I guess some of you are pretty bored of my story by now. Well, isn't the point to build up on a story and give it plots and make the story seem believable even if it is fiction? So far, I'm building to the point, so bare with me the long wait...at least you don't have write it!
CH3
Edgar wasn't what you would call a happy camper. Not only was he mad about nearly dying for the Titans, which he didn't do it on purpose, but the fact he is at the Titans mercy for taking him in and healing him back. He hated the idea of relying on others for protection and shelter. Today, Edgar not only felt that way, but he scorned the thought of being tested by doctors which what was happening to him right now. All of this was happening in the Titan tower, in the room which Edgar had woken up in…
The same doctor that treated Raven after her return from the Eternals was treating her brother, and testing that was as going well. The doctor did the usual routine, checking reflexes on the legs, heart rates, blood pressure, seeing if the eye recedes to light and all that. But the doctor had to check the wounds and infections all over Edgar's body seeing they were treated well.
Raven was in the same room, watching the doctor poke and probe Edgar. As her brother sat on the bed, shirtless, she was seeing all the bandages removes and looking at the massive sword wounds across his chest. She almost could picture Edgar lying on the asphalt, in a bloody mess at the hands of the Eternals. Raven still couldn't believe he survived it all, not only Edgar fought the Eternals to a standstill which the Titans couldn't do before, but made them fear him.
This wasn't the case before. Raven thought her twin brother, Edgar as she knows him by, was a soldier in the Azarathian army fighting Trigon's mortal worshipers in a gigantic civil war that consumed her world. Three years ago Raven heard Edgar was killed. Ever since, she lived in a world full of darkness and loneliness, until after the Eternals attack, a person called Edgar came from Azarath with a message for her that eventually Edgar turned out to be Edgar.
Despite the truth, Raven couldn't believe she was looking at her brother. After all this time, he was alive and he didn't tell her. She doesn't know Edgar's reasons for neglecting to tell her, but what ever his reasons, Raven was assured Edgar had good reasons…
"Well, Mr. Roth," the doctor said after finishing his inspection on Edgar, which he was putting back on his shirt. "You seem better since I last saw when your wounds became infected a while back, now they seem to be healing quite fine."
"That's fine, except that they'll become scars." Edgar added bleakly.
The doctor nodded. "True, you may never want to go to a public beach unless you want people wondering what you went through. Anyway, I would suggest you let the wounds heal and avoid any body stress, like extreme exercising and hero work." Edgar agreed while the doctor collected his equipment. "That's good Mr. Roth."
As the doctor was leaving, he stopped by Raven. "If anything should go wrong contact me." He said to her as he left the room.
For a moment there was a strange silence happening between Raven and Edgar. Only signs that there was life were when Edgar moved off the bed and walking to the window in the room. It was strange. Where to begin? How do you pick up a shattered life after three years in the darkness? First of all how do you explain it?
Finally, the silence was shattered… "You have so many questions but nowhere to begin." Edgar said while he still was looking out the window.
"Yes I do Edgar." Raven said. "Why did you lie about being dead? Why did you ever send me a letter telling me you were alive?" Raven could feel the anger inside her grow as she felt bitterness and pain as she looked at her twin. The lying deceiving brother!
"To clarify, Rachel I didn't do it on purpose." Edgar said turning to Raven. "What I told you about me getting shot in the back was true, except the concept of being a coward."
"Oh, really? Then why did they say you died?" Raven said, she could no longer hold back her anger. She felt like a volcano ready to explode. Edgar seemed unfazed as he kept his wits and his cool. Unlike Raven, Edgar has more control over his emotions. Unlike his sister, Edgar actually can express his motion more freely. But he has a habit to show none, which he was doing to Raven.
