seifer walking off together, still holding hands, and clenched my fists into balls. I was so jealous of him it was insane. I don't even think he knew that he was dating the most amazing girl in the world. Seifer was constantly reminding me that I had a girlfriend, and though I wished it weren't true, he was right. Olette and I had been dating since the age of thirteen. But I didn't like her, and I didn't know whether she liked me or not.
We were only dating because out parents pretty much made us. We had no choice; it was an arranged marriage. I cringed thinking of seeing Olette walking down the aisle. Its that that Olette wasn't pretty, actually, I'm sure there are a million guys that would kill to date a girl like her. She was beautiful, with long brown hair and bright green eyes, but I wasn't in love with her... She wasn't Naminé. She wasn't the little girl I had known my entire life that had grown up into a beautiful woman. She was the girl that my parents had forced me to date when I was thirteen years old because they didn't want to risk me falling for anybody else. Well, by that time they were too late. I had been in love with Naminé for as long as I could remember. Even as children, she was all I could think about...
My daily routine was to get up, call Naminé, hang out with Naminé, then go home and talk to Naminé on the phone. But then school came along and things changed a bit, but we were still best friends. But when high school rolled around things changed a lot. Like, for instance, in grade ten Seifer asked out Naminé, and for whatever sick, twisted reason she said yes. And then more people started to like her and she became popular. Thankfully, she still hung out with me, we were still best friends, and I still loved her more than anything.
I decided to call Olette, though. Maybe being with my girlfriend would make Naminé jealous or something like that... Well, I didn't actually believe that would happen, but I did hope. "Hey, Olette?" I said into my cell phone.
"Hey Roxas!" she exclaimed into the phone, obviously happy that I had called her.
"Are you busy?"
"No, of course not. Why, do you want to hang out?"
"Yeah, I was actually wondering if you wanted to come check out Hayner's party."
"I'll be over in a few."
Olette lived just around the corner from Hayner. We all lived roughly in the same area, along with Pence. Olette, Pence, Hayner, and I used to be best friends, but we grew apart. By that I mean we didn't hang out, just the four of us. We still were friends, and still did talk sometimes. When grade eleven hit... we all changed. Especially Hayner, who turned into a party crazed drunk. I didn't really mind that too much, since my current best friend (best guy friend, actually) Sora was almost the same. Except Sora was more of the 'hook up with every girl in school' kind of thing. Okay... Every girl would be an exaggeration, but sometimes it seemed that way. He was a player, who also got drunk a lot. Hayner didn't have the same charm around girls that Sora had, so he wasn't as popular with them.
"Hey." I heard Olette's voice chime from behind me. I turned, and she was standing there, wearing a pair of jeans and a t-shirt.
"Hey." I took her hand and lead her into the party. Olette didn't party much, and she didn't drink. She wasn't slutty like Selphie, she was more like Kairi, who studied a lot and cared about grades, but still managed to look good at the same time.
"Whoa, look who's here!" Hayner's voice sounded. I looked up at him, never letting go of Olette's hand. She hated when we got separated at parties. Hayner wasn't wearing a shirt and was standing on the couch, chugging cups of beer. This wasn't an unusual sight. "Hey, ebryone!" he slurred. "Woxas bot Letter to the partaaay!" he tripped over his own feet trying to jump down from the couch and tell flat on his face, a cup of beer flying and landing on Selphie. Guys were 'whooting' at her.
"Come on, lets go." I whispered into Olette's ear, pulling her towards the exit. Once we were finally outside, we could actually hear each other over the music.
"Hayner has changed to much." she sighed.
"I know. He's changed for the worse, I'll say."
"Agreed."
"Do you wanna go back in?" I offered.
"Maybe later. Lets just star gaze; its such a beautiful night." she let go of my hand and walked over to the lawn, and lay down on the damp grass. Without a word, I joined her. The ground was cold and wet, but I ignored it. The stars were spread across the sky like a million little white dots on an endless black canvas. I loved the stars; that was one of the few things Olette and I actually had in common. "Roxas?" she asked.
"Yes?"
"If our parents weren't making us, would you still date me?"
I didn't know what to say. I knew in my heart that the answer was no, I wouldn't date her, but I couldn't tell her that. It would hurt her feelings, and though I didn't like her, I still did care for her. "Well, I guess so."
"Hmm." I starred over at her. Her eyes were transfixed on the sky, and mine were on her. If Olette had asked 'would you still date me if you weren't in love with Naminé?' when I would have been able to answer easily. Yes, I would. If Naminé wasn't the girl for me, Olette would be, which was confusing, but it somewhat made sense in my mind.
Naminé and I were meant to be; someday I knew that she would realize this. Well, at least I hoped. If, for whatever reason, I decided to get over Naminé, I think I could have learned to love Olette.
"You can go inside if you want to." Olette said.
"No, I wouldn't leave you laying on Hayner's front lawn like this." I laughed. "People would think you passed out drunk."
She smiled. "Good point." her face fell, and she looked deep in thought. "I just... I just don't want you to be out here, not having fun, all because of me."
I sat up and looked down at her. "This is relaxing. I'd rather be out here than in there, really." she sat up so she was at my eye level.
"Roxas, I--"
"Hey guys." we were cut off by Naminé, walking up to us, alone.
"Hey Naminé." I smiled, happy to see her. I was always happy to see her.
"I think I'm gonna go." Olette said. "Roxas, call me tomorrow..." with that she stood up and walked down the street, not even leaving me time to say goodbye. I frowned in confusion. There must have been something on Olette's mind, she never acted like that.
"So, why aren't you inside?" Naminé asked.
I looked at her, then picked myself up to my feet. "As you already know; parties aren't my thing."
"Same here." she sighed. "I wasn't having fun in there at all. Seifer is probably either looking for me or too drunk to even remember who I am."
"He's an asshole." I said flatly.
She laughed. "I know, Roxas, you've told me a million times."
I shrugged. "What can I say, I'm a brutally honest person."
"Sometimes." she corrected.
"Right."
"Naminé?" Seifer's voice was heard. I looked down at my feet, not wanting to meet her eyes. She would only see the hurt in them.
"I uh, I better go." she said awkwardly.
"Yeah, of course." I stammered. "I'm gonna go home soon anyways... I'll talk to you later."
I couldn't read her expression. It was concerned, hurt, worried, something like that. "Bye." she said quietly before returning to her stupid boyfriend.
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