Previously...

'Look Rosalie, no offence but Edward is my history, I have a great life and I'm famous and a vampire now. If supposedly you left me for me to have a normal life it didn't work out to well did it. Anyway my last few months of being human were full of emptiness and pain because of YOU leaving' I got up and ran away leaving her speechless.

Now

Edwards Point of View

Rosalie had been gone for awhile and when she finally did come back she came back alone. She looked defeated and it took allot to get her that way. She shook her head. And again I died. She still hated me; she still would never love me like I loved her. That day when I left her I made the worst mistake of my life. She loved me so much back 100 years ago but then I went and ruined it so she wouldn't get hurt. And where did that get her a vampire. A vampire turned my Victoria. I still didn't know what happened to Victoria but I would kill her for doing that to my Bella. NO she wasn't my Bella, oh how I wanted her to be again. I wanted her in my arms and I wanted her forgiveness.

I felt dry sobs build there way up through my throat and threaten to escape. Derik and Eric told us to leave I think I was to busy concentrating on not letting the sobs escape free. Well that was until I could get alone somewhere but I didn't think I could get that far.

I got up distantly and headed for the car but then I changed my mind and dashed of for the forest. I heard my family call my name but I didn't respond all I wanted was my Bella. Only she could make me whole again.

I was about in the middle of the woods before I collapsed and let the sobs engulf me. I was there and I couldn't stop it was all too much I wanted no I needed Bella. I was so stupid to leave her. She loved me back then and I would do anything for her and she would do anything for me. But now I still would do anything for her but she would not do anything for me.

I felt rain begin land on me through the thin covering of trees but I didn't care. I couldn't move I couldn't sense anything around me. Nothing.

'Edward' heard one voice. The only voice I would respond to. Bella's voice.

'Bella' I whimpered, was it her or had I gone so crazy I could hear her voice. Crazy obviously, I knew she would not talk to be. She wouldn't even let me explain to her today she told me to shut it.

'Why are you on the floor?' she asked with so much disgust for me in her voice it might actually be her. I heard no more from her but my sobs grew louder and louder as I grew in more and more pain.

I heard distant voices around me, voices of my family. I felt myself being lifted of the ground. It sounded like Emmett as his voice was the closest.

Although I did hear Alice yelling at me but I couldn't listen all I could hear was my sobs. I couldn't stop, they wouldn't stop I was in to much pain to stop them.

Bella's Point Of View

Ring, Ring went my phone. I never bothered to look at the caller ID anymore as I knew voices. If it was an unknown number well then hung up on them or let the sales person ramble on thinking you're listening its actually quite fun when you're bored.

'Hello' I said waiting for the voice on the other end to tell me who it was.

'Hi Bella its Alice, thanks for telling us where Edward was but please we need your help.' Alice said desperately into the phone.

'What Alice, it depends on what it is.' I said, dreading what was to come next.

'Bella its Edward please just come and let him explain himself he hasn't stopped sobbing since you rang us and he was sobbing goodness how long before that. He won't listen to us and he won't respond. Just lease come and talk to him, just let him explain.' She said in a hurry. 'Please just do it for me.'

'Fine' I said but I made it clear I didn't want to. 'I will do it for you but that is It.' said making it clear that's the only reason.

I could hear the sobbing from half way up the road to there house. I didn't know what I would say to him and what I would do. Before I hung up the phone Alice made me promise I wouldn't harm him and I had to try and be nice. She stated that I just had to try and be nice.

I walked up the steps and Alice already had the door open. She gripped my hand and ran me up the stairs to his room. She opened the door and Edward was on his bed dirty, he was covered in mud and leaves and he was wet from the rain. His room was black and gothic and there was a picture of me on his bed side cabinet. Alice left us to it and the rest of the family went hunting just out of hearing range Alice told me. Alice followed on behind them.

I cleared m throat and no surprises Edward must have recognized my voice because he looked up.