"Some of the soldiers I led saw me get shot, when they saw me fall wounded they ran back to base and said I was dead." Edgar said keeping his emotions from showing. "Another reason Rachel was that I was reported missing until those men told them my fate. Two days later, some thieves looking for something to sell off dead men where I was, found that I was alive. Even though the thieves were thieves they still reported me in a medical field." Raven raised her eyebrow like she did when she thought something was suspicious, even though Edgar was her twin brother she found this story hard to believe.
"Then why didn't you ever contact me?" She said.
Edgar raised his eyebrow similar to what Raven did. "Rachel, I was unconscious for days. When I came too, I was sick with fever which nearly killed me. Then there were infections from the wound and more sickness." By the way Edgar's words came out like he was telling a story. "By the time I was well enough for duty, it had been months and when I heard that they already sent you my death reports, I couldn't do a thing about it."
"Still, that doesn't explain why you didn't tell me." Raven said.
"You are one stubborn bitch." Edgar muttered while Raven smiled like she was admitting she was one. "Probably why is because I didn't want to give you false hope. First you hear I was dead. You weep and mourn. Then you know I was alive. Next you are giving hope that all is well. Finally you get another letter stating I was killed, this time for real. What do you do? Your life is shattered and you go into a deep depression that leads to an uncertain future. You think I wanted that for you? Give you hope that I may come out of the war alive only to have it blow up in your face? If I died after the fact that you already know I was dead before that probably saved you more grief than you realize."
"That doesn't mean that you lied to me for three years." Raven said as she marched towards Edgar. She was only inches away from him, but he held his ground as he saw the fury in her eyes. "I did weep for you and I did go into a depression. All this time you lived? I suffered from deep loneliness and you were playing soldier?"
"Don't give me that guilty feeling. You didn't think I suffered? You don't know the feeling while my fellow comrades got gifts from their home while I sat in mud, trying to imagine what you're doing without knowing how you feel? I was lonelier than you know." Edgar felt his own anger swelling up in his veins. He didn't like to be questioned and insulted for his deeds he thought were good.
"Then why did you do it?" Raven said while her anger swelled up into bitter tears.
"Answer me this, once you were done mourning for me did you feel relief?" Edgar asked.
"What do you mean?"
"Did you or did you not feel relief that you no longer had to worry about me?"
Raven actually never thought of it. After she heard, she felt nothing more. She no longer cried to herself while the Titans had no clue that her life was shattered, it was like they never heard the crash. When she looked back, she recalled nothing. No more mourning, no more pain…she felt hollow. Since then she must've felt…relieved. No longer had she have to worry about the war, no longer caring if millions of her own people died, she no more cared about Azarath. The only thing she had there she felt for, was dead…
"Yes," Raven finally answered.
"Then I too didn't have to linger any thought about you. I knew you could take care of yourself. But I felt relief that I no longer had to worry about you worrying about me. I could just do my work, if I die so what. You shoved me in the back of your memory. Like you ever cared." Edgar's word felt like multiple slash wounds on Raven's personality. Now she felt guilty about forgetting him.
Right then, Raven went and hugged Edgar. She gripped him hard as she ever did. Edgar was surprised by the move, but he gently hugged his sister. Despite this talk, they felt happy. After war and bitter fighting both on Azarath and Earth, the Roth twins couldn't help but feel whole again. It was like seeing your favorite toy after many years after going on with your life. You may have left it behind and forgotten about it, but when you saw it…memories flashed back when you had so much joy that you couldn't help but feel the same passion as you did when you first played with it.
They didn't let go for sometime, each of them were remembering those good times. Where they laughed together, played with each other and were happy. They were there for each other when one of them was hurt to comfort and to heal. Raven and Edgar were friends as well as siblings and couldn't help but feel like themselves again, before war and despair.
Beast Boy was watching Robin in the living along with the entire Titan team and Doom Patrol, watching Robin lecturing on some new tactics he worked on to battle against the Eternals. Beast Boy wasn't listening, like he ever did when it matters. His thoughts were on Raven. She was given leave to see watch the doctor examination Edgar. But a while ago, the doctor left. What was she doing now?
