Love are Lies
~Rachael Wang
Chapter 3: Our Promise
I felt what no other elementary school student felt. The love and maturity of our relationship, in my opinion, felt no different than that of a young high school couple.
AND, I'm not talking about rated R things okay, so don't get the wrong idea.
And it's been several months since we've started dating too. And now, I feel more grown up.
"Damian," I smiled, "How was practice today?"
"It's alright. Why do you always ask when you already know the answer?"
"Because…" I grinned.
I could feel the beauty in our peaceful relationship. It was unexpectedly wonderful. We were playful, loving, caring and maybe a little serious every few times too.
"Lucy."
"Hm?"
"You know. Everyday, you seem to get…"
"Get what?" I asked.
"Prettier." He responded. "You know that right…?"
My face was a hot through the cold breeze, but my heart was beating in happiness. When I am told I'm pretty, I feel so much more confident to be around him because I seem to be slowly, advancing to his high standards.
"Thanks. You're not too bad yourself."
"Duh. I'm the best looking guy around." He bragged.
Conveniently, a way hotter looking guy was walking around near us.
"What about that guy?" I pointed to him.
Damian's mouth was shut in embarrassment. He obviously knew when he was defeated by others, although its not quite occasional.
"You're such an idiot, eyeing another guy while you're walking with your boyfriend." He grumbled.
"You're the one showing off. You asked for it." I laughed.
"Well…" he paused.
And we didn't talk anymore after that. Basically we just walked home happily, holding hands and enjoying every minute of our time together.
Well that was my opinion. I wanted to spend every moment I possibly can with Damian since he won't be living till 19 or 20. Just thinking about it aches.
"Hey," he finally said, "What's with that face?"
"N- Nothing." Just the feeling of his life ending at such a young age really hurts me in so many ways. It even felt physical. The pain just won't leave.
"Doesn't seem like nothing." He stopped and I was pulled back.
Damian's eyes twinkled into mine and I gulped in defeat. However, not long ago I was told that Damian doesn't know he's going to die yet. I couldn't tell him, not now or ever. It would change his life completely and he will not live a day like his normal self.
"It's nothing, stop being so paranoid." I shoved him away.
I lied to him and the guilt really paralyzed my body. But I could not do this to someone who's important to me.
Each day made me think its only one day less when he will pass away.
And I didn't want that.
I want him by my side so badly… it makes me depressed.
Damian. Damian. Damian. Why is it so hard to let you go?
Lucy.
I know my name, why is it even ringing in my head?
Lucy.
"Hey," I was back in reality. "What are you doing Lucy, it's your house."
"Oh." I shook my head slightly, "Yeah. I'll see you tomorrow."
I opened my old, creaking gate and slowly turned away. I missed him every minute, even every second he wasn't there.
"Lucy." He said.
I turned away immediately with no hesitation.
"Yeah?"
"You seem… a little off today. Don't be afraid to tell me anything." He smiled. "I'm always there for you. Forever."
Forever?! I really wish that was true… please let it be forever.
"Of course." I lied.
As a turned around to walk back to the house, he leaned over and pulled my arm.
My head swung around and my face was so close to his, I can feel a strong pulse of his sweet breath.
"We've never…" he commented, "kissed."
How can he be so calm at a moment like this? I was already shaking and nervous from the words that flowed out of his mouth.
His smooth hair brushed through mine and I could feel we were slowly moving closer, without a doubt.
My eyes closed right after his did and we leaned the closest we can get and kissed in this cold afternoon. My very first kiss… with Damian. What a dream.
"I'll see you tomorrow," he said collectedly. He was sensational and so cool.
As I was in a daze, it just snapped into my head.
"Damian," I said, "Promise me something."
"What?"
"Finish college with me when your 21 so we can become astronauts."
He laughed, "You think I'll run off in high school and skip college?"
No, but when you're 21 I will know you're still alive with me to fulfill you're dream. "Who knows." I smiled despite what I'm saying in my mind.
"I promise."
And that's when all my optimism spread throughout me and it personally said that he should live to fulfill his dream and finish college with me happily.
"You promised me! Remember!" I shouted while he was halfway down the block.
"I promise!"