'Bella' was all he could say as another sob took over him.

'Look' I said getting slightly annoyed with having to be here 'Shut up your sobbing and tell me what you want to say. Alice said I had to do it for her so go for it. I don't want to be here so I will leave if you don't start talking now.'

'Bella I didn't want to leave but I had to you could of got hurt by any of us at any time. That thing with Jasper could have killed you. Then I pushed you into a pile of crystal plates making the situation worse. It was my fault that you got hurt even more than one paper cut. But I'm sorry because the plan didn't work. You're a vampire now changed by Victoria. I'm sorry please just believe me. That day in the woods I lied and you believed it so easily.'

'Well, nice room you got here, I love the colour black to seems we have one thing in common and oh yeah I killed Victoria' Then I stalked out the room. It was different coming from him. When it came from Rosalie it seemed more fake but when he said it and you looked around the room you could honestly see there had been much depression.

I strutted out the door and ran, the feeling of wind made me feel free it made me forget all my problems. I was happy and famous I had a family and I was still happy. But then they came and ruined it all. I ran straight back to my house and jumped in the couch.

'Bella where have you been, you were here and then you got a phone all and just sped of' Eric said right by my side.

'Right yeah, Alice made me talk to Edward well not talk as such just let him explain. And he explained and I said, well nice room you got here, I like the colour black to looks like we do have something in common and oh yeah I killed Victoria and then I walked out and went for a run' I said.

'Way to go' Derik said high fiving me. 'Oh and Alyssa is going to be back soon.' Oh Alyssa was our other band member she had an amazing voice. At the moment she was visiting Daniel who was her blood cousin but he already had a coven when he changed. He went missing and one day she was out looking for him about a year later, she never stopped, and she ran in to a lion and it almost killed her but an older member of his coven saved her and changed her. Derik and Alyssa were really close; I wouldn't be surprised if anything happened to them one day. Alyssa will be back just in time for our next concert.

Days later-she has not spoken to the Cullen's and its the day of her next concert.

'Come on Alyssa its time to get this show on the road.' I said through the door of our dressing room. I was wearing black boots and a dark blue dress with a pearl necklace. At last Alyssa came out of the dressing room wearing a pink dress over boots with a pearl necklace. Me and Alyssa liked to have the same look on stage but just in different colours.

We met Eric and Derik and we went on stage. The crowd cheered for us. They stated cheering our band name, Bitter Rose.

'Hey guys we are bitter rose and we are gonna sing you away with our new son white horse.' Alyssa yelled managing to get her voice to carry over the cheers. I looked around the crowd and who did I see Alice. She looked confused at Alyssa, oh right of coarse they hadn't met her yet we didn't even mention her. Why did we have to it was our lives and they weren't really in it anymore.

I started to sing.

Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you

Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known

I'm not a princess, this aint a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This aint Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know

I'm not a princess, this aint a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell

This aint Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around

And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry

Cause I'm not your princess, this aint a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rear-view mirror disappearing now

And its too late for you and your white horse
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now

Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now

By the end of that song Alice was staring right at me. She wished I hadn't sung that song because I wrote it a couple of nights ago. She could tell the meaning behind it. It was too late for Edward to catch me now.

'Thank you, thank you'

The rest of the night went b y in a blur, it looked like Alice wanted to speak to me after that first song.

Thank you to all those who have been reading my story and have again added it to favourite stories and also a thank you to people who have added me to their favourite authors. I don't think I'm a very good writer but what do i know. I'm trying to update quickly for those of you who have read my story from the start. I hope you like it. The hate of Edward is beginning to where of me so that might mean a different ending to the story than intended but still.

Oh and i forgot to say none of the songs in my fan fiction are mine but some might be later on i don't know.

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The end of the story is quite far away i think at the moment but can you guys please, please, please tell me in a review if you think she should forgive Edward or still hate him and find someone else.

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