"Beast Boy, pay attention!" Robin shouted. Beast Boy flinched when he didn't realize he was being called upon.
"Sorry, Rob. Day dreaming." Beast Boy replied innocently.
"Day dream on Raven's watch, not mine. As I was saying, if we attack the Eternals on multiple fronts and I mean attack them at the same time but at different locations we may have the advantage of beating them." Robin said. "Any questions?"
Jinx raised her hand, "Why don't we use Edgar to fight? I mean he fought them to a standstill, why not use him?" that got most the Titans to agree with her.
"If you didn't notice, he hates us. The only reason Edgar fought the Eternals was because they were going to kill Raven. Besides, I won't use a man that is willing to kill others." Robin replied.
Jinx persisted, "Still why not? The Eternals tried to kill you, why aren't you willing to do the same?"
"Because that was how I was trained. Killing is a last measure and Edgar is willing to use that to accomplish what ever he wants. I not like that. And that's how we should be." Robin said with most confidence he had to show he was serious
Finally Jinx sighed a martyr's sigh. "We are all going to die." She said.
"Anything else that doesn't conclude using Raven's brother or have I made myself clear?" No one raised their hands our spoke out. "No? That's it, were done." Robin ended as the Titans began to leave the room. Everybody left except Robin and Beast Boy.
"Jinx has a point. The Eternals are willing to kill us all, why not meet them at their own level?" Beast Boy asked.
"I won't become my enemies. I've sworn that I'll never use my skills to take a life. I don't want to put the Titans to that level either." Robin said. He remembered the training with a certain bat. Recalled the revenge he wanted after his parents were killed, but after that training he no longer felt compelled to take his enemies life, but to save them from themselves.
"Are willing to die for what ever you believe in, man?" Beast Boy asked. "I admit I have no heart to kill, man, but in these times it seems like an optional choose. Edgar had the choose between letting them kill us or kill them to stop them. I know it sounds like a horrible idea, but Robin you have to realize that sometimes taking a life for the greater good is more important than ones ideals."
"Since when did you become so full of advice?" Robin asked.
"Since I loved Raven." Beast Boy said, they both laughed.
"Maybe your right. Till that time comes, it is not an option." Robin said turning to leave. "Thanks for the advice anyway." He then left the room while Beast Boy thought if he would put his own advice to the test sooner or later…
While Robin was heading for his room, thinking of what Beast Boy said, he didn't realize Edgar was heading in his direction. Accidently both ran into each other. When Robin turned to apologize, he instead stared into very suspicious menacing eyes that reminded him of Raven's but crueler…
"I suspected you Titans to be dumb, but blind? Only proves Rachel is hanging around a bunch of stupid blind people in costumes." Edgar said caring not if his scorn for the Titans was heard inside the entire tower.
"I'm sorry." Robin said. "I have no clue why you hate us so much Edgar, but it doesn't give you reason to insult us all the time. We do great thing for people. I can't see why that's insulting to you."
"You think by wearing a mask and a uniform proves to others that is what it takes to do a great thing, that's insulting!" Edgar said. "I have lived along side soldiers who did great things without the rewards of fame or wealth. Most of them died for what ever reason they wanted. They died for the greater good, and I didn't see them praised as heroes as hundreds of thousands died to stop evil. You Titans think that beating up a few guys who care only for themselves makes you one? No, anyone can do great thing for others, but it is their sacrifice for what ever they believed in that makes them heroes."
"Do consider yourself one then?" Robin asked.
"I stood with giants; I fought along side men and women who gave the ultimate sacrifice for a cause they so dearly believed in. I was only part of it, I considered them heroes while you Titans give them a bad name." Edgar said. No longer carrying for Robin, Edgar walked away leaving Robin with more things to ponder than he had when he woke up this morning….
(Review please, I still accept constructive criticism. Things should start heating up soon...CH4 coming in...)
